Thoughts

Although Shen Duanrui thought he was not drunk, it still made him uncomfortable for a while when he woke up the next day with a dizzy head and a dry throat.There was a faint pain in the back of the head, and when I reached out to touch it, a small lump was swollen, and it hurt even more when I touched it.It can be seen how hard Mu Dongchen was last night, how shocked, and, more, probably angry.

Shen Duanrui still clearly remembered what happened last night. He was just a little dizzy, but his consciousness was very clear.Mu Dongchen helped him to the bed, followed him, and coaxed him to sleep, so gentle that Shen Duanrui wanted to keep him by his side.When Mu Dongchen turned around to leave, for some reason, he felt a kind of panic in his heart, fearing that he would never see Mu Dongchen again after he left. When he realized it, he acted faster than he realized, and he had already stretched out his hand to hold him .Mu Dongchen bent down, lowered his voice, and asked him what's the matter, his warm breath fell on Shen Duanrui's face, with a faint smell that belonged to Mu Dongchen, and the deep voice was like a whisper, which made Shen Duanrui's heart ache. There was a throbbing.Shen Duanrui looked at Mu Dongchen who was close at hand, slightly opened and closed his rosy lips, like fresh strawberries glistening with water, making people want to take a bite.

Want to kiss him, want to kiss him, want to feel Mu Dongchen's temperature.

As soon as this idea came out, mixed with intoxicating alcohol, like weeds growing wildly, Shen Duanrui's heart was instantly filled.

Shen Duanrui pulled Mu Dongchen over and kissed him before Mu Dongchen could react.

Sure enough, it was as sweet and soft as imagined.

Shen Duanrui looked at Mu Dongchen's face, not wanting to miss any of his expressions.Mu Dongchen's face was full of astonishment, and he stared at him with wide eyes, his eyes were full of disbelief.There was a faint smell coming from the tip of his nose. It took a long time for Shen Duanrui to realize that it was the smell of shower gel.Mu Dongchen bought that bottle of shower gel with him.

Time seemed to stand still, until Mu Dongchen pushed it away violently, and the light in the room disappeared instantly with the closing of the door, Shen Duanrui finally woke up to what he had just done.

Still didn't hold back.

How will Mu Dongchen treat himself tomorrow?Will you question yourself?Will he just move away from his house, just like three years ago, far away from himself?

Thinking of this, Shen Duanrui regretted his recklessness.

After waking up, Mu Dongchen had already gone to work.After washing, Shen Duanrui sat on the sofa, rubbed his phone repeatedly, thought for a long time, and decided to apologize to Mu Dongchen when he came back from get off work.

However, Mu Dongchen didn't give him a chance to speak.After Mu Dongchen came back from get off work in the afternoon, he went back to his room directly, and went out early in the morning, hardly meeting or talking to him.This situation continued for several days.Shen Duanrui knew that Mu Dongchen was hiding from him.

No questioning, no moving away, just avoiding him, Mu Dongchen avoided contact with him.

Shen Duanrui couldn't stand this, Mu Dongchen was doing his best to hide from himself, this was not what he wanted.

On this day, Mu Mu called Shen Duanrui to tell Shen Duanrui the tentative meeting time, and asked him about the arrangement with Mu Dongchen.Shen Duanrui thought, finally have a chance.No matter what, I must apologize to Mu Dongchen today.

Shen Duanrui knocked on the door of Mu Dongchen, who had shut himself in the room since he came back from get off work, and after a long time he got permission, and pushed the door open. Mu Dongchen was leaning on the bed and reading a book.

"Mumu asked our group to have dinner, are you free this Saturday night?"

Mu Dongchen thought for a while and said, "Yes, where?"

"Six o'clock, Jude Hot Pot Restaurant."

Mu Dongchen nodded to indicate that he knew, and waited for a while but Shen Duanrui left, and asked, "Is there anything else?"

Shen Duanrui leaned against the door frame and looked at him, "Mu Dongchen, let's have a chat."

"What are you talking about?"

"That night..." Shen Duanrui looked at Mu Dongchen who had been staring at the book and never looked up at him since he entered the door, "I... I'm sorry, I shouldn't..."

Shen Duanrui didn't know how to talk to Mu Dongchen. He had been planning for so many days, but when he saw him, he couldn't tell the reason.How can I tell him that I still like him?I kissed him because I liked him?

