The world doesn't fit me

It's a big deal to turn around, there is me behind you.

After a long time, Lu Chen still had no clue about finding a job.Every time he gave up on himself, he couldn't help but be thankful that he had found a promising boyfriend. Compared with himself who was doing nothing, he gave up on himself even more.

Fu Yanchuan was fortunate enough to witness his entire mental journey, and he couldn't laugh or cry.

"You don't have to rush, take your time."

He put the script aside, sat down in front of Lu Chen, and asked gently: "Why are you so obsessed with changing jobs? Wasn't it good to work full-time in Qingshu before?"

"It's good, but it's unstable." Lu Chen said, "The top streams of self-media are updated too quickly, and maybe one day the audience will not be interested in my video content."

"But this is a problem that many entrepreneurs are facing. Even the president of a top game company will worry about whether his company's works will be favored by young people every day when he wakes up. Even the boss of a daily necessities company, They will also be afraid of technological progress and make their products obsolete."

Fu Yanchuan said: "This is inevitable."

Lu Chen lowered his head and said nothing.

"And don't you think it's interesting to figure out how the public's preferences change?"

"That's true..." He nodded thoughtfully.

"What was your original intention for choosing the self-media industry?"

Lu Chen took it for granted: "Make money."

"What about other than that?"

"Hmm..." He thought for a while, "I'm quite interested in games."

"That's enough."

Fu Yanchuan remembered some old things, and smiled slightly: "When I graduated from university, I gave up the stable third-class dental study and chose to switch from online distribution to commercial distribution because of interest."

He got into dubbing from college.I took two classes by chance, and since then I have fallen in love with this industry and put a lot of energy into it.Of course, the rewards are also multiplied.

He had been confused before.

How could a dentist and a voice actor connect?The two industries have no similarity at all.

Until one time, Fu Yanchuan witnessed a person who studied finance and was in charge of business handover in a bank, successfully changed careers and became a voice actor.

If everyone else can, why can't he?

Since then, he has started to use online distribution as a sideline job, practicing basic skills and accepting business orders while practicing and verifying.

After getting the certificate, he was introduced by Fu Yuanshan to have actually found a tertiary hospital, and he can go directly to work.But instead of going, he turned his attention to the business partner.

A teacher who had taught Fu Yanchuan said that his condition was simply that God opened his mouth for him to eat.It was this sentence that strengthened his determination to turn into a business partner.

As for Lu Chen, he was able to gain millions of fans in such a short period of time. He must have talent and luck. What he lacks most at this stage is the affirmation from the outside world.

Otherwise, he has no motivation in this industry and no confidence to persevere.So at this moment will be confused.

"You have great potential, do you want to try to continue doing self-media?"

Fu Yanchuan looked at him: "Try a road to the dark, at worst, turn around, I'm behind you."

"I……"

"Don't you like it? You are still young, if you don't fight hard, you will really have no chance in the future."

Lu Shen nestled on the sofa, not knowing what to do.

The current life is very regular, but it does not conform to his style.He adjusted his time to cater to Fu Yanchuan, and looked for a job so that the two of them could have a more stable future.But now, Lu Chen suddenly felt that he seemed to have lost himself unintentionally.

He doesn't like to be in a rut, he doesn't like to be organized, he likes the challenge and the uncertainty from the very beginning.

At the beginning, the family was incomplete, which was a challenge for him when he was young. Later, his father had an accident, which was a challenge for him as he grew up. He lived in challenges for the first half of his life.Although I can't stop, although I have suffered pain, my heart is very full.

The facts tell him that he still wants to continue working in the self-media, otherwise he would not hesitate repeatedly when looking for a job.

He looked at Fu Yanchuan and smiled faintly: "Okay, I'll try."

After firming his mind, Lu Chen suddenly relaxed, and his chest became much more open.

Why didn't he realize that Fu Yanchuan had the talent to be a life mentor.

Seeing Lu Chen's thoughts go away, Fu Yanchuan thought of something: "By the way, I'm going to City B in a few days, do you want to go together?"

