my zepple

Ohmyloverforthefirsttimeinmylife

my first love in this life

My mind can feel

my soul can feel

Ifeel the sorrow oh Ifeel the dreams

I feel sadness and dream

Everything is clear in my heart

Everything is so clear in my mind

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Song Rou's tour started in Toronto in March [-]. The team originally planned to leave North America in early March. At the request of local music fans, they added shows in LA and New York respectively.In early April in Japan, South Korea and Singapore, and in Europe in the second half of April, it was almost seamless.

During these two months, Tong Yu has been staying in Italy and is very busy with work. Although Song Rou was in Milan on April 4th and 17th, there was no time for Tong Yu, so the two of them didn't meet each other.

Song Rou often thinks about it like crazy, but she can only rely on a few days of cross-ocean phone calls for comfort.

The domestic tour officially started in Kaohsiung on May 5.Kaohsiung, Hong Kong, Shenzhen, Changsha, Shanghai, Beijing, the final match will undoubtedly land in City C, on May 2th.Network live broadcast simultaneously.

Tong Yu's alarm clock didn't ring, and he overslept.When he turned on his phone with his eyelids open, it was [-]:[-] Beijing time. The concert had just entered the encore segment. The lights on the stage were turned off and it was pitch black. The fans outside the venue gradually became hoarse during the waiting time.

After 10 minutes, the lights on the central stage came on suddenly, the lifting platform operated smoothly, and Song Rou's string band covered with acrylic panels rose steadily from the ground.

This is the final look of the concert. Song Rou chose a gothic loose black t-shirt, loose washed denim, and the shoes changed from Martin boots to more casual Converse 1970s.

Because it was a live broadcast, the noise reduction in the auditorium was not done well enough, and Tong Yu couldn't hear the fans in the front row shouting loudly through the screen.After hearing this, Song Rou smiled lightly, and made a small gesture with her fingers on her lips.

The first encore was "Ohmylove" written by John Lennon for his wife Yoko Ono.

Tong Yu knew that Song Rou liked the Beatles very much.

He sat alone in the center of the stage very relaxed, holding a sunset-colored Gibson Hummingbird in his arms, and the string band quietly surrounded the edge of the circular stage.

The waiting time for the encore was very short, just enough for a change of clothes, and the makeup before the performance was too late to remove. The stylist only removed the rivets and sequins from Song Rou's braided hair.

Song Rou sings quiet songs and has a habit of half-lidded eyes.

Half-shaded black eyeshadow with bluish shimmer, dark gray-black eyeliner all-inclusive, elongated mist line at the end of the eye, some silver bright pearl spots painted on the eyes, giving a very deep smoky feeling.

Song Rou's facial features are gorgeous but slightly soft when she doesn't wear makeup, and she looks more aggressive after heavy makeup.

The night in May was still a bit cold, Song Rou was wearing short sleeves, and the hand that plucked the strings was wearing two metal rings, which were stuck in the middle of the forearm that was well-proportioned.When he sings, his Adam's apple rolls, and when he raises his eyes slightly to look at the camera, the audience screams.

Really sexy all the time.Tong Yu thought.

After singing the first encore, there was a short MC segment.Song Rou handed the guitar to the staff on stage, and took the microphone from the stand.

"When did I say I was going to wear a skirt?" Song Rou lazily took off her ears.

The music fans in the front row were still immersed in the atmosphere of the last song, but they became excited again after hearing this.Tong Yu listened with strained ears, as if he was saying that Song Rou had just bought a skirt.

"You all know this?" Song Rou walked to the edge of the stage, and the excitement below almost overturned the place.

He had just finished his tour in Beijing a few days ago, and the night before he left Beijing, he drove to a Xian brand store to buy a dress, but was caught by the paparazzi in Sanlitun on the spot.

Although Song Rou categorically denied it afterwards, there was still a good thing that the media had the cheek to go to the store to verify. Unexpectedly, the SA who was in the store that day was very happy to miss the truth, saying that Song Rou had indeed ordered a skirt, or a custom-made one, the world This is the only one.

The popularity of this news on Weibo has remained high for the past few days, but cave dwellers like Tong Yu, who generally don't use the Internet, still don't know about it.

