Please don't be so hard on me!

Hearing this sentence, Luo Minghan instinctively raised his head to look for Miao Cun, but his dazed pupils disappeared as usual.

"I'm here." Miao Cun said again, but he didn't let go of Luo Minghan's hand.

As if waking up from a dream, Luo Minghan withdrew his arm from Miao Cun's hand and lowered his head to explain: "I'm fine,...you're leaving? I'll let Lily see you off. Li——"

"Let me ask you, what's wrong with your eyes." Miao Cun emphasized, and grabbed Luo Minghan's wrist again, "Why can't you see?"

"I can't see it," Luo Minghan said calmly, "It's just a little bit damaged."

Miao Cun looked complicated and didn't say a word.

The skin on his wrist is sensitive, Luo Minghan felt the temperature of Miao Cun's palm, and still insisted on his clumsy lie: "Really, I can actually see it, but it's just very vague."

"What color dress am I wearing today?"

"..."

"How is the weather today? Is it sunny or cloudy?"

Luo Minghan lowered his face and raised his lower lip slightly: "Don't do this, Miaomiao."

Miao Cun stopped pressing him, raised his head and took a deep breath calmly, before saying in his usual tone, "Let me help you sit down."

"No need." Luo Minghan withdrew his hand and declined Miao Cun's help, "I can go there by myself."

In order to prove that what he said was true, he turned around, smiled and said: "I'm not that useless, this is my own home, and I can walk right with my eyes closed." After finishing speaking, he hesitated for a moment , The footsteps were really firm and forward, the hand hanging by the side restrained not to touch any reference object, acting like a person with normal vision.

It is impossible for a person to determine the direction in a cloud of darkness.

Before hitting the wall, a hand was put between him and the wall, palm covering his forehead.

Luo Minghan was stunned, and quickly turned his face away, suppressing his embarrassment.But he didn't know that he couldn't even hide his embarrassment because he thought he was turning to the other side, but he was actually turning in the direction of Miao Cun——

Miao Cun could clearly see the loss and embarrassment on his face.

Then I saw him cheering up quickly, forcibly sweeping away the haze on his face, and when he turned around again, there was already a faint smile on his face: "Sorry, I made you laugh."

But he was talking to the air, laughing at the air.

If there was a third person in the room, they would have found the scene funny, and even laughed out loud, like a comedy.But Miao Cun didn't have the slightest smile in his eyes, and he didn't correct Luo Minghan. He changed his position quietly, and when he really stood where Luo Minghan was facing, he said, "It's not funny."

This time, without waiting for Luo Minghan to refuse again, he firmly supported him, took him to the sofa and settled him down.

"Is it true that you can't see anything at all?"

"Can see black."

Miao Cun raised the corner of his lips and said again: "It's not funny."

Luo Minghan could probably tell that there was a smile in his voice this time, so he also smiled.

Although there is no focal length in his eyes, he is still very handsome with such a bowed head and eyes. His pale eyelids are almost transparent under the sunlight, which makes a strong person like Luo Minghan look vulnerable.

"what did the doctor say?"

"After prescribing the medicine, observe first. Generally, vision can be restored. It's just a matter of how long it takes."

"What's the reason? Is it inherited from the family? Or is it acquired?"

"Yes..." Luo Minghan's lips parted, and the unfinished words rolled on the tip of his tongue, and when he spoke again, it became another sentence: "It's not a family inheritance, you don't have to worry, although Luo Yuanhe and I are twins, it doesn't make sense You have to suffer from the same illness." He comforted him with difficulty, "...don't worry, he won't be like this."

Sure enough, no matter how much he pretended to be magnanimous and upright, he still couldn't help feeling like a pinprick in his heart.

Hearing his words, Miao Cun was taken aback for a moment, then as if he had been slapped, his eyes were full of astonishment and disbelief.

"Luo Minghan, do you think I'm sitting here caring about you because I want to ask Teacher Luo if it's possible for him to suffer from this disease?"

"Isn't it?"

There was a movement of standing up beside him, and the movement was not small.

Miao Cun was so angry that he suddenly stood up: "Of course not!" He clenched his fists, it was unbelievable: "What are you thinking? I am this kind of person in your eyes?"

"No," Luo Minghan hurriedly reached for Miao Cun's hand, very habitually: "Of course not, I'm sorry, I just thought you would care more about Luo Yuanhe."

Miao Cun was speechless, "I—"

Subconsciously, I wanted to say "everyone cares", but I didn't say it.

