love first

"Mr. Jiang!" Gu Xin on the screen bent her eyes and greeted Jiang Shiyan with a cheerful voice.

Due to his busy schedule, Jiang Shiyan stayed in the United States for an extra week. Gu Xin hadn't seen him for a long time, so he made a video call every day.Jiang Shiyan strained his legs, feet and back because of the last large-scale spasm, and he had to take time out every day for rehabilitation. In addition to working day and night upside down, he lost a lot of weight in two weeks.

The ten-minute video with Gu Xin was a rare break for Jiang Shiyan.

"I came to my parents' place today. That's right!" Gu Xin stood up with her mobile phone, took two quick steps, stretched out her hand and hugged the big furry ball at her feet, and showed it to Jiang Shiyan, "Jiang Shiyan Sir, do you remember Tutu?"

Tutu now looks like a large dog, although when held in the arms of the little master, he squinted his eyes and stuck out his tongue, which was not majestic at all.

Jiang Shiyan nodded, "Of course I remember."

Jiang Shiyan and Gu Xin talked for a while, and someone knocked on Jiang Shiyan's door, so he had to hang up the video.

It was Jiang Shiyan's rehabilitation teacher who came in. He was holding a big yoga ball and greeted Jiang Shiyan, "Can we start, Mr. Jiang?"

Today is a balance training with a yoga ball. Jiang Shiyan's back muscles are severely strained at this time, and it hurts to move casually, let alone climbing on a yoga ball and relying on the strength of his upper body to maintain balance.

Jiang Shiyan sighed secretly, nodded at Fu Jianshi and said, "Wait a minute, I'll go to the bathroom."

Jiang Shiyan needed to go to the bathroom to empty the urine bag to avoid embarrassment during the reconstruction.The last time he had convulsions, he was lying on the ground, and when his legs twitched, his lower abdomen and private parts were also involved.The well-established bladder reflexes are somewhat ineffective. Recently, a small amount of urine leaks when coughing or moving, so Jiang Shiyan has been wearing an external urine bag for a week.

Re-establishing the bladder reflex is a long process, but he is going back to China soon, I hope Gu Xin will be more careless and not notice his strangeness.

Jiang Shiyan's flight back to China landed in the morning. When he landed, he called Gu Xin to report his safety. Gu Xin told him to go home and rest for a day. Don't go to work right away. It's too hard to fly for a day.

Jiang Shiyan hummed lightly, but did not agree.Because he had already arranged meetings in the morning, one after another, until seven o'clock in the evening.

At noon, Gu Xin called Jiang Shiyan with a cheerful voice like a jumping sparrow, "Mr. Jiang, open the door for me, I have brought food!"

Jiang Shiyan was finishing an email, and replied without thinking, "Okay, I'll let Yangmei go down to pick you up."

Gu Xin's voice paused, and when he spoke again, his voice was muffled, "Where are you? Are you in the company?"

Jiang Shiyan's hand on the keyboard paused, "Xin Xin..." He stopped, not knowing how to explain.

"Forget it." Gu Xin's voice cooled down, "You don't know how to cherish your own body, so it's useless to say more."

"Xin Xin..." Jiang Shiyan clenched his phone tightly, and his other hand clenched into a fist, trembling slightly.He panicked, and his voice became unstable, "Wait a minute, I'll go back now."

"Aren't you working in the afternoon?" Gu Xin asked, "You just came back, and today's work is not scheduled until midnight?"

"I can push back..." Jiang Shiyan said anxiously

"Where to push? You don't have to sleep tomorrow..." Gu Xin lost her temper, and her voice softened again, "Wait, I'll go find you."

It took about 10 minutes for Gu Xin to come over. Jiang Shiyan efficiently answered all the urgent emails in these 10 minutes. There are still two hours before the next meeting, so he can spare time to be alone with Gu Xin for a while.

Gu Xin was carrying a food box, and when he came in, he still had a cold face. After seeing Jiang Shiyan, he sighed in distress, his brows and eyes drooped gently, "Why did you lose so much weight? You can't see it in the video... "

Jiang Shiyan took his hand, let him sit on his lap, held him quietly in his arms for a while, and then said, "I'm not used to eating there."

Jiang Shiyan has been in the United States for more than ten years from studying to working, and at this time he can use the reason that he is not used to eating.Gu Xin was angry in her heart, but she was really distressed.

"My aunt made it, which is lighter than the ones bought outside. You eat the pad first, and I'll buy what you want." Gu Xin opened the food box, and there was a combination of meat and vegetables inside, which looked delicious, although Jiang Shiyan had already I was so tired that I couldn't feel hungry, but I still ate most of it to save face.

