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[It's the night of the fifth.

Because I have been thinking for a long time and have not found anything to do, so I decided to take advantage of this spare time to write this last letter. By the time you receive it, I may have left this world.

--Etc., etc!Don't show that stupid expression!No matter who it is!My leaving is a great thing for me, so you must not trick me into coming back with this kind of boring tears!

Although I lost the confrontation with myself, although I regret that I did not win in the end, I have never regretted being thrown to this world as a joke by that annoying god.

Yes, seeing this, you may wonder whether the joke I always said about the gods really exists-it does exist, and I was forced to leave my home and come to this world that is quite strange to me. I hate it The gods still say that this is a gift, so this is completely treating my pain as a toy.

Forget it, don't mention that nasty god, I'm going back anyway, just treat it as being bitten by a nasty brat.

But since you have read this letter, then you should also understand, right?No matter from Ishida's mouth or Dazai Osamu's mouth, you should understand that leaving is just the way I choose, and maybe one day I will meet you in another world, so everyone see Put away the sad expression here!If I see it, I will be very distressed!

I don't know exactly what Ishida will tell you, ah, but according to his personality, he may tell you everything in one breath, regardless of whether he should say it or not, because of guilt and sadness.Thinking about it, it is really a nightmare. Telling you everything I have done is simply a social death no less than a public execution!

Good thing I was actually dead before social death (laughs)

Well, although the imagination is terrible, if he really said everything, it will be very convenient for you to understand this letter I leave you.

I can also understand my choice very well.

...I, I know I'm sick——

To put it slightly exaggerated, I knew I was sick when we met.It's just that it was far less serious than it is now, as long as you don't think about it, you can still control the troublesome other self.

Besides, every day was quite busy at that time, and there was only a very short time at night when I was alone. Even if I sometimes suffered from illness, I didn’t stick to it for too long. As long as I woke up after sleeping, I would put it aside again. up.

But, maybe five years ago, maybe six years ago? ——Forgive me for the confusion and delusions in my memory of the past. Sometimes I think about whether my life here is a dream, or my life on the other side is my fantasy. problem.

Anyway, it was a few years ago that I started to lose control of these nasty thoughts... I sort of remembered, it seems to be when I just started doing interesting tarot divination, it was nine years ago, I passed Divination saw the future - since then, I have lost control of my own brain.

Since then, every time I see a new future, I feel that my spirit is getting heavier and heavier. The pictures of the future I see keep floating in front of my eyes, like insomnia, or feeling depressed for no reason started showing up in my life.

Then, you guys leave, and then, I become a cartoonist, and in this rather uninspired period of time, I officially realize that I am indeed sick.

When people are vulnerable, they can’t help but want to go home. Maybe in the eyes of others, I am committing suicide or looking for death, but it’s not, it’s just a way for me to go home... Ah, it’s really a feeling to write here It's really sad that one day I will go back to my home by killing myself-as expected, the joke of the gods is really a terrible thing for ordinary people.

Ishida must have said that he found me taking Valium, ah, I will never forget that terrible experience, I already saw the way home, but was dragged to the hospital for gastric lavage—vomit , I really feel dizzy when I think about it. Gastric lavage is definitely the scariest thing I have ever experienced in my life!

But that wasn't the first time I tried to go home.

I didn't plan to tell you guys at first, and letting that matter become a secret is the best ending I expected, but after thinking about it, in order to reduce your guilt a little, and prevent you fools from mistakenly thinking that I am sick because of you Yes, it's better to tell this matter, anyway, I will have left by the time you see it.

Hmm... that's the day, and it should be the day you just came back from ten years later - don't be surprised why I know you went to the future - I was sick so I didn't attend the dinner, I told you it was the wind blowing I have a cold, but I don't.

I know you guys won't be home for those three days, so I chose that day to try and get home for the first time.

Of course it failed. The river was too cold and I had a high fever.

But I see it.

When the water was over me, when I felt the river in my nose and throat, I saw a light above my head and out of the water.Ah, after all, it’s not a hopeless blackness. I thought about it at the time, and suddenly wanted to try to stay here again, so I started to struggle.

Therefore, it has nothing to do with you. I am not sick because of your departure, nor did I choose to leave because of you. This was a doomed result eight years ago.

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A pigeon flew in.

Sawada Tsunayoshi let go of the overly long letter.

If it hadn't been interrupted, he could have read the three pages in one breath while suppressing his sadness, but right now, he really couldn't muster up the energy to read the next words that seemed quite cruel now.

They went back to Yu Komori's room again, and out of some inexplicable feeling—perhaps it was the self-deception of human beings, who tricked themselves into pretending that the person who had left still existed in her room before her death—they decided to read Komori's book here. The last thing Yu left behind.

her suicide note.

No, in fact, in Ayu's own words, she didn't die, but returned to her own home-yes, she is not from this world, which may sound quite shocking, but in In this situation, they may be more relieved than shocked.

Ah - at least she can go back to her own home.

They think so.

