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After getting out of the car, the first thing you see is a deep blue sea.

The sea in Haicheng is no different from that in China, it is also so wide and so endless, but it is not as blue and deep as imagined.

If there was one difference, it would be the intensity of the waves.

Because of the strong wind in Haicheng, the waves fluttered extra high, hit the sand wetly, and then gradually became thinner, turning into foam and retreating back into the sea.

The tip of the nose has a faint smell of the sea, but it doesn't make people feel uncomfortable, everything is just right.

Lin Wen took off his shoes and stepped on the ground with bare feet. The gravel was very fine and soft, so he didn't feel any pain under his feet.

It is autumn now, the off-season for tourism, and the sea water is also very cold, which is not suitable for swimming, so there are not many tourists around, and the beach is very clean.

Lin Wen walked along the edge of the sea for a short distance, and then found a place to sit down.

Facing the sea, listening to the sound of the waves and feeling the sea breeze.

It is said that one will feel lonely looking at the sea alone, but Lin Wen thinks it is actually okay, not as bad as imagined.

She is just a little homesick, misses fruit, wants to eat chicken sandwiches, thinks about many, many people, and many, many things...

At this moment, the sea water suddenly surged up again, spreading to the feet.

The coolness instantly eroded from the soles of the feet upwards, which made Lin Wen shiver uncontrollably.

Only then did she realize that the postcards and roses she had just placed beside her were swept away by the sea at some point.

The next second she realized, Lin Wen stood up, subconsciously took a few steps forward, but then stopped again.

It's useless, the postcards and roses can't be retrieved... They've gone with the waves long ago...

Even if it is recovered, the handwriting on the postcard may have already become blurred, and the roses should have withered.

Returning to the position just now and sitting down, Lin Wen stared blankly at Hai, his eyes unfocused.

It's just that she felt that against the azure blue background, she seemed to be able to see a little red of roses and a little white of postcards...

It's an illusion, but it doesn't seem to be.

Lin Wen lowered his head, unable to see clearly what he was thinking.

She didn't know how long she had been silent, but when she came back to her senses again, she realized that in her mind, the postcards and roses had been replaced by another thought at some point.

If, if it ends here... is it the best choice?

no one will stop,

no one will be sad,

Even, no one will suffer.

Unable to figure out what he was thinking, Lin Wen swallowed, and slowly got up from the ground.

Or, try?

As soon as this idea came up, it took root in my mind.

The legs stretched out in such a disobedient manner, step by step, towards the edge of the sea.

The sea water spreads up from the soles of the feet little by little, slowly across the calves, and then covers the knees...

From time to time, Lin Wen was staggered by the incoming waves, but even if she stopped, she would continue to move forward.

Slow but firm enough...

Seeing that he could no longer stand still and was about to stagger and fall down again, he was suddenly pulled by someone forcefully.

As soon as Lin Wen raised his head, he met a pair of blood-red eyes.

The fear in there is so strong that it makes one's heart shudder...

……

海滩

Shen Guo: "Just now... what were you doing?"

Lin Wen sat blankly, with her head lowered, and Wen Yan only smiled softly, with a careless laziness, as if everything that happened just now was just a dream to her:

"There are only three things, there will be no next time"

Lin Wen already felt a little annoyed.

Because every attempt has exhausted all her courage, and if it continues like this, maybe everything really won't end...

But such a short sentence caused Shen Guo to collapse in an instant, she rushed forward and grabbed Lin Wen, and she lost her composure like never before:

"Why does it have to be like this?"

"Isn't it good to live!"

"Because I should have done this a long time ago! This bad life was exchanged for the lives of two people! Do you know that!"

Seeing the reddened eyes of the person in front of him and the despair all over his body, for some reason, all of Lin Wen's dark emotions were aroused in an instant.

Why, why does she have to live?

"I know", Shen Guo's voice softened again, she looked at Lin Wen, her lips couldn't help trembling, but she still restrained her words: "I know"

"I'm just begging you, can you give yourself a chance to start over, give me a chance to make up..."

"Everything owed can be repaid slowly..."

The voice became more and more choked, more and more humble, and more and more incoherent.

But Lin Wen pushed Shen Guo away as if she couldn't take it anymore, she shook her head weakly: "You don't know..."

"We can't pay it back, we can't pay it back..."

This time, she didn't give any chance to persuade her to stay, and left in big strides.

Some things, you can start all over again if you don't want to start all over again.

She is guilty, and there is no forgiveness...

……

Lin Wen just walked on the street with his bare feet and half of his body wet. People around him looked at him with weird eyes from time to time, and whispered.