He didn't refute, and Luo Minghan took it for granted that he acquiesced in the sentence "I'm more concerned about Luo Yuanhe".In fact, it was not surprising, from the moment he knew the truth, he knew that he had no chance of winning compared to Luo Yuanhe, but this did not prevent the self-deprecating and overwhelming loss in his heart.

"I'm concerned about you now." Miao Cun suppressed the helpless irritability in his heart, and said calmly, "It has nothing to do with Teacher Luo."

Luo Minghan was dull: "Really? It has nothing to do with him, just caring about me?"

Isn't he stingy, even if it's such an extremely cheap mint, sour and sweet, he has to be careful to make sure it only belongs to him, and then blow off the dust on it cherishingly.

"My concern is worthless."

"It's worth it." Luo Minghan said, curling up the corners of his lips.

He was still holding Miao Cun, but he didn't realize that Miao Cun didn't take his hand away. Instead, he took his hand so naturally, put it to his lips and kissed: "...It's very valuable."

The touch of the lips was soft and moist, and it fell between Miao Cun's slender fingers.

It has been a long time since they have been so close. Suddenly, both of them felt as if they were separated from each other, and then both woke up from the dream. One hand was released, the other was withdrawn, the other was blinded, and lost the good expression management along the way. , Embarrassed and despondent, one of them was blinded by the other party, so he simply lost his expression management and glared at Luo Minghan angrily.

"I'm going back." Miao Cun said.

"I'll ask Lily to call you a car." Luo Minghan quickly replied, "I should be ready when you go to France, and I'll take you to the airport then."

He said the farewell so lightly that Miao Cun couldn't answer for a while, so he had to say "hmm".

"Don't tell Luo Yuanhe about me."

"Why? Teacher Luo also cares about you."

"If he knows that I am like this, he will let you accompany me."

"..."

"Don't get me wrong, it's not that he doesn't value you," Luo Minghan curled his lips, "I don't know how much you know him, but he has burdens in his heart, and those burdens can be very light or heavy, so you will feel that he Very worldly, but also seems very out of the world." He thought about it, realized something, and smiled: "Why does it seem to be slandering him behind his back?"

"Teacher Luo is not as complicated as you think." Miao Cun thought of the long conversation by the canal, his eyes froze, and his voice lowered: "He just wants everyone to live well."

Before leaving, he stuffed an apple into Luo Minghan's hand.It is bright red and round, and it smells sweet.

"I might come to see you again."

·

Lily waited below for a long time, afraid that the two would quarrel, and was ready to go up to clean up the mess at any time.Unexpectedly, it was quiet from the beginning to the end. Seeing Miao Cun come out, she raised her lips and smiled: "Are you done talking?"

She pretended to be like that, but when she was caught by Miao Cun's cold eyes, half of her confidence was lost.

"Why did you ask me to come here?"

"Eric wants to see you."

"He didn't look for me, and he didn't know that I was coming today. It was your own idea."

"You didn't understand me." Lily looked into his eyes.

She thought to herself, Miao Cun is so calm, knowing Luo Minghan's misery, he is still so calm, even his face hasn't changed at all.

Miao Cun suddenly understood.

Because Luo Minghan wanted to see him, although he didn't say it clearly, but as an assistant, Lily was so good at observing his words, how could he not find out?

Miao Cun eased his expression, looked up and looked upstairs, "What is the reason for the illness?"

"He didn't tell you?"

"He wouldn't say it."

Lily smiled and shook her head: "I can't help him say the things he doesn't want to say. During the consultation, the doctor asked him if there were any drastic events or accidents that happened that afternoon."

Miao Cun realized something, "Which afternoon? What did he say?"

"I can't tell." Lily blinked apologetically: "The car has been waiting outside, see you when we have a chance."

After sending him out politely, she obediently went upstairs to be scolded and plead guilty,

"Do you think I can't get a C in your performance appraisal because I'm blind?" Luo Minghan asked slowly with a cold tone.

Lily took a deep breath, knelt down and confessed: "I'm sorry! I shouldn't have done so much! I was wrong, I'm guilty, don't give it to C, please give me a B..."

"Don't bother him next time."

"The doctor said to make you happy that your eyes will be better..." Lily muttered, "Yesterday's [-] million bill didn't make you happy, what can I do..."

"I'm not happy right now."

Lily bit her lip, decided not to expose him, and deliberately said: "I have already conveyed it to you just now, telling him not to come here in the future, otherwise I will be scolded to death."

Luo Minghan: "..."

"Boss, do you think I'm doing the right thing?"

"..."

·

The online car-hailing driver confirmed the destination with Miao Cun, which showed that it was the east gate of the Academy of Fine Arts.Miao Cun took a seat in the back row and reported to a famous top three private hospital.

