I'm probably not human anymore

A ghost exuding a ghostly aura appeared in front of his eyes. It had a black complexion, strands of loose long hair stuck together, and pupilless eyes staring blankly ahead.

It was still wearing the clothes it had when it died, and it had a hole on the left side of its head, which was caused by the head being thrown on the car when it hit the vehicle. The blood flow couldn't stop at all. When Jiang Si saw the body, The hole in the head is no longer bleeding...

At that time, Jiang Si couldn't remember many things clearly. He didn't know how he survived. He was in a daze during those days. When he broke free from that state, he couldn't remember many things clearly, but when his mother died The way he looked, he never forgot.

He has been thinking, rather than disappearing completely, than never seeing her again in this life, he would rather his mother come back in a weird form, at least he can see her again, even if it is weird, he doesn't care, but he really sees it in a weird form Jiang Si's mother, Jiang Si is still very uncomfortable, very tormented.

Looking at his mother who was full of spooky aura, Jiang Si approached step by step. He missed her very much. His only support for so many years was his mother's advice. mother...

Ever since this ghost appeared, Jiang Si's reaction was not right. Looking at his current state, Bo Huai immediately looked at the ghosts and carefully identified them. Every one of them had black and blue skin and a ghostly aura all over them, and many of them kept their dead appearances. , All kinds of terrifying and hideous appearances may appear, and it is difficult to recognize people who are not very familiar with them at a glance.

Bo Huai stared at the ghost for a long while, vaguely felt that the ghost looked familiar, contacted Jiang Si's reaction, Bo Huai suddenly realized something, and looked at the ghost in front of him in surprise.

"Mom, I'm Jiang Si, look at me..." Jiang Si stood in front of the ghost with a trembling voice, hoping that his mother would take a look at him.

Ghosts are ignorant, as if they have no sense of the outside world.

"Mom, the life-eater created by Jiang Silin has completely disappeared. We are all safe and free. Will you go home with me? Our home is still there, let's go home..." Jiang Si's left hand held his mother's cold With stiff hands, my mother still didn't respond, and Jiang Si's long-storing tears couldn't be stopped.

Looking at the scene in front of him, Bo Huai suddenly wanted to smoke. He hadn't smoked for a while, so he lit the Yinluo cigarette and took a deep breath.

Although Jiang Silin was dead, his threat to Jiang Si's mother and son did not end. Jiang Si's mother, Zhuang Xian, died at the hands of a life-eating ghost. She was not like everyone else, and she was gone when she died. After she died, she became It's weird, it's been controlled by the life-eater all the time, the life-eater wants to kill Jiang Si in many ways, why doesn't Jiang Si want to hunt the life-eater?

The smog was lingering, dragging the pain in Bao Huai's heart, for both Jiang Si and himself.He didn't know what Jiang Si did. Jiang Si didn't need him to know or help him. He solved the life-eating ghost and rescued Zhuang Xian by himself. What Jiang Si said earlier was to leave him alone and not save him. , the purpose should also be to draw out the life eaters.

This is the first time Bo Huai has experienced this feeling of being completely untrusted and unneeded. He knows that Jiang Si has a secret, and if Jiang Si doesn't tell it, he won't ask, but he still hopes that Jiang Si can make a decision before making a decision. Let him know in advance that he doesn't need to intervene, but he has to know Jiang Si's whereabouts, and then lead the whole team to search for someone like headless chickens.

Looking at the crying teenager standing in front of his mother's weirdness, Bo Huai couldn't get angry even if he wanted to, leaving only a tearing pain in his heart.

In the end, he is just a child who has just grown up. For a child as old as him, who is not loved by his parents? Only he has experienced so many ups and downs since he was a child. It is strange that he is so stubborn and persistent in looking for his mother. He missed his mother, even if it was weird, he wanted to see his mother again.

The dead came back, always reminding the living that she was no longer there, how miserable and painful she was when she died, tearing open the scabbed wounds time and time again, the dead were in pain, and the living were also in pain.

