"Yuri Kuzeng" no one knows

Today is the best weather, there is a sky color called Beijing blue, without a trace of cloud.Xiaoxi stood on the balcony and took a deep breath, it was the smell of spring.

There were prepared pills and warm water on the table, Xiao Yuliang came out of the kitchen, wiped off his wet hands from washing dishes, picked up the pills, and ate them with his head up.Approaching Xiaoxi, hugged him from behind, put his head on his shoulder, feeling the same warm sunshine.

"Shall we go for a walk today?" Xiaoxi asked.

Yuliang didn't answer, just hugged Xiaoxi, shaking his body slowly.

"Let's go, will you go out with me for a stroll~" Xiaoxi acted like a baby.

Yu Liang nodded: "Yeah."

Tiantongyuan is the largest community in Asia. There is a park not far from the Fifth Ring Road in Beijing called Taiping Zhuangye Park.Xiaoxi heard from Yuliang before that this park seems to be huge without end. He and Liu Yuhan have been here twice, and they turned back after walking halfway. Because of the large area, there are few people, and there are sycamore trees planted inside. , fir trees and large cannas.

The two entered the park and walked side by side. Xiao Yuliang wore a mask, but Xiao Xi didn't.

Not far from the entrance, there is a sunken square with swings and simple fitness facilities. Xiaoxi ran over and grabbed the high horizontal bar and did a few pull-ups. She looked at Xiao Yuliang provocatively: "Can you do it?"

Yuliang put his hands in his pockets and smiled contemptuously: "I can make thirty in a row believe it or not!"

"Come here!" Xiaoxi jumped down to make way for Yuliang.

When Yuliang approached Xiaoxi, Xiaoxi reached out and took off Yuliang's mask.You and I have never done anything harmful to the world. We live our lives frankly. We don’t need to cover our faces. Not many people know us, and few people still remember the flashing news on the Internet. Gossip, don't be afraid, I'm here.

Yu Liang looked into Xiao Xi's eyes, he understood his heart, smiled calmly, jumped on the horizontal bar, bent his arms completely to [-] degrees, and performed a standard pull-up.

Xiaoxi counted on the side: "1, 2, 3, 4..."

A big golden retriever strolled over at some point, wagging its tail and sniffing around the small square, Xiaoxi ignored Yuliang and ran to tease the dog.Yuliang jumped off the horizontal bar, gasping for breath, a thin layer of sweat broke out on his body, and the muscles in his arms woke up.

The golden retriever sniffed Xiaoxi's hand, and wagged its tail even more happily.Xiao Yuliang walked over: "Puppy dog~"

The golden retriever saw Yuliang rubbing his buttocks, and Yuliang stretched out his hand to rub the golden retriever's neck. The puppy immediately lay down comfortably on all fours, with its big head resting on the back of Yuliang's instep, sticking out its tongue, as if to greet Yuliang. Liang smiled.

Xiaoxi came over and knelt down, stroking the golden retriever's belly: "Why is it so enthusiastic about you?"

"Because I attract puppies to like me, any kind of dog likes me!" Yu Liang said looking at Xiaoxi.

Xiaoxi made a face at Yuliang, Xiaoxi's eyes were always a little innocent when he was wronged, so fans always used puppies to compare Xiaoxi.

"Pumpkin!" A female voice called out.

The big golden retriever turned over and stood up, wagging its tail and looking at the source of the sound. It was a woman in a long skirt with a leash in her hand.

"It's very clingy!" the woman said with a smile as she walked over.

"His name is Pumpkin!" Xiaoxi stood up and watched Pumpkin walk towards the owner, who was holding her by the hand.

"How old are you?" Xiao Xi went up to talk to the woman, but Yu Liang could only follow along.

The woman touched the pumpkin's head: "I have raised it for five years, but I don't know how old it is. Our pumpkin was brought back from the rescue station by me. When I came back, it was an adult. Speaking of it, it is a child with a hard life. Said to be rescued from a factory, covered in wounds, skinny, the chain around the neck was embedded in the flesh after being neglected for a long time, and now there are still scars..." The woman opened the clip and let Xiaoxi Touching the pumpkin's neck, there is indeed a raised scar under the hair.Pumpkin sticks out her tongue and looks at Xiaoxi with a smile, triumphantly.

