Show one's ugliness

After Xiao Mingjun entered the intensive care unit, the family members only had to get the money, and there was nothing else they could do.

It saves me trouble.

When he was about to go back after paying the fee, Qi Heng remembered that he had thrown the bicycle on the lawn downstairs in the inpatient department.

They went back to get it, only to find that the car was gone.

In order to intercept Qiao Aiqing and Song Yufen, Qi Heng left the car without locking it at all.The car is not where it is now, apparently stolen.

"Go and ask, turn down the surveillance to see who rode away, and I will definitely find it back." Ji Cen pointed to the surveillance camera and said.

When Qi Heng was queuing up to persuade Ji Cen to perform surgery on Xiao Mingjun, he said a lot, but Ji Cen didn't seem to listen.At this moment, he didn't care about the bicycle or not, he just wanted to go back and calm down before grinding Jicen.

He spread his hands and said, "Just throw it away, I won't need it anyway."

Ji Cen nodded slowly, then turned around and left: "It's up to you."

Qi Heng followed and grabbed Ji Cen's arm, and then changed from grasping to holding.He tried to continue walking and said in a brisk tone: "Don't you still say you miss me?"

Ji Cen looked at the distant road and walked step by step: "Yes."

"I know you're angry," Qi Heng shook Ji Cen's arm and continued, "I didn't tell you when I went to do the matching. It's my fault. I'll confess to you later on. But don't wait now. ,I......"

"Are you hungry?"

Qi Heng grinned and his eyes were bright: "It's really a bit."

Ji Cen looked sideways at Qi Heng, and smiled: "Let's go, go get something to eat."

Qi Heng thought that Ji Cen's sudden relaxation was because his rhetoric was effective.Cheerfully, they quickened their pace together.

The sun gradually sank to the west, and the rays of the sun inlaid the sky with gold.

When wearing it from the New Ideal Plaza, Ji Cen pointed to the signs and asked Qi Heng one by one which one he wanted to eat.

Qi Heng shook his head seriously, and finally said that he wanted to eat Wang Er's barbecue.

"Okay, go eat." Ji Cen said loudly.

Because of running to the hospital day and night, half of this summer has passed, and they haven't had a solid meal of Wang Er's barbecue.

It's the season when the food stalls are laid out again. When rushing towards the bustling fireworks, the unique summer flavor of Xibin floods into the nostrils.

Qi Heng found a seat nearby and sat down first.Ji Cen threw the order paper on the table to him: "What do you want to eat?"

"Your treat?" Qi Heng said with a smile.

"Please," Ji Cen replied, "so you're welcome."

Qi Heng had already written a pen on the paper: "I'm being polite to you, whoever we are."

Ji Cen looked at Qi Heng's drawing menu, took out the cigarette case from his pocket, and lit a cigarette.

The sound of pressing the lighter made Qi Heng raise his head immediately: "Did you pick up the cigarette again?"

"Ah," Ji Cen hissed the smoke out of his mouth, "I didn't return it to him in the afternoon."

Being overwhelmed by Xiao Mingjun's illness, since smoking can be relieved, why not in this special period.Qi Heng lowered his head and continued to look at the menu paper: "If you want to smoke, just smoke."

Ji Cen shook out a cigarette and handed it over: "Here is one."

"Don't," Qi Heng said without thinking, "I can't smoke now, I will accompany you to smoke after everything is over."

Ji Cen, who was smoking a cigarette, drooped his eyelids and poked back the cigarette with his finger.

"Brother Cen, you have a drink from the bar, I ordered two bottles for you, if you don't have enough, order more," Qi Heng raised his head and said, "I'll accompany you with water."

"Don't drink anymore," Ji Cen, who had flicked the ash, changed his hand to hold the cigarette, looked at the ash blown off by the wind, and said, "I have to speak soberly."

Qi Heng was thinking about the kidney replacement operation, so he really wanted to talk soberly.Ji Cen's easing attitude made him feel very happy. He smiled and swiped his pen: "Yes, yes, yes, I don't want to drink anymore, then I will cross it out."