"It's impossible to wear it for you if you buy it. What are you thinking?" Song Rou sat down on the edge of the stage, and took a bottle of mineral water handed over by the staff below.While drinking, he listened to the complaints below one after another.

After complaining for a while, Song Rou lazily propped her hands on the stage, "This is the last show, I want to talk to everyone about something serious today."

He paused and said, "As many of you may already know, my contract with Dana Records is about to expire..."

Before he finished speaking, some people in the crowd began to bow their heads and sob, shout, shake their heads, or call his name.Song Rou's eyes were hot, but she continued, "I won't renew my contract this time, I'm very sorry."

He is a singer and has never acted before. Except for the three things he went to find, he hardly accepts endorsements.In the beginning, because of their outstanding looks, girls accounted for a large proportion of the fan base. Later, after debuting for a long time, the composition of music fans has also become more complicated. There are different genders and age groups, which are different from ordinary traffic stars.

So Song Rou is used to treating music fans like friends, and when announcing her decision, she also discusses with her friends in this tone.

"Actually, there is no particular reason, and I am not sick. I am healthy physically and mentally. I just won't perform in the future, but I won't stop making music. I still hope to write better songs."

Song Rou's meaning is not difficult to understand. He didn't leave the stage completely, but wanted to retreat behind the scenes.

However, the atmosphere in the arena became depressing as expected. Some people who didn’t understand screamed, some clasped their hands and begged him not to leave, and more people burst into tears and leaned on the shoulders of their friends and partners for comfort.

Because Song Rou is still too young, even though she has debuted for nine years, she will only be 28 years old in October this year.

No one can understand that the singer they like terminates their activities when their career is in full swing. This era belonging to Song Rou has clearly just begun.

"I told you about a long time ago, but I actually don't enjoy the stage. My childhood dream was to be a record producer, to write songs for others." Song Rou said with a vague smile, "Of course not now."

He has a naturally loose personality, high-load singing, and long-term upside down day and night, which is not what he wants.

"I've always had my own reasons for being a singer, and... for the past many years, I didn't know what I should do other than this. Because I don't seem to need my own life."

After the band disbanded, he could simply retreat behind the scenes just to make music.But at that time, Tong Yu disappeared too cleanly. He tried his best, but he couldn't sit still.

He knew that if he continued to stay in the bright spot of this world, Tong Yu would at least be able to see himself.The medium is a loudspeaker and a radio wave that doesn't need to be connected by the other party.

Because Song Rou selfishly does not want to disappear in Tong Yu's world, he is afraid that Tong Yu will forget him in his dreams.

Song Rou also knew that the brighter the place where he stood and the fewer people there, the more likely Tong Yu would see him.So he has hardly taken a vacation for so many years, writing songs, winning awards, and performing.It is even more impossible for him to miss the Spring Festival Gala with the highest ratings in the world.

Because Song Rou was more worried that Tong Yu would not be able to take care of herself. That person had no reliable relatives and had left friends. He was used to belittle life and never cared about herself.

Song Rou knows that music cannot cure diseases and save people, but there are always people who say that they can gain strength through this, even if it is a one-in-a-million possibility, he doesn't want to let go of this possibility.

"Now I need my own life, I have more important things to do, it's hard to fly around like this anymore." Song Rou raised her lips to the camera, "You know, my classmates have already married, Another one is going to be a dad this year. I don't want to lose."

There were sporadic laughter from the crowd, but the overall atmosphere was still dignified.

"However, you are still the most precious thing I have gained in this period of life. I am very grateful." Song Rou stood up and looked around.This venue was originally a stadium, and a stage was built in the middle of the venue for the concert. He walked around the central stage, just in time to see the audience in each seat area.

This process was very slow, and the field controller brightened the lights of the entire hall, so that Song Rou could see every corner clearly.

There were no empty seats in the arena, [-] people.Through the lens, there are tens of millions of live broadcasters online.Song Rou walked very slowly, as if she was trying her best to see those faces clearly.

He even knew some of the people close to the stage.

The lady with the child was in a livehouse when he first saw Song Rou’s performance. He didn’t remember what song he sang at that time.After the end, Song Rou took the initiative to give her a signed CD.

After that, Song Rou often saw her in performances, and now she is married and has a child, and the one standing next to her is probably her husband.

