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Before I knew it, I had left for the past month.

Huixue followed Alyssa to the most border area of ​​the southern city. People from all walks of life gathered here. During the day, it was a noisy and prosperous scene. At night, when the night was full of lights, they danced recklessly, full of drunken singing, and sang around the bar. Lingering endlessly.

When they arrived in Nancheng, they had only enough money to rent a small room at the end of the street. It was simple and untidy, with dirty mold stains on the walls, and there was basically no room to move around except for the bed.

Alisa seems to be no stranger to this place. She and Huixue interviewed the waiter in a bar, and the proprietress who came to greet her had a very intimate conversation with her.

This bar is a basement bar, upstairs is a restaurant and hotel, the guests come at night are very crowded, and they are very crazy, in the case of loud volume and colorful lights, the emotions are too high, and they will start to undress on the dance floor and howl .

"13, this bucket of Vodka belongs to the booth customer over there. Handle it carefully and go quickly." The proprietress pointed to the sofa in the corner.

These wines are several times more expensive than the room she and Alyssa rented. Huixue handles them very carefully. Sucking on the back of the hand, sucking the whole person is as easy as softening the muscles and bones, the expression is blurred but high-pitched.

"Hello, this is what you ordered..."

As soon as Huixue put down the wine barrel, a hand beside her grabbed her wrist vigorously, and the hooking voice was flirtatious and joyful, "Hey, come and join us!"

The man's wet half-length hair stuck to his protruding cheekbones, and the whites of his eyes were completely eroded by red bloodshots. Although he looked a little sick on the outside, the other party's tone was quite happy.

"If you have any pain, we can help you forget it."

Huixue looked at him, stunned for a moment.

pain?

What is pain?

Does it mean that even if she came to Nancheng and escaped from the past, she would still experience the nightmare of being haunted by Shen Tinglan every night?

Does it mean that she feels that her body is very disgusting and dirty just by looking in the mirror now?

If this counts as pain, then she actually has nothing to care about.

Because the person who experienced those things is Huixue.

And she is 13.

Huixue was frightened, and subconsciously wanted to withdraw her hand, but the other party still said unyieldingly:

"Come on, join us. I can see you don't belong there."

After that, he raised his eyebrows and looked towards the bright area in the center of the dance floor, which was filled with lights.

"Others think we are depraved lunatics, only we know that we are the most sober."

The man opened his eyes wide, and the corners of his eyes were bent like the blades of the god of death, constantly calling out the dead, while Huixue's palms were sweating more and more. A terrible force seemed to press her into the swamp.

"Sorry, please let go, it's against the rules."

Suddenly, a very clear voice cut off the chaotic sounds from the outside world, and then the warm touch touched Huixue. She pulled the man's hand away and took the initiative to protect Huixue behind her.

"You're so boring!" The man laughed and threw it away, and the friend behind him pulled him over his shoulders and dragged him down, and poured a bottle of wine down his throat in a playful manner.

......

At dawn, the two finally returned home.

"Did you get scared just now?"

Alisa changed her uniform and smelled her body several times to see if she smelled of alcohol. Huixue shook her head and replied softly, "Actually, it's okay, it's nothing."

Alisa lay on a slightly scattered bed, her eyes were closed, she was a little sleepy, she beckoned Huixue to come over:

"Otherwise, I'll go and ask the proprietress for you tomorrow to see if she will change your position for you, okay?"

"It's okay, I really don't need it. Alisa, don't do so much for me."

Huixue leaned against the back of the bed, and took a black feather from Alisa's black hair.

Alisa was silent for a moment, then suddenly opened her eyes and asked:

"Guixue, can I call you that?"

"I don't want to call you 13, Huixue."

Huixue frowned slightly, this title always reminded her of Shen Tinglan's disgusting appearance whenever she was picking and affectionately calling her disgusting.

The name was the bearer of the man's disgust.

"Ash Snow..."

Alisa turned over and stretched her arms around Huixue's, just touching her so lightly, without further actions.

There was only silence in the small room.

Huixue has been subjected to too much control and restraint since she was a child, and people in this city pursue freedom and freedom, which is very different from her past. Huixue was actually a little uncomfortable at first.

The train roared and the steam escaped.

They have been staying here for a full month. When the day was about to break when the work was over, Alisa came to a bay area with gray snow. In the silence of the day and night, they stood on the empty beach, watching the ups and downs. The constant water shimmers with a dim blue light.

"This is the glowing sea, we call it - blue tears."

Alisa smiled, turned her face away, and found that Huixue really showed a surprised expression, and said involuntarily, "Very beautiful."

"Is it because there are nocturnal algae in the sea water?"

"Yeah, you know that?"

Alisa replied that Huixue had already stepped into the sea, and the icy cold sensation made her step back a few steps, "I read it in the book before."

Alisa approached behind her, and the bright blue stars on the sea gathered around them. In the distance, the dusk wrapped the sky, and the faint light floated in the clouds, suggesting that the long night was coming to an end.

"Huixue, there is something I want to confess to you."

Huixue pursed her lips and asked, "What?"

"...The buyer who planned to adopt me before actually abandoned me halfway."