Gu Xin was watching him eat, holding his chin to look at him.The man is diligent in trimming his hair, and he doesn't slack off even when he is on a business trip. His sideburns are neatly trimmed, and the nape of his neck is more refreshing and stylish. The round size is too simple, but it is not ugly against Jiang Shiyan's face.He was wearing a smoky gray shirt. Because he had been sitting all the time, his back was wrinkled, and it was not as delicately pressed as usual.The face looked thinner, and the line from the tip of the nose to the chin, all the way to the Adam's apple was sharp and domineering.

The man took a sip of the chicken soup, nodded at Gu Xin and said, "It's delicious."

Actually not overbearing at all.I was afraid that I would get angry on the phone just now, so I panicked like a child.

Gu Xin bent down and kissed Jiang Shiyan's temple.The man was a little embarrassed, "I didn't take a shower after getting off the plane, my body was dirty."

Gu Xin waved his hand, indicating that nothing happened.

After Jiang Shiyan finished eating, Gu Xin simply put the lunch box away and asked, "Are you busy now?"

Jiang Shiyan glanced at his watch, "There is still an hour, I'm going to the investment department for a meeting."

Gu Xin slowly rolled up the sleeves of his shirt, "Go to the lounge and lie down, I'll help you press your waist."

"No need for Xin Xin." Jiang Shiyan hurriedly refused, because his waist and legs were still tied with elastic bandages, he found a reason, "It's too late. I...I still need to make some preparations for the meeting."

Gu Xin's face was a little gloomy, he pursed his lips and half knelt in front of the wheelchair, then put his arms around Jiang Shiyan, and said in a low voice, "Sit in front, and I'll just rub it for you... What is this? "

Through the thin shirt, Gu Xin touched the bandage that was tied inside. He pulled out Jiang Shiyan's fastened shirt with all his strength, and then poked his hand in, "Bandage? Why is there this?"

Gu Xin panicked for a moment, his hands carelessly rubbed Jiang Shiyan's body, and then he quickly touched the long catheter on Jiang Shiyan's slender leg, and an 'inexplicable' bag hanging on his calf.

"What is this?" Gu Xin lifted up Jiang Shiyan's trousers, and when he saw the urine in the transparent bag, he suddenly realized that Mr. Jiang had a urine bag tied to his leg.At that moment, Gu Xin had no time to manage his expression, nor could he have imagined how his shock and incomprehension would hurt Jiang Shiyan.

Jiang Shiyan met those startled eyes, his heart sank, and he called out, "Xin Xin."

Xin Xin, I frightened you and let you down again.I am so sorry.

Jiang Shiyan was about to force a smile and say sorry, but Gu Xin hugged him suddenly.

"Why don't you know how to take care of yourself...you know how to be brave every day..." Gu Xin choked up, and he hugged Jiang Shiyan tightly as if punishing him, "Did you get sick in the United States! You video every day, why didn't you tell me?" I?"

Jiang Shiyan heaved a sigh of relief, and his big hand ran down Gu Xin's back to comfort him, "I don't want you to worry."

"Then I won't tell you anything from now on!" Gu Xin gritted her teeth, "I'm sick, I have a broken bone, and I won't tell you anything, just because I don't want you to worry!"

Jiang Shiyan frowned tightly, "No."

"What doesn't work?"

"You have to tell me."

Gu Xin stared at him, the corners of his eyes were still red, Jiang Shiyan felt distressed and guilty, and didn't know how to love him.

"Xin Xin is not angry. In the future... not in the future."

"Nothing?" Gu Xin pressed her teeth tightly and asked.

Jiang Shiyan frowned and thought for a while, but he couldn't guarantee anything.Won't get hurt in the future?Or will he not tell Gu Xin after being injured?Jiang Shiyan's cautious character prevented him from opening his mouth easily.

He had no choice but to change the subject abruptly, "I brought you a present."

Gu Xin is not stupid, he can feel it naturally, but he is not that kind of strong character, so he has to answer.He reached out to take the big box Jiang Shiyan handed over, and opened it to see that there was a leather handmade ornament inside, in the shape of a white puppy, very delicate and cute.

"Does it look like Tutu?"

Gu Xin put the 'Tutu' together with the box on the ground, pointed to the door of the lounge, "Go and lie down for 10 minutes, there is no need to discuss it." The afternoon sun shone through the windows, making the counseling room even more warm and bright , Jiang Shiyan looked at the white cat in the corner pacing gracefully, and jumped onto his lap.He looked into the cat's blue eyes and ran his fingers through the soft fur on the top of its head.

"Why did you bring him here?" Jiang Shiyan asked Shen Niaoyou, Dr. Shen poured a cup of scented tea for Jiang Shiyan, and joked, "You are the only patient in the afternoon, and my cat has been thinking about you since the last time I saw you."