Such heart-piercing pain seems to be passed on. Watching him cry like this, Bo Huai was in pain. It was hard for him to imagine Jiang Si, who was only 13 years old, how broken and desperate he was when he saw his mother's body, and how he was alone. How did someone take care of his mother's funeral, and how did he walk down alone... If possible, Bo Huai didn't want Jiang Si to see Zhuang Xian's weirdness. Its existence is a valve of pain, and it hurts every time he looks at it.

After smoking a cigarette, Bo Huai let out a breath slowly, and walked towards Jiang Si. He wanted to know what Jiang Si planned in the future, no matter what secrets he had, as long as he didn't do things that would harm society or human beings, no matter how big it was, Bo Huai was willing to carry it for him.

This is a responsibility that he couldn't shirk from the moment they met again, from the moment he got Jiang Si's information, and he didn't want to shirk it, he was willing to take this responsibility, Jiang Si said he didn't hate him, but Bo Huai couldn't ignore his own mistake.

Before Bo Huai could speak, Jiang Si spoke first.

"The night when I came back from Fanshi, the life-eater devoured enough people to leave Jiang Silin's side. It appeared in front of me for the first time, and used its intangible and intangible ability to take my life. It defended me once with the spirit pattern. Sirius protected me for the second time, and I don't know when the third attack will come, I have used all the means I can, if I do it again, I will die."

"But I didn't die, I survived. When the life-eater was about to take my life, my mother's weirdness appeared for the first time. It was fused into the body by the life-eater, and it broke free and entangled the life-eater. , It told me to run away, and I watched it being swallowed by the life-eater's ghost energy in order to save me, until the last second it was swallowed by the ghost energy, it was looking at me."

"It was a big shock to me at the time. In my eyes, it was undoubtedly that my mother died again. I couldn't control my emotions, broke down and cried bitterly. When I finally calmed down, I made a decision. As long as I am still alive, I must rescue my mother. .”

"In the underground parking lot, the life-eater swallowed a part of the membrane of the realm, and drilled through the deepest hole in the membrane of the realm. I realized that it was a strange field, and the strange field was not open. I wanted to find the life-eater again. I'm afraid this life is hopeless."

"I hate Jiang Silin, I wish I could kill him with my own hands. Seeing him die in front of my eyes, I suddenly feel that I am not so happy. My whole world is empty. There is no one related to me in this big world. I don't know that I am alive. What is the meaning of it, the person I hated the most is gone, the mother who just raised hope and wanted to be saved is gone, I have nothing to worry about, living or dying is actually the same..."

Jiang Si finally raised his eyes to look at Bo Huai, "You must have seen my state at that time, so you told me that as long as people are alive, there is hope. If I don't know how to go on, I might as well follow you first, and you take me with you." Let me walk forward... Just like back then, you told me with certainty that I am not a monster. I am a human child just like other children, and I stopped my cognitive deviation in time. After so many years, no matter what What strange things happened around me, I always believed that I was human."

Jiang Si paused before saying: "If you hadn't planted in me the cognition of 'I am a human child' very early on, I might...really become the monster they say..."

Since everyone said he was a monster, shouldn't it be taken for granted that he really became a monster?But he can't, he is human cognition, and he can't abandon it no matter what.

Human identity is his final bottom line.

Bo Huai's heart skipped a beat, as if he understood something, he held Jiang Si's arm tightly, he had so many things to ask and many things to say, but he didn't know where to start all of a sudden.

Jiang Si looked at him, "Thank you, thank you for giving me a hand at that time, I followed you to the present, I found and rescued my mother. And I'm sorry, I promised you that before making certain decisions Let me tell you in advance, I didn't do it, I didn't listen to you, I left privately to chase the life-eater, this is the last time, even if I break my promise, I will do it, as long as the life-eater appears, I can't let it I ran away. Now that the matter is settled, I will tell you if there is anything in the future, can you not be angry? "

Bo Huai's heart was sore, swollen and painful, all kinds of feelings were complicated and unspeakable, "You...would you care if I'm angry?"

