Red dust kills beauty

The Hermit VII

(Note: Xiaobai/A Ning in this chapter, please be careful if you mind.)

"So it's never been? It's—you're so old! I thought, at least—"

Xiaobai shook his head.

"Cough-cough-cough-cough-god, don't you even... use your hands?"

Xiao Bai opened his eyes wide in surprise, and wrote on the paper: "Can you still use your hands???"

"Then, how do you usually calm down?"

Xiao Bai blinked, as if he finally realized what he was talking about, his face suddenly flushed red.He lowered his head in embarrassment and was at a loss for a while before writing a line with his red fingers: "Wait for it to pass by itself."

"...Even if it's the susceptible period?"

Xiaobai looked like he wanted to suffocate himself in his collar; he nodded slightly.

"........."

"........."

The above embarrassing conversation happened when Xiaobai was carried back to the hotel room by the woman again, and after waking up, he forced him to ask about the other party's night activities.

The woman—let's call her A Ning—stared at Fu Baixue in his youth, and after being shocked, a little secret excitement arose in his heart—a sinful excitement.

She tried her best to calm herself down and persuaded herself not to make such a fuss.

"Well, this is my negligence. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have thought about avoiding risks before. I didn't tell you this."

Xiaobai thought her so-called risk avoidance was a difference between men and women, and nodded to express her understanding, but Ah Ning knew it was not.

Thinking about it carefully, she really didn't treat the other two cubs properly with the young Fu Baixue.Before the memory was restored, it was because of a bad mental state. After the memory was restored, even though he knew that he had not grown into the person in the memory, he would subconsciously treat him as another person.

In her conception, Xiaobai will definitely be able to handle these private issues well, and she doesn't need to ask at all - because she has never asked how Fu Baixue has dealt with the susceptible period for so many years.

This is a very strange thing.She can kiss Zhaoyao's forehead without any scruples and hold him in her arms. After having a physical relationship with the witch merchant, she can still take care of him like a father, but when it comes to Fu Baixue, she just-she just can't.

It's like a gate, as long as it is opened a little, the monstrous waves that are blocked outside will collapse them in an instant.

But now, this young Fu Baixue, this young man who has been entangled with her for three lifetimes, repeatedly side by side and missed the scene, is standing in front of her, looking at her with uneasy but trusting wet eyes.Aning swallowed secretly, she couldn't help it - she couldn't be indifferent.

She asked tentatively: "Then...do you know it now? Need, I mean-do you need me to teach you?"

Xiaobai never dreamed that things would develop like this.

He is born with weak pheromone aggressiveness, even if he tries hard to perceive it, the smell is like the pine forest on the snowy mountain, or the half of the soil under the sun, which is very faint.To put it bluntly, it's the kind of A that can't smell, and with the influence of the laboratory back then, as long as he takes inhibitors regularly, he can even pretend to be B directly, but that doesn't mean he doesn't have those desires.

He is healthy and he has a susceptible period.

His teacher has always been very mysterious, and Xiaobai still doesn't know what her second gender is—in short, he is definitely not an Alpha, but he is a real Alpha.So many things became embarrassing. He didn't want the other party to feel offended, so he never had the nerve to ask for the inhibitor, and his big-hearted instructor really forgot to give it to him.

But it's not a big problem, Xiaobai is very used to suppressing himself.When he was in the research institute, whenever Alpha reached the susceptible period, he would consciously report to the guards and apply for the use of high-pressure water guns.When you stand naked in front of others and are washed in ice water like a beast for half an hour, even if it is a special time, you don’t have the energy to think about it—then the important thing is to pray that you don’t get a fever and pneumonia.

Those few years in the research institute almost devastated him, and he didn't get rid of many problems even after he left there. He clasped his two hands in front of his chest, because his body was not his, it was a precious material in the laboratory, and he was not qualified to handle it—in his concept, his body was not his now, but Belonging to his teacher, he is still not qualified to touch.

Aning's teachings have always been very serious, and he has never told him about this matter, so he really doesn't know anything other than the kind of coitus in the laboratory that is specially arranged for the purpose of collecting samples and is no different from livestock. , you can also get it out by hand.

But Alpha's nature made him understand what to do the moment he heard Aning's words. When he was thinking about whether he should hide in the bathroom for a while and try it, the woman's "teach you" really shocked him. Distracted.