The snow-white cat meowed in response to the sweetness, squinted at Jiang Shiyan, and pressed his small head against his big hand, looking forward to more petting.

"You are attractive to animals." Shen Niao sighed.

"Where do you buy your cat food?" Jiang Shiyan asked coldly, making Shen Niaoyou laugh, "The House of Pets. You told me everything, so I will naturally support your boyfriend's business."

Jiang Shiyan nodded in satisfaction.

"Come on, let's talk about your love life first. How are you getting along with Gu Xin recently?"

Jiang Shiyan thought for a while, with a blank face, "I don't know."

Dr. Shen guided him softly, "Why don't you know? Is it because you didn't get along well?"

Jiang Shiyan lowered his eyes and remained silent. After a while, he smiled wryly and shook his head, "Yiaoyou, I... I don't seem to know how to fall in love."

Shen Niaoyou was not surprised, she quickly jotted down a few notes in her notebook, "Then let's start from the beginning and sort out our thoughts. What makes you think you're in love with him?"

Jiang Shiyan frowned and thought, Shen Niaoyou continued to guide him, "Do you want to kiss him, take care of him, or something deeper, want to have sex with him?"

Jiang Shiyan shook his head, "I have all of these, but more importantly, I'm afraid of losing him."

"I'm rarely so afraid of something happening. I think it may be because of love."

"Okay, you love him." Shen Niaoyou recorded a few more lines, "Then why are you afraid?"

Jiang Shiyan felt that she knew what she was asking, so he patted his elastic bandage-wrapped legs and looked at her with a frown, "Obviously."

Shen Niaoyou stopped the pen in her hand, and she looked at Jiang Shiyan, "You have entered this endless loop again. I spent three years convincing you, and letting you convince yourself, whether you are healthy or not, your education , self-cultivation, and wealth are far superior to most people in this world. You can’t deny yourself just because of your disability.”

Jiang Shiyan shook his head helplessly, "You won't understand, you have never felt the same thing before."

Shen Niaoyou wrote down the words "Refused to communicate" in the notebook, and scratched two words under it.

"Jiang Shiyan, let me advise you, never tell your lover, you won't understand, this kind of words. It's like he is full of expectation and patience, waiting for your talk, ready to share your time and love troubles. But you just shut him out without saying anything.”

Shen Youyou looked at him seriously, "One piece of advice I give to all my patients is to have the courage to communicate. For you, I will add another one, you need to know how to show weakness."

Jiang Shiyan nodded, and he closed his eyes tiredly, "I see, thank you."

Maybe normal people will never be able to understand, Shen Niaoyou thought.She looked at Jiang Shiyan who was taking a nap on the treatment bed, and as his friend, she felt heartache for him.

I hope Gu Xin can understand.Don't let him down.

On Friday, Gu Xin received a message from Jiang Shiyan, asking if he was free tonight.

Gu Xin replied in seconds, yes.

Jiang Shiyan came to pick up Gu Xin from get off work, and Jiang Shiyan invited a well-known western food chef to cook them a dinner.Jiang Shiyan was not a talkative person, and Gu Xin was a little silent even after being tired for a week.

After taking two bites, Gu Xin put down the fork, walked around to Jiang Shiyan, hugged him, and said in a low voice, "I don't know why, but you are by my side, but I still miss you very much."

Jiang Shiyan stroked Gu Xin's hair tenderly, and kissed him carefully, "Shall we go to the sofa? This is not close enough."

The two were stacked together on the sofa, touching and kissing. Jiang Shiyan seemed to be holding a priceless treasure, holding Gu Xin's back in his embrace.Gu Xin opened her eyes to look at him between kisses, and Jiang Shiyan's eyes when he was staring at him in the dark, like the bright night sky shining on the sea, dotted with starlight, very moving.

Jiang Shiyan held Gu Xin's delicate cheeks with his hands, his eyes were so delicate that he described every inch of Gu Xin's face.

Gu Xin seemed to be connected with Jiang Shiyan at this moment, because what he thought in his heart came out of his eyes, word for word.

Gu Xin caressed the corners of his eyes, his lover had the most focused and gentle eyes in the world.

"Xin Xin," Jiang Shiyan said in a low voice. He had rehearsed it countless times in his heart, but when he really said it, his voice was very soft, "I like you so much."

Gu Xin caressed her lover's temples as if encouraging, nodded and replied, "Thank you for telling me, although I have guessed it a long time ago." Jiang Shiyan stubbornly believes that all things in this world are calculated.

As big as a referendum to decide a major event, as small as a day's flow in a small roadside restaurant.All, all, can be turned into numbers in Jiang Shiyan's mind for checking.