When Qi Heng was helping Ji Cen light it, Ji Cen was smoking a cigarette seriously, cherishing every puff and puffing very hard.

When Qi Heng handed the menu paper to the waiter who came to get it, Ji Cen also threw the cigarette butt on the ground and stamped it out.

Qi Heng: "The operation can be done early to save trouble. Not to mention that Xiao Mingjun is saved, I can start school on time, right Brother Cen?"

Ji Cen slowly raised his head to look at Qi Heng: "Don't talk about it, eat first."

Food came fast enough.

After Ji Cen finished speaking, the peanuts were served.

Qi Heng, who took out the disposable chopsticks from the chopstick holder, stared at Ji Cen every move he made.

The person opposite him who had been together for a long time seemed to be a little alienated from him.He subdued and said, "Okay, let's eat first."

It's not the first time to come to Wang'er BBQ, nor is it the first time to eat something on the table, but I always feel that the taste is missing.

One of the two people ate food by themselves, while the other ate food pickily.

Qi Heng said that he wanted to come to Wang Er for barbecue because he knew that Ji Cen liked to eat here.

Of course, he also likes to eat, and here are all happy memories.Last summer, he and Ji Cen were here, communicating with each other with a smile in their eyes.

But he can't eat too much fried food.He was afraid that there would be problems with his physical examination before the operation.

Although it wasn't that evil, but he didn't want to waste the chance that Xiao Mingjun had won with great difficulty.

Qi Heng put down his chopsticks early on and watched as Ji Cen settled the rest on the table.

When he pushed the tissue to Ji Cen, his eyes were full of anticipation: "We've finished eating, can we talk about business this time?"

The tissue that wiped his mouth was held in Ji Cen's hand, and he said, "You said it would be great if you didn't do the matching, Qi Dasha really didn't scream for nothing."

"I've done everything, let's not talk about matching, let's talk about the operation," Qi Heng said clearly, "I know my godmother went to find you, and she and my mother treated me well." There are opinions about the operation, but it’s okay. As long as I insist, they can’t do anything about it. Now as long as you agree, the matter will be achieved. It’s important to save Xiao Mingjun first, and you can make up for other things later. You believe me, I If you say you have surgery, you won’t regret it.”

If Qi Heng hadn't done the matching, then Ji Cen wouldn't have had such a difficult time doing it.It's not that he doesn't believe in Qi Heng, it's because he believes too much that Qi Heng will fight for him.

He asked slowly, "Are you really going to have an operation?"

"To do." Qi Heng nodded.

Ji Cen gently closed his eyes: "You said that you want to give him a kidney transplant to help me. You are really wrong. This will disturb my conscience."

"What is there to worry about? I am willing."

"You can't if you want to. You don't have to."

"For you, it is necessary."

Ji Cen squeezed the tissue, and asked clearly: "Didn't we just get along for a while? Do you want me to have to be by your side for the rest of my life because of one of your kidneys? Ah?"

Qi Heng was surprised by Ji Cen's sudden cold face: "I...that's not what I meant, I..."

"From the very beginning when we were together, you were very willing to plan for the future, which put a lot of pressure on me," Ji Cen said, looking at the reflection on the table, "Who knows what will happen in the future? Why do you insist on Make it look like I have to do it in this life?"

"It's just you." Qi Heng also emphasized his tone, "What do you mean by this, Brother Cen?"

"I just want to tell you," Ji Cen pointed at the table with his finger, "I can't afford to give Xiao Mingjun a kidney transplant. I can't even afford to break up with you in the future."

Qi Heng frowned and looked at Ji Cen: "What are you talking about? What do you mean you can't afford it? What do you mean you can't afford it after we separated?"

"Like I said, no one knows what will happen in the future. You gave Xiao Mingjun your kidney and we separated. How can I face you?"

Qi Heng said loudly: "Who the hell is going to separate from you? Does it make sense for you to make useless assumptions there?"

Qi Heng, who was so angry, leaned forward, and the spittle stars danced with the mosquitoes under the light.

Looking at Qi Heng like this, Ji Cen couldn't bear it, but he didn't show mercy at all.He said with a smirk: "Otherwise, do you think we can last forever?"