After turning around, Song Rou sat back in the center of the stage. The MC session is over, the show is coming to an end, and he still has two encore songs to sing.

The second is his official debut track.

The third song is "Acacia".Song Rou's best-selling single in her entire career as a singer.

The stage darkened, and a silvery white light splashed vertically, only covering Song Rou alone.He sang with his eyes closed, and from time to time the camera would give a close-up of the black 1970s under his feet.

Only then did Tong Yu realize that there was a fringe of pure white acacia flowers stuck on the right shoelace.

It is late spring, which is the season when Sophora japonica is in full bloom.

After singing "Acacia", Song Rou stood up and left the microphone on the stage floor with great care before stepping off the stage.

With a calm expression, he bowed for a long time in the direction of the screen camera.

The signal was interrupted, and Tong Yu didn't know how to turn off the barrage while watching the live broadcast. At this time, only the barrage filled the screen was left.After watching the concert for a while, he felt sleepy and watched the barrage in boredom.

Most of the bullet screens were talking about their incomprehension and regret, and they expressed their understanding rationally, and some of them simply watched the excitement and discussed the reasons for their retirement.

"What's the point of guessing? Get married and have children."

"The one in front, what are you talking about? Song Rou said 800 years ago that she likes men."

"Because of love. I feel that Song Rou will be very family-loving when she is in love, and she doesn't have time to perform everywhere."

"Isn't Song Rou a well-known widowed king?"

"The suggestion from upstairs is to go to Lehu to make up for the latest class. Song Rou is a dog licker, and people who have liked it for many years have not been able to catch up. Acacia is written for others."

"I know that. They said they left Song Rou and went abroad. Song Rou couldn't come back even if she knelt down."

"Didn't that mean that she has already married and had children abroad, Song Rou has no chance."

"Wait, what you guys were talking about earlier wasn't about Song Rou and Peng Liu's colleagues?"

......

The more he said it, the more outrageous it became, Tong Yu ordered very forcefully to quit the live broadcast.

As soon as the live broadcast was turned off, Song Rou's messages came one after another.Asked if he came back from the studio, how is the weather there today, can you send him a picture of the sky on the road.

Tong Yu typed back, not yet, the weather is not bad, no.

After replying to the message, Tong Yu put the phone aside, he didn't want to talk to Song Rou very much these days.

Some time ago, Song Rou asked Luo Ke to buy that skirt, and spent more than half a month on it. Luo Ke was so annoyed by him that he simply charged a sky-high price, intending to avoid future troubles.Unexpectedly, Song Rou agreed without hesitation, sent money quickly the next day, and went to the door to block people to ask him to hand over the skirt.

Luo Ke received a huge sum of money but was unhappy, watching Song Rou take the skirt and walk away from his store, he was so angry that he couldn't sleep that night.Turning around, he complained to Tong Yu, and he was still angry after speaking, so he repeated Song Rou's words on the plane to Tong Yu again.

He talked nonsense about Sichuan cuisine, but the core idea was roughly conveyed in place.

Tong Yu listened silently and lost sleep that night.

When he first arrived in Italy, he was in a daze every day except for receiving treatment. Stepmother Veronica and Tong Mian would bring Celio to the hospital to accompany him for a while every day, but that day was still muddled.

It was not until he went to study in the Academy of Fine Arts that he picked up the brush again.

Later, many media and critics agreed that his creations were inspired by nature, but that was not the case at all.

Song Rou was right.

Whenever he closes his eyes, he thinks of many things.The bright sun in Tuscany always reminded him of the sunsets and dusks of the past, and the light and shadows in the rivers of Venice reminded him of the turquoise waters of the Xiangxi River day and night.In his dreams, there are often glacial lagoons and gray sea ice floating all night, and what walks on the shore is the back of the long hair who never looks back.

Those old days were deeply rooted in his surging or still blood, in the broken fibers of his skin.

Because time flows downstream, the past, good and bad memories can only be mixed together and become dirty water, and the past cannot be recalled.

He can't let go, can't forget.

So as Song Rou understood, he was indeed his muse.

Song Rou is even more aware of this than him.

The lyrics before the chapter are selected from John Lennon's "Ohmylove".