"You need to operate on your mobile phone to change the destination." The driver reminded politely.

"I didn't make an appointment. You can drive directly. It doesn't matter. She won't mind."

After waiting 45 minutes for the special car to arrive, a fee deduction reminder popped up on the phone, and Lily found out that Miao Cun had diverted to the hospital, which happened to be the one Luo Minghan visited.

Not knowing Dr. Yu's name, nor his specific department, Miao Cun could only search screen by screen on the bulletin board in the lobby on the first floor, and finally found Dr. Yu's ID photo with a blue background, which said Yu and Song.Thinking of the way he always joked lazily, Miao Cun felt that this name was really not suitable for him.

After applying for a medical card online, I found the guidance desk of my department and asked, "Does Dr. Yu still have today's expert number?"

"Not anymore, but he just happens to be free now. Let me ask for you." The nurse was very nice, and dialed the internal number: "Doctor Yu, do you have time now? A patient wants to call your number."

After hanging up the phone, she scanned the QR code of Miao Cun's medical card: "It's ok."

The door of the consulting room was ajar, and on the nameplate on one side was the Chief Physician: Yu Qiege.

There were three knocks on the door, and a young voice came from inside: "Please come in."

He was facing the computer with a very focused look on his face.Miao Cun closed the door and found that he was playing minesweeper.

"..."

"Please sit down." The computer desktop flashed and returned to the hospital system. Dr. Yu raised his head with a friendly smile on his face, and when he saw the patient, he became dazed and dull, his smile disappeared, and he said in shock: "Are you sick too? "

He is a cardiothoracic surgeon!

Miao Cun was speechless, "I want to ask about Luo Minghan's situation."

Doctor Yu changed his mind and immediately understood.He was very curious about Miao Cun, because this was the person who had completely defeated Xi Xiaohan over the years, and he could actually make people like Luo Minghan die.What he was even more curious about was that Miao Cun would take the initiative to care about the two of them whose fate was over. He really wanted to know how it would develop in the future.

"Wait a mininute."

He dialed a phone number to the guidance desk and told the nurse that if someone came to register his number, he would directly hang up, and then nodded to Miao Cun: "I happen to be free now, but if a patient comes later, you have to wait Wait."

"It's okay." Miao Cun nodded, "The patient is important."

"Do you know that Luo Minghan is blind?"

"Will it be okay?"

"There is a chance of regaining sight, but the chance is hard to say. It has something to do with his state of mind and the absorption of the blood congestion here." He nodded with his fingers: "His blood congestion here has not been dealt with, increased intracranial pressure, mental trauma, and psychological history. .”

"Blood in the head...?" Miao Cun asked dully.

"Yes, generally speaking, when the head is beaten or severely injured, there is a chance of bruising. If the absorption is not good, it is necessary to rely on medicine, but Luo Minghan has been delaying not seeking medical treatment, so it worsened."

"Worsening means that it was there in the first place?"

"He has been temporarily blind several times before, but it was very short, such as a dozen seconds, and he also underwent a full set of examinations. There is no problem with his optic nerve and eyeballs. This has something to do with his mental state, but in this regard It is necessary to keep it a secret for him." Doctor Yu spread his hands apologetically, "If he doesn't want to tell you, if I say it, someone will die."

"Then you just said that the head was severely injured..." Miao Cun had gradually understood, and Dr. Yu didn't speak, just smiled at him.

"It was the time I called." He said slowly and word for word, telling himself.

"It's just part of the cause, you don't have to take it to heart." Doctor Yu comforted him, "Don't feel burdened by it, I guess Luo Minghan must have told you nothing, otherwise you wouldn't have come to me. He wouldn't let me You know, you just don’t want to make you feel guilty, so you just pretend you don’t know, you should eat and drink, don’t worry, he won’t be really blind.”

He said it lightly, and there was no element of cynicism, he was sincerely persuading Miao Cun.

There was a knock on the door outside, and it was the next patient.

"Sorry, I'm going to see you now." Doctor Yu stood up to see off the guest, putting his hands in Bai Dagua's pockets, "Miao Cun, although Luo Minghan has many, many problems, he is not so useless and hopeless. "He looked at Miao Cun, raised the corner of his lips, "For example, he is really sincere to you, if you can, try not to hate him so much."

"I didn't—" Myuu kept his mouth shut.

Whether it was Luo Minghan himself or outsiders, they all said "May I not hate him".

But he never hated him.

Dr. Yu twisted the doorknob for him, with gentle eyes: "He will be fine, you don't have to worry."