Jiang Si nodded immediately, he cared very much, he was very worried that Bo Huai would get angry, and when he left the team for the first time to deal with Mrs Lingming, so that they would be easy to find, Bo Huai told him that he would talk to him before making certain decisions in the future. He said a word, Jiang Si agreed but failed to do so.

This time the situation seems to be more serious than last time. He doesn't know how long it has been. He has a complete memory loss. Why did he appear here in Dwarf Mountain?Jiang Si didn't know anything, and had no impression at all.

Looking at his red eyes, Bo Huai couldn't help asking, "Why?"

Jiang Si: "I just don't want to make you angry. If you ignore me when you are angry, I will feel uncomfortable too."

Bo Huaiding stared at him for a long time before saying: "For me not to be angry and you not to feel bad, can you honestly answer a few questions for me?"

Jiang Si nodded in agreement.

Bo Huai: "Where did you go chasing the life-eater?"

Jiang Si: "I went to the weedy grass."

Jiang Si also went there, it seems that the indentation on the ground is not the ghost coffin going there privately.

Bo Huai: "What happened to you over there?"

Jiang Si: "..."

Jiang Si took a peek at Bo Huai's expression, and Bo Huai looked at him expressionlessly.

Jiang Si had a hunch that if he dared to talk nonsense this time, Bo Huai would definitely not be as simple as being angry, "The life-eater led me there on purpose, it set a trap there, and there is a very huge The Strange Thread Grass, the life-eater exploded into a ball of ghost energy and was absorbed by the huge Strange Thread Grass. I was stimulated at the time, thinking that my mother disappeared with the Life-Eating Ghost, and then... just..."

Bo Huai: "So what?"

Jiang Si shook his head, "I don't know, it feels like I've been drunk, and it's broken into pieces. I heard from the ghost coffin that I took care of the huge creepy weed, so that my mother can escape. The ghost coffin came out to pick up the leak, and my mother's weirdness was caught by it." Swallow it in one gulp."

Bo Huai was not as vague as before, "How did you solve it?"

Jiang Si: "I don't remember, the ghost coffin didn't go into details, it just said that I killed the huge weed."

Bo Huai looked at him, and said after a while, "That is to say, you don't even remember where you went after that?"

Jiang Si nodded, "I saw you when I woke up, I thought the life eater was still alive, so I hurried to the Stray Thread Grass..."

Bo Huai knew that what Jiang Si said this time was the truth, and it could be seen from various traces that he did not lie.

Bo Huai stared into his eyes, "The last question, who solved Mrs. Lingming?"

Jiang Si hesitated for a moment, he even told about personally exterminating the giant weed weed, it's not impossible to tell about it, and he didn't want to keep it from him anymore, he didn't want to continue making up nonsense, he didn't want to cover it with a lie a lie.

"It's me. I fought with Mrs. Lingming. My injury was not caused by the life-eater, but by Mrs. Lingming and me."

Jiang Si looked at him, waiting for his next question. Next, he should ask how he solved Mrs. Lingming, right?Will ask him what?Is he human or weird?

If he asks, Jiang Si will consider telling him that these secrets of his are already on the surface, and this is where his mother's weirdness lies. He will never give up on his mother no matter what. He is not afraid of anything anymore. In human society, he will choose a place in the realm and take his mother to live in the realm...

Jiang Si was ready, but Bo Huai didn't continue to ask, he said, "Are you sure you want to take it back?"

Jiang Si was stunned for a moment, recalling the fact that he hid Bo Huai's mother back then. Apart from not wanting to expose his inhuman side, he was also worried that Bo Huai would stop him from saving his mother. After all, her mother is weird, and she tried her best to save a weird, normal one. People should not be able to understand that if the mother is completely unconscious and only knows the strangeness of killing, Jiang Si will still save him, but he should not take it with him. He may trap mother's strangeness and stop letting it go out to harm others.

Jiang Si said: "I want to take my mother back, I will definitely restrain her, is that okay?"

There should be no one in the editor who would agree to a person bringing weirdness into the city. This is irresponsible for the safety of other people. Although he can guarantee that nothing will happen, how many people believe in him?

