Fool's Love

Being in love is pain.

I'm sure the last time Miami was drinking was in July.That day she went home as usual, but there was a lot of noise, clanging and rattling.

I was doing my homework on the second floor, and when I heard the crisp sound, I thought something had broken.

Going down to the first floor, I saw Mei Hai picking up things that fell on the ground.Her hair was messy, and even when she was bent over, her figure was still unsteady.

The living room was not turned on, and I squinted to see what she picked up.I'm afraid she fell down just now, and the things in the bag fell out. Various skin care products and cosmetics of different sizes were spread all over the floor.

Mimi was like a woman picking up shells on the beach, clutching her long skirt in her hands, unsteadily lowering her head to pick it up.

I quickly stepped forward and turned on the light.Under the sudden bright light, Mei Hai was wearing a high-heeled shoe, and the other shoe was left at the door, looking embarrassed.

I knelt down to help her pick up the little things scattered on the ground.Mei Hai reeked of alcohol.

I'm not good at dealing with drunks, so I said go get some water in the kitchen.Just as I was about to leave, Mei Hai suddenly grabbed me.

Under the wet bangs curled like seaweed, a face like a water ghost slowly emerged.

I stood there in a daze, unable to say a word.Miss Mei Hai, who is usually high-spirited, now seems to have shrunk her whole face, her lips are shaking all the time, and her makeup is also smeared, as if she just got caught in the rain.Meanwhile, the high pressure of still dry summer permeates the room.

We stalemate for a while.It would be great if it was a meaningful silence, such as being able to achieve the effect of "everything goes without saying" through eye contact-now they are simply looking at each other.

After holding back for a while, I finally asked her: "Miss Mikai, have you been drinking?" It was a meaningless question.

"Are you a dummy?"

Mimi-san beat my back like a tantrum.Her energy is very small, like a cat hitting me.

I helped her onto the sofa, went to the kitchen to pour some sober honey water, and returned to the living room.

In other words, a few years ago, there would be hangover medicine at home. Later, my father suffered from liver problems and quit drinking according to the doctor's advice. The hangover medicine was removed from the regular medicine list in my family.As for Mei Hai, this is the first time I've seen her drunk like this.

"How do you drink like this?"

"It's not because of Yano... Nozomi Yano! Hateful..."

Miami cursed in an angry voice.Nozomi Yano was her ex-boyfriend, a man who was a little too fashionable, with many pierced ears and dyed blond hair. He was not tall, but he had a strong physique.

I didn't have a good impression of him during his relationship with my sister, and thought he was too ostentatious.

However, it has been more than a year since they broke up. When I heard this name from Miss Meihai again, I was a little surprised.

"What happened to him? You still have contact with him?"

"No, I broke up with him a long time ago." Mei Hai propped one hand on the sofa, pressed her lips against the edge of the glass, sipping the sugar water inside bit by bit.

"No emotion at all?"

"Feelings? Of course! Feelings like enemies."

Her voice was vicious.After taking a gulp of warm honey water, Miss Mikai knocked the glass on the table with a "boom".She turned to look at me again, with a little drunkenness in her eyes.

"Ryoji, what do you think love is?"

The problem came out of nowhere.

I think Mei Hai may have forgotten one thing: I am only in the first year of high school, and I have never been in a relationship.I racked my brains for a while, and finally replied timidly, "Is it romance?"

"It's shit, shit, you simple fool."

Maybe it was because she woke up a little bit, but Mei Hai seemed to be calmer.

"When you like something, the most taboo is to get too close. No matter how beautiful something is, if you look at it from a distance, it will be full of flaws after zooming in.

Like sea water, no matter how clear the water above is, there is an astonishing amount of rot underneath.And my love, in the end, is pure shit.No, it should be Yano, Yano is shit. "

"What's up with him?"

"Didn't I tell you?"

"No,...I haven't even met him a few times. I don't have a good impression of him."

"You are right."

Miami drank the honey water as if drinking alcohol.

"He cheated. It's not that I was jealous and caught him talking to girls-I always turned a blind eye to it.

The results of it?He was chatting with someone and went to the hotel, so I kicked him.This incident is not the root cause, but the fuse.

If the love accumulated in the past is as deep as it is, the hatred will be as deep as it is—that was the state of Yano and I before the incident happened.

This is where most of the love goes, right?The dislike for each other has long been unable to hide, only some illusory memories of loving each other still remain, like hallucinations.

Because of the deepest hatred I have accumulated so far, I have the idea of ​​​​drawing away, but I am caught by a small and huge love.Even if it's not to the extent of pooping, it's still painful, right?Yes, love is pain.Continued Cup. "

As if one person was playing two roles, Miss Mimi was sitting on the sofa, talking with honey water.

Today she is extraordinarily talkative.I retracted the statement that she seems to have woken up a little bit from alcohol. I'm afraid she can get drunk even if she drinks honey.

"And then?" I poured another half a glass of honey water for her, "That was a year ago, why are you so drunk today?"

"Because I got a call from him, and he said he wanted to get back with me in a jerk-like voice. Wow! That voice on the phone—

"Although it's my problem, I've already reflected on it deeply"——he spoke with an electronic voice!

The voice kept shaking.It really makes people laugh out loud.But unfortunately, I have no nostalgia for him at all. "

"That's what I was thinking when I got the call."

Mei Hai changed the topic, her eyes suddenly became soft and hazy.

"I thought about the time when I was with him. What I remember most clearly was a birthday. We went to a nearby commercial street to eat barbecue. I ordered a piece of meat that was [-] yen. I grilled it carefully, but the result was still Burnt, because it has not been turned over for a long time, the back is completely burnt black.

I felt distressed watching it, and Yano also said that it should not be wasted.He covered it with a big spoonful of Haagen-Dazs and ate it.

I laughed at him saying that no one dipped barbecued meat in ice cream, but in retrospect, he was just trying to make me laugh.

"My heart softened for a moment. Fortunately, in the end, reason prevailed. I always felt uneasy, so I called Yano's classmate who was in the same university.

As a result, he told me that Yano dated five or six girls during the year—isn’t this just a scumbag?

Showing mercy everywhere, and finally turned around and said "ah, I still like you" - who would appreciate it! "

Mihai was so angry that she spoke very fast.

"Most of the time, my heart is made of cotton, and if it really ignites, it will ignite a raging fire. Thinking that Yano turned out to be this kind of person-although I am not surprised, I am angry.

I went to drink. I said that I would forget when I drank, but the more I drank, the anger at Yano dissipated, and the anger at myself that I didn't know people burned up.I don't remember how much I drank.On the way back, everything I saw was ghosted. "