my zepple

Happiness is a butterfly

Try to catch it like every night

Itescapesfrommyhandsintomoonlight.

After bidding farewell to the middle-aged couple, the two led Miao Miao back.On the way back, they walked back to the residential area from the forest farm. They chose another road that was completely different from the time they came.

Pass a small cathedral on the way.

The original church was built in the early twentieth century, and the current one is rebuilt on the original site.Some of them have been rented out as hotels, and they are usually leased to people to hold wedding ceremonies in it.

A couple of newlyweds wearing light gowns took wedding photos outside the church.The church is solemn and the snow is clear. This is indeed a good time for filming.

The nanny car of the wedding company was parked on the snow-covered lawn, the wheels were tied with anti-skid chains, and the body was sprayed with the company's trademark color paint.

This wedding company is a local studio in C City and is very famous in C City.I think they should have driven here from City C, which means that the snow on the winding mountain road should have melted a lot.

At least, this snow can no longer be the reason for Song Roulai to be here.

Song Rou and Tong Yu probably thought of this at the same time, so the rest of the journey became silent.

The bride wore a pure white satin wedding dress, her hair was coiled up, her shoulders were exposed, and her skin was reddened by the cold, but she still looked very energetic when she was photographed.

Between takes, the suit-clad husband hurriedly wrapped a gray cashmere shawl around his vivacious wife.

It seems that it is indeed a perfect combination.

Song Rou suddenly asked: "Are you still the original nationality?"

"Huh?" Tong Yu felt that Song Rou's words were inexplicable enough, so he asked back: "If...not, is there any problem?"

"Italy passed same-sex marriage law in 2016."

"If you said you were Italian, I would really kneel down and propose to you right now."

When Song Rou said this, she also looked at the couple outside the church, with her hands in her pockets, her expression on her face was very calm, as if she was talking about an ordinary thing, a plan she had already known by heart.

"I'm from my original nationality." Tong Yu pursed his lips and said, "And I'm a boy just like you."

"We can't get married."

After hearing this, Song Rou chuckled, "Really?" He turned sideways to look at Tong Yu's face, Tong Yu buried his head very low, and couldn't see anything except a pitch-black top of his head.

"You also thought so when you confessed to me?"

Again.

"Song Rou!"

Tong Yu couldn't take it anymore.

He was a little confused, what's so hard about forgetting that?What happened six years ago was really ugly, but from Song Rou's standpoint, such behavior is beyond reproach, and her life has not really been ruined.It is his wishful thinking to like Song Rou, Tong Yu understands this truth very well, Song Rou has no obligation to respond to his liking.

Is it just because of guilt that Song Rou will cling to him six years later?

Tong Yu put his hands in the pockets of his down jacket, his forearms trembled slightly, his hands clenched into fists, and his palms were sweating profusely.

Then he slumped his shoulders weakly and asked Song Rou: "What the hell are you doing?"

What do you think, haven't I already said to forgive you?

……

Tong Yu kept his head down, Song Rou got very close, and if he took another step forward, Tong Yu's forehead would hit his chest.

Song Rou stretched out her hand to hold Tong Yu's wrist hanging out from the seam of her pocket, and was dragged out by Miao Miao in a hurry today, neither of them had time to put on gloves.

"Isn't it obvious that I'm acting?"

Song Rou held that slender wrist and pulled Tong Yu's hand in front of her.The cold fingers slid into the palm of the man's hand, and they were dripping wet, indeed they were sweating.

Tong Yu shook his elbow to break free, Song Rou had no choice but to take out a bag of tissue from his coat pocket and put it in his hand, let him wipe it by himself.

"I like you, I've been seducing you, I'm courting you."

Song Rou presses on step by step: "Is this clear enough?"

Tong Yu tore open the package of tissues, roughly pulled out two sheets and pressed them on the palm of his left hand, at the same time he suddenly felt a sharp pain in his stomach.This is an old problem, and it hurts more when he breathes in. He wiped his hands and sucked lightly.