As a male Alpha, the strong side of the gender, he should reject her at this time, and then ask for the other party's permission to deal with his body, and help him type it out, not—not—

Xiao Bai felt that the breath he exhaled was hot, he didn't dare to look at the woman at all, he just lowered his head in embarrassment, and nodded anxiously with his red neck.

He was very afraid of being discovered by a woman... When he found out that he already knew how to do it, he didn't need her guidance at all, and he was even more afraid that she would hate him because of it.

Even though everything in the research institute tore his cognition to pieces, he still instinctively felt that this matter was actually a shame.

"..." After he nodded, the woman didn't speak for a long time.It seemed that she herself was also surprised by his nodding, as if she didn't report her expectations at all just now, but she just talked quickly, and now she regretted it.

Ah Ning was indeed just having fun for a while. In her memory, she had already been rejected countless times by that impregnable Fu Baixue.The other party was a Buddha who could gently persuade her to treat her Alpha better after she had slept with a witch merchant. She never expected that Xiao Bai would nod.

This cognition made her dazed for a moment, her heart ached as if tightly clenched by a hand, every time Xiaobai showed her an unabashed and expectant look, she couldn't help but think about it. , Why did they come to that step in the end.

The long silence made Xiao Bai's heart sink, he still lowered his head, but the redness that had spread to his fingertips had faded away, he wished he could go back to an hour ago and strangle the nodding self.He was very afraid that the woman would see and see those difficult nights, his unclean thoughts about her, and he was even more afraid that the woman would hate him.

Just when he was thinking about whether to escape into his bedroom, the woman suddenly smiled.

She raised her hand and rubbed the tip of her nose, which is a small gesture she likes to use to relieve embarrassment: "I really didn't expect you to—but it's okay."

She took his arm, led him into her bedroom, and pushed him onto the soft bed.

Xiao Bai obediently fell down, he was so nervous, his heart was pounding, his two hands that didn't know where to put them clenched into fists and then loosened, and then tightly grasped the bed sheet under him.He was indescribably afraid, but he also had indescribably anticipation. Before that, he hadn't even realized that he was looking forward to this so much, and his whole body ached with longing.

………………

Xiaobai could hardly breathe, he clenched his teeth tightly, and squeezed her wrist in a disobedient way, the young man's beautiful and tight back stretched and loosened on the dark bed sheet, like a fully charged bow, the woman even Had to hold him against the head of the bed to keep him from bouncing up like a frightened fawn.

He looked - terrified, he had never felt this kind of feeling before, no matter how much he thought about it, it was better to feel it himself, at this moment, Ah Ning began to feel lucky that he helped him, otherwise with Fu Baixue like this, It's hard to say if he'll screw it up or not.

But his appearance...is too...

Ah Ning didn't dare to look at it too much, he just regarded himself as a piece of wood.

"Xiaobai, close your eyes." Her voice tightened, her slender and white arms wrapped around him, covering his eyes, "This is just—this is just, a guide."

………………

After wiping her mouth nonchalantly, she suddenly yelled in her heart that it was not good. When she looked up, she saw Xiao Bai staring at her with a kind of unspeakable eyes.

It's unreserved obsession and trust, and more, such as satisfaction, happiness, gratitude...all positive descriptions.

This kind of look is not unfamiliar to Aning, and the future Fu Baixue will look at her like this, but it will never be so unrestrained, never so hot, so reckless—he puts the part of Chao Yue into his body and conveys it to her. Hers, only so lightly, is a look at each other when they look at each other, or a glance when they miss each other.

Ah Ning's heart hurts as if being clenched, she can't see his eyes.She couldn't see it before, but after so much happened and understood everything, she couldn't see it even more.

So when Xiaobai turned over tentatively and covered his body tremblingly, Ah Ning didn't break free.

She had a hunch that if Xiaobai was rejected at this time, the first attempt he mustered up the courage to take in so many years, then he would probably be crushed directly.

Although she knew that she would live up to this deep affection, she still wanted Xiaobai to last a little longer with that pure sense of trust.

Trust is a very precious quality, she has lost it long ago, but I hope Xiaobai can still have it.

She nodded when Xiaobai asked her in a low voice if she could, and suddenly burst into laughter, saying without beginning or end: "Xiaobai, you have to keep something as a souvenir... I am a good person now." She laughed Cough, the voice was indistinct, "Fuck, it's so funny, Xiaoshang will probably go crazy if he finds out... But it doesn't matter, we broke up anyway, and I can't go back."

