Show one's ugliness

In the afternoon, Xiao Mingjun was rescued suddenly, and he was thankful that he didn't push into the intensive care monitoring room. Now that he was struggling to sit up, how could he be allowed to go outside.

Besides, at this time, the lights of the entire inpatient department were turned off.If the nurse on duty finds out that the family members are taking the patient outside, they will inevitably be questioned.

Besides, this is a risky thing. If Xiao Mingjun feels bad when he goes outside, the rescue will not be done in time, so it is really not recommended.

"No." Ji Cen firmly vetoed it.

Xiao Mingjun discussed in a low voice: "Go out and get some air and come back. I haven't gone out to see it at night for a long time."

"What's there to see, it's dark."

"There is the moon, and there are stars."

Ji Cen tried to deceive people: "It's cloudy outside, I can't see anything."

Xiao Mingjun: "I saw it from the window, the night sky is clear."

Xiao Mingjun began to beg more and more, and Ji Cen began to retreat steadily.

Ji Cen couldn't bear to look at Xiao Mingjun's pitiful expression that his demands were not met.In the end, I had no choice but to say: "I tried to push you out, but I have to come back in 10 minutes."

Xiao Mingjun readily agreed: "Okay."

Fortunately for Xiao Mingjun, Nurse Xiao Jiang is on duty tonight.Nurse Xiao Jiang usually gets along well with Xiao Mingjun. Xiao Mingjun said that he would introduce her to his nephew within a few days after he moved in.

Nurse Xiao Jiang didn't take it seriously at first, until she found out who was Xiao Mingjun's nephew, she secretly agreed.

Ji Cen knew more or less what Nurse Xiao Jiang was thinking.He had never been such a rascal before. He knew that the girl had thoughts about him, but he didn't know how to expose him, but he secretly took advantage of Nurse Xiao Jiang.

He also thought that when Xiao Mingjun finished the operation and was discharged from the hospital, he would make a good apology to Nurse Jiang.

He went to the duty desk and told Nurse Xiao Jiang about his appeal, and Nurse Xiao Jiang immediately told him to go out through the side door.

"It can't be too long, please come back quickly, if the security finds out, I will be punished." Nurse Xiao Jiang told Ji Cen.

Ji Cen nodded: "Don't worry, we will come back soon."

It is a September day in Xibin, and the night is slightly cool.

Ji Cen moved in front of Xiao Mingjun's hospital bed, specially tucked up the quilt for Xiao Mingjun, and put a blanket on top of the quilt.

When he pushed the bed out of the ward, the other patients and family members in the room thought that Xiao Mingjun felt bad again and went to rescue him.

The wheels of the hospital bed were not smooth, the floor of the corridor was too old, and Xiao Mingjun was not light.It took a little effort for Ji Cen to get the hospital bed to the door pointed by Nurse Xiao Jiang.

After the iron door opened and covered it with bricks, Ji Cen moved the hospital bed out of the door little by little.

Xiao Mingjun was still making sarcastic remarks on the bed: "Actually, I can also get down and walk by myself."

"Stay there," Ji Cen said, "You're not going as fast as I can push."

After finally getting the hospital bed outside, Ji Cen stopped directly at the open space at the door.Anyway, it won't delay other people's entry and exit, and they can go back in time if they are discovered.

While Xiao Mingjun was breathing heavily for air, Ji Cen leaned against the wall beside him, lit a cigarette and smoked silently.

"I want to smoke too." Xiao Mingjun said.

At this time, Xiao Dabai was just like that little brat who saw what he wanted, and Ji Cen wanted to give him a slap: "No."

"Then you stand on the other side, I'll take advantage of the wind and smell."

After thinking for a while, Ji Cen moved to the side: "Don't worry about it, let's go back after I finish smoking this cigarette."

"Didn't you say 10 minutes?"

"Then two cigarettes, I will smoke slowly."

"You'd better stop smoking. If you smoke like this, at my age, you might be worse than me."

"Can't quit."

"Then why did you quit before?"

Before Ji Cen quit smoking, it was because Qi Heng asked him to quit.Thinking of Qi Heng, Ji Cen became even more annoyed and didn't make any more noise.

Xiao Mingjun was really breathing well, and was also looking at the moon and stars in the sky.In the black velvet night, there are few stars, and the moon is very round.

Ji Cen doesn't know what's so good about this night, which is almost the same every day. Xiao Mingjun is taking too much medicine now, and his brain is probably burned out.

A few minutes later, in the quiet atmosphere, only Ji Cen's smoke was dancing.Xiao Mingjun suddenly spoke.

"Xiao Cen, I want to tell you something."

Ji Cen said "Yes" and said, "Say."

