tear up a white paper

"If you have any difficulties, just say, why do you have to carry it alone? Even I know that it is impossible for a person to live alone, and it is impossible to live on his own. Knowing that adversity is always only temporary... so many examples, so many stories, so many people who have experienced so many truths, why don't you look at it, don't face it?"

Yuan Hua didn't understand, he didn't know why Han Fei would rather endure the pain and be strong than ask for help.

Is it embarrassing to ask for help?

No, if bowing your head for a while can bring you a lifetime of holding your head high, Yuan Hua will definitely do it himself, no, he is doing it.He pretended to be a grandson in front of his stepfather, and his stepfather gave him a free and prosperous life, which was a very good deal.

What's more, if Han Fei is only short of tuition fees, he can apply for student loans.The current national policy is very good. It is not like a few decades ago, when people who dropped out of school because of lack of money could rot on the streets.In today's society, lack of money is no longer a reason for anyone not to continue studying!

"Han Fei, respect is mutual! People are also mutual when getting along with each other. You care about me, and I care about you. You treat me well, and I want to help you. I don't want to see you evade, give up on yourself, and die in a dream. Why don't you understand?"

Yuan Hua didn't think there was anything wrong with what he did, he was not wrong, except that he couldn't explain clearly but had to completely hide his heartbeat.These days, he has tried his best to please this man who is several years older than him.

He has never been so patient and tolerant to others, and he has never been so caring and preached such great truths.

Han Fei is his special existence.

But Han Fei didn't accept his favor.

"Wow——" With a loud noise, Han Fei became furious and flipped the table over.

"!" Yuan Hua was startled, his forehead shot up with anger, and then he hammered the door and shouted: "You are such a big man, why do you still act like a child, why are you so rebellious? Are you still a junior high school student? In the rebellious period, do you need someone to coax you to reason with you? I don’t understand you, Han Fei, I don’t understand you anymore. I’ve said all the good and bad things. What do you want me to do? What else can I do? Are you going to tell me?!"

Yuan Hua burst into a fit of rage, he was angry, he was also very angry, he was used to domineering, how can he be a person who cares about others, these days, he is abnormally aggrieved by being a little fugitive, which has already made his patience At the extreme, just in need of a vent, but one didn't have time to brake, and let go of myself.

But after Lei Ting was furious, he soon regretted it again: Why didn't he hold back, and frightened him again!

Fall short.

For a while, the two people inside and outside the door were silent, and it was quiet both times.

"You don't say anything, what do you want me to do?" Yuan Hua faced the door, the door was quiet, he regretted it, he shouldn't say anything and let his temper go berserk!

"... I... I don't know... If you don't tell me, how can I know what to do... I just want to study hard, and I want to read all the books you have read, so you drive me away?!" Yuan Hua Pressing against the door, the voice was full of weeping, crying: "How can you give up halfway and be irresponsible? How can you give up on me because I made a mistake for a while, and ignore me..."

"Teacher——" Yuan Hua patted the door, as if coaxing the child to sleep, softly, once and for all, "Don't be angry, I was wrong, I didn't mean to intervene in your private affairs, interfere with your private life, I won't do this again, I won't talk nonsense in the future, please forgive me..."

He had already apologized, humbly apologizing like a lapdog.

But Han Fei still ignored him.

Yuan Hua was a little desperate, looking at the cold door, thinking about the cold person, he didn't know why he was still here.

What are you insisting on?

He was desperate.

Han Fei is simply a stone stick that can't be warmed up!

No matter how much thought he spends, how much time he spends, if he is not careful, he will disappear into thin air, heartless as if he has no heart, he will not even leave a shadow, and will not even give him a thought.

It was broad daylight when the door was opened again.

As the door opened, Yuan Hua fell backwards and almost fell.Realizing that the door was opened, he didn't even open his eyes, and said first: "Teacher, I was wrong, don't be angry——"

The winter in City X is very cold, especially at night. Fortunately, there is heating in the dormitory, but even if there is heating, the corridors are not very warm.Yuan Hua was still wearing yesterday's clothes, his frizzy hair was messed up by him, his complexion was gray, his cheeks were flushed, it was obvious that he was severely frozen.

"..." Han Fei looked at the chaotic Yuan Hua, and said unexpectedly, "You waited all night?"

"You cried all night? No, you didn't sleep?" Yuan Hua looked at Han Fei's paler face, his eyes were too swollen, and said anxiously: "Teacher, please forgive me, I am ignorant, I am talking nonsense, I……"

Han Fei waved his hand to stop him from talking, stepped back to let the door open, and let Yuan Hua into the room.

The dormitory has already been tidied up, even the desks and chairs have been put back to their previous positions, it is completely impossible to see that they made a big fuss yesterday and were angry overnight.

The book on the table was opened at the position where Yuan Hua was forced to leave yesterday. Yuan Hua's eyes became hot and he wanted to cry again. How did he know that I saw this?

"teacher?"

"Wash your face!" Han Fei is not very good at dealing with such a situation. He can't stand someone suddenly getting close to him and being nice to him, and he can't bear someone acting like a baby to him. Besides, Yuan Hua is not the little girls in his class. It's a huge carrot!

Han Fei put down his backpack and couldn't help shouting again: "I won't be flexible!"

Yuan Hua chuckled, "Teacher..."

"Stupid!"

"teacher--"

"Keep making noise!"