"When I first brought her back, I was afraid of people and didn't let me touch them. Later, I started to love each other little by little, and now I have fun all by myself!"

Yu Liang came over: "It has met a good owner."

The woman smiled and kissed the pumpkin: "Pumpkin is very brave. We are going home! See you two brothers!"

The woman leads the dog and walks, with swaying skirts and wagging big tails.

Unable to explain why, Yuliang was moved in his heart. He is too fragile recently, and a little bit of beauty is enough to move him.

Xiaoxi patted Yuliang on the shoulder: "Have you done thirty pull-ups?"

Yu Liang shook his head: "No..."

"I'll brag!"

The two walked straight along the path, passing through a small forest, a group of old people were singing Peking Opera, and an old and strong martial arts student turned somersault amidst the cheers of the crowd.Xiaoxi looked at it from afar and praised it for being amazing!Yu Liang rolls up his sleeves and does somersaults, I can do it too!Xiaoxi hurriedly stopped Yuliang: "I know you can do it now, but when you get old, it will be okay!"

Yu Liang took Xiao Xi's hand in a favorable manner: "Then I'll show you the pages when I get old."

Xiaoxi looked at Yuliang's hand, feeling mixed feelings in her heart: "This is what you said, you want to get better, your body needs to get better, and so does your spirit."

Yu Liang hugged Xiao Xi's shoulders and nodded emphatically.

It was late at night, Yu Liang was reading a book on the balcony, a movie was playing on the TV, and Xiao Xi was sitting on the sofa so sleepy that he could hardly keep his eyes open.Yuliang sighed, put down the book, walked over to pull Xiaoxi: "Go, sleep."

Xiaoxi shook her head and rubbed her eyes: "I haven't finished the movie..." I can't sleep, I can't leave you alone in the dark night.

Yuliang pulled Xiaoxi up with all his strength, he couldn't sleep, Xiaoxi wanted to accompany him every night, he was because of insomnia, Xiaoxi was holding on with willpower.You don't know, do you put more pressure on me like this?

"I'm sleepy too, let's go to bed." Yu Liang reached out to turn off the light in the living room, and pulled Xiao Xi upstairs.

Yuliang really lay down and closed his eyes as if he was going to sleep, Xiaoxi stared at Yuliang with wide eyes: "Tell me, tell me about your unhappiness..."

Yu Liang closed his eyes: "There is nothing unpleasant."

Facing Yu Liang who has sealed herself up, Xiao Xi has nothing to do.Xiao Yuliang can live a normal life, he can laugh and fight with him, but those are all appearances, there is a knot in his heart, tightly twisted there, tormenting and devouring him in the dead of night.

Xiaoxi took Yuliang's hand and hugged his arm into her arms: "Should we go to the hospital, I don't know what to do, how can you fall asleep..."

Yu Liang turned his head and touched Xiao Xi's hair: "I know I have some mental problems, but I don't want to take medicine. Give me some more time, and I can adjust myself. But, don't get overwhelmed."

Xiaoxi didn't speak, he didn't dare to sleep.

"Let's close our eyes together, shall we?" Warm big hands caressed Xiaoxi's eyes, and gently stroked his temples.

Xiaoxi closed her eyes, and a heavy drowsiness hit her, and her consciousness fell into darkness almost instantly.