"City B? Is it for work?"

"Well, there is a show to participate in, and I will be responsible for the announcement and special guests."

"It's promising." Seeing that Fu Yanchuan's reputation is getting bigger and bigger, Lu Chen also feels that his face is smeared, "Go, of course, you must go."

There was a heavy rain that night, and the entire S city was severely washed away.

With the sound of thunder and rain outside the house, Lu Chen answered the phone and hung up with a serious expression on his face.

"Yan Chuan, I may not be able to go with you."

"Huh? What's wrong?"

"My grandfather is dying, and he is being rescued now. If there is no accident, he will leave in two days. No matter what, I have to go back."

The lights were dim, and Lu Chen's expression was vague, "It's okay, you work hard, I guess I'll be back after a week."

Lu Chen lowered his head to buy tickets online, his tone didn't show any sadness, as if this matter really didn't touch him much except shock.

Fu Yanchuan nodded: "OK."

After this rain, it will be summer.

Early the next morning, the sky was blue and the air was as fresh as if he had just recovered from a serious illness.

Lu Chen packed his luggage and waited for Fu Yanchuan to take him to the airport.

"So early?" Fu Yanchuan didn't dare to delay, and hurried out with him after eating something casually.

"Well, things got worse."

Lu Chen dragged the suitcase: "I called yesterday morning to say that the operation failed, and I will last until tomorrow at most."

Although the older generation is not familiar with him, no matter how you say it, they are relatives.Anyway, he has flesh and blood, so it is impossible to make him completely indifferent.

However, Lu Chen didn't take it too seriously. Except for Lu He, few people made him fall into grief again.

After arriving at the airport, Fu Yanchuan helped him unload his luggage and waited for the plane with him. Seeing that the time was coming, he held him in his arms: "Be careful, contact me if you need anything."

"Ah, you too."

Fu Yanchuan let go of his hand, and Lu Chen was gradually submerged in the crowd, and he didn't leave until he was completely out of sight.

Lu Chen quite likes flying.

Looking into the distance, it feels really good to have a bird's-eye view of the city, as if standing on the top of the mountains, all the peaks and white clouds are rushing towards him.

It only takes two hours by plane from City S to City C, but when he thinks that it will be a week before he sees his boyfriend again, Lu Chen feels suffocated.

As soon as he got off the plane, he reported to Fu Yanchuan that he was still not satisfied after sending the message, so he made a special phone call, feeling very tired.

He dragged his luggage and special products with his left hand, and held his mobile phone with his right hand. Because of the inconvenience, he had to temporarily throw the things aside and stand in the corner of the hall to talk.

"Hello, do you need help?"

Lu Chen paused, then turned to look at the person next to him.

The visitor was taller than him, smiling and looking very kind.Lu Chen didn't hate this person, but he still felt that there was no need to bother strangers, so he smiled: "No, thank you."

After being rejected, the man didn't feel anything, nodded and smiled and left.

"What's wrong with you?" Fu Yanchuan asked on the other end of the phone when he heard the voice.

"Ah..." Lu Chen came back to his senses, "Just now a tall and thin boy asked me if I needed help, it's fine, I didn't let me."

There was no response from the other side, Lu Chen asked strangely: "What's wrong?"

"I regret it a bit." Fu Yanchuan's voice on the other end was muffled, "Should I put off my work and come to accompany you?"

He hurriedly said, "Don't, don't."

don't...

Lu Chen didn't want to become the kind of enchantress in the myth that confuses people's hearts and makes men lose their self-motivation. If his king doesn't come to court early, he will die of guilt.

After talking on the phone with Fu Yanchuan, the heaviness in his heart was alleviated a lot, but this mood only lasted until he went home.

Lu Chen has a house in City C, which is now lived by the older generation.

Strictly speaking, it belonged to his father, but after Lu He's death, the property naturally went to his name.

He lived in that house for 18 years, and was persuaded out by the old people in the village when he was an adult.

It is said that they should enjoy the blessings when they are old. It is not suitable for Lu Chen, a junior, to live with the elderly.

