Fool's Love

Want to be as beautiful as a ditch mouse.

"Just work harder."

"I'm a patient."

I smiled bitterly and looked at Masumi with a frown.He was only wearing a thin shirt, and the collar was sparkling with precious stones, dangling back and forth before my eyes.

"No, try again." He grabbed my hand and pressed it to his face.

"Forget it then." I shook my head and said, "Just now, I made an oath in my heart."

"What oath?"

"I won't do anything to you in the future. The reason why I did that obsessive act last time was because I was in an extremely bad mood at the time. Looking back afterwards, even I myself don't understand why I did that.

I've been agonizing over this for days, feeling like I have to apologize to you, but I don't have the guts to face you.

The only thing that is clear is one thing: the thing that hurts me the most is the fact that I hit you at that time.Either way, violence is wrong and only increases suffering.So I have to swear to you. "

"Is this something that needs to be taken so seriously..."

Masumi didn't expect me to say that, and was a little at a loss.I immediately interrupted him: "No—it's better to say that if I don't make such a guarantee, my heart will not be stable. After all, I don't want to be the kind of person who will resort to violence."

This sounds too reasonable even to me.At this point, Masumi couldn't say anything more.

-

Not long after, by chance, I began to rethink the confession to Masumi.

Yes, if the conversation between me and Masumi in the infirmary was a promise between me and Masumi, then what I'm thinking about right now is a promise between me and myself.

When I accidentally met Sasaki at the comic exhibition, I thought about this question briefly, and now I just reconfirmed it.

——I want to confess to Masumi after the manga I collaborated with Masumi wins the publication.

That day we went to see Mancai together again.The same combination, the same theater, and the same scripts, Masumi still laughs hard.

Halfway through the show, wiping tears of laughter with his hands, he leaned in and whispered, "I used to want to be a comedian too. Isn't that fun? Isn't it fun? Let's do it." "

I guess he was playing stupid again, and responded in a stupid tone: "Actually, I also had a dream of being a bungee jumper. I wanted to jump on a bridge over the deepest canyon in the world and jump off with a rope tied to my body. Isn't that Is it fun?"

Masumi nodded, "It's really interesting."

There was no air circulation in the theater, my mind was dizzy, and I was hot all over. I left the show and went to the lobby to buy mineral water.

At this time, I accidentally saw a poster posted at the entrance saying that the karaoke upstairs in the theater had a recent discount.

I haven't sung for a long time, it's really itchy.After returning to my seat, I immediately asked Masumi for my opinion, and Masumi agreed, and the two went to sing together after the performance.

Masumi has no preference for music, he listens to both domestic and foreign songs, while I like old songs from the last century.

Masumi is very clear about this.He said it was because the song "Blue Hearts" was in the original script I told him for the first time.

I'm more surprised that he remembers a small detail of our conversation so clearly than that he knows the band.

"Then, then I will sing their song next..."

"Ah."

Seeing Masumi nodding, I quickly rushed to the song selection screen, picked and picked for a while, and finally decided to sing the famous song called "リンダリンダ (Linda Linda)".

【Want to be as beautiful as a ditch mouse】

[That is the beauty that cannot be photographed]

[I want to be gentler than anyone else like a ditch mouse]

【Want to be warmer than anything like a ditch rat】

I'm tone deaf in singing and just love the freedom to roar out loud.Halfway through singing, I accidentally saw Masumi, and suddenly felt my cheeks burn.

The chorus of that song is a series of "LInda", which sounds like "Darling".

It's just me and Masumi, this confession-like atmosphere, confession-like words——

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but panic, and my voice trembled.Masumi didn't know anything about it, so he just sat facing me, listening to my singing calmly.

Every word of this song can be counted as my heart's voice - I hope Masumi understands?

Yes, of course!The reason why he couldn't express his heart was because he was afraid of being rejected by him.

When will we wait?While singing, this question naturally came to mind.

Since the sports meeting, I seem to have fallen into an increasingly fanatical obsession with Masumi.

Obviously I am the tall person, but I often feel that Masumi looks down on me with that gaze.

He seems to be able to tolerate everything about me, with the kindness of a Bodhisattva.

Sometimes this thought crosses my mind: If only Masumi and I had never known each other from the beginning!

That way, I won't be tormented like this by the joys, sorrows and joys of being with Masumi.

However, such troubles always disappear when seeing Masumi.There was a smile on his face, and all the haze seemed to dissipate - Masumi is a person with such incredible power.

"If you want to be as beautiful as a ditch mouse, that is the beauty that cannot be captured by photos..."

With the microphone in hand, I continued to sing.I have also listened to BlueHearts for several years, and this is the first time I have sung so sadly.

After singing K, Masumi and I came out of the store.Both of them were wearing down jackets. It was already winter, and the whole world had turned into a huge freezer.

"It's so cold!" I exclaimed.The air exhaled from his mouth turned into white mist, which gradually dissipated after staying in the cold-toned field of vision for a while, "But it's a pity that it didn't snow."

"It rarely snows in Osaka," Masumi said.

"In previous years, there is a chance to see snow in a few days..." I continued, "I have seen it a few times before. It is really a good sight! Although the snow does not accumulate too deep, it is very novel."

"Yamagishi likes snow?"

"I can't really say... No, I think it should be said this way: It's already so cold, but you can't see snowflakes, you will inevitably feel a disadvantage."

"Hey, I understand, I understand." Masumi said, adding a hint of a smile to his tone, "The climate in Osaka is still warm. If you want to see snow, it would be better to go to the north. I remember that the school trip is to Hokkaido, right? Not only can you see the snow, but there are bears in the deep mountains there.”

While chatting, we happened to pass by a bakery shop that we had seen in Tandian Variety Show, so we went in and settled for dinner by the way.

There, Masumi and I enjoyed the Manaka Mochi presented by our seniors, and it was indeed delicious.