sticky essence

4.

At nine in the morning, the doorbell rang.Yan Zeyi just packed up and got ready to go to work.

"Who is it?" He ran to open the door, and saw a pale young man standing at the door. It was raining outside, and this man was dripping wet.

The young man smiled, and several bloodstains immediately appeared on his chapped lips: "Take me in for two days."

Yan Zeyi quickly pulled him in and closed the door: "Wen Xi, why are you here?"

The majestic sound of the rain doesn't sound so terrifying through the soundproof glass. Wen Xi stared at the snow-white long hair on the carpet wetted by the water droplets on her body, turning into gray pinches, feeling at a loss I thought, how could I come here.

After making the call, Yan Zeyi poured him a cup of hot tea, holding a bath towel in his hand.

"I've called the property management team. All the reporters have been kicked out of the community. Drink some hot tea to warm yourself up." As he spoke, he shook off the bath towel to wipe Wen Xi's hair, but stopped as soon as he stretched out his hand , he said with some embarrassment: "Or, you should do it yourself."

Wen Xi was dissatisfied with his sudden estrangement, and just about to make a sarcasm, she suddenly remembered that this person was rejected by her coldly half a month ago, and suddenly felt that the law of heaven is reincarnated, and she will suffer the consequences.

"I--"

"I--"

The two spoke at the same time, Yan Zeyi rubbed the tip of his nose, not daring to look at him, and said softly, "You speak first."

Wen Xi put the towel on her head, took another sip of hot tea, and finally said, "You should read the news."

"En." Yan Zeyi nodded, knowing that he was talking about Mayor Zheng getting off his horse.Mayor Zheng's resignation from Ma Wenjian was also implicated. Wenjian has been very popular these years. Wen Xi is Wenjian's stepson, and it was revealed that he was Mayor Zheng's illegitimate son. It is conceivable that these days are not easy.

"Wen Jian planned to escape without telling me at first, but he was arrested at the airport. Instead, I escaped." Wen Xi sighed loudly, seeming to be mocking but also sincere: "The country's anti-corruption campaign is really real. Not bad, these guys didn't miss a single one."

Yan Zeyi didn't understand what he meant, normal people shouldn't speak like this when their relatives are arrested.Yan Zeyi suspects that Wen Xi is not in the right mood now.

"you……"

As soon as she opened her mouth, she was interrupted by Wen Xi.

"Do you think I'm weird?" Wen Xi smiled strangely: "You, you really don't know anything about me. You even dare to say that you like me and will always treat me well. What you like is my face , you only like me as you can see."

"no--"

"What isn't it?" Wen Xi cut off his rebuttal sharply, with ice-cold indifference hidden in her eyes: "Let me tell you, they were all reported by me. I have eaten and used Wenjian for so many years, and the country has Why let me go? Because of my meritorious deeds—I woke up in time and helped the country fight corruption.”

Wen Xi sneered and mocked: "Do you still think I'm a person with as good a heart as a face"?"

"Alas." Yan Zeyi sighed, his dejected appearance gave Wen Xi a short-lived pleasure of victory, followed by the calm and secret disappointment of "as expected" that he had endured countless times.

"...I know all of this." Yan Zeyi said softly: "I also had contacts with Mayor Zheng before, and of course we will investigate after the accident, just in case." He looked at Wen Xi: "You That said, I knew about it early in the morning. Before expressing my heart to you, I also investigated your affairs, sorry, you don't seem to have a good impression of me, so I had no choice but to investigate your past on my own, wanting to understand you. "

Wen Xi stared straight at him, looking at him vigilantly like a cobra.

Yan Zeyi clasped his hands together, and tapped his thumb on the side of his index finger. He seemed a little embarrassed to speak, and the tips of his ears turned red: "You, I called you as soon as something happened to you, and sent a text message later, but you seem blocked me, so..."

Wen Xi's pupils moved, and suddenly remembered such a thing.On the day when he rejected Yan Zeyi's confession, in order to prevent this guy from stalking him, he blocked his number.

