Looking back and smiling

Chapter 95: Small conventions

Yangzhou ate the crepe contentedly, it really is such a comfortable life.

Li Xiao saw Yang Zhou feasting on the food, and always felt that he was a little confused. He is a very childish person on weekdays. If you are not familiar with him, you always feel that he is carefree, but when you get to know him , you will find that he has his own sadness.

However, Li Xiaocai realized that he had been disguising himself all the time, wearing a clown mask, and you didn't know whether his expression under the mask was crying or laughing.

Li Xiao looked at him, he was eating very happily, the corner of his mouth was still stained with cake crumbs.

"As expected, the crepes are the best." Yangzhou held the crepes with a satisfied smile on his face.

"nice! You love it."

"Well, I like it very much. Ziyu also likes to eat crepes." As he spoke, Yang Zhou's eyes drooped slightly, as if a little sad.

"What's wrong with him?" Li Xiao had a good impression of An Ziyu, of course, the deepest impression was that of a chattering evildoer.When he came out, he vaguely knew that something happened to An Ziyu.

"Dropped out of school..." Yangzhou said lightly, the sadness in his eyes just now disappeared, and there was a calm smile on his face again.

Li Xiao didn't ask An Ziyu why he dropped out of school, but just stared at him.

"What's the matter?" Yang Zhou asked with a smile, feeling uncomfortable being stared at by Li Xiao. "Is there something dirty on my face?"

Li Xiao shook his head and said with a smile: "It's nothing, I just want to watch you."

Li Xiao really wanted to ask him, isn't he tired of pretending like this?I used to think that he was an ignorant child who walked under the ivory tower, laughed when he wanted to laugh, and didn't have to force a smile when he wanted to cry.But now, he knew that Yang Zhou was feeling very uncomfortable, although he only showed helplessness occasionally, but he kept smiling.

He hides the truest expression under his mask, which is harder to see through than those who have already entered the society.

Yangzhou gave him a big smiling face, "How is it? Am I smiling so much that the country is overwhelmed?"

Li Xiao nodded, "En."

"That's right, I'm a handsome guy." Yang Zhou spread his hands, stepped on the ground with one foot, and jumped a few steps forward. "Handsome guy, handsome guy, I'm a handsome guy..."

The last word sounded a little choked up.

Yang Zhou didn't look back, Li Xiao looked at his back and said softly, "Cry when you want to cry."

Yang Zhou turned his head slowly, tears were already streaming down his face.

"It's really uncomfortable." Yang Zhou covered his heart. "It's so uncomfortable here..."

The mask on his face has been removed, Yang Zhou doesn't want to pretend anymore.He wanted someone to rely on, and that support was not Yang Nisha, not anyone from the Yang family, but the man in front of him.

When he was young, when he lived with his grandmother, he was bullied because of his poverty. When he returned home, he could only pretend to be very happy.Grandma died, and was taken back to the Yang family by his father. At that time, his father told him not to cry, and not to think about your grandma anymore. You are the young master of the Yang family.At that time, Yangzhou also pretended to be himself, I didn't want my grandma, I didn't want her.

Tears did not flow from the eyes, but the heart cried.

Gradually I got used to it, unwilling to show my true emotions, and kept pretending to be myself.In the eyes of his classmates, he is a second-hand homeboy, but in the eyes of the Yang family, he is just a rice bug who does not pose any threat.

He looked at the man in front of him and couldn't stop his tears.

"I'll be with you." Li Xiao stepped forward and gently hugged the crying man in front of him.He is really thin, and his thin body will shatter if he exerts a little force.

"When grandma died, I couldn't cry. I could only look at her quietly, watching her slowly stop breathing in front of me. Now, I can't remember her face clearly. But when Tzuyu cut her wrist At that time, I realized that I was really afraid of death, really scared." Yang Zhou said. "I don't dare to cry, I have been trying not to cry. I can't show my fragile side, I can only smile like a fool."

He didn't know what Yang Zhou had experienced and why it happened.All his laughter seemed to be a disguise, wearing a clown's mask.

"Ziyu dropped out of school, and I suddenly realized that there is no way for us to escape our fate. From acquaintance to acquaintance, this is destined to be an inescapable shackle." Yang Zhou's face suddenly became frightened, and he pushed Li Xiao away. , shook his head and took a few steps back, then raised his red eyes from crying, and stared at Li Xiao in a daze. "Maybe... I am the beginning of your tragedy."

Hearing this, Li Xiao froze, and then smiled unnaturally: "Don't talk nonsense."

"Summer is over, it's autumn, and then... the whole world is cold, and there's no escape." Yangzhou smiled wryly.

Li Xiao shook his head, "You are wrong. After summer, it will be autumn, and then it will be cold winter, but this world is not cold." Li Xiao pointed down. "On the other side of the world, it's summer."

"Xiamen..." Yangzhou repeated these two words, and slowly, the corners of his mouth slightly raised, he looked at Li Xiao and nodded. "Yes, it's summer."

"I'll go to the United States to find you after I finish dealing with some matters." Li Xiao said softly in a gentle voice. "We made a deal."

