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Tong Yu's dark eyes flickered.What Song Rou is going to say today is actually not without a premonition, that is probably the only explanation for Song Rou's strange behavior in the studio these days.

But he really didn't understand.So he just moved his lower lip and didn't make a sound.

Song Rou's hand on his head groped down to his eyes, nose, and slightly opened lips...

Finally, the fingertips rested on the pale lips, the middle knuckles held up his chin, and he gently stroked his soft lower lip with the pulp of his thumb.

The wet water was the hot water he coaxed to drink just now.

Song Rou's eyes slowly moved from her eyes to her lips, and then leaned over.

Tong Yu knew that Song Rou probably wanted to kiss him.

He is still so handsome.The face had deep eye sockets and a straight nose.The deep eyes and sharp lips make him look a little gorgeous, close to ripe berries that are eager to be harvested.

Tong Yu turned his head before the kiss fell.

Song Rou closed her eyes and restrained herself from kissing again, her messy breath sprayed down on Tong Yu's cheek.

When he opened his eyes again, the place where the eyelids rolled up had turned a little red, like a child who was holding a jack-o-lantern to ask for candy but was shut out.

He put the hand supporting Tong Yu's chin behind him, spread his fingers and gently wrapped around Tong Yu's fragile neck, preventing him from moving.

Then he put his head against his forehead.

This action made his thick long hair fall down, and the slightly curly hair was like damp vines hanging outside the dark cave, isolating them from the outside world.

Song Rou's eyes were flushed, and he said, "Let's try."

This should have been said in 2019.That little fat man's wound recovery was astonishingly slow, and he was ashamed as hell. He didn't know how to adapt to what he said, and he bought ointment and put it on for half a year and didn't take the initiative to speak up.

At that time, Song Rou felt that the time was still long, and he still wanted to wait for that little fat man to approach by himself even though he was sure of winning.Then he thought again, let's be together on Tong Yu's birthday, if that fat man still talks about applying ointment, he will just kiss him directly.

But at that time there was no chance.

He really likes that little fat man.Even though he hesitated for so long back then, he still made a decision.If he didn't say those stupid things that day, but calmed down and believed him earlier, they shouldn't have missed so many years.

In those two thousand days and nights that seemed to be hopeless, he had spent his whole life with him in his mind thousands of times, and he never even dreamed at night.

He wanted to touch that little fat man's white and fragile body, he wanted to kiss those dark and bright eyes in the night, he wanted to be allowed to enter that starry night where no one stepped on, he wanted to make his limp Rubbing it into the body, I want to have it forever and ever.

Then Song Rou felt Tong Yu's shoulders relax.

"I don't know."

Tong Yu spoke in a low voice, as if talking to himself:

"Isn't it good now? Don't you want this?"

He really didn't understand Song Rou, he had never understood him.Back then, I was driven mad by my love for Song Rou, and when I had to ask him for an answer, Song Rou obviously avoided it.

So Song Rou doesn't love him, he knows it.But Song Rou was kind to him, and he knew it.Song Rou just broke his heart back then, but after so many years, Song Rou apologized, and he can't let it go.

The two are just friends, he is still working for Song Rou, isn't it?Shouldn't this be what Song Rou wants?

"Don't feel guilty to me," Tong Yu's voice became lower and lower.

"Don't mention it again."

Don't mention the past and the future.

And the love he dreamed of, the love that he had been craving for all those years, seemed to be within reach at last, and he could reach it with a stretch of his hand, so why did he give up?

He remembered a sentence he saw on the Internet before, which probably said that when you are young, you should not meet too amazing people.

In addition to the direct lack in his life, he was one step behind others in everything he did.

When I was a child, I was not like ordinary people who already had a vague love for the opposite sex or the same sex at a very young age.In junior high school, boys of the same age started to have nocturnal emission. It was after he met Song Rou that he had his official first time.

But it was not too late when he met Song Rou. He met Song Rou when he was 16 years old, and Song Rou only became the dream of tens of millions of boys and girls in the mainland when he was in his 20s.

He is definitely an amazing person.

Tong Yu really thought about it, if he hadn't met Song Rou, there would probably be no one else in his life.

He actually stayed in the temple for a long time when he was young.

Grandma believed in Buddhism, and always said that Tong Yu's mother was insane because of evil spirits.So he was often taken to an ancient temple to "ward off evil spirits".

That ancient temple has quite a history.Every morning, bells and evening drums, morning class and evening recitation, but because it is built in the deep mountains and old forests, the distance from the city is a bit far, and the incense is sometimes bleak.It is only said that asking for a marriage lottery there is still effective.

Tong Yu touched the stick while listening to scriptures in the main hall, and was beaten by the master with the scriptures.

The master squinted at him and asked, "Do you also want to see marriage?"

Tong Yu stared at the bamboo stick full of scriptures and nodded.

The master smiled, and said, "You don't have to shake it anymore", he motioned Tong Yu to sit upright on the futon with his chin.

"Your grandma helped you look."

Tong Yu sat up straight when he heard the sound.

Then the master took a pen and wrote the word "crazy" on the paper.

Tong Yu put his elbows on the case table, put his face on his palms, and asked, "What does this word mean?"

The master put down the pen and said only: "Everything that has a picture is false."

"You don't understand if you talk too much."

So at that time, he remembered the word "frivolous", not because he really understood it and took it to heart, but because the shredded radish mixed with Zheergen by the master was the best food.

After his mother passed away, Tong Yu was never sent to that temple again.It took a long time before Tong Yu remembered that he still answered that preposterous word.

It was the first time he ate someone else's birthday cake, the first time he ate spicy crayfish, the first time he had a dream, the first time he heard someone else play the piano, the first time he was a guest at someone's home, the first time he played games, the first time he went out Traveling, drinking at a bar for the first time, swearing at other people's photos for the first time...

All this is related to Song Rou.

And before he met Song Rou, his monotonous life recalled only those bleak years spent in hospitals and temples.

It is true to be born, and it is false to enter the world.

Song Rou brought him into the world, and he seemed to be a real mortal, eating and drinking sparingly, sleeping comfortably and warming himself.

He gave him delusions.

Delusion is always close, because it is false, it is evil, and it is a moon in the water that cannot be caught.In the end, the delusion made him love but not feel pain, and held him up high and smashed him hard.

Later he understood that Song Rou was a liar.Delusion is false, love Mingming will only make people suffer.And the life he had managed to stick together, even if it was full of cracks, was better than scattered all over the place.

He doesn't want to love, let alone delusional.