Show one's ugliness

Ji Cen thought he would suffer from insomnia at night, but fell asleep after touching the pillow.

The alarm clock rang for a long time before he moved under the quilt.After being dull for a while, I remembered that I was going to the funeral parlor, so I hurriedly got up and got dressed.

The sweater that he took off last night was put on his head and he grabbed it again.I searched in the closet, and found a black and white match.

Shao Jingcheng is more active than him, and he is already calling to ask him.They made an appointment to meet at the crossroads and go to the funeral home together.

Ji Cen refused to let Shao Jingcheng follow, and Shao Jingcheng insisted that if he didn't go, it would be a waste of Uncle Xiao's usual kindness to him.

Ji Cen, who hung up the phone, was busy putting on his shirt, and the busier he was, the more mistakes he made.He didn't find the string until the last button was fastened.Had to untie one by one.

The scar on his abdomen was tattooed with the pattern he had decided on on October 10 last year.

Although he had separated from Qi Heng at that time, he still went to get a tattoo.

The arrival of Qi Heng yesterday seemed to divert his attention, and he was no longer too sad for Xiao Mingjun's departure.Just like now, when he was dressed, all he could think about was how Qi Heng squatted outside the balcony looking at the iron pot yesterday.

He didn't even think about what he was facing when he arrived at the funeral home.

Ji Cen and Shao Jingcheng came as family members, and they were the first to arrive without any accident.

It was a bit of a surprise.Someone in the reserved square hall came earlier than the two of them.

Shao Jingcheng, who went in first and walked around, didn't know him well, so he came out to discuss with Ji Cen, who was at the door, and said, "Boss, did the uncle go the wrong way?"

Ji Cen leaned over from the door and took a look inside, then immediately welcomed him in: "Uncle Liu, you're back."

For the first time in so many years, Ji Cen called Liu Big Nose uncle.Liu Dabi stood up from the chair and nodded: "I bought a plane ticket yesterday when I heard that your uncle is gone, and I will come back to see him off."

Ji Cen didn't contact Liu Big Nose, he was here to inform yesterday.But it seems that the news of Xiao Mingjun's death has spread, just like Xiao Mingjun's diagnosis last year.

I never said it specifically, but many people know it.

There were quite a few people who arrived suddenly like Liu Dabi, and the square hall was almost full when the official farewell was approaching.

Those who Ji Cen could call out by their names were basically Xiao Mingjun's friends who often walked around.The faces Ji Cen didn't quite recognize were either the family members of the donors or the sympathy representatives sent by the hospital.

Everyone who was supposed to come yesterday has already been here, so there is no need to be there today.Ji Cen specifically asked his elder brothers not to let them come, but those boys still came, helping to wear corsages and serve tea and water for the guests inside and outside the hall.

Having said everything is simple, it still works out like this.But everyone present came to bid farewell to Xiao Mingjun, and this Ji Cen really couldn't control it.

When Jiang Liwen was tidying up the white flowers on Ji Cen's left chest, he remembered something and said, "Your uncle told me that he hasn't seen you get married yet. He is very worried about you, afraid that you will be like him in this life, and you will never end up with a family." Wife and children."

Ji Cenqiang squeezed a smile: "Even if he is always there, he may not be able to see it."

Wearing old clothes Ji Cen customized a suit for Xiao Mingjun, and two days ago Xiao Mingjun suddenly told him that if he left, he wanted to wear that leather jacket.

Ji Cen scolded him, but he insisted on insisting.Ji Cen knew why Xiao Mingjun liked that leather jacket, and he went with him to buy seasonal clothes that early winter.

That leather jacket was very expensive, Xiao Mingjun was reluctant to buy it after trying it on and put it back.But he couldn't forget it because his sister Qing said he looked good in clothes.

Xiao Mingjun's body was swollen due to illness, even if Ji Cen changed to the largest size, it still wouldn't fit.Even so, Xiao Mingjun didn't change his mind, he said with a smile: "It's better if you don't fasten it, it's more chic to wear."

When saying goodbye to the corpse at the end, Ji Cen didn't dare to look closely at Xiao Mingjun's face.Because of the removal of the cornea, Xiao Mingjun's two eye sockets were sunken even though the mortician had put on makeup.

It looked like he had suffered a lot, which made Ji Cen unbearable.

But thinking about Xiao Mingjun getting two new students in exchange, he felt that Xiao Dabaihua was amazing.

The body is cremated after the farewell.

Ji Cen could still stand watching Xiao Mingjun being carried onto the conveyor belt, and Ji Cen could still stand when Xiao Mingjun was being pushed into the incinerator.

Until it was his turn to pick up the ashes himself, he finally turned his head and wiped away his tears.

Xiao Mingjun is so big, there is only a small pile left.It was something he couldn't help crying just thinking about it.

After the ashes are put into the urn and sealed, the basic process of going in the funeral home is over.

God is very suitable for the occasion, and it is snowing outside.

