night torrent

It has been less than half a month since I returned to the city, and the colorful autumn colors have gradually infected the lush trees on the avenue, and the green leaves have turned into gorgeous red leaves.

As soon as the vacation was over, Yan Chen devoted himself to work.Like a worker bee running around in a big city, he gets up at seven every morning, goes to work after drinking coffee with no sugar added, and is transported to the company by the subway that extends in all directions.

The company negotiated a new project last week, and the customer was pressing for the delivery time. It only took more than a month from signing the contract to delivery.The project team discussion meeting has been held several times, and the new product has a preliminary design idea, and the next step is to invest in drawing design and process design.

Yan Chen and two members of the design team are responsible for the design and manufacture of various tools and fixtures used in the process of mechanical design and development.Three people undertook a project. For Yan Chen, the work pressure was not small. He read the relevant information on the performance and requirements of the product, and had a general understanding of the needs of customers.

Starting from the needs of customers is the key link of design.If the product demand is not well grasped, no matter how good the design technology is, it will not help.

Recently, Yan Chen found that he could not concentrate on his work as before, and the phantom of his mother and that mysterious man would appear in his mind from time to time.

This has never been the case.

In the past, when Yan Chen was concentrating on his work, his heart was peaceful, and the troubles of life would be put aside temporarily.But during this time, Yan Chen was a little absent-minded, and his work was not progressing smoothly.

During this period, Han Yi called twice, but Yan Chen didn't answer.On the one hand, it is because of urgent work, and on the other hand, it is because of my depressed mood.

Yan Chen was greatly shocked by his mother's sad and tearful appearance. He realized that his avoidance all along was hurting his parents.He subconsciously denied the possibility of his parents understanding him, and even regarded his parents as imaginary enemies of his own independent will.

Han Yi is a elusive ideal for Yan Chen. This young man who is two years younger than him is optimistic and positive, facing life step by step. In front of Han Yi, Yan Chen feels ashamed of himself.

In order to prevent himself from sinking indefinitely, Yan Chen hopes to maintain a period of calm before the work is completed.

The call from my mother was on the way home from work after Yan Chen finished work at the end of October.

"Are you off work? Have you had dinner yet?"

"Just got off work, haven't eaten yet."

"Your aunt wants to introduce you to someone..."

It is said that the other party is 26 years old, works as an accountant in the county hospital, and looks very beautiful.

"Just meet and see. You decide whether it's good or not. Mom will never interfere."

Although he had thought about his future direction, Yan Chen still had no intention of getting married.Letting a woman intervene in one's own life is terrifying just to imagine.But the sad look of my mother is lingering in front of my eyes. My mother, who has always been in good health, had a physical examination last year and found out a problem with bradycardia.Going home this time, Yan Chen noticed that her mother's originally black hair was mixed with silver.My father's blood pressure and blood lipids have always been high, and there was a problem with the lumbar disc in March this year.Parents are aging at a speed that is visible to the naked eye.Yan Chen couldn't refuse his mother's kindness like usual.

"You feel nothing now, what will you do in the future?"

On the other end of the phone, the mother worried about her son's future.

"..."

"I really need to think about my personal problems. You have to read them to know if they are suitable. How about going to see them?"

The mother's voice was almost pleading.Yan Chen felt extremely sad, and there was a surge of enthusiasm in his eyes.

"Well, I see."

"Then come back this weekend!?"

Mother hung up the phone happily.

Yan Chen stood on the subway platform and looked at the sky in the distance.There were not even a single star in the dark blue night sky, and the tall buildings lined up were lit up.

Is that the only way?

Yan Chen looked up at the sky as if seeking answers from the vast universe, and suddenly thought of Xu Zihao in his confusion.

Xu Zihao is the first and only lover Yan Chen dated so far.Yan Chen and Xu Zihao started dating at the age of 24, and Xu Zihao left without saying goodbye in the third year of dating.

Later, Yan Chen heard from other places that Xu Zihao had returned to his hometown to get married. He was married to his girlfriend who had been dating since high school and had been in love for eight years.From the eyes of the world, they are a good story of lovers finally getting married.

But this way of breaking up made Yan Chen experience hellish suffering.For a long time, I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep at night, and the sadness and anger that had nowhere to vent were like two torrents raging inside the body.

Thinking about it now, it seems like a lifetime away. The two years have weathered the emotions, but they can't erase the trauma suffered in the soul.At the beginning, he hated Xu Zihao's despicable behavior so much, but now Yan Chen felt that he was unknowingly getting closer to Xu Zihao. In order to reassure his parents, he agreed to a blind date, so what next?Will he choose to marry in order to conceal his sexual orientation like Xu Zihao?