But Lin Wen couldn't care about it at all.

She thought that if she left the country and left that land, she would be fine...

But unexpectedly, all the joy during the day turned into a burden at night, and it continued to rebound doubled. The guilt and longing day and night had weighed on her so much that she could hardly breathe.

"Mom, why doesn't that sister wear shoes?" A little girl on the side of the road pointed at her and asked.

The little girl's mother touched her head tenderly and said, "Because my sister hasn't grown up yet, just like you will never grow up with your mother."

Suddenly, tears began to burst, like rain.

……

on the beach

Shen Guo sat paralyzed, sand covered half of her body, she looked in a panic, her eyes were numb and empty.

Everything that just happened was caught off guard, but extra impressive.

I don't know how long it took before she propped herself up, and then took out her mobile phone and made a call:

"Sinking?", Guo Guo's voice sounded from the other end of the phone.

Shen Guo: "I want to ask you, before Lin asked... how was it?"

As soon as the voice fell, there was endless silence on the phone. After a long time, he finally spoke softly:

"Ever heard of mect?"

Shen Guo pursed his lips: "I heard, it's... electroshock therapy"

"Can you persuade her to..."

She closed her eyes, and her heart froze, but the thoughts in her heart were interrupted by the results before she could say them out.

"Can't!"

"Lin asked that it took more than 20 times to get results, so how much will it be this time?

"Thirty times? Or forty times?"

"Sinking...she can't bear it..."

The tip of his tongue was bitten off unconsciously, and the smell of blood in his mouth was extremely strong, and Shen Guo even felt that what he was swallowing every second was not saliva, but blood.

"Okay, I see." The hoarse voice sounded after a while, revealing endless sadness.

After hanging up the phone, he sank his whole body and fell down powerlessly, but the hand holding the fuselage became more and more forceful, turning pale.

What should I do? What should I do?

She really, can't help it...

……

the other side

As a result, after hanging up the phone, he couldn't help covering his mouth, desperately trying not to let his sobs leak out.

Although Shen Guo didn't say anything, she could feel that Lin Wen's condition hadn't improved at all, and even...was worse.

Otherwise, she wouldn't make this call...

Now everyone has run out of ammunition and food, but there is still nothing to do...

As a result, she regretted it, regretted not letting Lin Wen stay by her side, because at least in that case, she would still have concerns, scruples, and reservations when the choice was over.

But now...

Mu Mu looked at the tearful man in front of her, feeling like a knife was cutting her heart, she couldn't help but walk over gently and hug Guoguo from behind:

"Cry if you want to cry, I'm still here"

This is a dead end, no one can lead Lin Wen out...

……

Hotels

There was no one in the room, only the sound of water dripping on the floor in the bathroom, which was scattered.

Lin Wen felt that his heart was like a piece of dirty rag, wrinkled and twisted together, and he couldn't tear it apart no matter how hard he pulled it.

The warm water hit the body, finally bringing a moment of warmth, making people nostalgic but at the same time more dissatisfied, wanting to absorb more desperately.

Lin Wen felt that he was really contradictory, and his body and mind could not be unified at all.

For example, the more you want to escape, the deeper you will be trapped, and the less you want to bear the pain, the more painful it will be, but there is no cure.

She even felt that the whole world was hopeless?

……

I don't know how long it took, but the sound of water finally stopped.

When Lin Wen came out of the bathroom, the wet clothes had been changed, but his hair was still dripping with water.

That's when the door was knocked.

"Hi ma'am, ginger tea," the waiter holds a plate and smiles.

Lin Wen frowned: "I didn't order ginger tea..."

But before she finished speaking, she realized something again. She looked at the door of the next room, curled her fingers slightly, but finally took it:

"Thank you"

"You're welcome, please enjoy it slowly," the waiter bowed.

The door was closed again, but Lin Wen didn't move. She leaned against the door quietly, as if she was waiting for something.

His eyes fell without focus, and landed on the hot tea in his hand, and then his pupils became darker.

After an unknown amount of time, there was a faint sound from the door of the next room, Lin Wen opened a crack in the door,

Sure enough, everything was as she expected.

The corners of the lips raised slightly, with a sarcastic arc,

Tell me, what is this...

"Click", with the sound of closing the door next door, something was closed in the dark.

After standing there in silence for an indeterminate amount of time, Lin Wen finally had some reaction.

She stretched out her arm, holding the hand on the edge of the cup, and let go without warning.

The cup fell to the ground with a crisp sound, and then, it fell apart...

She's really, really bored...

……

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-07-1922:39:58~2021-07-2021:10:26期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: 537104711;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!