Even if it is painful, they hope that Ayu can be happy. If going home can really make her happy, then they will bless her as much as possible.

However, the sorrow cannot be reduced.

Sawada Tsunayoshi has been evading for a long time, so long that everyone else has read Komori Hiroshi's suicide note and remained silent with a sullen face before he picked up the letter that seemed to have water on the last page.

But the sudden appearance of the pigeon interrupted him again, allowing him to escape for a while.

Escape the fact that Ah Yu is dead for a while.

The pigeon folded its two wings in front of its body, making a movement like a human being holding its arms, with a strange expression like a sneer on its face.It stopped by the window, opened its beak, and judged in a mocking tone: "Stupid! Stupid!"

Who are you judging?

Is it this group of sad humans around, or the owner of the letter?

"Ayu, you idiot!" Pigeon's red eyes were like plastic eyeballs, "It's a waste of effort!"

The idiot - quack quack - idiot -

The black-haired foreign man held a gun in his hand at some point. He raised his arm and pointed the gun at the pigeon expressionlessly. His dark obsidian eyes stared at it indifferently, as if it was already a dead thing.

"Following us all the way—" Reborn said, with a dark tone, "Is it time to say what purpose you have?"

The pigeon's eyes moved left and right. Although the expressions of the other people in the room still looked gloomy and depressed, they were all ready to fight. It seemed that as long as it made any move, it would kill all its threats immediately. .

It tilted its head, "Are you going to kill me?" A crow-like cry was squeezed from its throat*, it spread its wings and flew into the room, mockingly looking down at the group of humans who had just lost their friends.

The pigeon curled its wings and dodged the bullet that was speeding towards it through the air.

"I'm here to take you to see Lin Yu again. You actually want to kill me. It makes me so sad—"

"What's more, humans can't kill gods." Said the new gray pigeon that stopped at the window sill.

"It's like that idiot who always thinks that he can terminate my gift by dying? He even deceives himself into thinking that he has really returned home-quack quack!" The pigeon hovering in the air in the room screamed, "It's nothing but regret and despair after death!"

"—what do you mean?" someone asked.

"...Ayu, she - didn't she go back to another world?"

"Quack quack! Sure enough, human beings! Quack quacks are all idiots!" Gray Pigeon shouted with a smile.

The white pigeon stopped on Komori Yu's bed, and its paws jumped back and forth on the soft pillow. Hearing the gray pigeon's answer, it shook its head and said: "Humans want to cross the two universes, of course they have to dedicate their bodies , only consciousness can resist the turbulent flow of time and space—her body in another world, of course, is dead! This idiot! Quack quack! Both sides are dead now!"

"Ah—I realized this cruel truth before I died—" Another new pigeon appeared, leaning on the gray pigeon in front, "I heard that, the idiot Lin Yu's death Despair! Quack quack! She will never go back! Dead in vain! Stupid quack quack quack!"

The blood of the pigeons splattered everywhere, and their white feathers were covered with scarlet, but this could not stop their voices, because new ones would be born from the dead pigeons, and they shouted the painful picture of the woman before she died, mocking the woman's death. Stupid, completely trampled on the comfort in their hearts before.

Oh she's dead.

said a pigeon.

She will never go home.

said another pigeon.

She discovered the truth before she died, and desperately wanted to call for help.

said the third pigeon.

"This is - my gift -!"

The pigeons shouted in unison.

That woman, no matter her name is Komori Yu or Lin Yu, she thinks that her death is the way to go back, more enough to return to the world that belongs to her, and she is no longer out of place, but no matter which world there is no place for her—— Ga!She is dead!Died in another world, died stupidly in this world too!

What a poor fellow.

Pigeon shook his head thinking.

So, it wants to make that guy happy-it's a lie, its drama is only halfway through, how can the protagonist leave the stage!If you don't succeed once, try again, it will make that idiot happy in this world!

O eternal happiness!

The author has something to say:

Ah this-

Ben Goo has absolutely nothing to do with the pigeons in the article!

I am an innocent and cute pigeon who can only coo, and the tax evader inside has absolutely nothing to do with me! (Come on, warrior of love, let Mina-san be happy XD

So far, the first volume is here, writing the healing cake will heal me completely.

Let's get started on Real Sugar Cookies Roll [-]!

I will revise this chapter a little at night. XD I feel that it will be more interesting to refine some places (I don’t have the heart

——The next little bit, please read carefully.

I saw.

The water flooded my nose, my eyes, my throat, my ears were hurting, the feeling of suffocation was so bad that I wanted to give up and leave.

But I saw that light.

Overhead, that little light, that must be the way home—

wait wait wait!

I remember - I remember -

At this time, I finally remembered.

What the god said.

"The fragile human body cannot resist the turbulence of time and space."

Yes, that's right, that's right!

That's right—

I will never go home again.

At the moment of death, I finally realized this cruel truth.

感谢在2020-08-2101:01:18~2020-08-2116:32:52期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 5 bottles of secret;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!