Xiao Bai didn't understand what she said behind her. In fact, he could hardly find the north now. He was dizzy and felt hot. He was going crazy. The whole world was turned upside down. Schools of fish are swimming in the blue sky, everything is so grotesque, there are only blurred blocks of color left in front of my eyes.

When being sent lightly into the clouds, Xiaobai was in a trance, and was suddenly placed in a series of unfamiliar scenes.Some are his face, some are women's, and there is a city that looks like Yanbei but is much better than Yanbei, and there is a young man who is in shape, a silver wolf who looks like a little white wolf who has grown up , and many, many more...

They flashed so fast, before Xiaobai realized what it was, he felt himself being pushed away suddenly, the woman's face changed drastically, she pinched his shoulder, and asked sharply, "What did you see!?"

Xiao Bai didn't speak, he was a little frightened, the woman's expression had never been so serious and cold: "What did you see in my memory?"

That is—is that the memory of the other party?

Seeing the other party's repulsive expression, Xiaobai's body was still hot, but his heart cooled down.

Why do they see each other's memories?Ah Ning didn't understand it at first, and thought he was hallucinating due to blurred consciousness. It wasn't until he saw the picture of Xiaobai being locked up that he realized something was wrong.She didn't care about the undignified appearance of the two of them, so she didn't have time to take a bath, so she hurriedly put on her clothes and dragged Xiao Bai to find Mr. Wu.

Dr. Wu was woken up for the second time and was so irritable that he wanted to strangle the woman to death.

"This is a good thing, what are you afraid of?"

He said impatiently: "Only couples with a matching rate of more than 90% can do it. It's too late for others to be happy!"

Before Xiaobai had time to feel happy, he was knocked down by the woman's next sentence.

"But my ex-partner and I were [-] percent compatible!" she growled. "We've never had anything like this! Seeing each other's memories—how is that possible?"

"That's because you don't trust each other!" Dr. Wu was also angry, and he put his pen on the table, "I said it was a 'lover'! You must love each other with all your heart, and you must trust each other with all your heart. Only you can do it yourself! Which couple is not rejoicing if you can achieve this condition, what did you do to be so afraid!?"

"..."

Aning's expression seemed to be punched hard by someone suddenly.She looked up at Xiaobai in confusion.

"No." She murmured and took a step back, turned her head to look deeply at the young Fu Baixue, it seemed that something was broken inside.

Just like what Aning has always believed, trust is a rarer ability than love, and my trust in you is a more hard-won grace than your trust in me.She is willing to sleep with Xiaobai, mostly because she doesn't want to destroy the simple trust of the other party.

She didn't deny that they were in love, and she didn't deny that Fu Baixue trusted her with all her heart—otherwise she wouldn't be stabbed in the back unsuspectingly, she just, she didn't expect that she trusted Fu Baixue so much.She thought that after so many things, she had completely lost the qualification to trust others.

It is hard for her to compare whether it is more sad to cut off all her back roads with her own hands and become a ghost and a lonely person living in the past; Going down alone is more painful.

She can't let Fu Baixue see her memory, and she can't let him know all of this, because the past cannot be changed, and the future is already doomed. What are the consequences of trying to change?

"...No." She shook her head and took another step back.

I see.I see.

She understood like never before, why Fu Baixue could never touch her, because they were so damn in love!Because they fucking trust each other more than each other!Once combined, the resonance generated by the two spiritual powers will allow them to share memories!

So Fu Baixue has been enduring, enduring, enduring, enduring until the fucking people laugh at him for not lifting, he is a softie, a useless useless bastard!

This is so funny isn't it.They can't be together because they love each other so much.Because they weren't together this shit happened, with this fucking time loop!

Aning really wanted to laugh.

At this moment, Xiao Bai walked over slowly and gently pulled down her sleeve.

He looked like he was about to cry, but he smiled at her anyway.

"It's nothing." He said hoarsely, his voice trembling unsteadily, and he said every word slowly, "If you-don't want to-, it doesn't matter if you don't-have- "

He stroked her hair tentatively, as he had wanted to do countless times before.

"I - don't mind - the - really, really."

Both times he spoke to comfort her.

Aning suddenly burst into tears.

"You're such an idiot," she choked out.

Next chapter: Inter-chapter Hermit Ⅷ

The witch merchant asked, "Do you hate him?"

Fu Baixue asked back: "Would you hate your body, or even a part of your soul?"

The witch merchant lowered his eyes wearily: "...Yes."

"Lie." Fu Baixue smiled: "I won't, and you won't either."

?April [-]st

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