"I still want to sign that organ donation."

About three days ago, when Ji Cen went to fetch water, when he returned to the ward, he saw a strange young man chatting with Xiao Mingjun.Volunteers who claim to be some kind of human organ donation organization.

Ji Cen drove the man out directly, but the man's intentions for coming had already been infiltrated with Xiao Mingjun.Because of this, Xiao Mingjun opened the door to a new world as if in a daze, insisting on participating in organ donation.

After being scolded several times by Ji Cen, he didn't wake up, so he started talking again.

Ji Cen tried his best not to get angry and said, "Didn't I tell you that it was all a lie?"

"I don't care if that person is a liar," Xiao Mingjun said, "The other hospital also has this donation channel."

"What does it have to do with you? Only after you die can you donate your organs."

"I just want to donate when I die."

"Quickly pull it down. With your physical condition, can your organs be good? Who the hell dares to want them?"

"I've asked them all. In my case, only my kidneys are problematic. Others can still be donated."

Xiao Mingjun said this to Ji Cen so bluntly, it was tantamount to digging flesh from Ji Cen.It hurts Ji Cen to breathe.He was furious: "What's wrong with your fucking mind? You can't wait for what you want, and you still think about others? Take care of yourself first!"

Xiao Mingjun argues: "It's because I know that waiting for organs is too painful, so I don't want others to wait too. I've been watching the sun outside for the past few days. If I really can't stand it anymore, I can close my eyes. The cornea is for Nan Nan from 203, you have seen that little girl, I..."

"Can you stop talking?" Ji Cen interrupted, "Can you stop being mad at me?"

Hearing Ji Cen's trembling tone, Xiao Mingjun twisted his neck and looked over.

Under the not-so-bright light, Xiao Mingjun saw the tears in the corners of Ji Cen's eyes through the street lamps in the distance and Ji Cen's cigarette lighting.

"Why are you crying?" Xiao Mingjun asked.

Even Ji Cen himself didn't know why he was crying.Hearing Xiao Mingjun say that waiting for an organ is very painful, he couldn't help thinking that he pushed Qi Heng away.

Now the kidney/yuangan can't wait.Every day he was worried that Xiao Mingjun would not be able to survive.

He didn't have anyone to talk about the distress in his heart, and everyone around him was used to him being in such a dire situation.Everyone can save him for a while, but not all the time.

He is obviously a very face-saving person, so now he wants to allow Xiao Mingjun to treat him normally.He has already stretched out his hand to accept the money sent by everyone.

The money given by Ma Changfeng has been deducted non-stop, and he still doesn't know how to make up for the next quarter's medical expenses.

He already has plans to exchange for Wynn.

Ji Cen couldn't tell Xiao Mingjun about his money difficulties, he was afraid that Xiao Mingjun wouldn't be able to persist.He made up countless lies to make Xiao Mingjun believe that he has the ability to pay the medical expenses again and again.

These day-to-day anxieties floated up and were pushed down by him.At such a particularly inconspicuous moment, I couldn't hold it anymore.

Looking at his shadow on the wall, I suddenly remembered that Qi Heng once pointed to the shadow on the wall and told him that their shadows are the same.

He saw that the shadow was indeed like Qi Heng, and his emotions couldn't be broken.

Xiao Mingjun watched Ji Cen grow up. The last time he saw Ji Cen cry was when Ji Cen came back from a fight with his classmates when he was in his teens and cried that he missed his parents.

Later, in his eyes, this kid was invincible, with a playful smile, and he lived with ease.

Never cried again.

At least he, the uncle, never saw it again.

Seeing Ji Cen smoking while crying, he felt very distressed.He blinked his wet eyes and said, "I, in this life, the most right thing is to bring you up."

Ji Cen bit his cigarette holder and said, "Don't mess with me."

"I'm telling the truth," Xiao Mingjun smiled dryly, "Let me choose again, and I'll take you home."

Xiao Mingjun's words opened up the memories of the past, and Ji Cen's emotions are too fragile now, and he is overwhelmed by endless self-blame.He sobbed and said, "But I... gave up saving you."

Xiao Mingjun: "You didn't give up, I know it's hard for you, and you never said give up."

Ji Cen's voice was mixed with crying, he squeezed out the cigarette in his hand and looked at Xiao Mingjun on the hospital bed and said, "What I'm saying is, a while ago, I gave up doing the kidney replacement operation for you."

Xiao Mingjun was surprised: "Surgery? Is there a kidney/source?"

"Yes, you have a kidney/source, but you were in a coma and entered the intensive care unit. As a family member, I took the initiative to tell the doctor to give up the operation. I bet you can come out alive, but if you don't come out, you are no longer here. .”