Yang Zhou nodded, "It's an agreement." Although he still felt a little bit bitter in his heart, it was because he still had a little uneasiness. He didn't know what this uneasiness was, but when he heard his father's gentle voice, that uneasiness gradually faded away. disappear.

I really like Daddy's voice, it's soft, like this warm spring breeze.

"So, don't think too much about it. What happened to An Ziyu hit you hard. After all, you are childhood friends, so you are sad and uneasy. But don't forget, you still have your father." Li Xiao pointed at himself . "From now on, you don't need to pretend in front of me, and you don't need to force yourself to smile when you should cry, because I am your father and your boyfriend."

"En." Yang Zhou nodded heavily.

There is no need to pretend or hide anything, Yang Zhou pursed his lower lip, sniffed his nose, and looked at Li Xiao with tears in his eyes, "Father..." He stepped forward and hugged Li Xiao, buried his face in the Rubbing in his arms.

"Snot." Li Xiao looked helplessly at the puddle of sticky liquid on his chest.

In line with Li Xiao's word "snot", Yang Zhou exhaled the snot vigorously, and then rubbed against Li Xiao's chest.

Li Xiao: "..." That guy definitely did it on purpose.

After wiping his nose clean, Yang Zhou looked up at Li Xiao, opened his mouth, thought for a while and said, "Father, actually I..." He wanted to tell Li Xiao his family background.

At this moment, Li Xiao's cell phone rang.

Li Xiao asked Yang Zhou as if he didn't hear it, "Actually, what's wrong with you?"

"I..." The phone was still ringing. "Father, you should answer the phone first."

"It's okay." Li Xiao didn't intend to answer the phone despite the phone ringing.

"Who is calling?" No matter how stupid Yang Zhou was, he knew that Li Xiao deliberately didn't want to answer the phone, but for some reason, that strong sense of uneasiness reappeared, and he always felt that it had something to do with the caller.

The cell phone was still ringing, and Li Xiao knew that if he didn't answer the phone, he would keep calling him until he answered the phone.

"Then I'll answer the phone first." Li Xiao took the phone and went to the side to answer the phone.

Yang Zhou raised his eyes slightly, looking at Li Xiao's back as he walked away.

Li Xiao definitely stepped aside on purpose to answer the phone, which meant that he didn't want to let himself know what he was answering the phone with.From being unwilling to answer the phone just now, to now, walking away on purpose when answering the phone, what happened to Dad?Could it be that she had an affair? !

Soon, Yangzhou felt that a lot of things had happened recently, and his mind was a little messed up, and he could think of such complaints.

When Li Xiao came back after answering the phone, his expression was a bit uneasy.Yang Zhou thought for a while, but didn't ask directly, but kept staring at him.

stare……

Li Xiao felt uncomfortable being stared at, and asked, "What's wrong with you?"

"This..." Yang Zhou thought for a while, gritted his teeth and said. "Father, tell the truth, are you having an affair, Qin'er or Wushuang?"

Su He, who was working, and Qin Er, who was staying at home watching anime, sneezed a lot.

Only then did Li Xiao realize that the child's brains are amazing.

"What are you thinking about all day?" Li Xiao's mouth twitched, and he brought his face closer to Yang Zhou's. The two of them were almost nose to nose. At this time, Yang Zhou found that his father's nose was quite straight.

Yangzhou looked at Li Xiao's nose, and Li Xiao said, "Is it better not to marry Feiqing in this life?"

"..." Yang Zhou didn't look at Li Xiao's nose, the corner of his mouth twitched, and said embarrassingly, "Don't set me as number 0 in BL so early, my knowledge of Tanmei theory is full marks."

"Theoretical knowledge?"

"Yeah." Yangzhou buried his head in counting. "What about Fengyu Jiutian, Huarongtianxia, ​​elegant cats and mice, and shortbread... There are many, many... By the way, there are also the world's first love, pure romance, and a little more important There is a garden of happiness, women's clothing is too..."

"Have you seen it all?" Li Xiao felt that he had to re-examine the "daughter" in front of him. It's either an otaku or a rotten boy!

Yangzhou shook his head resolutely, "No, it's just that my sister said so."

"..." Li Xiao rubbed his eyebrows. "I'd better take you back to school first."

"Back to school?" Back to school before dinner?Yang Zhou was very puzzled.

Li Xiao smiled apologetically, "I still have something to do, I will take you to barbecue tomorrow."

Yang Zhou blinked and said, "Don't look at me like this, I'm actually a person with lessons."

"That weekend?"

"Two days on the weekend, that's it." Yangzhou said. "Xiao Lizi, let's drive." After speaking, Yangzhou raised his hand very lazily.

"Go to hell." Li Xiao took his hand and walked towards C University.

Li Xiao sent Yangzhou to the school gate, stopped a car and left.Yangzhou watched the taxi go away, he didn't know why he was very upset, as if something was about to happen.When he interrupted just now, he didn't say anything. He wanted to tell Li Xiao that he was the son of the chairman of the Yuxing Group and the second heir of the Yang family, but he didn't know how to say it just now.