"I drank a little too much that night... I didn't do it on purpose..." It wasn't intentional, but it was something I had longed for.

"If you're angry, beat me up, just...can you...don't ignore me..." Don't hide from me.

"We..." Aren't we friends?Or, can't even be friends?

Shen Duanrui felt bitter in his mouth, so bitter that he could hardly speak.

Mu Dongchen, who had been silent all this time, shook the book in his hand, let it go and closed it, and said slowly: "What happened that night was just because you were drunk and confused, I don't think it will happen again in the future." This kind of thing happened, so I didn't take it to heart, and you don't have to worry about it, and I won't beat you up. I've been busy these days, so I didn't say anything to you, and I didn't ignore you. After all, With his head down all the time, he raised his head and looked at Shen Duanrui, "We are friends, aren't we?" With heavy eyes, he looked straight at Shen Duanrui, as if he refused to move away until he heard what he wanted to hear.

Mu Dongchen, you are the same as back then, you always want me to circle myself to death before you are willing to give me the illusion of friendship and the slightest hope.Three years ago, I followed your wishes, and three years later, I am still the same.

Shen Duanrui smiled self-deprecatingly in his heart, exhaled lightly, and seemed to easily say what the other party wanted to hear.

"Well, we are friends. We are friends, so, I'm sorry, I promise that this kind of thing will never happen in the future." He held the doorknob, "Let's go together on Saturday, I'll go back to my room first." Then Closed the door.

Back in the room and leaning against the door, Shen Duanrui gritted his teeth, his knuckles clutching the clothes on his chest were green and white, and his veins were bulging.

That's it, that's enough, that's enough.

I will keep the boundary of a good friend, not crossing a millimeter. In this way, do you feel at ease?

Coming out of the building, Shen Duanrui looked up at the sky, the sun was still so strong that it blinded people to open their eyes.Squinting his eyes slightly, he turned his head and looked to the right front of the road. From here, he walked to the intersection and then turned right and walked about 100 meters. In less than 5 minutes, he could see Qiansheng's building.

Where Mu Dongchen was.

After a while, Shen Duanrui looked away, took out his mobile phone from his bag, and dialed the number.

"Yijiu, I'm done here...have you cleaned up...well, okay, then I'm coming."

After hanging up the phone, Shen Duanrui looked to the front right again, then glanced at the building behind him, raised the corners of his mouth, and walked briskly towards the bus stop.

The resume submitted a few days ago finally got a reply, today Shen Duanrui was called for an interview.Probably because the other party saw that he was not bad, and the requirements of the internship were not as high as those of the formal one. He was easily retained by the HR supervisor and officially started to work next Monday.Thinking of being able to commute with Mu Dongchen together in the future, Shen Duanrui was so happy that he couldn't help laughing.Although that incident happened some time ago, after giving Mu Dongchen an apology and the answer he wanted, the relationship between the two eased down.At least, we can still be friends, that's enough.

Song Yijiu was going home on the third day after the exam, and Shen Duanrui, a coolie, would naturally not be let go.

When Shen Duanrui arrived at the girls' dormitory, Song Yijiu was sitting on a stone bench downstairs eating ice cream, with a paper bag at his feet and a yellow suitcase with various cartoon pictures on it.

"It's finally here, I'm so hot." As soon as Shen Duanrui walked over, Song Yijiu complained.

"That's what I should say."

Looking up at him, Song Yijiu took out a bottle of frozen pulsation from the paper bag at his feet and handed it to him, "Let you come back to pulsation at any time!"

Shen Duanrui couldn't laugh or cry.

I opened the bottle and took a sip, and it really cooled off a lot.

"Let's go?" Shen Duanrui asked.

"Wait," Song Yijiu ate up the remaining ice cream in two or three bites, and threw the stick into the trash can, "Let's go, Shenzi."

Shen Duanrui got goosebumps all over his body when he heard her call like that, and he inevitably thought of his father-in-law in ancient times.No one would have thought of this when Cheng Zi and the others yelled like this, but when Song Yijiu called out lazily and elongatedly, the chills couldn't help but hit their hearts.

"Can you not call me that?"

Song Yijiu looked back at him, "No."

