Thoughts

Shen Duanrui got up early on purpose and went out to buy some breakfast, which can be eaten after Mu Dongchen wakes up.

"morning."

Mu Dongchen sat down at the table, picked up a bun and put it in his mouth.

"You woke up so early."

Shen Duanrui drank the porridge, "Wake up, get up."

"By the way," as if remembering something, Shen Duanrui put down the bowl, walked into the room, came out after a while, and put a key on the table, "Here's the key."

"Thank you." Mu Dongchen wiped his mouth.

When going out, Mu Dongchen grabbed the key and held it in his hand. When he reached the door, he stopped suddenly. After a few seconds, he turned around and looked at Shen Duanrui, "I'm leaving, Duanduan."

After the door was closed, Shen Duanrui, who was standing by the sofa, was still holding the water glass motionless, his eyes fixed on the direction of the door.After a long time, the corners of the mouth raised, and the smile became more and more obvious.

Since the meeting, Mu Dongchen only called his full name once, and spoke directly at other times, and never called his name at all.Now he calls him "Duanduan", making Shen Duanrui suddenly think that they have returned to the previous time.

"This can be regarded as... getting what I want." Shen Duanrui murmured to himself.

Nothing happened today, Shen Duanrui went to the school to ask Song Yijiu to get a new key forged.He gave his own to Mu Dongchen.

"Where are you going now?" Song Yijiu asked Shen Duanrui just as the class break was returning the key.

"I didn't think about it, just stroll around casually."

"That's great, no class."

"You can skip class too."

"Do you want me to fail?" Song Yijiu pushed him, "Hurry up, so I won't be upset."

"Okay, I'll go, don't push me." Shen Duanrui raised his hands in surrender, "Go back to class."

Song Yijiu waved his hand and was about to go back to the classroom when Shen Duanrui stopped her.

"what?"

"Give you."

As he said that, Shen Duanrui threw something at her, and Song Yijiu caught it several times before catching it.

I opened my hand and saw that it was sugar.

"Thank you." Song Yijiu smiled and shook the candy towards Shen Duanrui.

After leaving school, Shen Duanrui wandered casually along the street.After walking for a while, he regretted it a little.There is nothing to do on a hot day, why run out to bask in the sun, isn't it hot enough?

Looking around at the girls with umbrellas, Shen Duanrui felt that it was unfair. Why is it so strange for girls to hold umbrellas freely, but it is so strange for boys?

"Ah! It's so hot!"

Complaining as he walked, he finally found a convenience store, where Shen Duanrui bought a bottle of ice water, and after enjoying the air-conditioning for a while, he came out reluctantly.

"Let's go back and forget it." Shen Duanrui took a big sip of water, thinking about where there is a bus stop.

Following the road signs, Shen Duanrui finally found the bus stop. Fortunately, it was not far from the convenience store, otherwise he could just take a taxi back if he wanted to.

In fact, Shen Duanrui didn't come here very often, occasionally he would come here for a meal with his classmates, or go shopping with Song Yijiu.Shen Duanrui felt that even if he didn't show it intentionally to make Mu Dongchen think they were together, he was already very much like her boyfriend, eating, chatting, shopping, being harassed by phone calls whenever he had something to do, and being there on call.

"That guy Yijiu really likes to order people around."

Even so, the two never thought of breaking up their existing relationship.Shen Duanrui and Song Yijiu, more than friends, but less than lovers, don't need to be full. They rely on each other and support each other. It's a bit subtle, but it's also natural.

Looking at the opposite floor, Shen Duanrui remembered that the Qiansheng Company where Mu Dongchen worked seemed to be nearby. If I remembered correctly, Qiansheng was about [-] meters to the right.

Shen Duanrui looked to the right, and sure enough, not far away, the two big characters Qian Sheng came into view.

I came here unknowingly.

Shen Duanrui suddenly didn't want to go home so much.

It was almost noon, Shen Duanrui found a fast food restaurant nearby, ordered a set meal casually, sat on the seat by the French window by the street, and stared at Qiansheng's building in a daze.

Mu Dongchen was doing an internship there, and he didn't know how he was doing.Are you not being bullied?It's lunch time, has he gone to eat?Does Qian Sheng's work meal suit his taste?When do you leave work?Is it okay to pretend to meet him by chance to pick him up from get off work?

His mind was full of Mu Dongchen.