He didn't think there was any problem, and he didn't complain. He took the four old people home from the village, turned around and rented a house in a very remote area, talked to the landlord, and sold it badly. , but can afford it.

After that, the older generation almost never asked him again, until Lu Chen started live broadcasting to make money.

Lu Chen didn't know how they got to know that their career had improved.

I only remember one day a few years ago, he slept until the afternoon because of the live broadcast until the early morning, and there was a knock on the door not long after he woke up. After that, he started to transfer money to the older generation card on a monthly basis.It was two or three thousand at the beginning, and then it went up a bit.

Lu Chen hadn't been back to this house for a long time, because it contained too much, and he was afraid that if he stayed for a long time, the memory would not be able to help but flood his heart, and accidentally flood it.

The furnishings in the room were similar to when he left, but relatively crowded.This is a good thing, a sign of popularity in the house.

"Lu Chen?" It was a strange yet familiar voice.

Lu Chen searched for this person in his memory, and then called out after a pause: "Grandpa."

"Aren't you in S City..." Grandpa's tone was stiff, with a bit of sternness in his indifference, "What are you doing here?"

Lu Chen took it for granted, and didn't take the rejection in his words to heart: "Grandpa's condition is not good, I'll come back to see him."

"Look at that old man? You want to see him go straight to the hospital." He walked into the bedroom after speaking, as if he didn't want to stay for a moment.

Lu Chen responded, put the fresh fruits and S City specialties he bought on the coffee table in the living room, and went to the toilet to wash his hands.

"Xiao Chen came back, why didn't you say anything?" The old woman's complaining voice came from behind Lu Chen's ears, "Xiao Chen, have you eaten yet?"

"I've eaten grandma." He turned around and smiled.

In fact, he didn't eat anything at all, and he planned to eat something casually on the way to the hospital later.

Grandma took Lu Chen for a few days when she was a child, and she treated him better among the older generation.But I can't say how close I am, I can only say that it's not bad.

Just like going to a relative's house during the Chinese New Year, he was polite to Lu Chen and never broke his face.

Everyone knows this.

Lu Chen answered like this, but grandma didn't keep him, and she gave up after a few polite words.

Before he went out, he vaguely heard the conversation in the bedroom, the voice was so small that he couldn't hear clearly, and he could only vaguely recognize "he... is unlucky" and "whatever... you can't say a few words...".

Lu Chen didn't care, closed the door and left.

Having lived in C City for more than 20 years, he is very familiar with the streets and alleys here, and he can even recite which shops are on the side of any asphalt road.So he didn't have to ask which hospital grandpa went to, he just relied on his feeling.

After returning from S City, he felt a strong sense of belonging, and the flowers and trees around him were very kind.

Perhaps this is the charm of hometown.No matter how prosperous other cities are, they can't compare to the ironing in my heart when I return to my hometown.

Lu Chen asked the nurse, got his grandfather's ward number, and searched for each room along the corridor.

After finding it, he paused at the door for a moment, raised his head and let out a long sigh of relief before turning the handle to go in.

The ward was very quiet, the old man was lying on the bed, there was nothing around except medical equipment, not even a gift from a relative visiting.

It was eerily quiet.

Lu Chen stepped forward and looked at the person on the bed.

The whole room is filled with monotonous white, which makes the sallow-faced grandpa stand out.

The electrocardiogram machine was running at the bedside, showing his precarious body index.

The old man squinted his eyes, breathed weakly, and had a lot of various tubes stuck in his body.

There were many stains on his face, and the skin was wrinkled like dead wood, piled on the skull without aesthetics.

Grandpa is actually only in his 70s. For other elderly people at this age, as long as they are in good health, it is more than enough to live an extra ten years, but his life is already in danger.

It's hard to imagine that the middle-aged man who had a tough attitude and insisted on driving Lu Chen out, and even quarreled with Lu He because of this, is now as weak as a puddle of mud.

Lu Chen couldn't figure out why there was malice between family members who were supposed to be close.

I still don't understand.