Flowers bloom under the low wall

Lunch at Sister Yinwan's place is a big round table, and Yu Xi couldn't cope with so many people, so he said he was sleepy after eating a little dryly, and pretended to take a nap later.

The staff in the restaurant ate later than normal, Yu Xi pretended to be asleep, tossed and turned, and finally got through the meal, it was already past three o'clock in the afternoon.

It can't always be like this in the future, he has to find a way to solve lunch.

Lin was also sent out by Sister Yinwan to pick up things, and Sister Yinwan took his place on duty for half an hour. As soon as she came in, she breathed in her vitality and chatted with Yu Xi happily.

"How did you and Lin Yi know each other?" Zhang Yinwan turned her head to ask Yu Xi during the selfie break.

"Barbecue stand," said Yu Xi, fearing that he would embarrass sister Yinwan by being at a loss, so he turned on the "DJK" shooting game, pretending that he had something to do, "I ran into it when I was buying barbecue a few days ago."

"You have only known each other for a few days!?" Zhang Yinwan was so surprised that she even put on the wrong lipstick, "Then your relationship is developing at the speed of light!"

"Lin Yi and I," Yu Xi rummaged through the game, pondering over his words, "Does it look like we have a good relationship?"

Zhang Yinwan seemed to be frightened by Yu Xi's words, and wiped off the extra lipstick in a daze: "This is not good? Then what is good?"

Yu Xi really thought about it, anyway, he had to hold hands, hugged, kissed, er, to be considered good, but he and Lin Yi didn't seem to have done any of them.Yu Xi shook his legs, thinking that this was not the case. In the eyes of Lin Yi and Yinwan, there seemed to be no better relationship with colleagues than this.

I don't know whether to be happy or not.

Especially in the morning when he was trained by Lin Yi inexplicably, he even ran up to Lin Yi. Looking back now, he seems to be saying, Lin Yi, you just trained me so well, I still want to be punished. You train.

Yu Xi: "..."

Yu Xi rubbed his face, silently asking himself what morality is.

"Employees who came before," Zhang Yinwan seemed to be lost in memory, "It took a few weeks to be so good. Lin Yi is also very good at taking care of young employees."

"Have you partnered with others before?"

Yu Xi was very surprised. He always thought that "pure love" was Lin Yi's busy work alone, but after thinking about it carefully, he knew that Lin Yi warmly hooked his shoulders on the first day he came, and he was very proficient.

In other words, every partner Lin Yi has to hook up like this.

"Men are old hooligans, every day they treat one brother as an elder brother to another," Zhang Yinwan was chatting on WeChat, as if she had forgotten about Yu Xi's existence, "He's a scumbag everywhere!"

Yu Xi: "..."

"It's like a shared power bank," Zhang Yinwan said, becoming more and more angry, and finally became angry, "Distribute heat selflessly, little brother."

Yu Xi stared at the game interface in a daze, but heard Zhang Yinwan's words in his mind. Lin Yi seemed to never refute the guest calling him little brother. look.

Yu Xi raised his feet, thinking that he might be one of Lin Yi's many molested targets.

"Break up, scumbag!" Zhang Yinwan jumped up angrily.

Yu Xi: "?"

He was taken aback by Zhang Yinwan, and suddenly he came back to his senses, but for a moment he didn't realize where he misunderstood Zhang Yinwan's words.

"Look at this group of people," Zhang Yinwan leaned against Yu Xi, tilting her head, "Have your conscience been eaten by dogs?!"

Yu Xi tilted his head to look at Zhang Yinwan's cell phone, and found that she was chatting in a high school WeChat group.

[Sister Yinwan]: The identification of the boyfriend's scumbag has been completed

[Old kidnappers]: Split up with me? (dog head)

[Brother Hao]: Break up with me? (dog head)

[Spiritual guy]: Break up with me? (dog head)

[Time Management Master]: Split up with me? (dog head)

…………

Yu Xi: "..."

"The grandchildren in our class have such virtues," Zhang Yinwan sighed helplessly, "Why is there no boy like Xiao Yu in my high school class?"

"Am I any different from them?"

Yu Xi clenched his hands and asked Zhang Yinwan nervously.He has never known the difference between homosexuality and normal boys, will it be easy to see?Do normal people think it's a motherfucker, or disgusting?

In Lin Yi's eyes, does he look like a normal boy?

Lin also won't tease him as a girl...

He doesn't seem to know what to think of the other party in a same-sex relationship...