When the lights come on, the city that never sleeps is like a prom queen with her veil lifted, revealing her charming demeanor.

Looking at the street scene, Yan Chen suddenly thought of meeting Han Yi.Call Han Yi, he seems to be bored alone.

"What have you been up to recently? I can't even get through the phone."

"The company talked about a new project, and the customer was in a hurry to deliver the goods, and I kept working overtime. I was almost tired and vomited blood."

"Have you had dinner?"

"Not yet, I just want to go to your place for a meal."

The friendship between the two is very close, and it is common for them to eat and drink together.

The apartment Han Yi lives in is a 24-story residential building in the Danxia Road area of ​​Jinning District.Because he has been there countless times, Yan Chen is already familiar with the way.

"Come here quickly, don't be a jerk."

Being bored alone will only lead to more random thoughts, Yan Chen readily accepted Han Yi's invitation.

I got off the subway one stop earlier, and bought some side dishes at the convenience store on the way. When I arrived at Han Yi's house, it was already past seven o'clock.

"You are so polite, you bring something every time you come."

Han Yi wore a navy blue sweater and sports trousers, like a youthful college student.He was still very young, and there was no confusion in his piercing eyes.

"what's wrong?"

Han Yi scratched his hair in confusion, and took out a bottle of red wine from the refrigerator.

"Red wine doesn't seem to go well with these appetizers."

"It doesn't matter that much.

Han Yi waved his hand, poured the dark red liquid into the wine glass, and handed it over.

"I brought this back from a trade show in Australia, try it."

Han Yi is engaged in foreign trade sales, and occasionally goes abroad to participate in exhibitions and always brings back local specialties.

"Just get drunk today, sleep with me at night and don't go back."

"Won't your roommate have a problem?"

"He went on a date with his girlfriend and won't be back tonight."

Han Yi brought out braised beef in soy sauce, Kung Pao chicken, vegetable salad, and appetizers brought by Yan Chen.

"That roommate of yours always looks at me strangely..."

"Maybe he regards you as my boyfriend."

"You came out to your roommate? How else would you think that?"

"Some things are difficult to hide after living for a long time, so I just said it."

"What if your roommate can't accept the rent refund?"

"Then you can move here and live here."

Yan Chen had to lament the difference in cognition between the two.If one can be as calm and fearless as Han Yi, it seems that everything will be easier.

"You just think it's very complicated. You can try to come out to the people around you. It will be easier step by step."

"Then who should I ask for a test? The people around me are either colleagues or people in the circle, neither of which is suitable."

"How about your roommate?"

"What if people can't accept it, then I really have to move out."

"Then you will move in with me."

"I want to move here, and your roommate's misunderstanding will be even greater. I don't want it."

"Akun will return to his hometown to get married next month, and the rent will be withdrawn."

Yan Chen's heart skipped a beat when he heard the word "marriage".These two words are sensitive words for him.

"To be honest, you can try it with your roommate. You two have no intersection in life and work. Even if the result is unsatisfactory, it doesn't matter."

"A few years earlier, I might have done what you said, and it doesn't make much sense now."

"Why is it meaningless? Are you going to be in the cabinet for the rest of your life?"

"This is also impossible."

"Did something happen when you went back some time ago? Your parents urged you to get married?"

"No, don't think about it."

"Something must have happened! Can't even I tell?"

"I'm going on a blind date, next week."

Suddenly, Han Yi looked at Yan Chen with an unbelievable expression, "Have you thought it through?"

"..."

"No wonder I haven't shown up for a while, and I can't get through the phone. I wondered that I was busy with work and didn't see you like this... So it's like this."

"Would you look down on me?"

"How could it be?" Han Yi played with the wine glass in his hand for a while, and then said: "Actually, my mother also mentioned the blind date to me."

"What? You're not..."

"My mother wants to hug her grandson."

Han Yi poured wine into the wine glass again, and the bottle of red wine unknowingly bottomed out.Han Yi was slightly red from his eye sockets to his cheeks, and he would be drunk if he drank any more.

"Shall we have some more whiskey?"

"it is good."

It could be seen that Han Yi was unhappy, and Yan Chen, who felt the same way, was unwilling to use high-sounding comforting words to perfuse his friend.Han Yi opened the whiskey, put ice cubes in the glass, and mixed it with the wine.

Yan Chen took the wine glass, and let the alcohol exert its magical power to soothe each other's bitter hearts tonight. As for the helpless reality, it won't be too late to face it tomorrow when we wake up.