Don't be sad behind my back

— swallow nails —

That night, Cheng Xiao stayed until late at night.

Han Yi slept soundly, quietly and honestly, holding Cheng Xiao's hand all the time, occasionally rubbing his face and forehead against the back of Cheng Xiao's hand, making a contented hum.

Wen Shan had a panoramic view of all this, but said nothing.

Soon, she said, "Cheng Xiao, you should go home first."

This is the third time Wen Shan asked Cheng Xiao to go home.

"Tomorrow you have to get up early to go to school, go home early, thank you Cheng Xiao tonight."

Wen Shan insisted on letting Cheng Xiao leave, and Cheng Xiao couldn't hold back, and he could also feel that Wen Shan looked at him obviously differently.

Just as he was about to withdraw his hand, Han Yi held it firmly.

"Well……"

The muffled voice was aggrieved and reluctant.

Cheng Xiao was stunned for a moment, gritted his teeth and gently moved Han Yi's finger away.

the next day……

Han Yi woke up in pain, and his stomach began to tingle again, but this time it was different, his stomach was bloated, a fishy-sweet smell came to his throat, his whole body was chilly, and his clothes were about to be soaked in cold sweat.

He gasped for breath with difficulty, and the weak breath seemed to be absent.

He vomited blood again, the oxygen in his lungs was emptied in two strokes, and he passed out.

He was wheeled into the emergency room and put on an oxygen mask.

Gastrointestinal hemorrhage, rapid drop in blood volume, triggering hemorrhagic shock.

The blood circulation is almost stagnant, coupled with anemia, insufficient supply of heart and brain, this is an important reason why he has been unconscious.

Bronchitis and asthma had a sudden and severe attack, which developed into obstructive pulmonary disease, heart failure, and respiratory failure.

The patient's condition tends to deteriorate and may be life-threatening at any time, so a critical illness notice is hereby issued.

Han Yi's physical condition was put together in a critical illness notice.

Outside the door, no one signed for him.

Wen Shan couldn't get through the phone.

He was discovered by the nurse sister, and then he rang the bell, but he didn't have the strength to lift a finger.

Without the signature of the family members, the doctor has no right to proceed with the operation.

Han Yi squinted his eyes, and there was a sharp pain in front of his eyes, which was the scorching operating lamp.

There was a loud chatter in his ears, but he couldn't make out.

Foggy water vapor sprayed on the oxygen mask again and again, blurring small patches.

Han Yi thought: Is he going to die?I can't feel my body anymore.

"The heart rate is out of balance!! It fell!! Hurry up, hurry up!! The heartbeat is revived!!" The nurse sister screamed.

No, I have to wait for Cheng Xiao to come.

He promised me that he would play with me at night.

Will bring me good food and drink.

I've thought about it for a long time, I'm tired of eating rice porridge every day, drinking it and throwing up again.

"Children! Don't fall asleep!!"

"Heartbeat stopped!!"

"Hurry up!! Electric Shock Recovery!!"

Cheng Xiao, wait for me...

It hurts, it hurts to death...

Several pairs of powerful hands dragged Han Yi out of the deep and enchanting deep sea of ​​death.

"Jump, jump!!"

Han Yi woke up like a dream, and turned his head to look at the doctors around him who were wearing green overalls, masks and hoods, and were fully armed.

"Son...can you hear me?" a doctor asked anxiously.

Han Yi nodded slightly.

"Can you get in touch with your parents? We can't. If you need an operation, your critical illness notification must be signed by your family members."

Han Yi was still a little dizzy, and it took more than ten seconds to react.

He froze for a long time, looking at the medical equipment around him.

"is it serious……"

"Son, your critical illness notice has been issued! Can it be serious?! You may at any time...Son, hold on!

We will do our best to save you!It's alright!Where are your parents?Find someone to contact them quickly!Can't delay! "

Han Yi's first reaction was that the medical treatment would cost a lot of money, and there would be a court hearing in two days, as well as grandma's medical expenses. The family burden was too great, and now they were stretched.

