don't ask about those years

It was the weekend, Fang Dongping was resting at home, and just after hanging up an investor's call, he heard a knock on the door.

After opening the door, he frowned first, because he never expected that the person standing at the door would be Qi Tian.

"What are you doing here?" Fang Dongping asked.

"Has Lin Fan contacted you?" Qi Tian asked directly without any extra words.

"Is it necessary to tell you?"

"Fang Dongping, has Lin Fan looked for you?" Qi Tian asked again.

Not wanting to say anything more to Qi Tian, ​​Fang Dongping directly closed the door, but the moment the door was closed, Qi Tian grabbed the door and opened it again, then looked at him blankly and said, "Fang Dongping, I'll ask you , Has Lin Fan contacted you these days?"

Fang Dongping continued to frown and stare at Qi Tian. After he came back, he only sent Lin Fan two WeChat messages but did not receive a reply. He thought that Lin Fan was distracted and didn't want to be disturbed, so he didn't contact him again. Now seeing Qi Tian's appearance, he felt that something was wrong. , so I didn't want to go around and say directly: "No, I haven't contacted you in the past few days, what's the matter?"

"Really?"

"Why do you ask if you don't believe me?" Fang Dongping raised his eyebrows.

Seeing that Qi Tian's gaze slowly dropped, he turned around and left without saying anything.

"Qi Tian! Speak clearly, what's wrong with Lin Fan?" Fang Dongping pulled him back.

Although Qi Tian stopped but didn't speak, he just stood sideways to him in a dazed state.

With a bad premonition in his heart, Fang Dongping directly dialed Lin Fan's number with the mobile phone he hadn't put down just now, but after connecting, the voice came from Qi Tian.

After watching Qi Tian take out Lin Fan's cell phone from his pocket and hang it up in disappointment, Fang Dongping asked coldly, "Why is his cell phone here with you?"

After putting the phone back, Qi Tian looked at the front with empty eyes, and finally said: "His phone is in the hotel..."

A bad thought flashed across, Fang Dongping hurriedly asked: "Did you go to Dali to look for him?" Seeing that Qi Tian didn't answer, he asked eagerly: "Did you go to Dali to look for him, and then what?"

After a long time, Qi Tiancai said two words lightly and lost them.

"What did you say!"

Qi Tian's ashen expression showed from his eyes without any concealment, and finally took a deep breath before saying, "... Lin Fan is lost, and there has been no news for five days."

"What do you mean lost? Isn't he in Dali? Did he go to another place nearby later, have you looked for it?"

Qi Tian didn't want to waste time with Fang Dongping, so he turned around and left.

Regardless of the fact that he was still wearing slippers, Fang Dongping went outside the door and pulled Qi Tian by the shoulders and dragged him back, saying, "Qi Tian, ​​tell me what happened, when did you lose contact, and did you call the police? What about his family?" , did you ask? Where are your company colleagues? Where are his friends?"

Qi Tian looked at Fang Dongping, as if he was really thinking about whether he had thought of every link, whether there was anything left behind?Why can't Lin Fan be found out after exhausting all methods these days.

When he arrived at the hotel that day, he insisted on asking the front desk to open the door on the grounds that Lin Fan's cell phone was left in the room. Since the room hadn't been cleaned in time, he saw the cell phone lying quietly on the bed as if it had been placed there on purpose. head.

From the time he came out of the hotel, he used all the connections he could use to search for the underworld, such as air tickets, hotels, bus tickets, small hotels that don't require registration...everything he could check, but the only thing he found was that Lin Fan was leaving. I withdrew 5 yuan in cash from the bank that day, which is also the maximum amount that an individual can withdraw...other than that, I have nothing.

After deciphering the mobile phone password, he saw that Lin Fan did two last things before leaving, calling his hometown and leaving a message for Lu Feng.

Although he knew that Lin Fan hadn't gone back, he still dialed the number of his hometown with a glimmer of hope, but after getting through, Lin Fan's father told him that Lin Fan had gone abroad...