Bo Huai: "How do you restrain yourself?"

Jiang Si: "I can let the ghost coffin absorb all the weirdness, empty the ghost coffin, and let my mother live in the ghost coffin. Normally, as long as the coffin lid is not opened, mother can't appear casually."

As long as he carries the ghost coffin with him, it is equivalent to carrying his mother with him.

The ghost coffin, which was as quiet as a chicken, immediately popped up a dialog box.

[Ghost coffin: I disagree, my ghost coffin cannot be without weirdness. 】

Jiang Si cast a glance, "I'm not negotiating with you, for the sake of you not hurting my mother's weirdness, let's expose the matter of your sneak attack on me, and next time you will be gone, I will do what I say. "

【Ghost coffin: ...】

Being controlled by others, what else can I do besides agreeing?

Bo Huai: "You want to keep it closed like this?"

Jiang Si: "It won't be too long, when I think of a way to help my mother regain her sanity..."

This is what Bo Huai is most worried about, "You want to turn it into a ghost?"

Jiang Si was silent.

Bo Huai's expression became serious, "Jiang Si, it's weird and uncontrollable. If you really turn it into a weird ghost, the final result is likely to be far beyond your control. So far, we haven't seen one Only a real ghost, I don't want you to do such a dangerous thing."

Whether the ghosts are really immortal is temporarily uncertain. Just having consciousness is dangerous enough. It is too late for human beings to destroy the ghosts. If it is artificially created, if it is spread, it is simply anti-human.

Bo Huai's situation is quite special. He and the Creeping Vine are in the same body and cannot be separated. The Creeping Vine has consciousness to make it easier for them to communicate. He is not trying to cultivate the Creeping Vine, but to tame it, so there is no need for it to become a ghost [-]% , as long as he has consciousness and can communicate, his ultimate goal is to survive, and the nature of the two is completely different.

Jiang Si continued to remain silent. It was impossible for him to watch his mother remain so ignorant. The mother was different from other weirdos. It had subconsciousness and knew how to protect its children. As long as the method was correct, it should be able to recover some sanity.

Bo Huai knew that Jiang Si had already had a strange idea, and he couldn't stop it without persuasion, unless he could come up with a new way of thinking.

Bo Huai said: "Even if your mother really turned into a weird spirit, it is still weird after all. Have you ever thought about using the way of painting pet spirits to give it a completely different way of existence?"

Bo Huai didn't understand Jiang Si's ability, nor did he know if he could draw pet spirits, or if he could also draw other existences. He said this just to dispel Jiang Si's idea of ​​creating ghosts, to give him a different way of thinking, and let him forget about it for a while. spooky thing.

Jiang Si was stunned for a long time, and an idea quickly took shape in his mind. He couldn't wait to try it. What would happen if he painted dead people like pet spirits?If it can be successful, such an existence is definitely better than weirdness, and the higher the spiritual value of pet spirits, the more they are no different from real pets, except that they have no vital signs, they are almost exactly the same as life forms, if mother can reach that level, He is willing to make Jiang Si pay any price!

Jiang Si nodded, "You're right, I'll study it carefully when I get back."

Bo Huai didn't expect him to be so persuasive, and one sentence made him change his mind.

Jiang Si said: "So, can I bring my mother back to live in Qingshi?"

Looking at him, Bo Huai suddenly wanted to know another answer, "If I say no, what are your plans?"

Jiang Si smiled lightly, "Human society can't go back, I must find a new shelter."

Bo Huai's face immediately sank, and Jiang Si almost said clearly that if the human society does not accept them, he will take his mother to live in the weird field!

"Don't even think about it! You must remember that no matter what happens, you must not forget your identity, you are a human being!"

The smile on Jiang Si's face gradually faded, "If human society no longer accepts me, what should I do?"

Bo Huai said solemnly: "No matter what happens, I will stand by your side. If you have any problems, I will take care of them for you. I will not leave you alone again. Don't worry."

Jiang Si stared at him blankly, his eyes turned red again.

He smiled and nodded, "I remember."