So what about liking someone?Jiang Shiyan looked at Gu Xin beside him, at his bright eyes like obsidian.

can actually be calculated.The average heartbeat of an adult man is 1 times a minute, but when he looks at Gu Xin, his heartbeat always beats faster.When Gu Xin bent her eyes and laughed, Jiang Shiyan's heart beat a hundred times.The feeling of rapid blood flow is like riding a paraglider on the grasslands of New Zealand when he was young.It’s also like when he joined Qingshan on the first day more than ten years ago, his boss at the time embraced him and said welcome to join.Gu Xin has just arrived, but he can stand side by side with his few shining points in the past 75 years.

Just love it.I like to think emotionally.Checking with reason, I still like it very much.

When Mr. Jiang leaned over to kiss Gu Xin, his high nose bumped into Gu Xin, and then he got a more intimate response from his lover.

Jiang Shiyan probably hadn't kissed for a long time, he adjusted his posture a few times before holding Gu Xin tightly in his arms, and then recklessly licked Gu Xin's lips and cheeks.Get soggy.The tip of the tongue hooked Gu Xin's lips and teeth, fiddled with them messily.

At first, Gu Xin wanted to guide Jiang Shiyan, but then her lower lip was going to be numb from the kiss, so she simply relaxed her body, fell into Mr. Jiang's firm arms, and gave herself completely to him.

"Mr. Jiang, I think you look like an animal." After the kiss, Gu Xin said with a smile.

Jiang Shiyan rested his forehead on the top of Gu Xin's head, and was breathing with his eyes closed. Hearing this, he hummed, indicating that he was listening.

"Like a baby elephant."

"What?" Jiang Shiyan didn't hear clearly, "Like an elephant?"

"It's not an elephant, it's a baby elephant." Gu Xin said slowly, with unspeakable tenderness in his words, "It's the kind of small, short one that can't drink water with its nose, and can only hold its mouth with its head down. You have to bury it in the water to drink water."

Jiang Shiyan didn't know where he came up with such a novel metaphor, and whispered, "You're laughing at me."

"No." Gu Xin turned her head and kissed his Mr. Jiang, "I think you are cute."

Jiang Shiyan curled his lips and snickered for a while. He moved his throat, hesitated for a moment, and then said, "Xin Xin, I really want to hold you like this all the time. But my sofa is too soft, and I can't sit on it for so long."

Gu Xin was a little surprised when he heard the words. He hugged Jiang Shiyan and kissed him again. He stretched out his hand to help him rub his waist. Sure enough, his muscles began to tighten.For the second time today, he said, "Thank you for telling me."

The dinner was already cold, Jiang Shiyan was helped by Gu Xin into a wheelchair, and fortunately had the clear water noodles made by his lover.

A table of dishes will be cleaned by the housekeeper who will come tomorrow.Jiang Shiyan rolled up his expensive shirt cuffs and cleaned the two noodle bowls with his own hands.

Jiang Shiyan's hands are well-articulated, slender and powerful, and they look even more beautiful when holding a white porcelain bowl.Gu Xin secretly took a picture with her mobile phone and posted it on Weibo.

[My Mr. 】

The two had to go back to their houses in peace.Gu Xin had a good night's sleep, and Jiang Shiyan participated in another video conference in the early morning, but the voice was very low, and he pretended to have a good night's sleep.

The next day, Gu Xin found out in the morning that his Weibo had exploded.

Home of Pets has its own official Weibo, and its official Weibo also follows Gu Xin and the three founders.The three of them have pets at home, post Weibo from time to time, and have accumulated tens of thousands of fans.Over the course of one night, his fans doubled to 3.Moreover, the official Weibo of Pet House was so fearless that it reposted this Weibo [-] minutes ago.

【I hope my boss, remember to work while dating [○｀Д○]】

The Weibo post Gu Xin posted yesterday has two important points.

One, come out.

Second, Jiang Shiyan didn't take off his watch.

Gu Xin's family is considered middle-class, with enough food and clothing, and some spare money.He himself has limited ability, so he didn't study such money-burning things like watches.

He was holding his mobile phone, with his messy hair on his head, and saw Jiang Shiyan frying eggs in the kitchen.

"Mr. Jiang, I'm mad." Gu Xin sighed, "Your watch is so expensive, why don't you take it off when you wash the dishes?"

Jiang Shiyan thought for a while, "Which watch did I wear yesterday?"

Gu Xin handed him the phone and asked him to read yesterday's Weibo.

Jiang Shiyan glanced at it, and couldn't help but laugh.My husband, these four words please him to the extreme.

"You keep calling me Mr. Jiang, so that's what you meant."

Gu Xin also blushed a little, reached out and touched Jiang Shiyan's short-handed head, and snatched the phone back.