your voice is delicious

10 years ago, in Z City Development Zone, at one o'clock in the morning on July 7.

Mu Linshen, 14, was waiting for his father at home.

During the day, the two fathers and sons quarreled again over trivial matters.

Until now, Mu Cen has not returned home.

He was inexplicably flustered, his father wasn't in the cabin, where would he be going so late?

At night, he even went to Jiang Yunjiao's house, but he didn't see Mu Cen.

His father, although an old drunkard without a key, never stayed out at night.

Even if there are a few times, they are painting in the log cabin without sleeping and eating.

No one can be found like today.

"Forget it, what can happen to such a big man." Mu Lin lay down with his clothes on, but he didn't feel sleepy at all.

It wasn't until after five o'clock in the morning that someone broke into the door suddenly.

"Lin Shen! Hurry up! Hurry up!" The grandfather of the village chief looked terrified.

Mu Lin got up deeply, and asked with a puzzled face: "What's wrong? This early in the morning..."

"Come with me! Your father fell into the river last night and drowned!"

bang.

a bolt from the blue.

The result of the autopsy was that he fell into a river and drowned due to excessive drinking.

Mu Lin deeply saw the bloodless Mu Cen lying on the ground, his face was covered with a white cloth.

Even though it was a summer day when the sun was shining brightly and the cicadas were singing and the birds were flying, he felt cold all over his body.

"Lin Shen." The grandfather of the village chief patted him on the shoulder and sighed: "We will help you with the funeral."

"No need." Mu Lin clenched his fists deeply, "Cremate directly."

"Let me take his ashes."

He didn't know how he spent that day.

Like a walking corpse, he followed the adults in the village to cremate Mu Cen's body.

No funeral, no tears, his father was reduced to ashes in clusters of flames.

In the evening, Mu Linshen returned home with the urn in his arms, feeling extremely tired.

In the future, no one in the family will quarrel with him again.

It was a long night, and a 14-year-old boy fell into endless darkness holding an urn.

The next day, he was woken up by a woman's cry.

After so many years, Jiang Yunjiao finally got her wish and stepped into Mu Cen's house.

But never had the chance to see that man again.

Mu Lin opened his eyes tiredly. The woman in front of him was crying ugly. He put the urn on the table and said lightly: "Don't cry, he... doesn't want you to be sad."

Jiang Yunjiao, who was in extreme grief at this moment, didn't realize that there was something in Mu Linshen's words.

The sound of wailing kicked off a new day.

The sun outside is slowly rising, and if there is no one in this world, the earth will continue to rotate as before.

Year after year, day after day.

Mu Linshen suddenly wanted to see Tang Tang.

Regardless of the woman behind him, he went out in a daze.

Walk towards Tang Tang's grandpa and grandma's house.

He has been on this road for 7 years.

Toffee graduated from primary school this year, and is about to start junior high school, so she can share the same school with him again.

Mu Lin hooked the corner of his mouth deeply, not wanting to make himself too ugly in front of Tang Tang.

He hasn't figured out how to tell Toffee about Mu Cen's death, if the little guy knows...

I must have cried for a long time.

However, Mu Linshen did not have the opportunity to tell Tang Tang that his father was dead.

He stood in the empty courtyard with a look of futility.

After a long time, Mu Linshen turned and left numbly.

He unknowingly walked back to the cabin, and found that several villagers were discussing something around the cabin.

Mu Lin clenched his fist deeply and stepped forward.

"What are you going to do?"

When the villagers saw Mu Linshen, their expressions became very strange.

One of them stepped forward and said, "Lin Shen, the village chief asked us to dismantle this weird thing. Anyway, no one will...cough cough, but there seems to be... relics in it? Why don't you clean it up before we start work?"

"..."

Mu Lin couldn't understand how much these people didn't want to see Mu Cen.

As soon as the person left, he couldn't wait to dismantle the deceased's things.

He felt chilled.

Indeed, these people wish they could leave the village as soon as possible.

Mullin loosened his fist deeply and said, "Give me one day."

"Come again tomorrow."

After the villagers left, the boy pushed open the door of the cabin.

On the easel in the center of the wooden house, there is an unfinished watercolor painting.

His hand touched the watercolor portrait lightly, and finally wept.

"dad."

On the unfinished picture scroll is Mu Linshen's smiling face.

Mu Cen passed away, Tang Tang left without saying goodbye, and even Jiang Yunjiao, after staying with Mu Linshen for more than a month, quietly left Z City Development Zone.

When the third grade of junior high school started, Mu Linshen went to school in a daze.

The group of grown-ups who had spoken ill of Mu Cen before his death seemed to have changed overnight, and came to visit him every now and then.

Their eyes were full of hypocritical sympathy and regret, which made Mu Lin feel disgusted.

The village head told him that at the very least, he should get a junior high school diploma, so that it would be better for him to go out to work in the future.

go out for work?Mu Linshen never thought about it.

If he left here, where else could he go?If he left here, he would have no home at all.