This problem came from when he was taking olanzapine. Overeating for a long time made him suffer from stomach problems. It hurts if he eats too much, and hurts if he eats too little, even without reason.The epigastric cavity is located in the upper abdomen near the heart pit. When the pain starts, the esophagus refluxes, and it also involves the discomfort in the front chest.

Tong Yu arched his back slightly, and asked slowly, "Then why didn't you stay with me back then?"

There is a logical problem here, he thought.If he really likes him as Song Rou said, why didn't he agree when he exhausted all his courage to confess his love to him?

This is against logic and common sense.

And Song Rou Mingming said in the interview that he likes cute people, he and Mengxuan even kissed on stage.They're still a good match.

Tong Yu asked again: "Is it because you liked others at that time?" So you liked others at that time, and after many years, you found out that you liked me again.is that so?

"No."

Song Rou quickly denied it.

"I've never had anyone else, I only like Xiaoyu." Then he paused, as if thinking about how to word it better.After a while he continued: "At that time, I didn't think we were suitable."

Tong Yu stepped on a fir tree fruit, but it was very light when he walked on the snow. The fruit rubbed half a circle between the ground and the sole of the shoe, and did not make that crunching sound.

"You're right, we're not a good fit."

Tong Yu immediately breathed a sigh of relief, he finally understood this.

"I'm not good enough for you."

I met Song Rou because the two happened to be classmates in high school, and kept in touch later because he followed Song Rou to T University, which was actually forced.And he wants to be with Song Rou and be his partner, this is wishful thinking.

He knows it all.It's just that at that time he really, really wanted Song Rou.

Tong Yu also knew that he was not good-looking, could not control his appetite, and was disgustingly obese.No one likes a low self-esteem and boring person.His mother died insanely, and then his father also left him, and he was forced to live alone when he was a teenager.

Song Rou.......He is a child of a very good family, and he is also the dream lover of many people.Such a person is completely different from himself, they are not suitable, Tong Yu knows it.

When the two were friends, Song Rou was a very good friend.He is smart, gentle, considerate, and tolerant, and he never even looks at himself in a different light than others.

But it is impossible for Song Rou to choose herself to be his partner, just because it is not suitable.

……

"I just checked the weather forecast, the snow will stop tonight." This time it will really stop.

Tong Yu turned on the light on the steps in front of the door, and inserted the key into the lock.He glanced at Miao Miao behind him from the corner of his eye, still poking his buttocks to pick up the snow from the arborvitae.

He continued: "Take her back to City C."

Tong Yu opened the door, and Miao Miao jumped up the steps, lying gracefully on the carpet in front of the door, waiting for someone to help her take off her shoes.

Song Rou picked Miao Miao up, tore off the Velcro on the waterproof shoes, and put her on the dry wooden floor indoors after taking off the shoes.

As soon as the little guy landed on the ground, he rushed to the sofa with his legs scattered.

"I'll deliver the rest of the paintings to you directly." Tong Yu put the key on the ceramic plate on the shuttered cabinet at the door, making a crisp sound.

"If you have any questions, please contact me on WeChat."

Song Rou lazily leaned against the door frame with her arms folded, listening to him quietly all the time.The light outside the door only illuminated half of his beautiful, tight jawline.

"In the future," Tong Yu paused for a moment with his hand untiing the scarf, then he lowered his head and continued, "Don't even meet each other."

Having said that, there is really no need to say goodbye.

In fact, he could have shut Song Rou out that day and let him sleep in a tent, in the car, or find a hotel in the town.But he didn't.

He and Song Rou's fate of being friends has long been exhausted, let alone anything else.

Although the five days of getting along day and night were full of conflicts and silences, it was also stolen from time.The heavy snow came by coincidence, just like the rabbit hole that Alice fell into, bringing maybe just a short dream, a lunch break.

He tacitly allowed Song Rou to stay here, but it was actually subconsciously hidden, and he wanted to fulfill himself for a short time.

