winter rose

I'm a terrible, cruel person, and Jasper knows that very well.

But even so, as bad as I am, I still want to have the chance to meet nice people.

I hope everyone I love loves me, and I hope they never abandon me.

But I know it's impossible.

Ian's biggest mistake was that he shouldn't have lied to me as a friend.

He shouldn't have lied to me and said he was my friend.

On the night of the operating table, Ian said to Perry——

"Lili, if being alive becomes a luxury, then whether you can control the direction of your destiny is no longer important. You are just unlucky, and you always expect too much."

Is it... too much extravagant expectations?

She wanted to deny it, of course she would.Although after giving up helplessly and helplessly, it is a wise choice to admit that the past is a "luxury wish".But, to be honest, she never gave up.

Indeed, the process of pursuing beauty is very tiring and tiring.But since the past really exists and is unforgettable, then she will not give up.

The acquainted chief surgeon, Dr. Romanov, smiled at her and called her by the pseudonym many years ago.

Elizabeth Baker.

It was a stupid past, but for whom was she being stupid.

She didn't want to put the blame on others, and she didn't want to have a good show like moving herself.

All, she is for herself.

That was the only thing Perry could admit.

Jasper's joke is indeed funny, but it's also true, isn't it?

Hydra does have the best freezing technology in the world, and the best neurologist in the world.

All of their best is the height piled up with blood.

For example, Dr. Romanov, who likes to do human experiments, successfully climbed to the top of the neurological field with 90 years of experiments and experience after injecting some kind of secret medicine.

The anesthesia made her fall into a coma, and she didn't want to be content with the fate that others arranged for her.But Ian said she owed Jasper that.

Ian was right.Although he didn't know where Jasper was now, what he was doing, and who he was.

Perry had a dream, a long, long dream.

At the beginning of the dream, Jasper was repeating to her what Ian had said——

"Are you my conscience?"

His tone was full of questions. In fact, this should be Perry asking himself.

She seemed to be bobbing in an unreal bubble.

She saw the blond Margaret and the gentle and forgiving Margaret—one could even say indulgent.

She saw Howard who was winking at the beauty and showing a sweet and cheap smile.

She saw it too, Bucky.

Well, it's a dream.

This is a dream.

Perry woke up in a white-sided hospital room.

Not only did she have surgical marks on the spinal nerves on her body, she also found a suture scar near the heart.

Is she Jasper's conscience?

If so, it would be too miserable.Unfortunately, this kind of thing is not available to everyone.

Conscience, indeed, requires a price.

She knew it would be so.However, if even the long sleep cannot solve the current predicament.

Well, she no longer wants to make other choices.

Bucky Barnes never, never really understood what Perry was like.

Because the former Sergeant Barnes was in some ways not a match for the real Parcelope Lancaster.

It's not that he hasn't noticed that she is withdrawn and out of gregariousness. The malicious exclusion of others is part of it, but the other part is due to her personality.

Sensitive and extreme.

He'd never seen any of this before.

As Sergeant Barnes, he likes the bright and playful Dr. Carter.As the Winter Soldier, he likes the innocent and sweet Perry.

But these are not her, at least not the real her.

Perry has been accepting all kinds of Bucky, and the irony is that Bucky never even knows what the real Perry is like.

Now, he knows.

He just loves her very much.

She thought that Dr. Lancaster would be angry and blame her for stealing the Winter Soldier for the second time, but in fact, the only thing Bucky wanted to know was why Perry pushed himself to that point.

Suffering is not a bargaining chip. Perry knows that better than anyone else, so how can he do it so easily.

Her attitude towards him was so cautious that even a slight change in her eyes would remind her, who is sensitive, of thousands of worst outcomes.

Such Perry made Bucky feel sad and distressed.

But Perry didn't give that chance to make it clear.

There are inevitably regrets in life, which are more or less difficult to eliminate.

But Bucky doesn't want the last thing that can't be eliminated is that Perry thinks he doesn't love her.

Perry is a girl who likes to get into the horns and has a bit of a weird temper.For unimportant people, her attitude is often mixed with a sense of turning a blind eye, and for those she cares about, her requirements—whether it is for herself or the other party—are harsh.

But in the end, she ate all the bitterness alone.

For example, she doesn't really care about Ian's trap and betrayal, she's just sad.So, she never really thought about killing him.

It is also because she knows that each other's suffering is not a bargaining chip as she said in the illusion.Therefore, she will not let Bucky go to kill again as the Winter Soldier.