"Why not?" Qi Heng looked directly into Ji Cen's eyes.

"It's just the two of us, what will happen in the end?" Ji Cen retracted his eyes and rubbed the tissue in his hand and said, "Whether you can get married or have children, you tell me to be a college student."

At this time, Ji Cen was so unfamiliar that Qi Heng was frightened.It seems that the feeling of wanting to stay away when we first met has returned.

He tentatively asked: "Did my godmother say something ugly that made you sad? If you want to vent your anger, you can vent your anger. Don't say these things, okay?"

"Do I still use her to say something? I am such a big person, shouldn't I know?" Ji Cen said in a low voice, "I have known for a long time that I will be separated from you. Now is the time to go on. If you really want to delay things, just play around."

"Just for fun?" Qi Heng didn't understand very much, "Then what are we? What is this year?"

Ji Cen sighed calmly: "You don't need to worry about the settlement, after all, it's really hard to define. I wanted to clarify this with you a long time ago, but I'm afraid it will affect your college entrance examination. I survived your exam. After applying for the exam, I have a lot of things to do every day, which is very annoying, and I don't have the energy to go on with you..."

"What's the matter with you," Qi Heng interrupted, "Why did you do this suddenly? If it was just for fun, then what did you announce our relationship to everyone on the hot pot table that day? Did you fart?"

"If you've been found out, you have to have an explanation. You can't afford to play. That's really not my style." Ji Cen shrugged his shoulders, "I'm telling you the truth. You can't deny my story just because you don't want to hear it." Do you really feel it? Just because you didn't notice it, you can't think that I did this suddenly, right?"

Qi Heng looked at Ji Cen quietly, unable to turn his head.

Shouldn't they be talking about the kidney replacement operation? Why are they talking about the issue of separation or not?

Seeing that Qi Heng stopped talking, Ji Cen said intensified: "I know you may not believe it, and you even think that I may not want you to perform surgery on Xiao Mingjun and say these things to anger you. Really not. I have You know how much you want Xiao Mingjun to live a good life. But the person who is going to get a kidney transplant can be anyone, but you can’t. Because we will be separated, our relationship, we can’t even be friends if we are separated. Let’s be honest, I don’t like to owe others. That’s why I want to tell you clearly why I would rather risk Xiao Mingjun’s failure to get out of the intensive care unit than refuse you to give him a kidney transplant.”

Qi Heng was numb all over, he stared blankly at Ji Cen.He still doesn't understand why his Longlong smiles so beautifully, yet he is saying such sad things.

"I suggest you go back and explain to your mother that you don't know how to have an operation. High blood pressure is not a joke. It would be too unfortunate for her to have any problems because of your operation.. ...."

"I'm breaking it now because the opportunity is good. It just so happens that you are going to study abroad, and we are going to be separated. Then it's better to go our own way, and don't pester anyone. My ambition is not that ambitious, but it's just hope. Live your own little life. If I really yearn for the distance, I will leave the year I graduate. Actually, I can’t live without this place. My friends are here, my life is here, I like this place, and I belong here .I never really thought about going somewhere far away with you..."

"It's all for the old man, you don't have to think that you were cheated or something, we enjoyed it when we were together, were happy, had a good time, isn't that all right..."

Qi Heng still didn't speak.It was sweltering around him, and he was completely cold.

Ji Cen was still babbling nonsense, every word and every word was piercing his heart.

Qi Heng's insistence on transplanting Xiao Mingjun's kidney is really for Ji Cen.

Qi Heng didn't want to see Ji Cen live in such disgrace all day, exhausted physically and mentally.He wanted to put the burden on Ji Cen on his shoulders.

Both of them knew this.

After Ji Cen learned that Qi Heng had done a match, he thought about how he would most effectively stop it if the match was successful.

Since Qi Heng is desperate because of the close relationship with him.Then he cut off this relationship with his own hands, which is the most effective way at the moment.

He pushed Qi Heng away forcefully, and Qi Heng would no longer be obsessed with the operation.

When he made this decision, he knew that his heart had already tilted on the balance with Xiao Mingjun on one side and Qi Heng on the other.