However, he promised Cheng Xiao that he would persevere.

One side is the desperate situation of life, and the other side is the promise of lovers.

Not long after, he conveyed with difficulty with his breath: "No...don't...treat..."

Doctors, assistants, and nurses were all taken aback.

"No... child, you believe in us, it can be cured, the operation will be over in a while, and you will be fine after a night of sleep. Let's contact your parents first, please, don't give up so easily!"

He suddenly smiled, self-deprecating and embarrassed.

Just now, he realized that he really had a mental problem.

It was he who wanted to break up. This is the real world, not a dream. Now Cheng Xiao must regret it to death, and must hate him to death.Sudden breakup, anyone can bear it.

The corner of his mouth kept bleeding, and his eyelids were too heavy to open. He tried his best and begged in a small voice: "Can you... give me... sleep... sleep... medicine..."

In the end, Han Yi was still regretting that he shouldn't have agreed to Cheng Xiao in the first place, it was really hurting people.

No matter how much you like it, you have to recognize whether you are worthy or not, and whether you have the ability to maintain it.

He has nothing, what can he use to maintain this relationship, he can only keep dragging down Cheng Xiao.

He thought that it would be fine if Cheng Xiao just played with him. He would rather be played with and throw away when he was done playing, rather than let Cheng Xiao's sincerity be thrown away.

It's a pity that there is no regret medicine, and the damage I caused to Cheng Xiao is irreparable.

In his life, the only selfish thing he wanted to own was that he made a mess with his own hands in the end.

He is stupid and can't think of any way, except to escape, or to destroy, as if nothing happened.

He likes Cheng Xiao, loves Cheng Xiao, but his love is dry and barren, fish cannot survive and birds cannot build nests.

To love someone without vitality is to harm someone.

Don't dare anymore, never dare again.

"I'm sorry...Cheng Xiao..."

The doctor shook his head helplessly, and the assistants beside him regretted and felt distressed that time was coming to an end.

They were suddenly awakened by a loud knock on the door.

Han Yi has closed his eyes.

A sixteen or seventeen-year-old boy and a couple were standing at the door of the emergency room.

"Give it to me!! I'll sign it!!"

The boy roared loudly, rushed over and grabbed the critical illness notice with his hands.

The tall and delicate woman grabbed the boy, calmed his emotions, and pulled out the critical illness notice.

The man strode up to the doctor, speaking very quickly, anxiously and calmly: "Doctor please operate as soon as possible, save that child, and we will sign the critical illness notice."

The attending doctor was stunned for a second, then turned his head and rushed into the emergency room, like a commander in battle, speaking very fast, arranged everyone's work in a few words, and acted vigorously.

Before closing the door, he said something, which made the three of them put down their worries instantly.

"Don't worry, I've done a lot of sets, and nothing will happen."

This is almost an operation on thin ice, as tense and dangerous as walking on a steel rope on a cliff.

Massive blood loss, lung failure, all the knives hit the vitals.

Han Yi walked through the gate of hell.

The journey was extremely dangerous, Han Yi's breathing stopped several times, blood poured out of his stomach, and his blood almost dried up.

Thanks to the experienced doctor in charge, he survived stumbling, and this operation cost him half his life.

The attending doctor came out after the operation, and the postoperative work was handed over to the assistant.

There were still those three people outside the door, and the patient's parents still didn't come.

They came forward to inquire about the situation.

"It's okay. The child's stomach bleeding didn't heal last time. He kept vomiting. The mucous membrane of the esophagus was torn. His amount of bleeding would be over in one or two minutes later."

Cheng Xiao didn't know that Han Yi had stomach bleeding, but Wen Shan didn't tell her. He followed up and asked, "Why did he have stomach bleeding before?"

"Should have been hit in the abdomen."

Cheng Xiao suddenly remembered that last night Han Yi held his stomach and kept shouting, "Don't hit me...don't hit me..."

Was he beaten too...

Lao Cheng thanked the doctor and didn't waste his time any more.

Madam Cheng couldn't bear it any longer: "Why haven't Han Yi's parents come yet?"