She has done a lot, but she never said it.

When Bucky was "young", he didn't know much about love and understanding, and there was a lot of time to waste at that time.From Brooklyn, he sang the carnival under the beautiful skin and called it love, but he was lucky enough to see half of her unique beauty after going to the battlefield.

At that time, I thought that love is two different souls attracting each other. If everything can be understood, then this is probably friendship.

It seems that there is nothing wrong with these words now, but it is simply inappropriate and outrageous to apply to himself and Perry.

Bucky's life in Wakanda is quiet and easy, but he wants the same for the other guy.

Love and understanding, when applied to Perry and himself, should be equated.

Because they all know that suffering is not a joke, let alone a bargaining chip.

The answer couldn't be more obvious.

Bucky smiled. It wasn't until today that he realized what kind of person Perry really was.

And they know each other, and only each other knows.

The ferry terminal to London was packed with people leaving and going home.

He suddenly remembered what Perry had said to him before——

【"I never thought that among all the people I love, the one who loves me the least is you."】

Bucky frowned.

He still remembered the look on her face when she said this, the despair in her eyes.

If there is a definitive answer to what it means to exist in the name of Bucky Barnes today, then he believes that if the answer is about himself, it cannot be about Perry.

【"Soldier, take this train, you can go home."】

It's you, not us.

But if the answer is about you, how can you be the only one who wants to go home.

If it was Perry who didn't catch him this time, then he could catch Perry instead.

It's like a dance in a front-line tavern in 1944. The first person who extended his hand to invite was himself.

The siren sounded far away.

The ferry is docked.

"Mr. Barnes?"

In front of the gate of Lancaster Castle, Sosimo quickly stepped forward and stopped him.

"The landlady left with Mr. Black, and she is not here now."

"Blake?"

"Mr. Black said, just say his full name and you'll know."

Sosimore smiled.

"Ian Black."

Bucky's face darkened suddenly.

Ian was still alive.

"Did Perry say where she went?"

"Sorry you know, if the landlady doesn't want to—"

The metal left arm grabbed Sosimo's neck violently and lifted him up.Sosimo lifted his toes off the ground, his face flushed.

"I'll ask again."

Bucky stuttered every word.

"Perry, where are you?"

"Doing...doing this kind of thing at the door of the wizard, you...are you...crazy, aren't you?"

"Oh?" Bucky's eyes were cold, and the strength in his hand tightened little by little.

"But you know more about the 'unity and friendship' of the Lancasters than I do."

The smile that Sosimo was trying to maintain disappeared little by little.

Perry once said that Lancaster's evil will sooner or later have its own consequences.

At that time, Bucky was still in the state of Winter Soldier, so he still didn't understand the unknown instructions.

But now, he slightly tightened the hand holding the address note.

Bucky understands now.

Perry loathed one family, or maybe both.

Perry hated abandonment, and he hated betrayal.

And what Perry wanted was simple, and Bucky now believed he could give it.

How does it feel to leave the identity of the Winter Soldier and go to the Hydra base alone?

He thought of Perry's smiling green eyes, and slightly curled the corners of his mouth.

Ian fiddled with the palm-sized current switch controller behind the one-way glass.

With just one push, the device at Perry's heart will cause her pain.

The good HYDRA agents have finally found a better way to control people than brainwashing and hypnosis.

Jasper has what little conscience there is left, and Ian doesn't.So Jasper hated him the most, and the only thing he hated, and that was it.

In fact, it's not like there is nothing, but he also put his conscience on others.

Ian walked into the ward and smiled at Perry, whose face was as pale as the wall.

"Morning, Lili."

So from a certain point of view, he actually has a conscience.

Because as long as they are together, isn't it a perfect ending?

He looked at Perry's almost numb face, the corner of his mouth was still perfectly sweet and sweet.

Doctor Lancaster and the Winter Soldier, he's got both.

The author has something to say:

and so--

Perry knew what price he had to pay for the conscience of others, but it didn't matter anymore.The status is basically "debt paid".

Ian left the address on purpose, because he is still an excellent Hydra agent after all.Here we should be able to see the essential difference between him and Jasper.

Jasper is black on the outside and soft on the inside, Ian is soft on the outside and black on the inside.With the help of Cameron's little angel's face, you can refer to the image of Gotham Jerome next door.

Then QWQ, today is the author's birthday

Tonight, I'm despairing that I can't be my best

I want to write the best essay but I can't do it hhh

I'm going to go to college by car tomorrow, so I'm nervous and have a toothache.