In fact, he was also worried that he would be angry if he told Li Xiao.He always thought that he was a poor student. Although he was very poor, it was because he didn't want to spend more money from the Yang family. He would rather distribute leaflets and eat instant noodles every day than spend an extra penny on the Yang family.

But if you say this, Dad may not believe it, he will think that he deliberately did not tell him, and deliberately lied to him.But it's okay, since you haven't said it, don't say it.Anyway, regardless of whether the application for studying abroad is successful or not, he also plans to leave City C this summer.

Yang Zhou shook his head, and shook off all these troubles.He bought a cup of original signature milk tea at the milk tea shop next to the school, and bought two yuan of Tujia cakes, and went back to the dormitory while eating.

Opened the bedroom door, the room was quiet, there was nothing on An Ziyu's bed, people from An's family had removed all of An Ziyu's things this morning.

I don't have many things. Apart from the necessary bedding, I only have clothes and books. On the contrary, An Ziyu, he has a lot of bottles and jars, such as toner, facial cleanser, and isolation milk. Without it, Yangzhou felt that something was missing.

In fact, something is really missing. There are no more people who can bicker every day, and there are no more people who can eat food. I can no longer see that evildoer sleeping on the bed in the posture of a drunken imperial concubine and pretending to be sick to skip class.

Yang Zhou bit his milk tea straw and suddenly felt very sad, very sad. The most important thing was that there were no people who were eating, so he would have to spend his own RMB.

After drinking the milk tea, Yangzhou ran to take a bath. The weather was getting hot, so he simply used cold water. The cold water washed over his body, irritating his skin, making Yangzhou feel much more awake and calmed down a lot.

After taking a bath, he wiped his hair with a towel and fell asleep on the bed. After eating milk tea and Tujia cakes, Yangzhou was quite full, so he didn't plan to go shopping.He didn't turn on the light either, just kept sleeping on the bed like this.

In a daze, the phone rang.The ringtone is AKB48's new song. Since An Ziyu was hospitalized, he changed the phone ringtone from An Ziyu's singing to AKB48's.

He didn't really want to answer the phone, but the phone kept ringing.He got out of bed and took out his mobile phone, and the caller ID showed Miejue Shitai.

Yang Nisha's phone call.

Since the Chinese New Year, I have only seen Yang Nisha once, and I rarely communicate with her on the phone.He knew that Yang Nisha was very busy. As the first heir of the Yang family, his father intended her to inherit the Yang family and the Yuxing Group.

He doesn't hate his sister, he just hates the Yang family, so he tries to draw a line with the Yang family as much as possible, which is why he never called his sister.

As soon as Yang Zhou answered the phone, the other end smiled, "Did you miss my sister?"

Yang Nisha's voice has become a little weird. In the past, her voice was a mezzo-soprano, a typical queen, but now, her voice has become a little hoarse.

"Sister, what's wrong with your throat?"

"It's nothing, it might be a little cold recently." Yang Nisha laughed. "I didn't expect you to care about my elder sister. When will you come to the company to see me?"

Yangzhou heard Yang Nisha's perfunctory, since his sister didn't want to say it, he didn't ask again, but said: "Sister, pay more attention to your body." Yangzhou remembered the last time he saw Yang Nisha, when she looked bad , I feel a lot thinner, as if a gust of wind could blow me down.

Isn't she really sick?

"Thank you for your concern. I know to pay attention to my body. By the way, I heard about Xiao Yu'er." Yang Nisha stopped laughing. "Don't be sad. Dropping out may be the right choice for him. You should study hard and don't think too much about it."

"I understand." Yangzhou didn't tell Yang Nisha that no matter whether he was admitted to MIT or not, he would leave University C and city C.

"It's good to understand, there is one more thing...cough cough..." Yang Nisha coughed suddenly before finishing her sentence.

"Sister, are you alright?" Yang Nisha coughed heart-piercingly, and Yang Zhou had a faint feeling that it wasn't as simple as a cold.

"I...cough cough...what can I do." After recovering, Yang Nisha's cough became much lighter, she said. "You have your birthday in a few days, happy birthday."

If Yang Nisha didn't remind him, Yang Zhou almost forgot that his birthday will be in a few days.

"Actually, the house I rented next to the school has already been bought. You have the key and the door lock has not been changed. You can move there. A courier will be sent there in a few days, yes My sister gave you a birthday present."

"Thank you sister..."

"I'm your own sister, what can I say thank you for?" Yang Nisha smiled. "Okay, I have something else to do, goodbye."

"See you."

After hanging up the phone, Yangzhou slept on the bed again. At this time, the outside became noisy. It should be that other students returned to the dormitory after evening self-study.

Compared with the hustle and bustle outside, the dormitory seemed unusually deserted.

This feeling is like a funeral. I am sleeping in a cold coffin, and the noise outside has nothing to do with me, because I have become a dead person.

Yang Zhou was frightened by his own thoughts, he patted his forehead, it was really troublesome recently, he also became sad, uh...not sad, but nervous.

After thinking about it, Yangzhou decided to move out and live.

This dormitory has already changed from person to person... That's all...

Uh... Yangzhou is embarrassing, isn't he a science student?How come it's moaning again.//Moaning.

It's a disease, it needs to be cured!

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