What a deal.Wen Xi scolded herself in her heart, ran to other people's house without saying a word like a lunatic, and satirized others unreasonably, what the hell am I doing.

Yan Zeyi saw his embarrassment, stood up and left him alone: ​​"I'll go find you some clothes." After finishing speaking, she really went into the room and found him a set of pajamas.

"This is my pajamas," Yan Zeyi was a little nervous, he suddenly regretted taking out this kind of underwear, for fear that Wen Xi would dislike him: "It's clean, if you mind..."

Wen Xi simply took it and asked, "Where can I change it?"

"Bedroom." Yan Zeyi pointed in the direction.

The pajamas are made of plain plaid fabric, pure cotton, which should have been worn for a long time, the fabric has become very soft, and there is a unique fragrance of Yan Zeyi attached to it.Wen Xi guessed that this should be the smell of their laundry detergent, which smells a little nice.

Yan Zeyi's physique is stronger than his own, but his height is about the same, and he is a little taller, so there is no problem with the length of his trousers, but his clothes are too loose.

When he came out of the bedroom with his sleeves rolled up, he met Yan Zeyi's eyes. The other party looked away unnaturally. There was a bit of amorous feelings in his big upright eyes. Wen Xi was really puzzled Is it possible that there is still some charm in clothes?

However, for Yan Zeyi, it is already a natural stimulus for someone he likes to wear clothes that stick to his skin and only wear when he falls asleep.

"If you have nowhere to go, you can live here."

What?Wen Xi looked up, Yan Zeyi on the other side of the table was a little hesitant to repeat it again.Wen Xi looked at him as if waiting for him to speak, poking the chopsticks back and forth in the rice, a leaf of oily green vegetable was pierced into a rag, and the green vegetable juice that flowed out stained the fat white rice.

This meal is really unpalatable, Wen Xi thought, is it so difficult to cook?

Yan Zeyi still spoke: "I mean, if you don't mind, you can live here."

"Live with you?"

Yan Zeyi nodded bluntly, fearing that he might not express himself clearly, and let out a "huh".

Wen Xi didn't say a word, and cleaned up the rice with the vegetable leaf.

"Do you want more?" Yan Zeyi thought he was hungry.

Wen Xi shook her head, took the bowls and chopsticks into the kitchen and washed them quickly.

After that day, Wen Xi washed all the pots and bowls in this family, and it was only a month later that Yan Zeyi suddenly realized that he hadn't cooked for a long time.He is a painstaking cook, and now Wen Xi is willing to help him share, he is very happy.

5.

One night in summer, Yan Zeyi came home with a hangover. Usually, he always got home around eight o'clock, but this day he returned to the apartment with the help of his subordinates because it was almost twelve o'clock because of social engagements.

Although he was already drowsy, he still felt guilty for thinking that he might disturb Wen Xi's sleep, but he was so drunk that when his subordinates asked him to find the key, he didn't With all the strength to speak, the whole person softened into a puddle of sticky maltose.

Wen Xi opened the door for them and took her from her subordinates. Yan Zeyi exhausted all his strength and choked out four words: "I'm bothering you." Then he fell into a coma.Even in his sleep, his noble morality continued to torment him. He dreamed that Wen Xi was angry, accusing him of coming back too late, drinking too drunk, and smelling bad.

In that grotesque dream that was constantly changing colors, Yan Zeyi apologized to Wen Xi over and over again.

"Sorry, sorry..."

Wen Xi asked him: "What are you sorry for me?"

"I, I quarreled with you...I came back late, which made you worry."

"Why should I worry about you?" Wen Xi asked again.

Zeyi didn't know this, he laughed like a kid who was cheating, trying to get the answer: "Because, because you like me?"

Wen Xi stared at him closely, her eyes were like stars ten thousand meters away, and he said, "Yes, because I like you."

"Haha." Yan Zeyi opened his eyes abruptly, it was already dawn, and after waking up from the dream, his memories of the dream had already begun to fade in just a few seconds, is the phrase "I like you" true?Did Wen Xi really say this?He couldn't wait to confirm it, but when he moved, he found that his lumbar muscles were sore, his lower body gradually regained consciousness, and he couldn't even move his thighs.