People in the square hall slowly gathered at the door to watch Ji Cen, who was holding the urn, get into the car.

The car is dedicated to the funeral home, and the front of the car is decorated with a black cloth belt.Responsible for sending Ji Cen with his ashes to Yuanfeng.

Normally, it is not given away beyond the scope of the city, but fortunately, paying more money can solve the problem.

After the car drove away slowly, Ji Cen, who was sitting in the back seat, cried while holding the urn.The driver master was not surprised by this situation, and drove the car numbly.

Jiang Liwen and the others will take care of the rest of the funeral home. Ji Cen's most important task now is to bring Xiao Mingjun back to Yuanfeng.

The urn in his arms was said to be made of golden nanmu when he bought it.Expensive is a bit expensive, but Ji Cen gritted his teeth and bought it.

He thought that Xiao Mingjun was to be installed inside, and it was worth it no matter how expensive it was.

Ji Cen took off the backpack only when his back hurt.There is also a box in the bag.

Song Yufen's mother has bad legs and feet, and when she was in the nursing home, she used the elevator to go up and down.

It is inconvenient to climb stairs after being taken back to Yangnan by my daughter.Before reaching the gate of the community, Qiao Aiqing called Qi Heng, wanting to ask his son to come down and carry the old lady on his back.

Qi Heng answered quickly: "Hey, Mom, what's wrong."

"Son, come downstairs quickly. Grandma Fan can't go upstairs, so you have to carry it on your back." Qiao Aiqing said.

On the phone, Qi Heng was in a very noisy place, he said: "I'm not at home, I'll go back tomorrow."

Qiao Aiqing: "Huh?"

The conductor was urging Qi Heng to buy a ticket, Qi Heng was anxious to get out his wallet, slipped his hand, and hung up the phone.

Qiao Aiqing said to Song Yufen: "Qi Heng is not at home, so he will be back tomorrow."

"It's snowing, where did this kid go?" Song Yufen said.

After getting off the taxi at the entrance of the community, they ran into acquaintances from the same community.

It was Yang Xue who used to play cards with Xiao Mingjun.Seeing Yang Xue wearing a black chest with white flowers.From now on, Song Yufen will have white affairs in her family.

After asking this question, I found out that Xiao Mingjun had gone.

Hearing the news, Song Yufen hurriedly looked at Qiao Aiqing. Qiao Aiqing was surprised, but soon calmed down.

When continuing to walk together, Yang Xue said: "Say it soon, it feels like playing cards together yesterday, and the person is gone."

"Having such a disease, living is suffering." Song Yufen said.

Mrs. Fan grabbed the arm of Qiao Aiqing, who was walking with a dull head: "Qing'er, I'm not sad."

"I don't," Qiao Aiqing smiled, "Godmother, pay attention to your feet, there is snow and slippery."

Mrs. Fan regards Qiao Aiqing as her own daughter, and she often knows Qiao Aiqing better than Song Yufen.

She could see that the child was not feeling well, and she could not be mistaken.She wanted to say something again, but after choking, she forgot.

It's the same feeling as yesterday when I suddenly thought of taking a look at the gate of Wynn.Qi Heng woke up this morning and wanted to go to Yuanfeng.

Yesterday at the dinner table, he asked Wang Peng and Huo Yazi clearly.Ji Cen will go to Yuanfeng today, and will bury Xiao Mingjun tomorrow morning.

He took the time to arrive at the passenger terminal, and bought the nearest bus to Yuanfeng.

In case of snow, the road block is slow.It took more than half an hour to arrive than the elapsed time marked on the ticket.

Qi Heng got off the car at Yuanfeng Center, which was still far from the Dougu's house in his impression.He stopped at the hotel and never went anywhere.Meals are all delivered by calling directly at the hotel.

It's okay that the card of Miss Sebao is always under the door of the room, but the men and women next door are too noisy.

After sending Ji Cen to Yuanfeng, the Iveco returned directly.

When he arrived at Aunt Dou's house, Aunt Dou asked him to put Xiao Mingjun's urn on the cabinet prepared in advance.

Since she couldn't go to the funeral parlor in the city, Gu Gu arranged it at home.She told Ji Cen not to stay in a hotel, but to come home.

He asked Zhang Qingchen to go to a flower shop far away to buy the yellow and white chrysanthemums under the cabinet.

Dou Gu's mother-in-law was very dissatisfied with this, she scolded Dou Gu in front of Ji Cen and said, "What is this for? It's Chinese New Year, and the house is decorated like a mourning hall. Those who don't know think I'm dead. "

For so many years, even though her mother-in-law made things difficult for her, Dougu never spoke back to her mother-in-law, but this time she said without thinking: "Don't worry, when you go, I will make you a bigger battle than this. "

Zhang Qin clicked his tongue at his daughter-in-law, reluctant to really complain, and pretended to be angry: "What did you say to Mom?"

"I'm telling the truth." Dougu said confidently.