Not long after the phone was turned on, Lu Feng called.After the call was connected, he first heard an excited voice saying: "Brother, you scared me to death, I thought you were going to explain the funeral...", and when he knew that the person who answered the phone was himself, Lu Feng felt resentful The tone came from the phone, and before hanging up, he said to him: "Qi Tian, ​​please do me a favor, let Lin Fan go..."

Just like that, after a few days, he dialed all of Lin Fan's recent call records, and searched all the places he could go, but there was still no news, and Lin Fan disappeared as if the world had evaporated.

"I've asked everything, I've checked everything that needs to be investigated, and I don't know anything." As he said, Qi Tian turned to Fang Dongping as if grasping at the last straw and asked, "Fang Dongping, think about it, where can Lin Fan go? Didn't you go to see him for a few days? Did he tell you that he wanted to go somewhere else?"

Fang Dongping looked at Qi Tian, ​​and suddenly asked in a deep voice: "How do you know I'm looking for him?"

"Don't fucking talk about these useless things, think about whether Lin Fan has told you anything."

Fang Dongping didn't answer, just stared at Qi Tian for a while, and then said suddenly: "You forced him away, right?"

Qi Tian remained silent.

"Did you do something to him?" The bad feeling became more and more intense, because if Qi Tian knew that he had gone to look for Lin Fan, nothing good would happen.

Qi Tian's eyes drooped, he didn't say yes, he didn't say no.

After a while, Fang Dongping suddenly raised his hand and punched Qi Tian in the face, "You bastard, did you force him away? What did you do to him?!"

Qi Tian didn't dodge at all, but took it abruptly, but after he stood firmly on his side and spit out a mouthful of blood, Fang Dongping was caught off guard by a punch, "Yes, I'm a bastard, what about you? I never told you not to pester Lin Fan, but if you hadn't been meddling in the middle, would there have been so many things? If you hadn't gone to Dali to find him, would Lin Fan be lost now?"

The anxiety and irritability of the past few days has been suppressed here, he doesn't know what's wrong, why did Lin Fan leave, is he angry?Does Lin Fan love him or not?The questions were driving him crazy.If he hadn't had to, he would never have come to find Fang Dongping. Thinking of the chain reaction caused by this person these days, he couldn't bear it anymore.

Fang Dongping slowly turned around and wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth, saying: "Qi Tian, ​​you are really hopeless, you still blame others, and you don't even know where you are wrong."

Not knowing what Fang Dongping was referring to, Qi Tian stared at him and asked, "What do you mean?"

"Yes, I went to find Lin Fan. I said I liked him and asked him to give me a chance. Do you know what he said?" Fang Dongping really wanted to see the frustration of this insignificant person right now. Expression, "He said that there are some things he can't let go of, but he can't get over it. Do you know what he means?"

After seeing Qi Tian's solemn expression, Fang Dongping continued: "Let me ask you again, you have been abroad for a few years, how come Lin Fan has never made friends, and he got too drunk that day and said 'you are back', with whom? said?"

Qi Tian looked at Fang Dongping, in fact, he was thinking about a question these days, why Lin Fan was held by Fang Dongping that day, because he knew that Lin Fan never liked being touched by anyone, and if he didn't push him away, he might be accepting this person That's why he lost control so much after seeing it.But after Fang Dongping returned to Beijing, he just sent two inquiry text messages like ordinary friends, and he didn't follow up with a call when he didn't reply. When Fang Dongping said that, Qi Tian finally realized that the hug that day might have the opposite meaning.

"Qi Tian, ​​you are really pitiful. You have never known Lin Fan from the beginning to the end and dare to say that you like him. Do you know what you have lost? Do you know that Lin Fan is the most stupid and stubborn person in the world, For the rest of your life, you only believe that one person will not change, and you will not be able to see if you are blind... Do you know how lucky you are? What about you? What do you think of him? You always force him to do whatever you want, and force him to work. He can't go home anymore, forcing him to die, this is what you want? Satisfied?"

