a setting sun

Today is a rest day, it's already night, before Shen Sihan left, Xu Xin already guessed something, but Shen Sihan didn't say anything, of course she wouldn't bring it up, she just pretended not to know.But after being quiet for a while, Shen Sihan's cell phone rang. Originally, the two of them were nestled on the sofa and reading books, but Shen Sihan put down the book after looking at the cell phone, opened the door and went outside to answer the phone.

Now, no matter how stupid Xu Xin is, he can guess who is calling, otherwise why would he hide behind his back?It was the same when she had a quarrel with Ma Xiaodong last time, Xu Xin deliberately didn't expose Shen Sihan, she said that she went to answer a client's call, Xu Xin pretended to believe it without any doubt.

But this time, without knowing what the other party said on the phone, it actually made Shen Sihan cry.

"Who is it?" After eavesdropping on the side of the fire door for a while, seeing that the two were still arguing, Xu Xin directly pushed open the fire door in the stairwell, stood at the door, and asked with an unfriendly expression.In fact, she was angry that the other party had the ability to make Shen Sihan cry, which showed that the other party still held a lot of weight in Shen Sihan's heart.

And Shen Sihan, who was sitting on the phone on the steps, was startled by the sudden appearance of Xu Xin, hurriedly wiped off the tears on his face, stood up and waved his hand to signal Xu Xin to leave it alone, seeing Xu Xin standing there with a sinking face, he didn't care at all. The meaning of leaving, the conversation between her and Ma Xiaodong couldn't go on.The confused Shen Sihan could only keep a cold face, covered the phone's microphone and said in a cold voice: "It has nothing to do with you! You go back to the room!"

In such an instant, Xu Xin's heart ached sharply as if the most vulnerable part of his heart was stabbed by these words.She stood there in a daze for two seconds, then suddenly laughed at herself: "You said...what did you say? Say it again."

"I said I have nothing to do with you for making this phone call! Hurry up and leave!" Shen Sihan hasn't even cleaned up the mess with Ma Xiaodong now, so naturally he doesn't want Xu Xin to be there to watch her continue to cut and reason because of her last relationship. 'And collapsed and lost his composure.

"...Are you serious? Not only this phone call, but I have nothing to do with you, right? Well, I'll go, and you won't find me again when I go." Xu Xin was real at this moment Planning to leave, she didn't intend to use this to threaten Shen Sihan.The reason why she was able to brazenly stay by Shen Sihan's side was because she knew and believed that Shen Sihan had her in his heart, and that was the confidence that she dared to throw herself into this unrequited relationship without hesitation.

But at this moment, she was supposed to be arguing with the man on the other end of the phone because of herself, but judging from what Xu Xin heard just now, Xu Xin didn't hear any trace of what was wrong with her. decision.They were quarreling and breaking up.But just like the sentence repeated by Shen Sihan just now, indeed, it has nothing to do with Xu Xin.No relationship at all.

Xu Xin was also dumbfounded, he seemed to have figured everything out for a moment, and understood everything.

It's not that Shen Sihan has to do with her, for so long, the warmth I've felt from Shen Sihan seems... It's all just my wishful thinking and my unwilling delusion.

Indeed, she has never heard the words "I love you" from Shen Sihan.She is more dependent on Xu Xin's friendship, obedience and indulgence to Xu Xin's insistence, unbearable reluctance to lose this relationship, addiction to bodily sensations, and possessive desire for her own possessions .

Neither one is love.

Xu Xin turned around, tears silently slid down his cheeks.She was wrong, she was really wrong.It turns out that she has been living in her own beautiful fantasy. She thought that she could change her position in Shen Sihan's heart by doing so much for Shen Sihan. One day, she would choose to break off the relationship with others because she fell in love with herself. .But today she realized that a heart like a stone cannot be warmed up.Not to love is not to love, and there will not be any essential changes due to the accumulation of time, accumulation of love, and countless sacrifices.

Quantitative change produces qualitative change is science, not love.

Time flies so fast, I have been in this company for a year in a blink of an eye, and it is time to leave.After all, the place doesn't belong to me, the work doesn't belong to me, and the people don't belong to me, so why do I still stay here?

Tears poured out one after another, blurring the road in front of me.Xu Xin, who passed through the fire door, was almost tripped and staggered towards the room where he lived. He felt that the temperature on his hands and feet seemed to be receding a little bit, becoming colder and stiffer.

It's time to go home too. My mother has been talking on the phone recently that she is not feeling well. She didn't go back because she was with Shen Sihan during the Spring Festival last year, and she lied to them that she was working overtime.Now that I think about it, I'm actually quite sorry for them.