This is a bottomless pit, he has no one to ask, and he dare not ask, he has been avoiding this hole, forcing himself to ignore those three words.

Sometimes on the street or on the mobile phone, when he saw relevant words and pictures, he would turn his face away immediately. Zhi Sang even laughed at him for being homophobic and phobic, just like meeting the dean.

"It's really different," Zhang Yinwan rested her chin and carefully looked at the furry Yu Xi, "You..."

"Me what?" Yu Xi swallowed.

"You're cuter." Zhang Yinwan laughed loudly, holding her face and stroking Yu Xi's hair, thinking that it's okay to be so obedient.

"Yu...Xi?" Lin Yi pushed the door down halfway, seeing the scene stuck in place, neither advancing nor retreating, "Am I..."

Yu Xi was afraid that his nervous mind would come up with strange thoughts again, so he stood up immediately.Seeing Lin Yi standing at the door, Zhang Yinwan hurried over and grabbed the bag in his hand: "Thank you, my sister will record your achievements."

After Zhang Yinwan went out, Lin Yicai gently closed the door and sat next to Yu Xi.Probably because the young man's figure was too good-looking, Yu Xi's eyes lingered on Lin Yi for a while.

Lin Yi looked at him in a daze, and chuckled: "DJK? When did you play this?"

Yu Xi came back to his senses, flicked down the phone screen, and became angry from embarrassment: "Why do you keep eavesdropping and peeping?"

Lin Yi was pushed by the white-eyed wolf, looked down at himself, then took out a bag from below and put it in front of Yu Xi, and said to cover up: "Are you still angry?"

Yu Xi found that Lin Yi was teasing him, and his neck was hot from the unbearable experience in the morning. He moved the stool and tried to use the "Five-Year College Entrance Examination and Three-Year Simulation" to "tear the mistress in the palace".

The two stumbled awkwardly for a while, Lin Yi pushed the bag over again, moved a little closer to Yu Xi's side, and smiled flatteringly: "Sweet, don't eat for nothing, brother has traveled all over eight streets The limited edition dessert I found for you..."

Lin Yi lay half of his body behind Yu Xi's back, although he didn't touch him, his breath swept over his ears.

"I don't like to take advantage of petty advantages," Yu Xi restrained his voice to be cold, "I also don't like to be treated as a younger brother to others, so you can find someone else."

Yu Xi clearly felt Lin Yi chuckle behind his head when he heard this, and then Lin Yi leaned towards Yu Xi's face like a candy: "I didn't eat at noon in the morning, aren't you hungry?"

"Then you'll be my brother," Lin Yi said, seeing Yu Xi poking his neck to answer Chinese reading comprehension in English, so he simply put his chin into his neck and called out lazily, "Little brother~"

Yu Xi was provoked by Lin Yi's words, and immediately pushed his face away in annoyance: "Don't get so close," he said, pushing Lin Yi out forcefully, "My brother made me hungry and I had to Hungry."

Compared to Lin Yi smiling and calling him "little brother", Yu Xi would rather be a younger brother himself. Lin Yi's voice is too charming, it is almost poisonous to Yu Xi.

"Hiss..." Lin Yi twitched his arms and moved the corners of his mouth.

Yu Xi glanced at it, and found that this guy was just showing his arms so carelessly, and the wound was not treated at all, with an attitude of "I have rough skin and thick flesh".Yu Xi bit his lip and turned his face away, as long as he didn't feel sorry for Lin Yi first, Lin Yi's tricks would be useless.

Take a look, this 1.8-meter handsome guy is pretending again.

Yu Xi is not stupid, how can he be fooled by Lin Yi over and over again?

"Don't listen to your brother," Lin Yi slumped on the table after finishing speaking, and withdrew his arm in despair, "Your brother is only two hundred and five."

"He is fierce," Yu Xi wrote letters coldly, determined not to look at Lin Yi, "I'm afraid of him."

Lin Yi: "..."

"Aren't you coming back fiercely?" Lin Yi smiled angrily.

"When do I..."

Annoyed, Yu Xi turned around and argued with Lin Yi, only to see Lin Yi tilt his arm, pointing to a bloodstain on his arm, and raised his eyebrows at Yu Xi.

It was the first time that Yu Xi knew that his teeth were so strong that he actually bit out such a circle of blood marks. The scarlet wound was a little black, and the skin around it was a little blue.Lin Yi's arm was very white, which made the wound even more brutal.

Yu Xi silently grabbed Lin Yidai's dessert and began to eat it.

"What did Miss Yinwan ask you to take?"