Yuan Hua's voice stopped abruptly, he covered his face and looked at himself in the mirror, he couldn't stop laughing.This image is really terrible, the face is gray, the dark circles under the eyes are as heavy as a panda, and the hair has no shape. He is the ugliest in his life.

But he was very happy, very happy in his heart.

Although Han Fei looked the same as before and treated him indifferently, the relationship between them was different from before.After a quarrel, no, he quarreled with Han Fei unilaterally, and had a cold war all night... This is also not right, after Han Fei unilaterally quarreled with him, although they had a quarrel without thinking, but They have come a long way.

He stopped asking.

Don't ask why Han Fei knows which page he read in his book, don't ask why Han Fei ignores him and doesn't open the door, but spread out the book and set the desk, don't ask why he is so hard-hearted since he is preparing for his return , stayed up all night, but avoided seeing him, didn't ask him where he was going with his bag early in the morning, what plans he had, and didn't ask Han Fei if he wasn't at the door, would he talk to him like that...

He didn't ask anything, and he didn't have to ask anything.

Because, he ignored him, he ignored him again, and allowed him to come in.

Han Fei didn't go out anymore.

The two were the same as the previous few days, one was reading a book, the other was painting, each immersed in their own world, as if the quarrel had never happened.

Yuan Hua didn't sleep all night, but now he felt relieved again, read a book, relaxed after a while, crawled on the table, and snored.

Han Fei looked up, thought for a moment, took off the drawing paper on the easel, gently rolled it up, and put it in the painting tube beside him. It was empty at first, but after a few days, it was sparsely scattered. several volumes.

He spread out another piece of blank drawing paper, spread it on the drawing board again, held a paintbrush, looked up at the sleeping person from time to time, and daubed on the drawing paper.

Unknowingly time slipped away, the alarm clock rang suddenly, Yuan Hua kicked his legs, Han Fei hurriedly turned off the phone alarm clock, hurriedly took off the drawing paper, carefully rolled it up, and hid it in the painting tube.

Yuan Hua slept very soundly this time, but his waist was sore and his back hurt. His arms and legs were curled up and his blood was blocked, and his muscles and bones were numb.With a random push, the book on the table fell to the ground, and Yuan Hua woke up.

"Ha..." Yuan Hua stretched his mouth wide open, opened his eyes and found that Han Fei was not painting next to the easel, he was in a hurry!

"teacher!"

"teacher?"

"old--"

"What are you shouting for?" Han Fei laughed, and came out of the bathroom with a towel in his hand, glanced at him and turned back to the bathroom, saying, "I won't throw it away!"

Yuan Hua felt relieved.

After a while, Han Fei tidied up his appearance and changed his clothes. Seeing that Yuan Hua was still in a daze, he pointed at the gray sky outside the window and asked strangely, "It's [-]th today, don't you go home for the reunion dinner?"

"If you don't go back, it's just right for the three of them to get together. I'll make trouble for others."

"..." Han Fei was startled, as if he was himself.

In fact, ever since Han Bin came back from the countryside, every time he went home he felt like an outsider, disturbing the family reunion.But he knew clearly in his heart that this idea was wrong.He is not an outsider, he is also the son of his father and mother, and he is Han Bin's elder brother.

He persuaded: "Then I have to go back. Even if the father is a stepfather, the mother is always close, and the younger brothers and sisters are always innocent."

"What about you?"

"Me? Of course I want to go home." While speaking, Han Fei had already packed his backpack. It was cold, so he added a scarf. The camel color matched his light eyes, just right.He signaled Yuan Hua with his eyes that it was time to go.

"You want to go home?" Yuan Hua hurried out, watched Han Fei lock the door and leave, and asked, "When will you come back? Then what should I do..."

"...I'll just have a meal," Han Fei chuckled, and said, "My brother...he's a bit stubborn and doesn't like to see me..."

"You have a younger brother?"

"Yeah." Han Fei nodded, thinking of Han Bin, Han Fei frowned slightly.He has no ability, can't afford 10 yuan, and he can't send his brother to the school he dreams of.As for which school Han Bin went to in the end, his mother did not say.

Since he started working, he hasn't been home.His connection with the family is that once the monthly salary arrives, he transfers the whole number to his mother, and he only leaves a few hundred dollars for daily expenses, and he doesn't know what to do with the money owed by the family. .

"How old is your brother? What grade is he in?" Yuan Hua said, "I also have a younger brother in my family. He is six years old, and he is very annoying!"

"Heh..." Six or seven-year-old children are indeed more... difficult to like. Han Fei thought of seven or eight-year-old Han Bin, gave Yuan Hua a sympathetic look, and said, "My brother is already 17 years old."

"That's great! I wish the one in my family would be 17 years old and at least be sensible!" Yuan Hua was extremely envious, and after thinking about it, it's no wonder that Han Fei has such a good temper. If he gets angry, he will only lose his temper behind closed doors , It turns out that I let my younger brother get used to it at home!

Yuan Hua said happily, "I'm eighteen! Teacher, how about you?"

"Me? I'm old, I'll be 24 after the new year!"

"?" Yuan Hua had no concept of age, the two chatted all the way, one didn't pay attention, he followed Han Fei to the bus.On New Year's Eve, the bus was very empty, so Han Fei sat down in the last row by the window, leaned on the back of the chair and looked out the window.Yuan Hua sat in the empty seat in front of him, and talked to him sideways, "I celebrate my birthday in November, how about you?"

"March."

"Wouldn't it be soon?" Yuan Hua blurted out.

Chapter 14