Xiao Mingjun reacted for a while: "Can you tell me why?"

At this time, Ji Cen didn't want to hide from Xiao Mingjun anymore, he said clearly: "It's Qi Heng, he made a match for you, and the match was successful, but I didn't ask him to perform surgery on you, I..."

"It's Qi Heng," Xiao Mingjun said with a sigh of relief, "It's a good thing you didn't agree, even if I could make my own decision, I would never agree."

Ji Cen was shocked: "What did you say?"

"I said it's a good thing you didn't agree," Xiao Mingjun continued, "I definitely won't want his kidney."

Before Qiao Aiqing and Xiao Mingjun divorced, Xiao Mingjun insisted on asking Qi Heng to match him.He completely disregarded the health of others for his own survival.

Now he said that he would not want Qi Heng's kidney at all.Ji Cen didn't understand: "Why do you say that?"

Xiao Mingjun sighed: "If I really asked Qi Heng to perform the operation on me, wouldn't that be Qiao Aiqing's life?"

"Then you...then you said to let Qi Heng do it..."

"Go for a match, right? I did it on purpose to annoy Miss Qing."

The more Ji Cen listened, the more confused he became. He had already stood beside the bed, using the closest line of sight to confirm that Xiao Mingjun was awake.

"I don't say that, can she go to the end with me? She has to lie to her, and she will believe it."

"You lied to her?"

"It's now, I'm not afraid to tell you," Xiao Mingjun said calmly, "I wanted her to leave me since I was diagnosed, and I didn't want her to suffer with me. I admit that I was a jerk before, but I had a good life. But take After receiving the diagnosis report, I knew exactly what I should do. She is such a good woman, why should she live a bad life by my side. She will definitely not leave me on her own initiative, she does not have that awareness, even though she is really tired It's hard..."

"I know this disease will never end. I have to get a kidney transplant or dialysis until I die. I don't want to cheat her, so I have to find a way to let her go..."

"When I got married, she made a request of me. She said that she couldn't hit her no matter what. As long as she hit her, she would divorce me without even thinking about it. So I can only hit her in the end. She just Really gone. Good to go, I just hope she goes away without looking back..."

Only now did Ji Cen know what Xiao Mingjun was thinking.

No wonder Xiao Mingjun didn't mention asking Qi Heng to do the matching afterward, because it was basically an excuse for him to drive a wedge between him and Qiao Aiqing.The son is the life of the mother.If he wanted to hurt Qi Heng, Qiao Aiqing would care much less about him.

The wrapped photo frame should have been cherished by Xiao Mingjun.It's not that he regrets the divorce, it's his own fault.He should never regret divorcing Qiao Aiqing.

For so many years, Ji Cen didn't feel that Xiao Mingjun had any real responsibility, but this time, he completely saw Xiao Dabai's conscience.

Xiao Mingjun was still talking: "In my situation, let's be selfish for the last time. Marriage is definitely going to be divorced. I know her, and she will definitely give me the Four Seasons Fruit. She is soft-hearted, knowing that I will spend a lot of money after seeing a doctor, so she will definitely be there. Pity me in this regard. You see, she did do that. It’s better to leave it to me, and if I’m really gone, I can leave you something too.”

"Don't say that you're going to die," Ji Cen said, holding onto the side of the bed, "Just leave you to me, nothing else matters."

Xiao Mingjun patted Ji Cen's arm and said, "Little Cen."

"Ok?"

"Even if I didn't come out of the ICU, I don't blame you," Xiao Mingjun looked at Ji Cen and said, "You've done a very good job."

Ji Cen's tears flowed with a smile, and he said, "I don't care if you blame me or not."

"If I'm not here in the future, you'll really be left alone, and you'll have to live a better life. Do you hear me?"

"Why did you say you weren't here again?"

"I think you can take good care of yourself with your cooking skills now," Ming Jun said with a smile, "If I hadn't been for you and insisted that you cook for me, I wouldn't have changed my tricks to urge you. I'm sure I can't cook well in my life."

Ji Cen wanted to understand something and said: "Okay, old man, even I was arranged by you, right?"

After the agreed 10 minutes, the two of them spent more than half an hour ventilating outside before returning to the ward.

During the period, we cried and laughed, and never talked so much from the bottom of our hearts together.

It was also over half an hour that gave Ji Cen a new understanding of some things.

If he had known that Xiao Mingjun would not agree to the operation even if Qi Heng was successfully matched, why would he push Qi Heng away.

At that time, he would rather trust his own cruelty than hand over the choice to Xiao Mingjun.

Now, he understands it belatedly.But Qi Heng had already been ruthlessly pushed away by him in the chaos that day.

This is what makes him most regretful.