The belief he insisted on collapsed in an instant, and the light in his eyes gradually lost. Xu Xin only felt that everything had lost its meaning.

Pack your things, pack your luggage...

I don’t want this one, and I don’t want that one. I bought it for the other party at the beginning, but now people have nothing to do with me, so what else do I want.

Nothing to take with you.Pack two pieces of clothes, mobile phone, charger, bank card, wallet, and house keys.Put on your coat and put on your shoes.Pull the suitcase and go outside.

Shen Sihan, who finally finished the phone call, walked in from the outside with red eyes, and saw Xu Xin was ready to go. When she came back, Xu Xin didn't even look at her, walked around her, opened the door and was about to leave.

"Xu Xin!" Shen Sihan was flustered and also dumbfounded.He hurriedly blocked the door, held the doorknob tightly with one hand, pushed Xu Xin with the other hand, and asked in a panic: "Why are you going? Put it down! Put these down! What are you doing?"

Xu Xin's gaze at the door finally turned to her face blankly.

She saw the panic and incomprehensible anger on Shen Sihan's face.Do you feel flustered when you will lose what you originally got?Xu Xin guessed calmly and indifferently.

"Let's go." There is no extra nonsense, what she wanted to say has already been said, the relationship between the two was ended by Shen Sihan himself, what is the meaning of acting like this now?Xu Xin stretched out his hand to pull Shen Sihan's shoulder, trying to pull her away from the door.

"No! No!! Where are you going? It's so dark outside, where else can you go?" Shen Sihan stopped him in a panic, but she didn't understand that Xu Xin was determined to end this time, so she persisted Does it make sense to go down?No more, really no more.

"I can go anywhere, you get out of the way." It doesn't matter if it ends here, the city of Beijing has carried too much of her powerlessness, unwillingness, and love. She left this time, and she made up her mind not to come back again, no matter what. Because of who, besides, after leaving, she has no reason to come back, isn't there?The only reason for standing in front of her now is that she made herself a joke.Still a bad joke.

"No! I won't let it! I won't let you go!" Shen Sihan threw herself in front of Xu Xin and hugged her, shouting hoarsely, as if this could restore Xu Xin's increasingly cold heart.

"Isn't it you who just said that I have nothing to do with you? Since I have nothing to do with you, I want to go, why do you stop me?" Xu Xin's heart became calmer, but the expression on his face was full of She felt sad, but she still kept her rational tone and asked in a calm tone.

"I didn't! I didn't! It's my fault, it's my fault, I apologize, I'm sorry, don't go, please, don't go..." The heart that was originally turbulent was not calm, and now seeing Xu Xin really died Desperate to leave, Shen Sihan was afraid.The calmer Xu Xin was, the more frightened she became.Originally, Xu Xin's attitude towards her had never been like this before.Besides, if Xu Xin had left too, what was the point of her phone call just now?Now that she broke up, with her proud character, she will not look back.Then if Xu Xin was allowed to leave again, he would have nothing.Friends, lovers, all the relationships that were cut and messed up will be cleared up in an instant, and she will be the only one left.

"Apologize? Is it just an apology?" Shen Sihan never seemed to understand what Xu Xin wanted.Even at this time, he still thought that Xu Xin was angry at what she just blurted out.Could she even feel that?However, what Xu Xin cared about was not the content of her angry words just now, but her attitude towards herself.Just now she acted as if she was the culprit who appeared at the wrong time.What Xu Xin really needs is for her to see herself as someone who stands in the same direction as her, and can treat her sincerely, without the need for hostility, that's all, even Shen Sihan can't do it.Xu Xin looked at the panic in her eyes, looked at her gaffe at this moment, how could he still say calmly in the old bungalow, "You know, I have a boyfriend, even if you choose to be with me , and I will not admit your existence to outsiders." Was that confident at that time?

"Otherwise? What do you want from me? I've already broken up...why do you still go...uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu like me and him will never have anything to do in the future. I'll be with you, okay?" Shen Sihan said, the mood just now and the panic at this time all came to her heart, and she couldn't help but slumped at the door and cried because of the deep powerlessness .

To be honest, at this time Xu Xin looked at Shen Sihan who was crying helplessly in front of him, and suddenly thought of himself.During these nearly two years, how many days and nights she cried helplessly like Shen Sihan at this time when no one was around, but after crying, the pain is still pain, reality is still reality, and even the people around her There is no one who can tell her all this and comfort her.And Shen Sihan will probably never realize the despair he felt at that time.Even at this moment, she probably didn't understand, couldn't empathize with her own feelings.Many emotions become hypocritical as soon as they are uttered, and it is always pale to describe them in words.