"Lipstick," Lin Yi saw that the white-eyed wolf resisted not caring about him, so he sat back and played games, "Tomorrow is on vacation, she is going on a date."

Seeing that Lin Yi seemed to have turned on the "DJK", Yu Xi simply turned away and turned his back to him to turn on the "DJK".

The scorching sun is just right, and the world is noisy. In the cake shop in the corner, two teenagers are sitting with their backs facing each other, playing the same game, but pondering different thoughts.

"The boss doesn't let her buy too much." Lin Yi raised his head and saw the little man behind him playing with his phone with his head buried. "Her girlfriend brought it for her. I won't be suspicious of the boss when I go to get it."

"Can you tell the lipstick number?" Yu Xi felt a little disbelieving.

"It's clear," Lin Yi logged into the account, remembered Yu Xi's ID that he had just glanced at, and began to modify the information silently, preparing to add friends, "Why can't I tell the difference?"

Why can you tell the difference?

How do you, a high school boy, know so much about lipstick?

Yu Xi felt that what Yinwan sister said was right, people like Lin Yi were similar to the boys in Yinwan's class, they were all big pigs.

"Oh." Yu Xi ended the conversation indifferently.

"You don't care about her dating?" Lin Yi didn't tick off Yu Xi's next sentence for a long time, and simply threw out his inner doubts.

Yu Xi bit his tongue, and his mouth smelled fishy. He put Lin Yi's dessert aside.Why does Lin Yi always feel that he likes Sister Yinwan?Because is Miss Yinwan pretty?Because Miss Yinwan is enthusiastic?

Or, did Lin Yi think that he had grasped Yu Xi's little thoughts to death?

Yu Xi felt that liking Lin Yi was really exhausting, and he was afraid that he would regard him as a straight man, and he was also afraid that he would treat him as...

Will Lin Yi regard himself as that?

Sister Yinwan has always been very honest when speaking. Since she said that Yu Xi is cute, normal people will definitely think that Yu Xi is cute, but "cute" is a shameful description.

Will Lin Yi also be in a certain moment, just a certain moment, such as looking into his eyes, or touching his hair, or talking to him, just pick one of these moments, as long as one is good, in that second two In the gap of a second, Lin Yi also thinks that Yu Xi is cuter for a moment...

The more Yu Xi thought about it, the more reddened he became, and his ears and face became hot and unbearable.

Yu Xi didn't know how to describe this feeling. If Lin Yizhen skipped a very subtle thought in his heart at some point: Yu Xi is very cute, how would he feel?Will you cover your mouth and chuckle?

Yu Xi felt his heart beating so fast, his breathing became so obvious, as if Lin Yi was really whispering in his ear:

Yu Xi, you are so cute...

Yu Xi, I seem to like you a little bit...

It seems that I can't help but want to kiss you...

Yu Xi felt that his whole body was hot. Such a dream was too exciting for him, like throwing a mine into the calm sea, causing waves several feet high.

Compared with his previous fantasies, this time he couldn't calm down no matter what. He wanted to cry and laugh at the same time. He felt that he was about to turn around, and when he turned around, he could see Lin Yijin's face close at hand, and his Tender intimacy.

"Ding--"

Yu Xi's cell phone vibrated suddenly.

['Brother Liuhua' has agreed to your friend request]

[Brother Liuhua]: Hello, little sister! (sweetheart)

[Brother Liuhua]: Are you in love? (love)

[Brother Liuhua]: cpdd? (chuckles)

Lin Yi can do this to a strange girl?

Yu Xi vowed that he would never want to talk to Lin Yi again in his life.

Lin Yi was so good-looking and excellent that the girl was delivered to the door with a tick finger. Yu Xi shut down his phone and didn't turn it on again in the afternoon and night.

This afternoon, he stood coldly on the side taking pictures, Lin Yi was still busy with his work enthusiastically, and the two of them suddenly became estranged.

Conversations throughout the day just get really weird.

Lin Yi: "Why don't you play games anymore?"

Yu Xi: "No electricity."

Lin Yi: "There is a power strip here, you can use my charger."

Yu Xi: "Cleanliness."

Lin Yi: "I haven't heard you say it, so you still climb over the wall with me."

Yu Xi: "Hungry."

Lin Yi: "Are you coming tonight? I have donuts."

Yu Xi: "No."

Lin Yi: "I'll take you home, aren't you afraid of the dark?"

Yu Xi: "No need."

Lin Yi: "Are you angry? Are you talking so coldly? Sister Yinxiao has someone, you can think about others, I..."