She is also a mother, and she can't understand that her son has entered the operating room, and the notice of critical illness has been issued, and the parent is not there.

If Lao Cheng and Mrs. Cheng hadn't been enlightened and asked Cheng Xiao to take Sunday off to visit Han Yi and found out that he had entered the emergency room, otherwise Han Yi might really have left so alone.

Thinking of this, Cheng Xiao became furious, distressed and afraid.

More than ten minutes later, Han Yi was pushed out of the operating room. Lao Cheng contacted the hospital staff and placed Han Yi in the best ward of the hospital, and paid Han Yi's surgery and medical expenses.

Both Old Cheng and Mrs. Cheng are not selfish and stingy people. They have long regarded Han Yi as their own son or daughter-in-law. The reason why they are so firm is also inseparable from Cheng Xiao's persistence.Mrs. Cheng was so anxious that she almost cried at the door of the operating room.

In the ward, Cheng Xiao was not idle for a moment, fetching and changing the water, soaked the towel and wrung it dry, and wiped Han Yi's body.

His hands were shaking when he wiped the blood from the corner of Han Yi's mouth.

Mrs. Cheng and Lao Cheng wanted to help Cheng Xiao, but were stopped by Cheng Xiao.

After Cheng Xiao finished all this, he glanced at his phone, and his eyes instantly sank.

"Mom and Dad, you two go first."

Madam Cheng was in a hurry: "Don't! I still want to talk to Han Yi when he wakes up."

"Old Cheng, take your mother and go first."

"What's the matter, son? Is there something wrong?" Lao Cheng sensed that something was wrong.

"In a while...Han Yi's mother will come back."

"She has urgent business with me."

Mrs. Cheng frowned instantly: "You just came back? Why aren't you in such a hurry when your son enters the operating room?"

"Dad, you take Mom away first."

Old Cheng understood his son, and he and Mrs. Cheng should avoid it for a while, and with Mrs. Cheng's temperament, maybe seeing Han Yi's mother would really make a fuss. Han Yi was still in a coma, and he really couldn't stand the noise.

And Han Yi is fine now, and he will wake up after the anesthesia wears off.

"We'll be waiting for you in the car, call if you need anything."

"Well, thank you, Mom and Dad."

It took nearly half an hour before Wen Shan came back.

Cheng Xiao was about to call her auntie, but was slapped by Wen Shan.

"Han Yi! Get up!"

As he said that, he was about to drag Han Yi up, but Cheng Xiao stopped in front of the hospital bed regardless of the burning pain on his face.

Afraid of disturbing Han Yi, he lowered his voice: "Auntie, don't call him, he just hits..."

"Stay away!" Wen Shan pointed at Cheng Xiao and shouted, "Both of you are shameless!"

"stand up!"

"Auntie!" Cheng Xiao raised his voice: "Why are you so angry at me, don't hit Han Yi, he just finished the operation..."

Wen Shan froze for a moment: "What surgery?"

Cheng Xiao explained the ins and outs to her.

Wen Shan still stared at Han Yi viciously.

She asked coldly, "You two, when did it happen?"

Cheng Xiao didn't react: "What?"

Wen Shan raised her voice, ignoring Han Yi, the postoperative patient: "When did you two fall in love?!"

Han Yi was not surprised that Cheng Xiao was hiding from his parents, he also knew and understood, but what surprised him was why did Wen Shan suddenly question him?

Even if some of yesterday's actions seemed a little intimate, why are they suddenly so sure now.

But Cheng Xiao knew that if things were exposed, it would definitely not be good for Han Yi.

"Auntie, you misunderstood... we two just have a good relationship, what kind of relationship are two men talking about..."

Wen Shan was even angrier: "Who are you fooling here? Do you think I don't know anything?! Do you think that the school is lawless without parents?

Do you think your parents don't know anything?How many photos of the two of you are there in your head teacher's mobile phone?