Seeing that Xiao Xi's breathing was even, Yu Liang let him go gently.When Xiao Yuliang calms down by himself, he always thinks back to his past years. His parents are in sports, so he hoped that his brothers could also learn sports. However, no coach accepted him, so his mother sent him to his brother to learn table tennis. Learn to dance downstairs.He was not a talented child, and was often scolded by his teachers, so he went all the way to university. Later, his seniors said that he had to go to Beijing to do literature and art. After thinking about it, he didn't know how to come to Beijing to develop, so he ignored his parents' opposition. I applied for a graduate student in Beijing, and after I passed the exam, I found out that graduate students are not as simple as they were when they were undergraduates. They need to have a good relationship with their supervisors, and they must have background and qualifications. Later, a scout found him and asked him to participate in the show. He thought it was an opportunity, but everything was because he was too naive. There are thousands of people in the world who dream of being a star, but only a few can shine in the end.During that time, he was also confused.Later, I went to an audition with my friends, and he was selected by accident. He embarked on the path of an actor and met a teacher who taught him how to act. , but just when there was improvement, he was scolded bloody.He fell into self-doubt and denial.There must be something wrong with me, what did I do wrong, why can't I go any way?Zhou Xiduo targeted him everywhere in the crew, and his colleagues in the company always whispered bad things about him behind his back, and now something happened and he was abandoned by the company... It was like a problem, he couldn't find the way to solve it, he couldn't find the answer.

Yuliang sat up, the street outside the window became quiet, the whole world fell asleep, except him.The sleepless night was like a huge net, trapping him tightly, and he couldn't tear it apart and couldn't escape.He even felt that he had made Xiao Xi tired, Xiao Xi put down his work and stayed with him every day, and he also wanted to be happy and make him happy like before, but he couldn't do it, he was so tired.

Zeng Shunxi's hands trembled suddenly, then he frowned and opened his eyes suddenly, seeing the darkness in front of him, he sat up quickly, and did not let out a breath until he saw the black figure sitting by the bed.

Xiao Yuliang hurried to turn on the bedside lamp, and hugged the flustered Xiao Xi into his arms: "Did you have a dream?"

Xiao Xi shook his head, still in shock: "Why did I fall asleep?" When the light came on, he saw Xiao Yuliang's face clearly, and he was in front of him. Ever since he found Xiao Yuliang's insomnia, he was terrified, and he didn't dare to let Yuliang sleep. Stay alone, because my brother committed suicide because of depression!

Xiao Xi hugged Xiao Yuliang tightly, and the fear in his heart tortured him to the point of collapse.

"Just tell me, you vent your unhappiness, what do you want to do? I will accompany you whatever you want!" Do you want to take revenge on those who hurt you?If you want me to accompany you!Would you like to clarify publicly?If you want, I can help you too!

Listening to Xiao Xi's anxious tone, Xiao Yuliang comforted him, "It's not that I don't want to tell you, Ah Xi, it's just that I don't know where to start."

Zeng Shunxi remembered that he heard someone say that pain that can be expressed is not pain.He thought, this is how Xiao Yuliang feels now.

"Ah Xi, listen, I'm not as serious as you think, you don't have to be so nervous, or I'll feel guilty, with you being so kind to me, I will never leave you behind, we have to grow old together , show you somersaults!"

Xiaoxi looked at Yuliang, and it turned out that he understood the fear in his heart, and he must have worked very hard, trying very hard to get out.I can no longer impose my bad emotions on him, I should be more happy and lead him out of this net of depression.

"Look at the pumpkin we met. He had such a bad experience. Humans hurt him, but he still believes that humans are close to humans. I don't think I will be inferior to a big golden retriever!" Xiao Yuliang encouraged himself, and also Encouraging Xiaoxi.

Xiaoxi thought about it, nodded and smiled, tonight was the time Yuliang talked the most since he returned to Beijing.It seems that I still have some use. I can take him out for more walks, and he is also encouraged and inspired, isn't it?

"Okay Ah Xi, it's almost dawn again, and I'm sleepy." Yu Liang asked Xiao Xi to lie down and cover him with a quilt.

Xiaoxi pulled the quilt and asked, "Are you sleeping too?"

Yu Liang lay down again: "Well, I'm really sleepy."

Xiaoxi turned over and lay down beside Yuliang's pillow, and whispered, "If you still can't fall asleep, I will do exercises with you."

Yu Liang stared at Xiao Xi's lips, and lowered his voice, "What kind of exercise? Pull-ups or push-ups?"

Xiao Xi's lips pressed against Yu Liang's, and she answered vaguely: "You have the final say."