night torrent

For a whole month after that night, Yan Chen lived in seclusion.I go out at [-]:[-] in the morning, and go home straight after work in the evening.The two-point and one-line life from the company to the apartment is repeated every day.

In a blink of an eye, City S has entered a harsh winter mode. The temperature has dropped below ten degrees for five days in a row. The animals and plants growing in the reinforced concrete city have long been sealed and entered the hibernation period. The gray smog spreads in the city. Diffuse.Contrary to the bleak season, Yan Chen felt flames leaping deep inside his body.

As soon as you close your eyes, the scene of passionate entanglement that night will appear vividly in front of your eyes, and the hidden pleasure will flow through your body like a weak current. Even if you hide in sleep, Lu Yao's phantom will enter the dreamland and entangle passionately .

Yan Chen thought that with the passage of time, everything would eventually be forgotten, but the events of that night would reappear clearly from time to time.

Thinking of that moment, Yan Chen felt ashamed. He felt that his body and mind were no longer clean, and he fell into a mood of self-loathing.

Despite Lu Yao's obsessive side, if he doesn't want to, the man's body will languish.I also had the idea of ​​trying it with Lu Yao, so I followed Lu Yao to his apartment alone.

Yan Chen's heart was full of remorse, and he wished he could turn back time, but after that night, his body, which had been blank for two years, seemed to sprout an indescribably vigorous vitality.This made Yan Chen feel uneasy, he didn't know how to deal with this situation.

Yan Chen hasn't talked to anyone about what happened that night, and he wants to talk to someone, but the people around him are all casual acquaintances.

He wanted to talk to Han Yi, but Han Yi would probably not take it seriously. He couldn't understand Yan Chen's obstinate cleanliness mentality.It is easy to talk about sex in their circle, but it is extremely difficult to talk about feelings.Living in a dark area where secular ethics and laws are irrelevant, the two of them are together only because of their enthusiasm, but no matter how hot or strong their feelings are, they cannot resist the dilution of time.Han Yi is considered a well-behaved person in the circle, he will not go out to attract others, but there is no shortage of bed partners around him.Han Yi often encourages him to go out on dates, so Yan Chen is unwilling to tell him about it.

A month passed in silence and depression. During this period, my mother made two phone calls.

The first call was to ask about the progress of the blind date.Because of what happened to Lu Yao, Yan Chen was plunged into deep regret, and the girl on the blind date was forgotten, so the result was nothing.Half a month later, my mother called again.

"Are you free this Saturday?"

"..."

Yan Chen's heart sank, he guessed that his mother was going to introduce him to a blind date again.

"There is a nice girl who is two years older than you. She is a junior high school teacher and she is not short. Do you want to come back and meet?"

"I'm...not free this week."

Yan Chen didn't want to see anyone, he lied.

"Busy at work? How about next week?"

"talk later."

"You should pay more attention to your own affairs, the older you are, the harder it is to find."

Mother is not a nagging person, and she can't stop talking, except for the matter of marriage, mother has repeatedly persuaded Yan Chen many times.

What would happen if the mother knew that her son was fooling around with men?The mother who has lived in an orderly and ordinary world all her life will never be able to understand their alien world.

Their world is wild and desolate, and they behave in ways their parents would never want to see.Yan Chen has seen countless people of the same kind sniffing each other's breath like dogs in the dark night, pitiful and despicable.Most people will eventually choose to marry, which seems to be the only theme of life-marriage and children.

In the end, Yan Chen couldn't hold back his mother, so he promised to go back next week to meet the girl his mother said was good.

The days in winter are getting shorter and shorter, and after 05:30, it's dark outside.Yan Chen went straight back after get off work.Because my mind is not on food, I often eat noodles, fried rice or frozen food from the supermarket for dinner.

That night, when Yan Chen returned to the apartment, he sang empty city tricks on the road. He opened the refrigerator door and found a box of frozen instant curry chicken.According to the heating instructions on the packaging box, Yan Chen put the curry in the microwave to heat it up.

When the microwave was turned to 7 minutes, the aroma of curry wafted out.Yan Chen took the curry chicken out of the microwave, scooped a spoonful of it into his mouth.The first mouthful was hot, and the second mouthful felt salty again.Yan Chen lost his appetite after eating half of a plate of chicken curry.After drinking half a glass of water to dilute the salty and greasy taste of curry in his mouth, Yan Chen started to wash the tableware.

It took about 5 minutes to wash a spoon and a porcelain plate, after which Yan Chen didn't know what to do.The room was quiet, Yan Chen turned on the music app on his phone, played two or three fast-paced songs, and went to bed early until eight o'clock, bored with boredom.

Yan Chen slept until midnight and felt his mouth was dry. He groped for the mobile phone on the bedside table and squinted to see the time: 21:[-] am.Yan Chen got out of bed and went to the cooking counter to pour hot water.The apartment is small in size and there is no separate kitchen. The cooking counter is on the left of the main entrance.Yan Chen poured half a glass of water when Andy came back.

"came back."

"Ah."

Andy bent over to change his slippers, and fell down on the sofa with a tired face.Yan Chen was not surprised, drank water and prepared to go back to the room.

"Let's talk, we haven't spoken a few words after living here for so long."

"..."

Yan Chen knew little about the roommate who slept next door, only that Andy worked in the kitchen of a high-end hotel, leaving early and returning late every day.

"Did something happen?"

If a person stays up late at night and wants to talk to someone, it is very likely that something has happened to him.

"I broke up with the person I was dating."

"You must be very upset."

"I knew it would be like this for a long time, but it's really uncomfortable at this time!"

Andy curled up on the sofa with his back facing Yan Chen, his shoulders trembled, and he wept silently.

"He is going to study in the United States. I am a part-time worker. We are people from different worlds..."

Yan Chen pulled out the chair and sat down.From Andy's body, Yan Chen saw his shadow in a trance. Two years ago, he also suffered emotional frustration, and even thought of committing suicide.

After crying, Andy fell asleep.Yan Chen lit a cigarette with a black lighter.

Yan Chen learned to smoke from his roommates in university.I didn't feel anything at first, I just thought it was fun, and I became addicted before I knew it, and I would light one before going to bed or after studying.Later, Xu Zihao quit smoking because he didn't like the smell of cigarettes.Recently Yan Chen started smoking again.

Yan Chen slowly puffed out the cigarette, the smoke ring curled up and spread out in the air.In the dead of night, only Andy's steady and even breathing was heard.He was lying on the sofa, revealing the delicate half of his face like a water lotus, and there were still wet tears on his face.With a cigarette in his mouth, Yan Chen tiptoed to find a blanket to cover him.

The pain of broken love can only be endured by the person concerned. What others say or do will not help, and personal experience cannot provide reference.But everything will pass, time will heal the wounds, and Andy is only in his early twenties, and he will definitely fall in love with other people later.

Youth is hope.