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Ding Shuo was extremely irritable!I wish I could just grab someone and yell at him uncharacteristically.

At this moment, he is like a salaryman who has no clue. Although he has no work plan, he can at least take one step at a time. But now his self-thought plan is suddenly disrupted, and he is so irritable that he is about to go crazy.

For a long time, Ding Shuo has never figured out what he should do to deal with his feelings for the white shirt. He didn't even know what to do when someone suddenly appeared that moved his heart. reaction.But even so, at least he hoped that he could take one step at a time.

But now he is forced to face his secret love and turn it into a clear love.

On the way out of the hospital, the shame of being stripped naked and thrown on the street slowly faded away, replaced by a kind of anxiety that could not even be vented.

He has always thought that his liking for Yang Wei is his own business, even if he writes out his feelings for Yang Wei bit by bit in the blog like a diary, it is something he does in his own small space, He never thought that one day he would put it on the table, or even tell anyone in real life who might know him or Yang Wei.

But now that what was originally a "private matter" is known by the people around him, even by the person concerned, he doesn't know how to react.

Ding Shuo got out of the car and walked back to the hotel in a daze, Ding Shuo's mind went blank.Along the way, he was thinking, if Bai Shirt really knew that he liked him, read his blog all over, and understood what he really thought about him, what would he do next? attitude to get along with him.

Just thinking about it like this, Ding Shuo began to feel depressed and even panicked.Knowing that his blog may have been followed by Yang Wei early in the morning, he still couldn’t help but open the blog and write down what happened today word by word, as if he was used to it. The diary is so serious.

The rain outside the window seemed to be getting heavier and heavier. It was just a rustling sound, neither noisy nor noisy, and there was still a little bit of tranquility.But there was a sudden thunder in the distance, which woke up Ding Shuo, who was in a state of panic, and also stopped the fingers that were inputting his mood into the network.

Ding Shuo looked at the long blog post he had written, and wrote down everything that happened in the morning, noon, and afternoon like a running account, just like the many nights in the past, in the small rental house It's like holding a computer and throwing happy and unhappy strips on the Internet.

Who should I write it for?

This question suddenly popped up in Ding Shuo's mind accompanied by the sound of rain getting louder and louder.A cold and a headache, and even the heart aches.He suddenly felt that now being watched by others, he was as helpless as a child abandoned in the forest. He could no longer find his way forward, and he also lost his confidant.

Once confused and wronged, at least I can write on the blog, complain and complain to netizens I have never met.But now?When the love and sourness that he once wrote word by word were all snooped out, Ding Shuo didn't know whether he should be thankful that his thoughts were finally known by the person concerned, or should lament—maybe the person just took all this as an after-dinner pleasure.

Ding Shuo stared at the blinking cursor on the mobile phone page, and Yang Wei's light sentence "I wish you were a little more courageous" when he kissed him at the corner of his eyebrows kept lingering in his mind.

If only you were a little more courageous...

How can you be bold?For Ding Shuo, it was like a maze with no exit. He could only stay in place again and again, unable to go out or back, and trapped him in a radius of several miles.He angrily wrote in his yet-to-be-published blog: "If I say 'I like you, would you date me', wouldn't that be considered bold?"

This is a sentence that seems calm but full of momentum.

The moment he clicked the send button, Ding Shuo's chest was full of emotions waiting to erupt.He is wronged, resentful, confused... These negative emotions are intertwined and are about to drive him crazy.Qiu Lei struck again on the hill not far away, and after the lightning, there was a muffled boom, which became the last punch that knocked Ding Shuo down.

Abandoning the room full of heating, Ding Shuo is like a homeless man who is about to be burned to death by wildfire. He opened the glass door of the balcony of the wine shop and let the cool wind on a rainy night pour the biting chill like a knife into his clothes. He hit the ground of the balcony with a "crash clatter" and was picked up by the wind and flung him in the face.

At that moment, Ding Shuo only thought "he knows, now he knows everything".

Once, Ding Shuo cowardly thought, if Yang Wei didn't know anything, then he could continue to speculate and fantasize about whether the white shirt he liked might also like him?Although my heart was sour at that time, I would never drive myself crazy like I am now.

He only intends to be a snail with a thick shell on his back, carefully moving towards the person he likes step by step, even if he hasn't figured out how to go this way, but at least he can hide in the shell if he is afraid There is no need to be afraid of getting hurt.

But now his secret love is about to turn into a clear love, and he has not thought about what to do after that, he was pushed to the cusp of the storm.In front of him was a magnificent sea, but he lost the hut that could avoid the wind and waves.

Before his clothes were completely wet by the rain, Ding Shuo turned around and leaned himself against the glass door in the room. He wanted to beat something hard to vent his anger, but he couldn't do it. He could only pat his face with both hands, letting the tears slow down. Slowly flow out from between the fingers.

He should be angry.

He was angry at himself who couldn't control his emotions, and also angry that the small world he thought was well maintained was broken into by others.But he was even more angry with the man who was still lying on the hospital bed and couldn't move. Since he knew he liked him after reading his blog, how could he pretend to know nothing and ask him if he was gay? !

He didn't even cry in anger the night he was beaten by his parents, but he never thought of getting stumbled on this matter.

I am gay!I am gay!What's wrong with homosexuality, can't homosexuality have its own little secret, can't homosexuality hide it? !