Because human dreams are like fireworks, even if it is only realized for a second, it is still realized.

……

Song Rou closed the door behind her, with a heavy voice.

Tong Yu heard the sound and wanted to look back, but the man was too tall, and his back was facing the orange light, so he couldn't see his expression clearly.

Just as he was about to speak, Song Rou stepped forward and grabbed his hand.

"you……"

Song Rou directly lowered her head and kissed him, all the words she wanted to say at that moment were crushed into her lips and tongue.Tong Yu pushed Song Rou's shoulder hard with his wrist bone, but did not push.All ten fingers were tightly entwined, and he leaned against the wall and kissed his whole body.

Song Rou sent a fierce kiss.He thought, how could it be possible for Tong Yu to run away?After so many years of thinking about what to do and who to catch, how could it be possible to let him run away?

Tong Yu's lips are obviously as soft as he imagined, even if his teeth are clenched tightly to prevent his tongue from sticking in, he still kisses it with great taste.

Song Rou sucked Tong Yu's lips, and carefully licked his soft inner lips with her tongue, like licking the fragile white meat in a scallop shell.There was a sweet fragrance with a taste of ice and snow in his breath, which made Song Rou very addicted.

Song Rou pressed Tong Yu and kissed again and again until she felt a drop of warm liquid dripping onto the bridge of her nose——

Tong Yu cried.

Song Rou withdrew her lips, pressed her forehead against Tong Yu's, panting.Tong Yu slightly parted her lips that were kissed red by him, her dark eyes were crying together, the tears first moistened the thick and dry eyelashes, and then flowed down her cheeks.

Song Rou was so distressed that she let go of Tong Yu's hand, and Tong Yu's fingers just dropped like that.Song Rou went to caress those teary eyes, the trembling eyelashes were like butterflies wet on the ground by rain.

"It's not like that." Song Rou wiped away the tears on his cheeks with her index finger, and said breathlessly, "Tong Yu...you are fine. You are a great painter, many people like your paintings, your talent. "

"I like you very much. What I said is inappropriate, not what you think."

Song Rou held Tong Yu's face, Tong Yu's face was really small after she lost a lot of weight, but the soft milk fat also disappeared along with it.

"You are a different person... I can't... I can't just treat you like an ordinary relationship. Although we had been in love for a long time at that time."

When he said this, his heart seemed to be pierced and twisted by something, squeezing out a few ounces of sour juice like squeezing a fresh lemon.

That's right, they have been in love for a long time, and consummation is within reach, but it's just because of their self-righteous reason that Tong Yu was hurt and they wasted a lot of time.

"But I always thought that I didn't like you very much, so I thought it would be good to be friends with you."

Song Rou's fingertips gently stroked the skin under Tong Yu's eyes. He remembered that the wound that hadn't faded back then was here.At that time, Tong Yu was very anxious. Seeing Tong Yu setting the alarm clock on time and applying ointment every day, he thought it was very cute.

"I was actually very happy when you confessed to me later."

Song Rou touched the thin scar, the color was very pale, and she had to look closely to see it clearly.It will be more obvious when crying, with a thin layer raised.

"It's just that I hesitated for too long and made you feel very insecure. I regret it." I have been regretting all these years.After you leave, I can no longer write love songs, and I have your shadow in my hangover dreams and every lucid dream.

There are very fine nerves on the hypertrophic scar, Tong Yu couldn't help shrinking his neck when Song Rou touched it with his fingers.

Too sensitive, Song Rou thought.

He went on to say, "You trust me." He felt sad when he touched the scar.

"I didn't hesitate all the time. I had decided to be with you at that time. If there were no things that happened later, we must have been together."

Another stream of tears flowed from Tong Yu's left eye, and the tears flowed across the scar, which was cut off by Song Rou's finger pressing there.He gently wiped off the water, and continued: "I will not watch you go, even if you said goodbye to me at that time, I will not let you go."

The pre-chapter lyrics are quoted from lanadelrey's Happinessisabutterfly

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