Passing by the patients waiting outside the door, then passing through the guidance desk, and walking to the corridor, Miao Cun turned back again.

The busy nurse heard the voice and asked, "Which floor is the ophthalmology department on?"

She looked up, and it was that young man again.I feel a little pitiful that there are so many problems at such a young age.

"On the third floor of Building 2, there are signs when we arrive."

"Thank you."

From Building 1 to Building 2, there is an air corridor leading directly.After all, there are few people in the private hospital. When Miao Cun walked over, he only met a few people. The sun was shining on the marble tiles. As Miao Cun passed through the sunlight, he heard a voice in his heart: No matter how good the sun is, Luo Minghan can’t see it now.

There are more people waiting for the ophthalmology department. The nurse asked whether to register for the general account or the expert account. Miao Cun said, "Can I register for each expert account?"

"Yes, yes..." the nurse operated, "We have to wait for the number to be called."

Within half an hour, Miao Cun asked one doctor after another, asking if he had recently admitted young patients with transient blindness.When I asked about the last room, the nameplate showed that my surname was Zhao, and I pushed the door open. There was an old white-haired expert sitting inside, with a kind face and kind eyes. He glanced at Miao Cun and said, "Your eyes are very dry, be careful. Rest and cry less, too."

Miao Cun subconsciously touched the bottom of his eyes, he did it.

The doctor laughed: "I didn't say you are crying now, tell me, what's wrong with your eyes?"

"Often my eyes go dark, and suddenly I can't see anything, and it will be fine in a dozen seconds." Miao Cun said calmly.

Dr. Zhao frowned, and looked at Miao Cun solemnly through the myopia mirror: "It's strange, why are you young people so prone to blindness now? You are temporarily blind, and there are many reasons for it. You have to check to see again..." He held the mouse: "Do it today?"

"Have you ever received a patient like me?"

"It's a little older than you, and it's more serious than you. It hasn't recovered yet, but don't worry, this disease is analyzed on a case-by-case basis."

"If it's psychological and spiritual reasons, is it possible? I have no trauma, and I have had an examination before." Miao Cun said calmly, using the vague information given to him by Lily and Dr. Yu.

"It's also possible. It's hard to say. For example, the last patient I admitted..."

Miao Cun's heart lifted, and he heard the sound of metal rubbing when Dr. Zhao unscrewed the lid of the thermos cup.

"He's blind, partly because..."

The hot air was dense, with the fragrance of tea, Dr. Zhao took a sip of the hot tea and moistened his throat.

This is a few fleeting seconds, Miao Cun straightened his back, but felt that the days were like years.

"The most important person in his life chose to leave him." Dr. Zhao smiled: "This is what he said, so you see..."

His old and steady voice stopped.

The film has not been taken yet, but the patient in front of him seems to be suffering from an eye disease. The eyes are indeed broken, and he shed two lines of tears in the blink of an eye.

When returning from the hospital, Miao Cun returned to his frugal and good style, taking the subway and bus.On the bus, he leaned against the car window and fell asleep. The car passed through the steel tunnel under the elevated road. The sun was like the keys of a piano. Miao Cun's face was sometimes exposed to the gentle winter sun and sometimes hidden in the shadows. .

He had a short dream, in which he was looking at the stars with Luo Minghan in the desert.

"Miao Cun sent you a WeChat message." Lily helped Luo Minghan process the information, and she relayed all the public and private matters. She saw everything at the first time, "He said..." She glanced at Luo Minghan: " Do you want to hear it?"

"Are you wishing me a speedy recovery?" Luo Minghan asked seriously, as if he had a slight expectation.

"He said, I had a dream just now. I dreamed that we were looking at the stars in the desert. You can't even see the stars now." Lily said softly, put down her phone, and looked at Luo Minghan sadly.

When the bus arrived, Miao Cun got off the bus through the back door and walked back to the house.The phone vibrated, and he didn't expect Luo Minghan to answer him, after all, he should use his phone very much now.

But Luo Minghan returned a voice message to him.His voice is still as calm and pleasant as ever:

"As long as you have seen the stars, when you close your eyes, the stars are in your heart. The same is true for people."

·

"How far are the stars from us?"

"Not far."

"But we can't make it."

"You close your eyes. Now, is it in your heart?"

"It's the same with people. If one day, even though I can't see you, when I close my eyes, you will still be in my heart."

"Is it far or near?"

About, far and near.

It's so far away that I can't go there in my life, but it seems so close that I can live in my heart.

Miao Cun finally squatted down, and on the deserted street, belatedly and almost suffocated, he burst into tears.