"What's wrong with homosexuality..." Once the emotions exploded, it was out of control. Ding Shuo's voice seemed to be choked in his throat, and he couldn't speak anymore. The sound of the wind in the window was still his wordless cry.

When the phone vibrated, Ding Shuo's first reaction was fear.He was afraid that the impulsively sent blog just now would be read by the person pretending to be crazy, but he was also afraid that he would not see it.

I took out my phone and wanted to delete the impulsive blog post, but saw a caller ID with "White Shirt" written in white on the screen.Ding Shuo stared at the vibrating cell phone with his eyes wide open, his heart was beating like a drum, he didn't dare to answer it, but he also felt itchy.

After answering the phone, I wanted to pretend to be calm and calm, but just as I opened my mouth, I found that I couldn't make a sound, so I could only take a deep breath, hoping to clear my throat blocked by crying, but at this moment I heard Yang Wei Na's familiar voice came from the receiver, "Shh... don't talk, listen to me."

"I hesitated for a while before deciding to call you. I originally wanted to send you a WeChat message, but text is never clear enough to speak directly..."

After Yang Wei finished speaking, he seemed to have fallen into silence, as if he hadn't prepared a draft for what he was going to say next. Apart from the occasional sound of electricity on the phone, there was only the sound of their breathing and the faint sound of each other. sound of rain.

Then what?Ding Shuo didn't know clearly, and he didn't dare to ask. He could only keep his eyes wide open, and nervously waited for Yang Wei's next words.

"I read the diary you posted just now..." Yang Wei's voice sounded very calm, unlike the ups and downs in Ding Shuo's heart, nor the chaos of the rain outside the window, as if he said these words again and again. It's just ordinary, but I don't know why it took so long.

Ding Shuo wanted to say something, but Yang Wei still gave him a "hush" just when he was about to say something.

He said: "I want to leave a message for you on your blog, but I don't have a blog account, so I can't write anything, so I hesitated for a long time and chose to call you..."

"It doesn't matter if you don't have an account. If you can't write it, I can reply to you personally, but I will also be afraid..." Ding Shuo couldn't help asking, "What are you afraid of?" His voice seemed to be polished by sandpaper. Mixed with the strong nasal voice after crying bitterly, it is really not pleasant.

Yang Wei, who was robbed, was not angry, and teased him with a chuckle, "Didn't I tell you to stop talking first?" The voice was like the heating in the room, making Ding Shuo's head hot, anxious and ashamed No, I could only press my nose that I had just cried and squatted down on the carpeted floor, leaning against the glass window and waiting quietly.

"Before I asked you "Are you gay" not because I really didn't understand. I knew you were of the same kind early on, but I wanted to confirm whether you, as the same kind, have accepted this label that is different from ordinary people."

Yang Wei said to him: "I hope my feelings for you can make you feel loved and warm, and not become another shackle on your shoulders besides the label of "gay". It's gross, but I need to make sure we're on the same page emotionally."

After finishing speaking, Yang Wei sighed softly, "The same goes for your diary."

"Huh?" Ding Shuo's brain is like an old-generation computer CPU. The information comes too fast and too much. He can't process it all at once, and if it continues to work, it will crash.

"The diary you just posted is the diary where you said, if you like me, whether I would like to associate with you, the same reasoning."

Yang Wei was trying to explain to him, but Ding Shuo couldn't understand Yang Wei asking him if he was gay, and the diary he just posted. What is the relationship between.

Yang Wei said: "Just like I can't be sure whether you can accept the label "gay", I also can't confirm that you like me in the diary you just posted, because I found out that I peeked at your blog and said it out of anger. Yes, seriously."

Ding Shuo almost rushed to say: "Seriously!" After he finished speaking, Yang Wei suddenly felt that Yang Wei didn't believe it, and he became aggrieved inexplicably anxiously, his voice choked up, "Didn't you already read my blog, why don't you believe me?" Woolen cloth?"

"Shh...don't cry where I can't see it." Such provocative words came from the handset of the mobile phone, and hit Ding Shuo's flustered heart with a red heart, and the tears couldn't be held back.

"I understand, but I don't want to force you, I think you can accept me after you have made all the preparations."

Yang Wei sighed.

He has always wanted to be happy and comfortable in his relationship, so he never provokes people who don't know his orientation.But Ding Shuo was different. From the moment he saw him, he couldn't help but want to get close to him, which made him understand that he didn't want to treat this person as a passer-by.So when he started from Lao Yu's mouth that Ding Shuo was of the same kind as him, he hoped to narrow the hunting circle step by step until he hit the red heart and brought him home.

But during this process, he found that Ding Shuo didn't seem to be ready to ride the wind and waves, so he could only wait... until the people in front of him figured out what they hadn't thought about and what they couldn't understand, and when they stood The same emotional starting line.

Ding Shuo didn't know how to react, and he didn't know how to respond, so he could only sit on the ground holding his mobile phone and cry silently.After a long time, he hesitated like a fool and asked, "Did you confess your love to me just now?"

"no."

"Ah?!" Isn't that a confession?If it’s not a confession, does that count as liking?Ding Shuo was suddenly confused.

"Confessions are never sneaky, so I didn't confess to you just now, and what you wrote in the diary doesn't count." It seemed that Ding Shuo felt compulsive through the phone, and Yang Wei couldn't help but want to tease he.But Yang Wei was worried about what to do if this little idiot couldn't figure it out, so he immediately said, "Confession should be like this..."

"Ding Shuo, I like you, I have liked you since I saw half of your ass, would you like to date me?"