ambiguous

Nan Ke left the "home" that originally did not belong to him.

Maybe if you never had it in the first place, you wouldn't be as sad as you are now.

It's over, it's over!The ambiguous game is over, and the so-called family relationship is also over.

Ding Yan, who loved her deeply, died.I have loved Renault for so many years, but I never liked myself.The father didn't love his mother, and he realized that everything was just for himself...

A lot of things came to him one after another like a rough tide, and Nan Ke felt that he was so addicted that he couldn't breathe.

Walking alone on the wide street, as if the noise in his ears had disappeared, Nan Ke felt like he couldn't hear anything at the moment.Bustling streets, all kinds of people flow... Nan Ke feels that he is the only one in this world!The excitement is theirs, and they have nothing.

Nan Ke just kept walking alone, walking and walking.Walking through lively streets, country roads, uninhabited mountains, train tracks, swamps...

He wanted to find a home for his soul, where he could rest his restless throbbing.

... Finally he got tired and fell down.

Falling down on a strange and desolate land, he closed his heavy eyelids...

It feels like I had a long, long dream, but when I woke up, I forgot what happened in the dream.

Why is the sky still so dark, so completely dark that I can't see a ray of light.

Where is this...?Nan Ke felt trapped in an endless night, and there was nothing but darkness.

Nan Ke got up from the ground, facing the infinite darkness in front of him, he stepped forward, one step at a time... Unaccustomed to the darkness, he walked very slowly.

"Bang" the heavy object collided violently with Nan Ke's bones!

It hurts... Nan Ke made a sound... from the corner of his mouth, he lowered his head, wanting to see the situation under his feet.

Black, or a piece of pitch black, see only darkness.Nan Ke touched the painful part with his hands, and it felt wet and sticky.

Why do I only see black?Could it be that he... is blind!

Nan Ke's eyes widened vigorously, but everything was in vain after all, it was still black, endless darkness.

Where is this kind of self going, where is the place where I should go?Nan Ke's nose was sore, as if the world had abandoned him.

The only thoughts in his mind now are the mother who brought him a little bit of maternal love when he was young, and the elder brother Ayang who was hidden in his memory...

But these people are gone!They are all gone, away from themselves.My own eyes can't see anymore, like a disabled person who doesn't know what to do, what can he do?All the remaining belief support is gone, and the meaning of living has been completely wiped out.

Why are you left to live alone?Nan Ke is thinking about this question now.He couldn't find the meaning of why he still exists.

Nan Ke thought about ending his life like this.

But he is blind, even if it is suicide.That's not an easy thing to do either.

Now, Nan Ke has found his only reason to live, that is to commit suicide and leave this world happily.

He continued to walk forward, since he could not see with his eyes, he had to use his ears even more.

Nan Ke listened to the voice, he was going in a crowded direction.