Still writing a little love letter, let me tell you, the evidence is all here!You gave me a lot of photos of your homeroom teacher, and I also have the little note, but you still argue with me? ! "

Cheng Xiao panicked immediately, as the huge amount of information hit his brain.

photo?What picture?Why does Liu Jiali have photos?

And those little love letters and essays, how could they be discovered?

Both myself and Han Yi are not reckless people, they hardly carry these things with them, even if they have not had time to put them away, they will be put in the innermost layer of the bag, and the rest are put in boxes, hidden in the innermost part of the bedroom cabinet, Could it be that someone rummaged through their bags while he and Han Yi were away?Or went to the bedroom?Otherwise how do you get it?

Now that the evidence is solid, Cheng Xiao is not afraid, but he is worried about Han Yi.

He wants to take the responsibility on himself.

"Auntie, I'm chasing Han Yi." Cheng Xiao made a decisive decision.

Wen Shan angrily slapped him again, and Cheng Xiao honestly took another slap.

"You gay! Are you disgusting! Ah?! You know who you are without studying every day! Women don't want to date men?! How do your parents control you?!"

"Auntie, you can beat and scold me however you want, but don't involve my parents, it has nothing to do with them."

It suddenly occurred to Wen Shan that Cheng Xiao's parents had arranged Han Yi's operation and postoperative.

But her anger continued unabated.

"Then you take Han Yi and don't learn how to date every day?! Don't you two feel ashamed?! Two men falling in love?!

Don't you think it's disgusting? !ah? !Han Yi is also able to bear it!Learn how to deal with objects, and be bold!I have raised a pervert for so many years!Blind for nothing! "

"Auntie, blame me, I like Han Yi, I'm gay, I chase him."

Cheng Xiao's face was already swollen and red with heat.

It was the first time he was slapped, neither Lao Cheng nor Mrs. Cheng had the heart to bear it, but he was not angry or wronged, after all it was his own initiative and he should bear it.

Now he wants to try his best to restore Han Yi's image in his mother's heart.

He bit his lip, thinking about it, that's all he could say.

"Han Yi doesn't understand anything, and he doesn't know how I like him."

"I...I lied to him..."

Cheng Xiao found out that lying is so difficult, even harder than swallowing nails.

"I lied to him to be with me, took him to the bad side, and made him agree in a daze. In fact, I know that he is not gay, and he doesn't like me, but he was lied to by me... Lied to him because he likes me, lied to me He's also gay..."

"Are you two still talking?"

"No... points, we broke up..."

Cheng Xiao was stimulated by the pain in his heart, leaned down slightly, and pressed his chest.

He added: "Han Yi found out that I lied to him...and found out that he was not what I said...so he proposed to break up..."

Every word he said was stabbing a knife in his chest.

"Why did you find Han Yi! Are you embarrassed! Han Yi didn't take the first place in the school year a few times, did you delay it! Why are you so selfish?! When you think about it, you want to drag others into the water!"

Wen Shan blamed Cheng Xiao non-stop, Cheng Xiao silently accepted everything.

Wen Shan believed Cheng Xiao's words, thinking that Cheng Xiao hooked up with Han Yi and tricked him, Cheng Xiao is simply a shameless person!

"Get out! Get out!"

"Don't let me see you again!"

"I will pay back the medical expenses paid by your family."

"Don't come to the ward in the future! Don't appear beside Han Yi! Don't contact Han Yi!"

"I said why he suffered from depression and stress disorder all right, it's because of you!"

Cheng Xiao stayed in the public bathroom for a long time after being thrown out, slapping the bone-chilling water on his face again and again, and only went downstairs when the swelling was almost gone.

"He was diagnosed with depression and stress disorder after breaking up with you! Do you know that you ruined my family! Han Yi was forced to drop out of school! If Han Yi never recovers, what will you do with him! Can you afford it!"

Cheng Xiao was a little distracted, couldn't remember how he got back into the car, and couldn't hear what Old Cheng and Mrs. Cheng said.

He murmured softly: "Blame me...it's all my fault..."

Cheng Xiao covered his eyes and let out a low sob that he couldn't suppress.

The more he tried to suppress it, the more turbulent the grief became.