Qi Tian listened in a daze, every word stabbed him like a needle, as if what Fang Dongping said was true, what did he do to keep Lin Fan under control, Lin Fan's good life was suppressed It was ruined, I lost my friends in the company, I lost my job, and now I am forced to run away when I go out to relax.He seemed to have been thinking about how to trap this person in his arms, but he didn't care about the suffocating pain, and finally let Lin Fan break free and leave.

"I don't know why you are doing this now, but the reason must not be Lin Fan, otherwise no one would have waited so long at the same place, Qi Tian, ​​you have always been arrogant, I really don't understand why you don't understand such a simple truth."

Seeing Qi Tian's expression of being hit, Fang Dongping was happy that he could say a few words for Lin Fan. That person is so stupid, he kept everything in his heart, and he wondered if he would have a chance to say these words in his life.

Just when Fang Dongping turned around to go back to the house, Qi Tian grabbed his arm and said, "Fang Dongping, you have been in touch with Lin Fan for so long, has he ever said anything about where he particularly wants to go?" , who to look for, I know he is in the country before going abroad, but I can't find it, please help me think about it, I beg you, think about it and tell me, I will look for it right away."

After shaking off Qi Tian's hand, Fang Dongping said: "Qi Tian, ​​if Lin Fan can leave the past behind and forget about you, I will be happy for him, and I hope he will never come back again. Just be happy."

After speaking, Fang Dongping entered the room, and then slammed the door in front of Qi Tian who was still in a daze.

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Lin Fan's father looked at the clock on the wall. It was almost two o'clock, and it was probably almost here. Just as he was thinking, there was a knock on the door.He got up from the sofa and went to the door to open it. Although he had already called yesterday, it took him a long time to identify him before he matched up with the young man from a few years ago.

"Qi Tian?" Father Lin looked at him and asked.

"Yes, Uncle Lin, I am Qi Tian."

After making tea and sitting down on the sofa, Father Lin looked at the large and small gift boxes brought by the man, and remembered what happened yesterday.

Yesterday morning, this person named Qi Tian called and said that he was a classmate of Lin Fan who had been to the house before and had just come back from a few years abroad, and asked him if he just happened to be here on a business trip and it was not convenient for him to come and visit.He only remembered the name at that time, this son's classmate who lived in his home for a few days, so Dang even agreed.

After such a long time, if Qi Tian hadn't mentioned it, he might have forgotten it. One winter, this big boy from Beijing specially came to the north to watch the snow scene.Looking at this man now, it seems that his appearance has not changed, but he feels that he has transformed into a man's corners.

He looked at Qi Tian and asked, "Have you been to the north for a long time?"

"Yes, it's the first time since returning to China." Qi Tian turned his head to look at Father Lin and said with a smile as much as possible: "This time, I happened to be here on a business trip. If I didn't ask for your address, I wouldn't be able to find this place."

"I don't blame you, it's been so many years, and the streets have changed." Father Lin said with a smile.

"I haven't been back to China for many years, I want to visit you and auntie..." After looking around, Qi Tian asked, "Why is auntie going out?" He still remembers the kind and loving person who sincerely and warmly entertained him. woman.

"Oh..." Father Lin put down the teacup and said, "Your aunt is gone."

Qi Tian paused while holding the teacup. Lin Fan's parents are not very old, so it shouldn't be logical, but he suddenly remembered that Lin Fan once said that his mother had cancer, and it was not good to think that it might be caused by the disease. After further questioning, he said apologetically, "I'm sorry, Uncle Lin, I haven't contacted Lin Fan for a few years, so I don't know much about it."

"It's okay, it's been many years." Father Lin said not wanting to make Qi Tian feel uncomfortable.

After waiting for a while, Qi Tian finally asked: "Lin Fan...has he gone abroad?"

"Yeah, it's a coincidence. Just the day before you called last time, he suddenly said that he had to go abroad temporarily for a project, and he was in a hurry. He also said that it was because the network construction there was not good, and he might not be able to contact him for a while. Don't worry if I can't find him. If you need something, you can find Lu Feng..." After a pause, Father Lin asked again: "Oh, do you know Lu Feng? You are from a school, you should know him."

