The county horse is a medicine jar

Lin Sishen made up his mind to go to court with illness, no matter how much Liu Qingyun and Mo Zhu tried to dissuade him, he refused to take leave and stayed in the mansion to recuperate. Liu Qingyun really had nothing to do with her, so he could only tell Lin Ying to take care of her.

On the way to the court in the carriage, Lin Ying kept leaning against the carriage with his arms folded, and looked at Lin Sishen intentionally or unintentionally, but he didn't speak for a long time.

After whipping Lin Sishen the day before yesterday, Liu Qingyun threw a tantrum at him without hesitation, and even poked at those guilty past events that he had never dared to mention deeply buried in his heart, so he also had a rare introspection.

He thought of how he had disciplined Lin Sishen these years, as Liu Qingyun said, he would beat and scold him, and he was never willing to ask the reason patiently.

It's the same this time, it's nothing more than private discipline, and in front of the Ninth Prince and his servants, those who can't help but break up will start fighting.In the final analysis, Lin Sishen was already a grown-up, and he was much more sensible and calm than before, so he shouldn't use the old method of discipline anymore, which chilled Lin Sishen's heart.

The carriage was driving smoothly on the stone road. There was silence inside the carriage, but it was noisy and lively outside.

At this moment, it is the busiest time, and the street vendors who get up early and the people who go out to buy, all rush to the street.The sound of hawking and bargaining came into my ears all at once.

Lin Ying looked at Lin Sishen's pale and frail face, and frowned slightly. He got up and opened the curtain of the car, and signaled the groom to stop on the side of the road for now, and he wanted to go down.

After the carriage stopped, he bent down and got out of the carriage without saying a word.

Lin Sishen, who had been hanging her hair in a daze, also raised her head. She looked at the swaying car curtain in a daze, her dark eyes were numb, and she didn't know what she was thinking, and she didn't come back to her senses for a long time.

After waiting for a while, Lin Ying got into the car, holding two steaming porcelain bowls in his hands.

Only then did Lin Sishen come back to her senses, her gloomy eyes lit up a little, she glanced at Lin Ying in surprise, looked at the two porcelain bowls in his hand, opened her dry lips, and called out in a hoarse and low voice. He said, "Father?"

Lin Ying looked a little awkward. He put the porcelain bowl in his hand on the wooden table in the middle, coughed lightly and turned his head and said: "You should not have breakfast, and you should fill your stomach to some extent, but don't do it in the hall Passed out from hunger."

Lin Sishen was stunned when she heard the words, she looked down at the wooden table in front of her, and saw two porcelain bowls were steaming, one was filled with freshly cooked milky white soybean milk, the other was filled with light Yangchun noodles. , looks quite appetizing.

But Lin Sishen didn't move, he just stared at the porcelain bowl for a while.

Seeing that she did not move for a long time, Lin Ye became more and more awkward. He frowned and let out a long sigh. After all, he lowered his head awkwardly and admitted his mistake: "The thing the day before yesterday... the thing the day before yesterday was really because my father was too impulsive. The matter has not been investigated clearly, as a father, I shouldn't do anything to you."

Lin Ying thought that Lin Sishen had a grudge against him in his heart, so he didn't move his chopsticks for a long time, and admitted his mistake awkwardly for the first time.But he also felt that Lin Sishen was too hypocritical, and when he was wronged, he lost his temper like a little daughter-in-law.

Therefore, he couldn't help complaining again: "But you are a man, even if you are angry, you shouldn't vent your anger on yourself. You also know how much your grandmother and your mother worry about you. Last night your mother But she groaned and sighed all night, without closing her eyes."

Hearing the words, Lin Sishen lowered his head slowly, pursed his lips with a complicated expression and said in a low voice, "I know my mistake."

Seeing Lin Sishen's appearance like this, Lin Ying couldn't say anything more, and pointed to the breakfast on the table: "Okay, let's eat something first."

But as soon as the words were finished, Lin Ying was stunned for a moment, raised his hand and slapped his leg: "Blame me, look at me, I forgot to ask the boy for a pair of chopsticks, just wait. "

Without waiting for Lin Sishen to respond, he hurriedly ran out of the carriage, asked the Yangchun noodle vendor for a pair of wooden chopsticks in a rough voice, and then turned back.

When Lin Ying returned to the car again, he saw Lin Sishen holding a porcelain bowl in both hands, drinking hot soybean milk in small sips.Lin Ying breathed a sigh of relief, got into the carriage, put the chopsticks on the bowl, and waited quietly for Lin Sishen to finish eating.

Lin Ying just looked at Lin Sishen like this, but he was dazed just looking at it. He didn't know how long it had been since he looked at Lin Sishen so quietly.

This child, for some reason, seemed to be much thinner than he remembered, so weak that he could be blown away by a gust of wind.

Lin Ying remembered that Lin Sishen had been in poor health since he was born. He thought that when Liu Qingyun was pregnant with Lin Sishen, he was out fighting with his two sons, and then...such a big thing happened again.Therefore, Liu Qingyun never had peace of mind to raise her baby, she was worried and shed tears all day long, which made Lin Sishen so sick and weak after birth.

Speaking of it this way, even Lin Sishen was born weak, it was his fault.

