brother is stupid

The next day, the over-excited Yizhi took the fool to the supermarket, intending to console him.

The idiot followed, still holding the notebook in a daze, for fear of being snatched and torn up, but Yizhi was in a good mood and didn't care.

"Be a beer duck tonight, then go buy beer first."

Yizhi hummed a song, took beer from the shelf, and thought about the dishes in his mind, fried beer duck, fried pork belly, fried shrimp...what else?

He turned his head and glanced at the idiot, but the idiot's eyes drifted to the cashier.

"What's wrong? What are you looking at?"

Yizhi looked at the past with his eyes, and looked at the idiot incomprehensibly, who knew that the idiot ran away quickly holding the notebook, and Yizi was still holding the beer in a daze, he didn't understand what was going on for a moment.

When Yizhi came back to his senses, the idiot had already run out of sight, he quickly put down the beer and chased him out, only to see the idiot standing at the door of KFC, his eyes looking around for someone?

When he saw Yizhi in a hurry, tears burst out, and he rushed forward to hug him, but Yizhi was still in a daze, "What's wrong? Who did you see?"

"ma..."

The rough and hoarse voice, the faint but intelligible call, is like a blunt knife in Yizhi's heart, sharpening one knife after another, cutting one knife after another, until the blunt knife becomes sharp enough to cut the skin, until the dull pain , until numb.

After teaching him for so long, he didn't read a word. I taught him to call him by his name. He thought he really couldn't speak, but now he called out his name and called his mother.

Is it that woman?

Did he see that woman just now?

Or did the woman come to him?

Impossible, she lost Yizhi and didn't come to him for 16 years, not even a letter or a phone call, as if she never had this son.

When she was about to remarry, she threw the idiot out without hesitation. When Yizhi hurt the idiot to retaliate against her, she also chose to ignore it completely indifferently. It was said to be two months, but it was a year, and there was no news. , and now come to him again?

How is it possible, that ruthless woman is living a happy life, enjoying the life of a rich man, the fool will only delay her life, how could she come back to him again, the fool is wrong, it must be.

He took the fool home, he was a little irritable, he was a little tired, he drank wine, and drank desperately, he wanted to get himself drunk and become delirious, so that he would not feel pain.

Mother threw him away.

It has been a year, and I have taken care of him for almost a year, taking care of him carefully, buying what I want, for him, I dare not quit my job, and rushing to the vegetable market after work, clothes, socks, everything is helped by him He bought it for his body, even if he is tired or sick, he will satisfy him to his heart's content. He is afraid that he will be hot in summer and cold in winter. This way of treating him is not as good as the mother who abandoned him?

Every day and every night, I taught him how to speak and how to read his name, but in the end he still called his ruthless mother, disappointed and lost.

He had a feeling that as soon as a woman appeared, the fool would go with her, no matter how much he begged him, he would definitely go with him, because he called her mother.

He suddenly remembered one thing, which happened when he was 5 years old.

Yizhi was four years old and went directly to the first grade of elementary school. I heard that his mother thought he was annoying at home and sent him to school early, but his brother, who was three years older than him, stayed at home every day, staring at the wall in a daze.

The mother has always loved the fool very much, and always let the fool sleep in her room.

During the day, I basically took the fool to bask in the sun in the yard. At night, my mother had to accompany guests, so she was basically not at home, and my father was rarely there when he was drunk.

Yizhi was afraid of the dark, so he would crawl to his mother's room every night, turn on the light, and scream.

"Brother, I'm a little scared, can we sleep together?"

His 7-year-old brother always ignored him. He heard from his classmates that his brother had a disease called stupidity and would become ignorant and silent. He believed it.

But as long as he is called brother, he will look at Yizhi and keep watching.

At night, Yizhi always hugged his elder brother and told him what happened in the school. Today the teacher gave him a little red flower. Today he taught "Painting" and "Thoughts at a Quiet Night". I miss my hometown...

No matter what happened, Yizhi always spoke carefully.

"Let me teach you how to speak, you will be fine if you can speak."

The fool was still staring at him blankly.

Yizhi always hugged his brother with a smile, "Yi...zhi...it's easy to read, read it with me, Yi, Zhi."

During the day, his mother always sits on the hanging chair in the yard, basking in the sun, hugging his docile brother and humming songs. Yizhi also wants his mother to hug him and listen to his mother singing, but he is afraid of his mother, so he always sits far away Looking at it stupidly, playing with the sand in his hand.

Mother never let Yizhi go out to play, and rarely took a fool out, and would never find a teacher to teach a fool, and completely isolated him.

When he was 5 years old, his mother fell ill and rested at home for more than a month. At night, Yizhi always hid in the quilt, shivering, fearing that ghosts and ghosts would take him away.

He missed his brother, wanted to sleep with his brother, wanted to talk to him, wanted to teach him how to speak, he said, and he called his mother to the woman who was holding him.

He betrayed Yizhi and taught him for more than a year. He never opened his mouth. Yizhi was very angry, jealous, and resentful. The first sentence he said should be my name, it should be my name. , how can I call my mother?