While his classmates were studying hard and wanted to go to the city to study in high school, Mu Linshen lost his direction in life.

He stayed in school obediently, just to kill this boring time.

The students around him looked at him strangely, and Mu Linshen also felt that it was neither painful nor itchy, and it didn't matter at all.

He is like a walking dead, and when he occasionally feels his heart beating violently, he is running on the playground.

At some point, he fell in love with the feeling of running.

There is no need to think about anything, as long as he runs to his heart's content, he will feel refreshed all over.

Mu Linshen started to cut classes and wasted most of his time on the playground.

He ran in sunny days, in rainy days, against the scorching sun, and in the cold wind, just wanting to run endlessly.

Once, a physical education teacher at the school found the running boy on the playground.

Ask him: "Do you want to practice track and field, and then run as hard as you can to get out of this terrible place?"

Mu Linshen has forgotten how he answered the physical education teacher at that time, but when the other party told him that after becoming a track and field athlete, he would become famous and could go to a bigger stage, he was moved.

If there is anything in this world worthy of his attention, it is Tang Tang's leaving without saying goodbye.

Mu Lin deeply wanted to grab that little guy himself and ask him why he left him without saying a word.

Before that, he had to become more famous, leave the development zone of City Z, and run hard to City B, only then would he have a slim chance of meeting Tang Tang.

Although the future was uncertain, for Mu Linshen at that time, this was a running goal.

"After that, I ran and ran... more and more famous..." Mu Lin sat slumped on the ground, his eyes were red, no one knew about the painful time in the third year of junior high school, he ran out desperately.

It seems that as long as he slows down a step, he will never be able to leave there for the rest of his life.

"Then..." As if remembering something, Mu Linshen took another sip of his wine.

"Then suddenly one day, I don't want to run anymore."

"I saw your parents on TV, how glorious they are, and how much they love you..."

"At that time, I suddenly realized why you left without saying goodbye."

"Brother..." Tang Tang shook his head, grabbed Mu Linshen's arm, and wanted him to look at him.

He wanted to tell him that his brother had misunderstood him, and he didn't leave without saying goodbye.

He left a note, and he also wrote the cell phone numbers of his parents, grandparents, and grandparents. Over the years...he has been expecting his brother to contact him.

"Toffee." Mu Linshen stretched out his skin-stained and mud-covered hand to caress Tang Tang's pale face.

"No matter what, I can't run into your world. Because I was wrong from the beginning. I thought you were also a child that your parents didn't want. I sympathized with you and at the same time felt secretly happy, thinking that we are the same kind of people... "

"But from the beginning to the end, it was my own self-righteousness."

Tang Tang let Mu Lin caress his face deeply, his brother's palms were very rough, and his skin hurt.

Suddenly, he didn't want to defend himself too much.

Regardless of the reason, my brother did not see the note he left at the beginning.

Then in Mulin Shenna, he just left without saying goodbye.

No matter how many reasons are given, it will not help.

Mu Lin looked deeply at Tang Tang's originally fair face, which was covered with white and gray patches by his dirty hands, and suddenly smiled happily.

He increased the strength in his hands, and Tang Tang's painful little face flushed.

"You, you were born as someone else's baby, which is different from mine."

Mu Lin let go of Tang Tang and continued to drink.

The more he drank, the more he felt sober, and everything in the past was vividly remembered.

"My mum ran away with another man on my 5th birthday."

Tang Tang was stunned when Mu Linshen suddenly mentioned this topic.

This is the first time my brother mentioned his mother in so many years.

"Probably because Dad is too useless to keep her." Mu Lin smiled deeply, and continued: "When that guy Mu Cen knew that his wife had run away with other men, instead of chasing her, he Bought me a cake and said he wanted to celebrate my birthday."

"I was..." As if thinking of something, Mu Linshen drank a few more sips of wine, and then continued after looking at ease: "I smashed that cake on his face. I think he is so useless, even his wife I can't keep it."

"Since my mother left, I have been a child without a mother in the village, and my father is a worthless wretch who can do nothing but paint."

"When I was bullied, he never took it out on me like other people's fathers."

"I hated him more and more. I took all the anger I got at school on him. I quarreled with him every day, saying he wasn't a man."

"Every time I see him drinking heavily, I always say something extra, let him drink himself to death, it's useless to live in this world anyway..."

"Hehe." Mu Lin raised his head deeply, the blue sky and white clouds were looming, and the sunlight shining through the shade of the trees did not make people feel warm.

"Father...he should have been cursed to death by me."

"I've been blaming him and blaming him all this time, so...he didn't know until he died, but I actually love him very much."

"After all, Mu Cen is my only father no matter what."

--------------------

The author has something to say:

It will start to be sweet from the next chapter, the misunderstanding will gradually be resolved, and they will get better and better.

By the way, there is some sweet content after the update together in my extra column collection, which is about the Leonid meteor shower last night.

Come and enjoy the sweet love!Although I woke up early in the morning and didn't see anything, Brother Shen and Toffee watched it for me hehe.

It's a collection outside the column, go check it out!