Thinking of this, Lin Ying thought about it again, and this thought reminded him of another thing, he seemed to have never hugged Lin Sishen.

When he returned to the capital with the seriously injured Lin Sitao, Lin Sishen was only two months old.At that time, he was immersed in the pain of bereavement, and when he saw Xiao Lin Sishen who was softly nestled in Liu Qingyun's arms, he just glanced at him and walked away without saying a word.

Afterwards, he drank all day long to relieve his worries, his mother was afraid that he would hurt Lin Sishen when he was drunk, so she took him back to the Buddhist hall to raise him.After he managed to regain his strength, Lin Sishen could already speak and walk.

Lin Sishen was intelligent and quick-witted when she was a child, and she was long and delicately carved, white and delicate, and almost everyone in the mansion loved her very much.

Except Lin Ying.

Whenever Lin Ying saw Lin Sishen, he couldn't help comparing her with her two elder brothers.In fact, Lin Ye should have forgotten whether Lin Sitao and Lin Silue were more well-behaved and clever than Lin Sishen when they were the same age as Lin Sishen for many years.

But for some reason, he subconsciously felt that Lin Sishen was no match for her two elder brothers. No matter how talented and intelligent she was, in Lin Zheng's mind, both Lin Sitao and Lin Silue should be better than her.

The more he thought about it, the stricter he disciplined Lin Sishen.

When Lin Sitao and Lin Silue were born, he at least hugged them personally, let them ride on his neck to watch the Lantern Festival, and led them to walk in green and go to the theater.

Only Lin Sishen, he always felt that Lin Sishen was not good enough, not as good as her elder brother.Blindly beating, scolding and reprimanding, taking Lin Sishen out to vent his anger when something goes wrong, even Lin Sishen's elder brother is thin and weak, not as strong as his elder brother, these are the reasons for his dissatisfaction with Lin Sishen.

Lin Zheng had never thought about these things before, but when he recalled them for no reason today, he realized that for so many years, he had never shown any kindness to Lin Sishen.

Lin Ying stared blankly at Lin Sishen, looking at her thin and pale face, his heart seemed to be tightly grasped by something, and the guilt and self-blame welling up in his heart made him feel sour.

Lin Sishen, who put down the porcelain bowl, raised his eyes and looked over, Lin Ying hurriedly turned his head away, pretending nothing happened.

But Lin Sishen was keenly aware of Lin Ying's strangeness. She forced the corners of her lips into a smile, and said in a hoarse voice, "Don't worry, father. Although my child is feeling unwell, I won't embarrass my father in the hall."

Having said this, it made Lin Ying even more uncomfortable. He frowned, shook his head and said in a low voice, "I'm not worried about you embarrassing my father..."

After a pause, Lin Ying lowered his head. He sighed quietly and asked, "Shen'er, have you ever complained about being your father over the years?"

Lin Sishen was stunned when he heard the words: "Why is father... asking such a question all of a sudden?"

Lin Ying looked at Lin Sishen with complicated eyes: "As a father, I just feel that I owe you a lot over the years."

Lin Sishen's eyes flickered slightly, as if she guessed why Lin Ying thought so, she shook her head slowly, and said word by word: "My child has never resented my father, not for a moment."

Lin Ying was a little puzzled: "But...but you should blame me. As your father, I have never treated you well. Your mother is right, even if I treat my subordinates, I treat you better than others. Hello."

Lin Sishen smiled in relief, and she looked at Lin Ying calmly: "My child knows the pain in my father's heart. Over the years, my father has never forgotten what happened back then. How can my child have the heart to blame my father?"

Although Lin Ying was indeed extremely strict with Lin Sishen, it was inevitable that Lin Sishen would annoy him on purpose, not to mention that she had been wandering around Fireworks and Willow Lane all year round and caused countless disasters.

She knows Lin Ying's temper, and also knows the guilt in Lin Ying's heart.

Although Lin Zheng never mentioned it to anyone, Lin Sishen knew that he had always blamed Lin Sitao's decadence and Lin Sitao's death on himself.

He was just too guilty, and sometimes he didn't even realize that the reason why he was so strict with Lin Sishen was not only because he wanted his son to become a success, but also because of his guilt towards Lin Sitao and Lin Silue.

He felt that he had killed Lin Silue back then, and also made Lin Sitao, who should have done a lot, become a useless person.Therefore, whenever he showed more love to Lin Sishen, he felt even more sorry for Lin Sitao and Lin Silue.

So he could only be stricter with Lin Sishen, and even more demanding of her than they were, so that the guilt in his heart could be alleviated.

Lin Sishen smiled lightly, and tears seemed to flash in her eyes. She looked at Lin Ying steadfastly, and finally said the words that had been hidden in her heart for a long time: "Father, it's not just a child, I believe it. My brother never hated my father."

The words from Lin Sishen's mouth completely stunned Lin Ying. He just looked at Lin Sishen, his face with sharp water chestnuts trembled slightly, and a look of sadness appeared in his eyes. The look in his eyes was extremely complicated, ranging from shock to At a loss, until finally relieved.

After a long time, he suddenly pulled the corners of his lips, and smiled at Lin Sishen a little bluntly. Although it was a bit ugly, it was the first time he smiled at Lin Sishen.

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