Yan Zeyi is already 30 years old, and he clearly knows that he has been raped.

Wen Xi became very caring.Although it shouldn't be used as a metaphor, Yan Zeyi still couldn't help feeling that he was beginning to be considerate of others, like a man who was said to be a father.

"I'll help you take a bath in a while." Wen Xi said.

Yan Zeyi was shocked. Although he regretted that the first time he had with Wen Xi had no effect, he was embarrassed to be honest with him.

"you are not willing?"

Yan Zeyi blushed and shook his head.

Wen Xi smirked: "You have to be willing or not."

After that day, the two acquiesced to each other's status as lovers, and things like kissing and hugging became more and more natural.

Yan Zeyi felt a ripe sense of satisfaction. He really fell in love with Wen Xi at first sight, and the road to unrequited love afterwards was very difficult. To be able to get the current life, he felt gratitude and happiness.

In complete contrast to him, Wen Xi ushered in overwhelming worries after the extremely suppressed ecstasy.He has nothing left, and God gave Yan Zeyi the best gift—it's a pity that this gift is not like a bear or a house, he can think and change.

Change is what Wen Xi fears the most.

He still doesn't understand why Yan Zeyi likes people like him. All the people who live with him will always abandon him in the end. He would rather Yan Zeyi spend his whole life in a daze than wake up one day and then Say sorry and leave yourself.

What should I do, what should I do?

When he couldn't see Yan Zeyi, countless fantasies that broke his heart would sweep over him. He masochistically conceived the worst situation that would happen in the future, thinking about completely unnecessary solutions; When Yan Zeyi was talking, his sadness and panic would intensify. If Yan Zeyi only responded to his words with a simple tone particle, then his heart would be sour, and he would nervously think: He finally hates me ?Is he about to abandon me?

What he could see but not guess was tormenting him even more.

But he also knows that he can't be too clingy. Too clingy will be annoying at first, and make people look down on him.

Wen Xi didn't dare to let Yan Zeyi know how much he loved him, afraid that Yan Zeyi would despise him, stop cherishing his feelings, and no longer value him when he knew it; but he was even more afraid that Yan Zeyi would be weighed down by this cement , gloomy love scares away, and when people run away, there is nothing left.

In order to decently maintain her love, Wen Xi tried various tricks to force Yan Zeyi to agree to his various demands.For example, tell him the password of your social account, don’t get angry if you want to show him your phone, go home at 08:30 at the latest every night, and call him to pick it up when you are late... But his favorite thing is still in bed Let Yan Zeyi bite him, and when Yan Zeyi kneels on the bed and licks him like a dog, the desire and admiration in the other party's eyes will make him deeply agree that he is loved .

6.

The water trickled down, drop by drop, and slowly wet the entire wall, turning the apricot-colored wallpaper a dull brown.

"Aren't you at home today?"

The setting sun sank outside the window, and the fiery red afterglow painted the whole sky, and the cicadas were hoarse, as if the coming day was the end.

Yan Zeyi felt that Wen Xi was getting more and more strange.Today when he came home from get off work, he found that the wall in the bedroom where the on-hook air conditioner was installed was soaked, and water dripped onto the floor, apparently left unattended.

Just when he rolled up his sleeves to rescue, Wen Xi came back with a supermarket bag.

He said, "It's still early for you to go home today. I just went shopping." The bag he was carrying was full of Yan Zeyi's favorite food and snacks, which Yan Zeyi would not take the initiative to do on weekdays. Said, especially snacks, a big man prefers sweetness, and he is even more embarrassed to speak, but Wen Xi wrote down all these small and trivial things.

What he saw in his eyes made Yan Zeyi unable to speak out what was in his heart.

He could only ask, "Aren't you home today?"

This sentence made Wen Xi blew up like a needle prick: "Didn't I say that I just went shopping?"

"But," Yan Zeyi hesitated for a moment, but still said: "The air conditioner has been leaking for a day, haven't you noticed it?"