Qi Heng, who has been in prison for five years, has finally tasted the sweetness of life and can stride towards the bright front.He, Ji Cenwan, can't let others do things that hurt his body because of his selfish needs.He can't stop Qi Heng from running towards better things.

He who kept Qi Heng was not selfless, he was actually selfish.

Qi Heng was not allowed to undergo surgery, but Qi Heng, who was successfully matched with Xiao Mingjun, was kept by his side.He would always blame himself for not saving Xiao Mingjun.

But he who asked Qi Heng to perform a kidney replacement operation on Xiao Mingjun couldn't continue to be with Qi Heng with peace of mind.

Before things got worse, before he lost his mind.He wants to choose Qi Heng out of his life first.

He can continue to accompany Xiao Mingjun to wait for the kidney/source with all his strength, and Qi Heng can also be a better self without any worries, let alone regretting that he couldn't help him.

But Ji Cen couldn't say these words clearly.

If Qi Heng finds out that he still has love in his heart, with Qi Heng's courage to fight Ma Changfeng with him with a knife in his hand, if Xiao Mingjun comes out of the intensive care room and agrees to the operation, then he can no longer stop Qi Heng Going for surgery.

Although what he said was nonsense and falsehood, it was a painful determination after repeated struggles.

It's like a broken hole in the mouth of an oral ulcer, it hurts but I can't help but lick it hard.

He knew that Qi Heng was in pain, why didn't he feel pain.If this kind of pain can happen according to his expected result, he is willing to suffer to the end for Qi Heng's well-being.

Just when Ji Cen was about to say harsh words that would attract people's hatred.

Qi Heng moved his lips, and he understood Ji Cen's meaning: "We, are we done?"

Ji Cen emphasized: "Yes, let's get together so we can go our separate ways in the future."

After listening to Ji Cen's statement, Qi Heng felt not only incalculable heartache, but also a sense of being played around everywhere.

Why is it that Ji Cen is the first to talk about being together, and it is also Ji Cen who is the first to mention separation.

Speak up when you care deeply, and kick away when your liking fades away.What do you take him for?

The most damning thing is that he can't block what Ji Cen said, nor can he change Ji Cen's clear thoughts.

He thought that Ji Cen didn't want him to be matched and didn't want him to have surgery because he was afraid of hurting his body.

It turned out that they had planned to separate for a long time.

The more he forbears, the more angry he gets, thinking that he can't speak the theory but Ji Cen.He got up and punched Ji Cen in the side of the face.

Ji Cen, who wanted to completely tear himself apart with Qi Heng, fought back without hesitation.

They fought.Restrict each other, but no one speaks.

To outsiders, they seem to have the hatred of taking their wives.

The dishes were dropped, the tables and chairs were overturned, and everyone looked around.

After being pulled away by a few big brothers who didn't know each other at the next table, they all looked at each other quietly with red eyes.

Immediately afterwards, one stuck in place, and the other strode away.

Ji Cen didn't look at Qi Heng's back, he was still pretending to be nonchalant and calling Qi Heng an idiot to the people next to him.

He waved to Wang Er who was doing the accounting at the cash register: "Brother Wang! I'm sorry, I'll pack this up for you."

I've seen a lot of Wang Er making trouble after drinking, but these two obviously didn't order any wine.

"Whose phone is yours?" The waiter who helped Ji Cen clean up picked up the phone that was caught on the table and asked.

It was the old mobile phone he used for Qi Heng.Ji Cen took the phone: "Mine."

Qi Heng walked along Xuefu Street and started to run, his trembling lips could only be squeezed tightly together so as not to make a sound.

He endured the pain and ran a long way before stopping his feet and standing there crying.

He didn't want to cry, but he couldn't help it anymore.

In the bursts of crying with trembling hearts, the grievance was greater than the anger.

What is stupider than ever willingly is to continue to deceive yourself.At this point, all the disappointment and heartache are warning him: he should no longer have illusions about Ji Cen.

Because they value each other too much.Because I want to keep everything too much, because I want them to have a future.

These two people suddenly separated on this summer night when the neon lights first came on.