Huixue turned around, looked into her eyes, and waited for Alisa to continue: "I... used to do a very dirty job."

"Whether it's selling drugs or selling your body, you're always surviving in the mud."

"The last time I went to the hospital, it wasn't an accident. It was because I was forced to drink paint by a mentally ill customer, so I was sent in for gastric lavage."

"Huixue, we are friends, so I will tell you my secret, I hope you don't hate it..."

Before she could finish her words, the person in front of her burst out laughing, the more she laughed, the happier her heart was, the bent body trembled, Alisa froze for a few seconds, and then quickly supported her, " Huixue, you..."

"Hahaha, I thought it was something very serious, Alyssa."

Huixue rubbed the corners of her tears-filled eyes, leaned towards Alisa as soon as she relaxed, hooked her neck, and fell on her shoulder, "It's okay, Alisa, it's okay..."

Huixue murmured, the blue light in the sea reflected on her haggard face, her voice was so weak.

"I'm not a completely clean person either, so it's okay Alisa..."

Alisa hugged her, hesitated to speak, and heard Huixue say without emotion:

"If I told you I killed someone, would you think I was guilty?"

"I killed Irena, you know that."

The waves on the beach calmed down, just like her tone, like the tears still hanging from the corners of her eyes after she laughed out loud. When the helplessness came to an end, people didn't care about anything.

Alisa was stunned, the unbelievable light in her eyes was wandering, and when she met Huixue's indifferent gaze, both of them became quiet.

"You are not guilty... Huixue."

"The world forced us to go down this road..."

"Because you are born lower than others, you should be trampled on as a matter of course; the term equality is just a hypocritical term used by the powerful to make them feel more at ease when they commit violence."

"We were wrong, but we are the only ones who are wrong."

The mist recedes, dawn arrives, and the sun gradually rises above the horizon.

Huixue raised her head, and pulled the corners of her lips towards her, with a shallow smile, the sun shining on her brows, she was supposed to be young, free, and live happily without restraint.

What took her real life?

"You are so kind, Alisa." Huixue said softly, stroking the feathers in her hair subconsciously around Alisa's hand.

Alisa lowered her eyes, raised a bright smile, and the heat and luminosity of the sun in the sky blended with her.

She gently wiped the corners of Huixue's eyes with her fingertips, wiped away her scars, and said to her:

"This world is so turbid, I hope you can break through the darkness and become your own light."

"Can't find it?"

The pen fell to the glass table with a click, and the woman raised her head, her sharp eyes filled with sullenness.

"You told me you couldn't find it!?"

Her complexion gradually became ferocious, and the speed of her speech accelerated until she roared:

"If I can't find you, why don't you die!?"

As he said that, he directly smashed the glass on the edge of the table at the man, and the glass hit the wall and shattered and exploded, or scratched or inserted into the man's cheek, and blood kept gushing out, flowing all over his face.

The man sat down in pain, covered his bloody face and apologized tremblingly, "I'm sorry, Miss Beryl, the source of the fire was in Miss Huixue's room, she probably already..."

"Shut up!!" Shen Tinglan slammed down the table violently, then got up quickly as if he was about to lose control, and tried his best to restrain himself, the veins on his neck were bulging, and he spit out forcefully:

"Get out! Get out!!"

The man crawled and ran out in embarrassment, Shen Tinglan twitched and panted, beat his painful heart hard, and ran to the medicine cabinet to frantically search for medicine jars.

The woman seemed to lose her normal sanity, part of the medicine bottle fell to the ground and shattered on the ground, Shen Tinglan bent down and grabbed it, and swallowed it together with the glass shards and the pill, and soon a stinging fishy smell spread from her throat taste.

Shen Tinglan leaned against the corner of the table to breathe, and her consciousness gradually returned. She seemed to have a sense of fear of the outside world, so she forced her body into the narrow and dark space under the table and cabinet, and hid inside.

It's like being locked in the closet by my mother when I was a child.

Many years ago, her mother was an aristocrat revered by everyone, but despite her family's opposition, she married a lowly commoner from another place, and fled with him to live in a dirty underground tunnel.

Before the age of 10, Shen Tinglan should have had a younger sister, but her mother's accidental miscarriage caused the whole family to suffer a huge blow, and since then, her mother's temperament has become more and more weird.

My father was a nurse in a small hospital, and he was so busy that he left early and returned late every day. My mother always nervously suspected that he actually had a new love outside, and she didn't want to go home to face her, a fat and ugly old woman.

Shen Tinglan once tried to persuade her mother, but her mother's paranoia had already made her lose the ability to think as a normal person, and repeated interference would only make her scold angrily:

"Do you want to rob your father from me too!? Don't you! Don't you!?"

Her mother's situation was getting worse day by day, her father was too busy with work to take care of everything, and often quarreled with her, until one day, Shen Tinglan came home from school and found her father lying on the ground in the kitchen dining room.

The mother blindfolded her and took her into the room, locked her in the closet, and showed a very strange and crazy smile before leaving, and the collar seemed to be stained with blood.

"Shh."

The mother made a silent gesture towards her.