Wen Xi's movements, which were visible to the naked eye, froze.

After being quiet for a while, he said slowly, "I might not have noticed."

Yan Zeyi didn't understand why he would lie to himself about such a trivial matter, since he was not a gangster or tyrant, would he not be allowed to go out?

Just when he was about to speak, a thought stopped him like a sudden brake.That's right, Wen Xi might be afraid. After all, it's only been a few months since what happened to Mayor Zheng. He might want to return to society but he's too embarrassed to tell himself.Speaking of it, it was not right for me to ask Wen Xi to undertake housework, grocery shopping and cooking like raising a woman. Wen Xi may have been sympathetic to himself and kept silent. After all, he has always been a man with a sharp mouth and a heart.

The silence between the two tortured Wen Xi unilaterally.He almost thought that his stalking of Yan Zeyi had been exposed.That's right, he endured and endured, and finally he couldn't help following Yan Zeyi. There was a pair of binoculars hidden in his bag, which was for better access in the safe passage of the shopping mall opposite the office building where Yan Zeyi's company was located. monitor him.

His hands trembled slightly, and cold sweat broke out thinly and densely.

Think fast, think fast.

Wen Xi bit her tongue and forced herself: If you think hard, you will definitely find an excuse.

"Baby, do you want to go out to work?" Yan Zeyi broke the silence.

"What?" Wen Xi narrowed her eyes slightly: "What do you mean?" Tension spread along the blood vessels in his body, what does Yan Zeyi mean?Is he going to drive himself away?Can he finally bear it?

Yan Zeyi smiled at him, and said kindly: "I know you are going out today, which is very good. I am also very happy that you are willing to go out for a walk. If you want to go out to work, I will fully support you. You don't have to What a burden."

In just a few seconds, a sentence of dozens of words has thousands of ambiguities in Wen Xi's ears.Is he mocking himself for not being productive?Does he dislike me staying at home every day?Or is it simply just getting angry about the air conditioner?

What should I do, what should I do, what should I do!

"What's wrong with you? You're shaking." Yan Zeyi approached him with concern.

"Don't come over!" Wen Xi screamed in horror.Then, two tears fell out of his eyes without warning, and Wen Xi hoped that it was his own eyeballs that fell out, so that he would not have to face Yan Zeyi's shocked expression.It's over, everything is over, Wen Xi thought desperately, he must hate me.

Yan Zeyi hugged him.

The warm nude dispelled the panic in his heart, and Yan Zeyi's nervous voice rang in his ears: "Baby, what's wrong? Why are you crying? What did I do wrong?"

Wen Xi didn't want to cry anymore, but the fact is that his tears kept flowing like a natural waterfall.The cloth on Yan Zeyi's shoulders was soaked quickly, and Wen Xi didn't want his own snot to drip on it, he didn't want to make a fool of himself in front of Yan Zeyi.

But he was embarrassing enough.

Yan Zeyi's palm gently ran along his back, again and again, as if coaxing a child.

"Don't cry," he said sincerely in old-fashioned love words: "You cry, my heart hurts."

Wen Xi can't stand him being so gentle and kind.He rehearsed countless times in his mind the scenario of being brutally abandoned, but he never imagined what to do when he was comforted.

What should he do.

Yan Zeyi raised his head and kissed him on the cheek, but Wen Xi turned away.

"dirty."

"Not dirty." Yan Zeyi kissed his lips forcefully, without any other movements, Wen Xi calmed down just by pressing them tightly together.

This man really doesn't dislike me, he's telling the truth.

When he thought of this, he rushed forward with gratitude and happiness. He wanted to do something quickly to repay Yan Zeyi, and tell him personally: I love you very much too, and I can do anything for you.

"What do you want to eat?" Wen Xi choked up and said intermittently: "I, hiccup, I'll make it for you."

"Don't cry, I'll do it today." Yan Zeyi said affectionately.

The author has something to say:

Suffocated, actually locked, alas, I tried my best.

I edited it for the second time, deleted the obscenity, and lost the emotional progression. I probably only deserve to be an author who uses the body to promote emotional changes.day.