walk to the water

"Xiang'er!" Fu Ling was startled, knowing that he couldn't lie to him anymore, suddenly felt an unprecedented panic, holding his hand tightly, as if if he let go, he would disappear without a trace, " you……"

Chu Xiang gently withdrew his hand, and said lightly, "Don't worry, Your Majesty, I will remember what I promised Your Majesty, and nothing will happen." Then he lowered his eyes and didn't say another word.

Fu Ling froze there, unable to do anything for a moment, after thinking about it, he decided to change his dressing first.He got up and called someone to bring the ointment, settled down and carefully cleaned and applied the medicine for Chu Xiang little by little. After changing the medicine, Fu Ling fed him the decoction for oral administration.The cook boiled a good bird's nest and white fungus soup, and Fu Lingling filled a bowl, and still fed Chu Xiang to drink it with his own hands.During the whole process, Chu Xiang has been exceptionally quiet, like the most well-behaved and obedient puppet doll, he can do whatever he asks, but he is not angry at all.

After Fu Ling fed the medicine, he cheered up and said, "Xiang'er, the weather is good today, let's go to the yard to bask in the sun!" He leaned over and picked up Chu Xiang, and went to the small garden outside, which made people feel happy under the plum blossom tree. He put down a recliner, put Chu Xiang on it, covered him with a thin blanket, and sat beside him to accompany him.The bright sun shines down, and it feels warm and comfortable. There are only dots of residual snow left in the garden, and the plum blossoms against the trees are red as fire and white as snow.Chu Xiang looked at the weeping willows by the pool in the rockery, the buds had just sprouted, and they were already a little green, and suddenly said: "The days go by so fast, spring is here again."

Fu Ling said with a smile; "Xiang'er get well soon, I will accompany you on an outing."

"Traveling?" Chu Xiang also smiled, "The small building listens to the spring rain all night, and the deep alley sells apricot flowers in the Ming Dynasty. This year, Your Majesty can fully enjoy the spring scenery in the south of the Yangtze River." Looking at the blue sky, he said leisurely. "I remember when I was a child, there was a hill near Jiangning called Phoenix Mountain. From January to February and March, many children in the city and the countryside liked to go there to fly kites. The sky was full of colorful kites. The ground was full of colorful flowers. It's so lively...Speaking of it, Phoenix Mountain is a barrier to the west of Jiangning, and it is also the place of choice for the garrison. His Majesty's army should choose to garrison there!" After speaking, Chu Xiang's voice gradually lowered, Withdrawing his gaze, he landed on the plum trees in the garden. The old plum trees with gnarled branches seemed to turn into a large crowd of angry people, cursing and shouting "Chu Xiang, you traitor!" "Traitor!" "Shameless!" "Damn!"... The angry shouts became more and more intense, the crowd was surging, and the waving arms seemed to tear himself into thousands of pieces... Chu Xiang shook his head.But he couldn't get rid of the overlapping phantoms, so he couldn't help but put his hands on his forehead and let out a low moan.He said in a hoarse voice: "They, they are right. Even if they cut me into pieces, I still deserve to die..."

"Xiang'er, what are you talking about?" Fu Ling noticed something strange.asked sideways.

"Your Majesty, it's nothing." Chu Xiang raised his head, smiled weakly at Fu Ling, and replied apologetically, "It's just that the sun makes me a little dizzy...Your Majesty, I'd better go back to the house first!"

Fu Ling stroked his pale fingers, and said: "Staying sleepy in the house all day long and lying on the bed is not good for your recovery. You should get some fresh air outside."

Chu Xiang didn't insist any more, and replied: "Yes, Your Majesty is taking care." Lying quietly halfway, the sun shone obliquely on his face, but it made his face paler and his eyes bigger and darker.

Fu Ling sat with Chu Xiang in the garden for more than half an hour, and then someone came to deliver the battle report memorial. Fu Ling carried Chu Xiang into the house, settled down, and then went.When it was time to light the lamp but came back, Chu Xiang was still sitting quietly leaning against the head of the bed, as if he hadn't moved for several hours, his eyes were out of focus.Fu Ling approached and called softly: "Xiang'er!"

Chu Xiang raised his head blankly: "Your Majesty?"

Fu Ling asked softly: "Are you hungry? Want to eat something?"

Chu Xiang shook his head: "I'm not hungry."

Fu Ling said: "If you are not hungry, go to bed early, I will be here with you tonight."

Fu Ling then went to take a bath and change clothes, and when he came out, he watched Chu Xiang and drank another dose of medicine, went to bed and gently took him into his arms, and blew out the candles. In the darkness, both of them were silent.After a long time, Fu Ling noticed that Chu Xiang's shoulders were shaking slightly, and said in a low voice: "Xiang'er, there is no one else now, so if you want to cry, just cry! If you cry, you will feel better."

Chu Xiang turned his back to Fu Ling and faced the dark wall, he gave a vague "hmm" and then fell silent.

The whole night, Chu Xiang lay there motionless, and Fu Ling knew that he hadn't fallen asleep for a moment, but he could only watch over him awake.Chu Xiang's thin body was as light as a feather in his arms, but Fu Ling clearly felt that there was a weight of tens of thousands of catties weighing down on him. His frail body bears it alone.The pressure had buried him alive, suffocated him, and tore his heart apart.I once wanted to help him share the burden, but things backfired, and I pushed him down a bottomless cliff... Obviously he was close at hand, and I could pull him out of the sea of ​​suffering with a stretch of hand, but I couldn't touch him no matter what. There was an invisible barrier that coldly and completely separated the two of them, and he could only watch helplessly as he sank deeper and deeper into despair, without even a trace of struggle... At dawn, Fu Ling turned Chu Xiang over, Facing him, her tone was extremely firm: "I know your current mood may not get better for a while, but I never believe in fate. Whether you want it or not, I will grant you a brand new life."

The next day, Fu Ling simply moved the place of discussion to Chu Xiang's side.Anyway, Chu Xiang knew about the start of the war, so he didn't need to deliberately avoid it.Fu Ling met officials outside, and when he was alone, he sat on Chu Xiang's bedside to review official documents. Every day, he personally changed Chu Xiang's medicine and fed him, and at night he hugged him all night when he slept.

Chu Xiang is very obedient and obedient. He obeys what he is asked to eat and do. When asked him something, he will answer it. When he does not ask him, he will lie down or sit quietly without saying a word.Although Fu Ling was always by his side, if he didn't see those big and dark eyes that were always open, he could hardly feel his presence.Fu Ling asked Imperial Physician Su to make a special calming and calming pill. After taking it, Chu Xiang could fall asleep at night, but the slightest noise would wake him up, and he would stay motionless until dawn with his eyes open.He ate a lot of various precious medicines and supplements collected from all directions, but Chu Xiang's body became thinner day by day.Fu Ling asked the doctor Su, who only said that because of the loss of vitality, he was depressed and needed long-term support, and he couldn't come in a hurry.