He intentionally called "Xiao Shenzi" several times in a row, but the tone of his voice was different.

Knowing that Song Yijiu was motivated by a prank, Shen Duanrui smiled helplessly, and followed her resignedly.If he refuted it again, he would probably be tricked even worse.

After successfully sending Song Yijiu to the car, Shen Duanrui wiped the sweat from his forehead after the train slowly left his sight, drank the rest of the pulse in one gulp, looked at the bottle and smiled, and threw it into the trash can .

this girl...

When he was about to get into the car, Song Yijiu hugged him, not too hot, and whispered in his ear: "Welcome to play with me." He also patted his back vigorously.When she finally got into the car, Song Yijiu turned around and looked at him, her eyes were full of jokes: "Goodbye, little Shenzi." .

Tomorrow is the day for a group meeting with Mu Mu. Looking at the time, it is still early before Mu Dongchen gets off work. Shen Duanrui plans to buy some gifts first. After all, it has been so long.After stepping into the shopping mall, I felt that I should take Song Yijiu with her before she left.All kinds of gifts are dazzling, and I really don't know what to buy for the two girls.In my memory, Li Ming is lively and introverted. Now the group can solve the problem of matching outside the group, and the people around him have their own happiness. The five-member group now only has himself and Mu Dongchen as two singles.It would be great if it could be solved within the group like Li Mingmumu.

Thinking of this, Shen Duanrui couldn't help laughing at himself, what was he thinking.Although he wasn't around, Mu Dongchen already had someone by his side.

A person's, has always been only him.

After walking around several floors and visiting many shops, Shen Duanrui finally bought a gift.Li Ming was given a hat and sun protection in hot weather, and let Mu Mu worry about the rest.Xia Mian's book is a book, although the people around the girl love books and even open a bookstore, there must be everything you need, but at least it's a wish.It was still early, Shen Duanrui decided to put his things home first, and then pick up Mu Dongchen from get off work.

Mu Dongchen came back too suddenly, and Shen Duanrui was caught off guard. His longing and admiration were mixed with Mu Dongchen's evasion and rejection in the past, making him always fearful of Mu Dongchen, longing for the other party, but afraid that the other party would come again leave.So, approaching again and again, fleeing again and again.

Mu Dongchen said that they were friends and brothers, so they could only be friends and brothers.

In order to make him feel at ease, Shen Duanrui pulled Song Yijiu up, pretending that there was already a beautiful woman in the past, but the torment in his heart only increased.

After he gave Mu Dongchen the promise he wanted after getting drunk with his relatives, Shen Duanrui thought a lot after suffering.The excitement caused by Mu Dongchen's return gradually cooled down, and he began to calmly think about their relationship.Mu Dongchen already has a girlfriend, and from Mu Dongchen's words, it can be seen that they will stay together, get married and have children until the end of their lives if nothing else happens.And he is just a leaf, a grass in Mu Dongchen's past green years, withered after time.No matter how good the laughter and fights were at that time, even if he fell in love with Mu Dongchen and confessed to him, the relationship between the two can only be maintained as a friend, at most, for a little longer.When they get married in the future, the past gradually fades away, the roads gradually become parallel, and the so-called friends are just familiar strangers, and Mu Dongchen will never see him in his life again.Now, even though it has been three years, he still likes Mu Dongchen in his heart. It is not a remnant that cannot be obtained, but a sincere love. Shen Duanrui clearly distinguishes this point.He can't destroy the future that Mu Dongchen wants, this is something he must protect no matter what, he wants Mu Dongchen to be happy.

Therefore, let the past likes end with the rejection of the confession, and the current likes just need to be silently hidden in the heart and continue.

Don't cross the line of friends, and accompany you with all your strength, this is enough.

After putting the presents home, he waited downstairs in Qiansheng for a while, then Mu Dongchen came out of the building, Shen Duanrui waved at him, "Passing by here, I happened to meet you coming out, let's go back together."

Mu Dongchen put away his surprised expression and nodded.

Along the way, Shen Duanrui was basically talking.

"Aren't we a group gathering on Saturday? I just bought some gifts for Li Ming and the others." Shen Duanrui looked sideways at Mu Dongchen, "It feels like I haven't seen each other for a long time."

"Yes."

"Mu Mu really got a great deal, that girl Li Ming is very nice."