He started to fight against him everywhere, broke his pen, tore his clothes, and punched him a few times when his mother was away. He was still not relieved, and threw the stone with him. The idiot's forehead bled and cried.

He was very happy, took the wooden stick in the yard, and beat him heartily.

"As long as you call my name now, I will forgive you."

The fool just cried and didn't speak.

"Speak quickly."

"From now on, except for calling my name, you are not allowed to speak, you are not allowed to speak, you are not allowed."

After the mother found out, she locked up Yizhi in a small wooden hut and didn't go to school for a long time. Sometimes when he was hungry, he would eat clothes and wood. Sometimes when the mother remembered him, she would give him some food. Then give him a few slaps.

When he was 6 years old, he started to go to the first grade again, but he changed. He became fond of darkness, treated people coldly, and became cruel in doing things. He didn't like his classmates, but he didn't like his family even more. elder brother.

Now, the tragedy repeats itself, the fool still doesn't call his name, the fool will still choose his mother, and the fool will still leave him, what should we do?

If he leaves, Yizhi will definitely go crazy, and will definitely want to kill someone crazily.

Do you want to tie him up, do you want to cut his mouth so that he can no longer speak, do you want to kill him, and then freeze him, no, no, you can't kill him, kill him, he will Disappear, no.

But what if he leaves him?

Cut off his legs, the only way, he rushed into the kitchen completely losing his mind, picked up the kitchen knife, kicked open the door of the room, the idiot was concentrating on painting, he slowly moved behind the idiot.

The moment he swung the kitchen knife, his heart hurt a little, and he had no strength in the pain. He was afraid, afraid that the fool would hurt, and afraid that he would cry.

Throwing the knife into the trash can outside, he seldom smoked, bought a pack of cigarettes and a lighter, and sat in the park.

The park in the middle of the night was very deserted, the dim lights fell on the ground, he sat by the flower bed, took a puff of a cigarette, and exhaled curls of smoke, his hands trembling a little.

He was very scared, afraid of him leaving, afraid of his betrayal, afraid of him disappearing without a trace with his mother.

He was very scared, afraid of him talking, afraid of him acting like a normal person, afraid of him saying things like Liang Zhi.

Yes, a fool can say one word, and slowly he will say many words. At that time, he will become a normal person, understand ethics and morality, and feel disgusting. He will be disgusted by the same blood relationship and male. , will definitely leave.

At that time, I will really lose control and really go crazy.

However, he didn't want to hurt the fool, he didn't want to hurt him, and he didn't want to point a knife at him.

He scratched his hair, his mind was so messed up, what should he do?

After hesitating at the door of the house for half a night, he finally got up the courage to open the door. The living room was dark. Before going out, did he turn off the light?Idiot off?

He pushed open the door of the room, dumbfounded, stunned, lifted the quilt, there was no one, under the bed, cabinet, toilet, kitchen, living room, nowhere, where did he go, hid?

"Brother, it's late, stop playing, come out quickly."

"Brother, it's time to sleep."

"Brother... I'm afraid of the dark, won't you accompany me?"

"Brother, don't leave me...please."

In the room, there was a man crying hoarsely, gone, all gone, was taken away by his mother, and there was a letter from her on the coffee table, because he didn't dare to face Yizhi directly, so he used this method, it seems like a fool The person I saw in the supermarket was really her.

I guess the fool was so happy to see his mother, he didn't want the painting, he didn't take away his clothes, he didn't change his shoes, and left in slippers.

Good to go, good to go, leave me, it doesn’t matter anymore, anyway, I’ve always been alone, anyway, I’m reviewing loneliness, anyway, I can eat and sleep alone, go away, I won’t point a knife at you Don't do anything that will hurt you.

It’s okay, when I’m here every day, I have to take care of you, coax you not to cry, bathe you, cook vegetables, and satisfy you with your body.

fair enough.

Yeah.

But

The fool really left.

I won't pick him up after get off work, and no one will stare at him when cooking. The chopsticks and bowls have all become one person, and the food seems to be less flavorful.

It’s a warm May, but it’s a bit cold to sleep. I’m sleepy, but I don’t feel sleepy. I like to smoke in the middle of the night. I like to sit alone in the living room and watch TV in a daze.

This room is obviously not big, but now it feels very big. I always feel that something is missing. In this family, I always feel that someone is missing, a little warmth, crying and crying, and the salsa sound of brushes. I heard the silly laugh of the fool.

Less, the soul seems to be taken away, the body is a little weak, a little trance, a little exhausted.

I haven't been to the company for more than a week, and the phone is turned off. He should be fired. It doesn't matter. Anyway, people in the company don't welcome him. Anyway, the idiot is not here, and the idiot is not here, so there is no need to save money.

Fool him, okay?

Is his mother nice to him?Did you cook the braised pork ribs that he likes to eat, did you buy him a drawing board, did you take good care of him, did the idiot miss him?

No, he left without hesitation. He should be so happy to be with the mother he likes that he has long forgotten himself.

Possible

"I miss you, I miss you so much, idiot, come back to me, I...I will die without you, please, come back and see me...don't leave me alone...please It's..."

In the middle of the night, the man's deep and hoarse sobs filled the living room, a trace of loneliness, desolation, and pain.

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