"...I know..." Qi Tian looked at the teacup and said, thinking that he has called Lu Feng more times than he did in college, and then turned to Father Lin and asked, "Then Lin Fan didn't call later?"

"No, but Lu Feng received it. He said that Lin Fan contacted him that night because he finally found a local base station to make calls, but he didn't call home in the middle of the night because he was afraid of making noise and I was sleeping. He asked Lu Feng to call him. I reported that I was safe... This child is really good, I am retired and I am afraid of any noise, it has been a month, and I have not called me." After speaking, he smiled to himself and said: "But It's okay, Lin Fan hasn't given me much trouble since he was a child."

Qi Tian knew that what Lu Feng said was what Lin Fan explained to him at the end, his heart was heavy but he still tried his best to ask with a normal face: "Then when do you think he will come back, did he say it then?"

Father Lin thought for a while before saying: "He said that the project time is uncertain, but he was sent out to support for half a year a few years ago. I guess it will only be a few months at most."

Hearing these words, Qi Tian's hope sank little by little, thinking that he could get some news from Lin's father, even a postcard or a text message... But Lin Fan was pushed away by him, and he even ignored his family. .Qi Tian felt that the loss these days had accumulated little by little, and it was almost too much for him to bear the weight.Even when he was abroad, he knew that he could find Lin Fan no matter what after returning to China, but now Lin Fan hides it on purpose and does not need to contact the outside world in any way. There is no bank card, no mobile phone, no records... a month Yes, he only has 5 yuan on him, is that enough?What if something happens?Qi Tian didn't know at this moment, if Lin Fan really showed up half a year later, would he go crazy in advance.

Father Lin saw Qi Tian's expression from hope to disappointment, and asked him: "Haven't you been in contact with each other in recent years?"

"...Yes," Qi Tian couldn't find an excuse to explain, so he could only bow his head and say such a word.

"Oh, that's it." Seeing this, Father Lin comforted him and said, "Don't worry, when Lin Fan comes back, I will definitely let him find you."

Not being able to ask further caused Lin's father to become suspicious and worried, so Qi Tian exchanged a few words with Lin's father and got up to leave.

When he walked to the door, he still couldn't help turning his head and said, "Uncle Lin, if Lin Fan has contacted you, please give me a call. This is my business card and I will turn it on at any time." Then he handed over another business card and said : "This is my assistant's business card, if you can't find me, just give him a call."

After a pause, he went on to say, "Uncle Lin, if you need help with anything during this period, please let me know at any time, and I will come right over."

Seeing the man explain everything meticulously, Father Lin's doubts spread in his mind, and suddenly some uncertain things came up, and finally he looked at Qi Tian and asked: "Qi Tian, ​​when did you go abroad? of?"

Although it was a bit strange, Qi Tian still replied that in the second half of the senior year, there are still a few months before graduation.

After hearing this answer, Father Lin stared at Qi Tian for a long time, until Qi Tian was a little puzzled and wanted to ask what was wrong, then Father Lin slowly lowered his head and said "um", and finally said nothing. Close the door.

Qi Tian didn't know why Father Lin had such a reaction, he frowned, looked at the door of Lin Fan's house again, and then turned and left.

On the plane back home, Qi Tian was thinking about a question, did he drop something?

If it was true that Lin Fan had always loved him as Fang Dongping said, why did the well-behaved Lin Fan suddenly want to break up?Why did you keep pushing him away after you came back this time?Why did Father Lin's attitude suddenly change from enthusiasm to indifference when he found out when he was going abroad?What happened to Lin Fan's expression when he saw his father outside the elevator last time?

When one thing piled up, he suddenly suspected that someone might be doing something behind his back... But he didn't dare to confirm it easily because the person involved in the answer had promised him the freedom of marriage, He didn't dare to question it lightly. If he made a mistake, the promises made over the years might not be counted.

Qi Tian looked out of the window and frowned subconsciously. He hoped to have an answer, but he didn't know why he was a little afraid of knowing the result, because he had an intuition that told him that he couldn't bear all of this... …