The mother-in-law was so angry that she was suddenly turned back and coaxed.back to the house.

"Gu Gu," Ji Cen said in a low voice, "I'm causing you trouble."

"Longlong, don't say that," Dou Gu straightened Xiao Mingjun's urn and said, "I have always regarded Mingjun as my family. I was surprised that he was willing to take you away, and I have always thanked him. I just didn't expect His life is so short..."

Dou Gu started to cry softly while talking, Ji Cen hugged her into his arms without saying anything, a hug is the best comfort.

When Ji Cen's parents were killed, no one was willing to take him home, only Xiao Mingjun.

Xiao Mingjun was notoriously unscrupulous, and Dou Gu was afraid that he would not take good care of Ji Cen, so she wanted to bring Ji Cen back.

But at that time, there were two children around her, and the life was not rich at that time, and there was a lot of pressure on the old and the young.She was afraid that she would not be able to give Ji Cen a good growth environment, so she wanted to let Xiao Mingjun take Ji Cen to try it out first, at least living in the city.

Unexpectedly, Ji Cen would not leave Xiao Mingjun in this area.Fortunately, Xiao Mingjun was able to bring Ji Cen along.

It sounds like more than ten years, how many difficulties there are, I am afraid that only Xiao Mingjun himself knows.

The next morning the snow stopped for burial.

The permafrost was loosened with an excavator found by Zhang Qin.After finishing the grave, put it into the urn wrapped in cloth.

After filling the soil and setting up the monument, Zhang Qin and Dou Gu stood and bowed, while Zhang Qingchen knelt down and kowtowed with Ji Cen.No one cried anymore.

Xiao Mingjun's grave is not far from Ji Cen's parents' grave.Before leaving, Ji Cen jokingly said that the three of them could chat.

Ji Cen was still young when he was arranging funeral affairs for his parents, so he didn't handle many things.When Xiao Mingjun left, he went through the process completely.

It was too tiring and exhausted him.

Dou Gu meant to ask him to go back with them to rest for a day before leaving, but Ji Cen did not agree.There are still some things in the city that he needs to deal with quickly.

"Come back when you're done," Zhang Qin said, "Celebrate the New Year here."

Ji Cen took off his backpack: "No Uncle Zhang, I'll stay in the city for the New Year. Give Xiao Mingjun a suona and I'll leave. I'll come back on Ching Ming Festival. You guys go back."

Ji Cen, who was separated from Dou Gu's family of three, climbed up the yin and yang slope with a clear goal.

The steep slope is covered with snow and it is not easy to climb.He used his hands and feet to grab the mud after reaching the top slope.

After patting and cleaning, he took out the suona from his backpack.

Under the endless north wind, he held the metal in his hand, and the ice spread from his palm to his whole body.

Putting the suona to his mouth, he adjusted his posture and adjusted the position of his fingers.I haven't played this thing for a long time, and the first two sounds are dry and hoarse.

After mustering enough strength to breathe out, the voice immediately cleared up.

Suona is especially suitable for great sorrow and great joy.The shock and appeal are unmatched by other instruments.The continuous sound was swept away by the wind, making Ji Cen blow more and more vigorously.

He knows two dirges, which he learned in the funeral team.I don't want to pick any more, I plan to play the two songs one by one.

Qi Heng's two seals were covered with snow.The color of Yuan Feng's impression on him turned into white eyes.

He and Ji Cen came together last winter, but this year they came by themselves.

Although others are in Yuanfeng, they don't know exactly when Ji Cen will bury Xiao Mingjun.

On their side, the earlier the better, so he got up very early.

After going out, he has been wandering around the woods where he and Ji Cen had strolled before, where he could see the direction of Yinyang Hill.

Qi Heng felt that he was like a psychopath, who wanted to get close to Ji Cen, but didn't have the guts to express it directly.Let yourself do things in a sneaky way that you think there is no problem.

Here he can no longer be discovered by Ji Cen, otherwise all the reasons will be untenable.

So he was cautious and silent, just wanting to be the last companion silently.

Qi Heng who heard the sound of Suona turned his head to look at Yin Yang Po.He saw a figure standing on the hill from a distance.

It's because of such a long distance, he still knew that it was Ji Cen.

He stood in the cold wind and listened quietly to the great sadness.

Ji Cen is saying goodbye to Xiao Mingjun, he is saying goodbye to Ji Cen.

He actually understood what was awkward in his heart.It was because he had never compromised with himself, never dared to formally reconcile with this relationship.

He was always trapped in unwillingness and regret.Because he was the one who was not wanted.

He used to think that love and sincerity were enough for being together.

But it's not enough for him alone.

He thought, it's time to try to let go, and looking back frequently is destined to not go far.

The author has something to say:

Not surprisingly, there will be another update today, but I am sure it will not be reconciled today, it will be done tomorrow, there is no way, I am also tired.I'm going to line up to do the nucleic acid first, see you later, and compare my heart.