Yu Xi: "No need to introduce."

Lin Yi: "Lin Jia..."

Yu Xi: "Not interested."

Lin Yi: "Yu Xi, you..."

Yu Xi: "Are you annoying?!"

Lin Yi: "I just want to remind you...there are only three options for listening, and there is no 'D' option...you have drawn four 'D's..."

Yu Xi: "..."

Yu Xi put away the paper angrily, and never said a word to Lin Yi again.Until closing at night, he stepped out with a cold face, leaving Lin Yi far behind.

Yu Xi is indeed a little afraid of the dark, but nothing scares Yu Xi more than seeing Lin Yi again, and going to his room with Lin Yi. He quickly shuttles through the dark alley, the corners of his eyes are always sore.

He used to be greedy for Lin Yi, thinking that as long as he could stay by Lin Yi's side, he could swallow any pain.But now he found that it wasn't like that, he couldn't bear those poisonous candies at all, one could torture him to death.

Yu Xi walked out of the alley and looked back, but Lin Yi didn't catch up.

The night sky was very high and far away, there was not a single star in the sky, the street lamps were still standing next to the supermarket, and the crowd in the small square was still happy and unrestrained. Yu Xi did not expect to return to this place again.

The place where he and Lin Yi met a few days ago.

But he couldn't go back to the backyard many years ago, the faucet and the little white flowers, the days of a family of three in the house, the bright boy in his school uniform on the back wall, and the fiery red maple leaves in the sky.

There are too many places that I can’t go back to. After many years, Yu Xi will not be able to come back to this place, nor will he be able to return to the “pure love” on this street. The pile of bricks, Yu Xi will not come back.

When Lin Yi has a girlfriend, gets married, has children, and has a family, his youth will never come back.

Maybe the next time Yu Xi meets Lin Yi at a barbecue stand, he will hold his own child, and the child will tell him that his mother does not allow him to play games.

Yu Xi's heart was cold, and he stood in front of the barbecue stall for a while.A girl was eating barbecue at the table next to her, and a well-dressed man came over to strike up a conversation, Miss, how are you, can you add a WeChat?

Yu Xi felt that his legs were filled with lead, and Lin Yi would also say these words. He would easily say these words to an unfamiliar account, just because that account was a woman, but Lin Yi would never say that to Yu Xi These words, because Yu Xi is a man.

In Lin Yi's cognition, Yu Xi does not exist.

"Boss, I want forty strings of rice cakes, all of which are spicy." Yu Xi waited in a daze. His eyes were watering from the spicy taste, but he would rather stand by.

Trembling, the boss handed the bag to Yu Xi, and added with guilt: "Eating so much spicy food at once is bad for the stomach, don't drink alcohol."

So Yu Xi deliberately bought three bottles of beer on the way back.

Yu Xi took a cold shower for nearly an hour in a daze, but his brain was still hot. He couldn't calm down at all. He didn't even bother to brush his hair, so he turned around and locked himself in the room.

I was awakened by a slap when I longed for butterflies the most.

That taste is really unpleasant.

Yu Xi opened a bottle of beer and started pouring it.He has been a good student and a good boy for a long time, and alcohol and tobacco have never appeared in his life.Yu Xi used to think that smoking and drinking to pretend to be deep was silly, but it was only when it happened to him that he realized that it was the pain of a knife cutting his heart.

The alcohol was too bitter, and his throat seemed to be burnt when he drank it down. Yu Xi was holding the bottle and laughing foolishly in the dark room, like a perverted and crazy fool.

The moonlight could only illuminate the jujube tree, but not into his room. Yu Xi looked at the dividing line between light and dark on the ground and found himself in the shadows again.

He looked at the mobile phone lying quietly beside him. The mobile phone had been turned off for a long time, and there was a small ball pendant hanging on the side of the white case.

Yu Xi threw an empty wine bottle aside, his head was hot, his face was on fire, his consciousness was a little fuzzy, and his vision began to shake violently.

Yu Xi shook his head, as if a bomb had exploded in his head, he fell to the ground in pain, curled up into a ball, his whole body was hot and convulsed, his legs and arms were numb.

Yu Xi dragged himself to the side of the bed in pain, weeping silently in a hoarse voice, his heart was beating violently, as if he was going to jump out.

"Where did it go? Where did it go?"

Yu Xi fumbled under the bedboard in a panic, his throat hurt so badly, and his eyes were sore from tears.His hand stopped for a moment, as if he had grasped a life-saving straw, his stiff body softened all of a sudden.He slid down from the side of the bed, spread out limply, and slightly opened his palms.