"Ah."

"Although it is said that Xia Mian is with that Bai Yansheng, I haven't seen him much, and I don't know if I will see him at this reunion. I have seen him in the previous class reunions, but I have never met him before." It was when he came to pick up Xia Mian at the end of the party, it was all from the back and profile, and he didn't know what the front face looked like. It feels...it should look good, judging from the impression."

……

"I see when we have a group gathering, everyone brings their own family members and friends together, meet each other and exchange feelings." The more Shen Duanrui thought about it, the better he felt, and he smiled at Mu Dongchen, "When the time comes, bring your lady with you. Ah, but she's not from here, it seems like it's too much trouble for her to come here..."

……

Shen Duanrui was looking for topics, and Mu Dongchen occasionally replied with a few words. When they got home, the atmosphere between the two of them was not too embarrassing.

"Are you hungry? If you're hungry, we'll order takeaway." Shen Duanrui asked.

"It's okay," Mu Dongchen put the bag in the room and came out, "Let's do it ourselves, it won't take too much time."

"Okay, let me see what else is in the refrigerator."

Shen Duanrui went to the kitchen, opened the refrigerator and looked through it. There were chicken breasts, carrots, tomatoes, potatoes, curry, spinach, etc., but it was still possible to make a meal.

"Shredded chicken with sesame oil, diced chicken curry, potato tomato, spinach and egg drop soup, are you ready?" Shen Duanrui asked the living room after thinking for a while.

"Okay." Mu Dongchen walked over, "I'll help you."

After speaking, he took the apron and put it on, washed his hands, walked to Shen Duanrui, and took out the vegetables in the refrigerator to deal with them.

"What's wrong?" Seeing Shen Duanrui standing in front of the refrigerator and looking at him motionless, Mu Dongchen asked.

"Ah?" Shen Duanrui seemed to have just reacted, and hurriedly closed the refrigerator door, "It's nothing, I'll go out for a drink."

"Yeah." Seeing that he was fine, Mu Dongchen continued to wash the vegetables.

Shen Duanrui glanced at him several times, then hurried out of the kitchen, poured a glass of water, drank it in one gulp, and seemed to calm down a little.

Mu Dongchen's appearance in an apron is simply too attractive.

Because Song Yijiu came to cook at home most of the time, and Shen Duanrui didn't like to wear an apron when cooking, so according to Song Yijiu's preference, the apron was pink with a little white rabbit with lop ears on it.Mu Dongchen naturally put on the pink apron with the rabbit printed on it, which made the already fair face more fair and delicate.After the rope around his waist was tied, his slender and straight figure was well outlined, making him look even more upright.When he turned around to put the dishes on the cooking table, his shallow breath fell on Shen Duanrui's neck inadvertently. With the barely smellable fragrance of shower gel, Shen Duanrui's heart beat suddenly.

He had never seen Mu Dongchen dressed like this before, and he was inevitably attracted.

This kind of Mu Dongchen made him want to touch him involuntarily.

no!Forget about it!Shen Duanrui shook his head, he agreed to keep the boundaries of good friends, and promised Mu Dongchen.

Shen Duanrui drank two more glasses of water, making sure that he had calmed down before entering the kitchen.

The two worked together and the meal was ready in no time.After drinking and eating, they washed the dishes and chopsticks together.

Sitting slumped on the sofa, Shen Duanrui felt that today was extremely beautiful.

Mu Dongchen was next to him, leaning on the sofa and squinting his eyes to rest.The distance is so close that you can touch it with a little stretch of your hand.

Neither of them spoke, and the room was quiet and peaceful.

It feels like the two have lived together for a long time, peaceful and content.

Suddenly, the bell rang, breaking the tranquility.

Mu Dongchen opened his eyes and was stunned for a few seconds. He seemed to be sure that the sound was coming from his mobile phone and picked it up from the coffee table.

The call is connected.

A soft and joyful voice sounded.

Mu Dongchen slowly got up from the sofa, pointed at the phone with a smile on his face and swiped at Shen Duanrui, then walked to the guest room and closed the door.

Shen Duanrui yawned, closed his eyes, and fell asleep.

When the bell rang, Shen Duanrui saw the photo above.

The photo of the two of them that Mu Dongchen showed him when they reunited.

It's self-evident who called.