When the closet door was closed, the light was taken away in an instant, leaving only the darkness eroding every inch of Shen Tinglan's senses, and the suffocation gradually grabbed her throat.

I don't know how long it took, but Shen Tinglan couldn't bear it anymore, she opened the door and walked out cautiously.

There were successive rustling sounds in the kitchen. She stepped forward, only to see her father, whose flesh was rotten to the bone, being stuffed into the refrigerator in twists and turns, while her mother was kneeling in front of the refrigerator, holding a sharp knife in her hand. With a mass of muddy meat, the mouth is full of blood.

She is eating 1 father's body.

The mother suffered from insanity, and after killing her father, she committed suicide. Shen Tinglan had witnessed the whole process with her own eyes.

After the family collapsed, she could only live with her mother's other relatives, but they were all aristocrats. There was a shameful deed in the family, and they were all afraid to avoid it, so they fought Shen Tinglan like a waste Throwing it back and forth.

Since she was a child, she has been living in the open and secret ridicule and gossip of others. Occasionally, hypocritical people will come to say some sympathetic words to her, and she will be moved to mourn her sad life experience.

But from the beginning to the end, no one really wanted to see her.

"Ash Snow..."

Her only light, her only love, her only gray snow.

"Huixue...why don't you eat it, don't you have an appetite?"

Shen Tinglan turned his face away, and asked softly, the sound of the knife scraping the porcelain plate in his hand was low and harsh.

"Guixue, how many times have I told you that you can't be picky when eating..." Shen Tinglan chuckled a few times, Mei frowned uncomfortably, and finally couldn't bear it any longer:

"Miss Beryl...!"

"Shh..." Shen Tinglan interrupted her, her deep eyebrows were stern, and her tone was strange:

"Speak softly, you will scare Hui Xue."

May paused, her expression and tone became solemn, "It's been a month."

"Are you going to be like this all the time?"

Shen Tinglan glanced at her, her eyes suddenly changed like a dark hidden knife, while she answered, "I don't want to listen to you."

"Huixue never came back at all!" Mei's voice followed closely.

With a 'bang', the knife and fork viciously hit the dinner plate, and the atmosphere froze immediately.

Shen Tinglan looked at Mei expressionlessly, her cheek muscles twitched slightly, as if she was holding back some emotion.

She just stared at Mei like this for a few seconds, her eyes were stiff, and the moment she turned to look at Huixue, her facial expression changed immediately, the corners of her lips were curled, and there was a gentle smile between her brows and eyes.

"Don't be afraid of Huixue, it's okay, I'm not angry."

She said to the empty side.

"That's enough! Miss Beryl!" Mei suddenly stood up and grabbed her skirt, pulling at her and yelling, "There is no one around you!"

As he spoke, he forcefully turned Shen Tinglan's face to the side, and splashed cold water in that direction, "Open your eyes to see clearly...!"

"Pay attention to your words and deeds!" Shen Tinglan cursed back furiously, slapped Mei directly, shook off her hand, tightly protected Huixue curled up at the side, and kept comforting her:

"Don't be afraid, Huixue, she is crazy, she wants to hurt you. Let's ignore her, shall we?"

"Beryl!" Mei burst out with extreme restraint, she walked around the table and reached out to grab Shen Tinglan.

The waiter beside her kept calling her, "Miss! Miss! Please don't do this!"

All the noisy volume penetrated straight into Shen Tinglan's eardrums without leaving room to breathe. She tried her best to hug the things in her arms and screamed loudly.

Several men pulled Shen Tinglan away with all their strength, and a dining car lost its balance and fell to the ground during the pull. Shen Tinglan suddenly looked around in horror, as if he had lost something, and wailed in pain:

"Grey Snow! Gray Snow!!"

Her eyes were flushed with anxiety, and she almost cried:

"You scared Huixue away!!"

Shen Tinglan rushed out of the restaurant and ran on the street in a lost direction. The bright sun shone on her shadow crawling on the ground. The woman's long hair was disheveled, her face was so pale that she lost blood, and she screamed hysterically along the way:

"Guixue! Huixue! Don't run away again! I promise you..."

Pedestrians around all glanced at her with eyes of foreign objects, whispered to each other, and some even hesitated whether to call the police.

Shen Tinglan stumbled and fell on the sidewalk, the noise of the traffic crowd squeezed her, there are so many ways to kill a person, so that living is actually a million times easier than dying.

Poor, terrible, ridiculous, which word would be more appropriate to describe her now.

Shen Tinglan was lying on the street, looking at the dizzy white sun, with tears still streaming from the corners of his eyes, he burst out laughing inexplicably on the street.

The world has long since abandoned her.

The windows of the house were sealed, dark and bleak, and it was the only place that smelled of gray snow.

For countless days and nights, Shen Tinglan curled up sickly and crazily and hugged her, repeatedly, unceasingly, and obsessively calling out:

"Huixue, tell me you love me, okay..."

"Huixue, tell me you need me, okay..."

"Ash Snow..."

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The author has something to say:

Question: Hasn't Mei already been imprisoned for the crime? Why does it still appear?

Answer: Because Mei is also Shen Tinglan's illusion.