In Shen Duanrui's memory, Mu Dongchen was a restrained and steady person, seemingly conservative but a bit out of the ordinary.Those things that "Fire Feather Butterfly" did in the past, he was a little crazy, and he kept silent, neither rejecting nor agreeing.But in the end, he always followed them silently, and did everything that seemed deviant in the eyes of adults.His personality is a bit similar to Xia Mian, but the difference between him and Xia Mian is that Xia Mian is really conservative and introverted and not good at expressing, while he is fundamentally uninhibited, but many times many things do not touch that line, so He always adopts a conservative attitude to face it.This is also his way of life.

At the beginning, Shen Duanrui didn't realize this. To him, Mu Dongchen was a hard-working, broad-minded, good-natured guy who didn't fight or rob anyone. He was always smiling and didn't care much about many things. , get on well with everyone.Shen Duanrui likes to get along with him.Although Mu Mu said at the beginning that he was ordering Mu Dongchen, but that was because that guy was so nice, it should be said that he was too docile, so people couldn't help but just focus on themselves and forget to take care of his mood.Under Mu Mu's reminder, Shen Duanrui realized that he seemed to be doing really badly, and friends are not used to treat them like this.

Later, by coincidence, the three of them formed the "Fire Feather Butterfly" group with Xia Mian Li Ming from Class [-]. Shen Duanrui has been paying attention to Mu Dongchen and Xia Mian.In junior high school, Mu Dongchen and Xia Mian used to be in the same class, and even worked as deskmates.Shen Duanrui once tried to ask him what he thought of Xia Mian, and Mu Dongchen said that he was just a classmate, but Shen Duanrui could see that he seemed to be more than just a classmate to Xia Mian.Shen Duanrui still remembers his expression at that time, although he was a little confused and indifferent, but what cannot be ignored is the flash of light in his eyes, full of nostalgia and tenderness.It was this light that made Shen Duanrui decide to help his good brother get his happiness.Therefore, in the days to come, Shen Duanrui will intentionally or unintentionally bring Mu Dongchen and Xia Mian together.Mu Mu saw his plan and didn't say anything, just told him not to do things that people would regret.Although he didn't get Mu Mu's positive support, he didn't get any opposition either, so Shen Duanrui worked harder.

The Lantern Festival in the third year of high school was the most deviant time since the establishment of the "Fire Feather Butterfly" group.

That night, all five of them skipped classes and climbed over the wall to go out of school to watch the fireworks.Instigated by Shen Duanrui, who has always been a good student in the eyes of the teachers, and under the leadership of Mu Mu, who has won the trust of the teachers, the five of them slipped away quietly from the evening self-study.Carefully climbing over the school wall hidden in the shadow of tall trees, the five of them took the bus to the square where the fireworks were set off.

The fireworks have been set off for more than half an hour, and it is coming to an end, but there are still many people watching.After squeezing for a long time, they found a relatively open place with higher terrain.On the road, Shen Duanrui walked ahead with Mu Mu in his arms, chatting with Li Ming who was next to him from time to time, leaving Mu Dongchen and Xia Mian behind.After arriving at the square, Li Ming found a good place and called Mu Mu over. Mu Dongchen and Xia Mian stood not far away, and Shen Duanrui stood behind them.The fireworks rose and bloomed into beautiful and gorgeous flowers in the black night sky. The shining light fell on the faces of Mu Dongchen and Xia Mian, making the biting cold wind seem to soften a few degrees.Looking at their happy faces, Shen Duanrui felt that he had done a great deed and should be admired by all people, but his heart, which should be happy and proud, felt a little uncomfortable for some reason.Seeing Mu Dongchen's smile, Shen Duanrui felt very happy, but when he thought that the smile was revealed because of the person next to him, he couldn't help feeling disappointed.

Is it because the good brother who has been together is about to get rid of being single, but I am still single, so I feel unbalanced?But I still have Mu Mu, I am not alone, am I?Then why, in my heart, so uncomfortable?

Looking back now, I'm afraid I treated Mu Dongchen differently at that time.

The waiter brought the food over and put it on the table, and Shen Duanrui reluctantly looked away.Even though he couldn't see anything, he still couldn't help staring at the place where the figure of the person he missed might appear.Shen Duanrui felt that he might be sick. Since three years ago, he had a disease of missing Mu Dongchen.Even though the person is by my side, I still can’t help missing him, wanting to see him every moment, hear his voice, see his smile, want to hug him, and really feel his existence.

The longing rotted his bones, tormenting him to the point of breaking his heart.

I didn't eat a few mouthfuls of rice, and the weather was hot, so I lost my appetite.Shen Duanrui took out his mobile phone, kept rubbing his fingers against the name on the screen, looked at Qiansheng's building, was silent for a long time, finally sighed softly, put the mobile phone back in his pocket, paid the bill, and left the fast food restaurant , I got on the bus at the bus stop and went back.

He never had the courage.