[Exorcism] Broken Gears

pain......

my head hurts...

The boy silently listened to the man on the opposite side repeating the knowledge that must be remembered in a gentle tone like telling a fairy tale.

The other party's voice seemed to be filled with magical power, and there was no way to avoid it.

At some point, he no longer knew what the person with the hypocritical smirk was talking about.His eyes also became empty, and he lowered his head, not knowing what he was thinking.

The person opposite paused, and said in a mocking tone, "Once."

The boy raised his head abruptly, looking at him with pleading eyes revealed in panic.

The man's eyes were usually gentle, and he said, "Good boy, don't be distracted."

"Be a good boy."

——Bad children will be punished.

The boy opened his mouth, but swallowed what he wanted to say.

After submissively answering "yes.", he looked at the man and smiled with satisfaction.

He waved his hand, as if to let it go: "That's it for this class."

Then the man stepped past him with brisk steps and walked out of the room.

What to do...... Made a mistake again.

Mommy will hurt, because I didn't be a good boy today.

Obviously know, all knowledge must be memorized.

The brain is going to be confused, the consciousness is going to be blurred, the spirit is going to collapse, and it cannot be stopped.

But, really...

so tired.

>>>>

Numbly looking at the blood stained on his body, the boy stood up unsteadily.

"Let's stop here for today." Another teacher beside him nodded, "Next time the difficulty will be increased to 25 people."

Looking at the messy corpses on the ground, the boy nodded meekly.

But there was a groan in his heart.

I can't stand it anymore.

It's really... I can't support it anymore.

Ahhh, if I fall down now...

Just die.

But no, if I die, my mother who has no use value will die too.

Only, only the only one who truly loves me, she absolutely does not want to leave...

So, even if you are tired, there is nothing you can do.

Even if he is a boy, as long as he works hard, he will definitely be able to play the role of the most outstanding noble lady.

The body shape can be changed on the mold, the voice can be distorted by itself, and the words and deeds can be practiced.

It will definitely be the best assassination tool...

No, those are all excuses, right?

Well, a little would make the best toy.

It doesn't matter if I'm being tricked and survived, my mother will always be with me anyway.

>>>>

After entering the room, several people around the boy left.

He who was left alone inside was silent for a while, and then spoke.

"I've come to see you, Mom."

A woman's voice came from the darkness.

"Where is he?"

"It's been a while since I came, do you miss me?" the boy said to himself.

"Where is he, why didn't he come to see me?" The woman also ignored the boy's question.

(Mom misses you so much, son.)

"Well... I miss my mother too."

"It's because of you, right? It's because of you that he didn't come!"

(Don't worry too much, I'm fine.)

"Always make mistakes and hurt you, I'm sorry...I've tried really hard!"

"Why did you give birth, you kind of guy! It's all your fault, right!!"

(Stupid boy, it doesn't matter what I do. Mom is most worried about you. Promise me to take care of you, okay?)

"Well, I'll stick to it..."

"I shouldn't have given birth to you in the first place!!"

(Remember, Mom loves you anyway.)

"I love you too, Mom."

You must love me, right?

>>>>

kill.

Just kill it.

Don't think too much.

From fear to numbness, and then a strange turn from numbness.

Looking at the fresh blood and the distorted corpse, one can't help but feel a sense of excitement.

I actually gradually fell in love with killing during the training process.

It has become a complete murder tool.

Is this me a monster?

right.

However, he didn't want to become a monster, did he?They forced themselves.

So... who the hell am I?

It began to become, completely ignorant of its own nature.

Is it good or bad?

Although this is not important, but still want to figure it out.

【Mom loves me】

【If you don't kill someone, your mother will be killed】

【As long as it is for my mother, I can do anything】

【So they forced me to kill people】

When you think about it, it's like...

【In order to affirm its own existence】

By the way, that's it!

In order to affirm my own existence...

No matter what, you have to lie to yourself that my mother loves me.

The killings carried out for this reason are just to keep themselves alive.

In fact, I have been hypnotizing myself all the time, living in the illusion created by myself.

If...if mom doesn't love me...

So why give birth to me?

【It’s fine if you’re not born】

【go to hell】

——The woman's extremely distorted screams and roars seemed to be heard in my ears.

no no......

Don't ah ah ah! ! ! ! ! !

Why does it exist in this world?

The brain starts to clutter.

Consciousness begins to blur.

The spirit begins to break down.

Finally, at last, fully awake.

After the self-hypnosis disappears, everything will end.

that's it......

Fell into a doomed impasse.

Weird.

So I really can't believe what my mother said.

You are always right.

Mom just loves me.

The poor little boy is also performing the task of killing tools for his mother today.

The collapse of the illusion is still far behind.

Now that I have recognized the illusion from the bottom of my heart, the real world will never come.

Right!

>>>>

【No】

really......

There are still too many variables.

Alas... can mom move?

Wasn't he tied up by those people...?

Why do you want to tie me up in reverse?

Anyway, it doesn't matter anyway... Mom won't hurt me.

However, this is completely unnecessary, isn't it?

I am your child, how could I run away from you?

If you tell me seriously, let me know.

Huh?Mom, where did you get the knife from?

It's very dangerous, if it is discovered, those guys will punish it badly!

Tell me quickly and let me put it back.

and many more......

The knife went into my stomach.

The bright red blood flowed out, and as the mother stirred, it condensed more and more.

Mom was laughing, her laugh getting louder and shriller.

It's been a long time since I saw her so happy.

Anyway, after so much training, I'm used to the pain.

Mom said it doesn't hurt, so it doesn't hurt.

The blood gradually stopped coming out.

Feeling weak gradually.

But this time, no matter what, I don't want to stick to it anymore.

I don't want to force myself to support my body anymore.

For the first and last time, I let myself lie down.

Overwhelming exhaustion suddenly swept over me.

Well, let's end it like this.

Whether this is an illusion or not, whether you love me or not...

It doesn't matter anymore.

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