A small transparent bag lay quietly in the palm of his hand. Inside the bag was a lock of hair, two strands rubbed together to form a circle. This was Lin Yi's hair.

He laughed at himself, grabbed the mobile phone from the bed, slowly pinched the hair out of the small bag, carefully opened the small ball, put the hair in gently, and then closed the small ball forcefully.

Yu Xi began to drink the second bottle of wine. When it was too bitter to swallow, he used rice cakes to numb the taste, and then forced himself to swallow it again.

Yu Xi panted heavily, the wine dripped down his lips, and he bit his lower lip desperately, until he tasted the smell of blood before licking it in a daze.

Yu Xi froze for a while holding the phone, then bumped and crawled to the window, and with all his strength, smashed the phone out.

Lin also!Don't you tm want me to spit out the truth after drinking!

You just die among the women!

……

Yu Xi slipped and fell to the ground, holding his belly and laughing in a low voice.

The subsequent actions and things were blurred and abstract, Yu Xi laughed in his violent breath, his emotions were always restrained, he neither shouted nor yelled, the madness and love and hate in the dark will never be exposed to the sun.

He alone can bury a lot of things.

That year's red maple leaves, small white flowers, brick piles, and faucets were all buried by Yu Xi.Why does Yu Xi like Lin Yi so much because of such a trivial matter?

It seemed that when his father was drunk and beating and scolding, or when his mother left suddenly, Yu Xi walked out of the examination room silently and sat in a corner in a daze.At that time, Lin Yi had just finished strolling outside and passed the exam. He came in over the wall and hit Yu Xi in one fell swoop.

Yu Xi burst into tears immediately, buried his head and turned his face away.

It was at the corner of the school, behind the green pavilion, no one could see it, and the laughter of students and the ringing of class bells could be heard in the distance.This corner is very hidden, and Lin Yixuan's corner is very suitable for hiding.

Yu Xi didn't know why he squatted there during class time, he silently endured those emotions, but when Lin Yi hit him and squatted in front of him to talk, Yu Xi couldn't help it.

"Why are you crying? I'm so heavy?" Lin Yi was at a loss like a fool, "Which class are you in? Why haven't I seen you?"

Yu Xi found that he couldn't make an impression on Lin Yi's mind no matter what. Every time he met, he got to know Lin Yi again.

"I'm homeless," Yu Xi wiped away his tears, and looked at Lin Yi with red eyes, "Will you buy me a bus ticket?"

Lin Yi had been a school bully for so long, and it was the first time he saw someone so aggressive. He scratched his head and realized that the person in front of him was so small.

"I have no money……"

Yu Xi was amused by Lin Yi's stupid look.

"Wait a minute," Lin Yi took off his school uniform, rummaged through all his pockets, and only found a few broken toy tracks, "Why don't you take the rails first?"

"Are you coming to pick me up by train?"

Yu Xi was dumbfounded by this stupid behavior.

"Uh," Lin Yi also thought this tm was too stupid, "Maybe."

The two looked at each other and couldn't help laughing, nestling in the grass and shaking with laughter.

Yu Xi regretted that he didn't tell Lin Yi his class name at that time, otherwise he wouldn't have changed schools later, and Lin Yi would have forgotten him so easily.

When Yu Xi moved away from that town, he saw with his own eyes that the house was pulled down by bulldozers, and then the walls that Lin Yi stepped on, the faucets he touched, and the wild flowers he cared for were all buried in the ruins.

His toy rails are no longer found in the ruins.

Yu Xi was so crazy that night, he had a lot of nightmares intermittently, dreaming that his father was biting his mother with a wine bottle covered in blood, and dreaming that the backyard had turned into a black hole that could not be entered.

He dreamed that he was walking barefoot along the railroad track, and the icy sea water reached his ankles. He knew that the railroad track came from that yard, but he didn't know where it led.

Suddenly, a huge roar came from far and near, and the huge train tens of meters high rolled over a huge wave, and passed Yu Xi's side slowly and lowly.

Yu Xi looked there and found that the end of the railway track was a cliff.

"don't want!!!"

He roared to catch up, and the waves soaked his whole clothes.

He saw with his own eyes that tall building-like train fell into the abyss one by one, shaking the sky and the earth.

He stood wet in the sea, staring blankly at all this.

The author has something to say:

I'm sorry that a previous chapter was missed, so I adjusted it. This chapter has merged two chapters, and the new chapter is at the back.