After getting on with the enemy

In the evening, the sun was weakly reflected in the sky, and the strong and stimulating light fell everywhere, dyeing the surface of the small villa with a layer of warm color.The brilliant afterglow was intercepted by the eaves, forming a piece of golden yellow on the wall, and then shot into the transparent window glass and then fell into the corridor, turning into a few slanting beams on the ground.

The temperature in midsummer is high, and the sun will be a little hot after a while when the sun shines on it, like being grilled on a rack.

Qiao Yan sat on the steps with her arms around her bag, regardless of whether the ground was clean or not, she didn't go anywhere, and waited silently around the corner.

She had no intention of eavesdropping on someone's private conversation, and originally planned to stay in the upstairs room for a while before going down, but she was worried when she got here, fearing that the interview would not go well and she would collapse, so she stopped going up because of worry, and quietly Touch it to stay, in case there will be an accident underneath, and it will be convenient to stop it in time.

The conversation on the first floor was not loud. Both the mother and daughter were in a relatively calm mood, and their tone of voice fluctuated steadily. They never broke down suddenly or raised their voices suddenly to confront each other.

The whole process was decent and gentle, there were no quarrels as expected, no major conflicts, not even a word of scolding from Zhou Huiwen.Sometimes the voices of the two of them are relatively low, not low enough to reach this side, intermittent, not very clear.

The meeting this time was like a business discussion, without the warmth and affection that should have been there, and the whole process was cold, like an announcement between two strangers: both parties are mentally prepared, and everything is shared To be blunt, straight to the point, not reserved at all.

Ask each other, get an answer from the other, and then it's gone.

Zhou Huiwen didn't get angry, she seemed to have expected that Zhou Xiyun would be this choice. After hearing Zhou Xiyun's words, the expression on her face almost didn't change, and her eyes remained the same.

Just never angry, not touched, not surprised at all.

It was as if he was being judged, and he already knew the consequences, so after hearing Zhou Xiyun's answer, he would not be agitated and angry. On the contrary, he was very calm and calm, without any disturbance in his heart.

Zhou Huiwen didn't touch that cup of tea from the beginning to the end, and she didn't cry like other parents when their daughter came out.Aunt Zhou raised her eyelids again and looked at the decorations on the TV cabinet—the ceramic ornament Zhou Xiyun gave Qiao Yan in flowery pants and pigtails. Qiao Yan brought it here last time.

She no longer cared about her daughter's next Huairou words, Zhou Huiwen was slightly lost in thought, her mind drifted away, and she didn't know what she was thinking.

After a long time, Zhou Huiwen suddenly asked: "Must it be like this, so we can't change it?" Zhou Xiyun replied seriously: "No."

"Not for the sake of my own mother?" Zhou Huiwen withdrew her gaze and turned to look to the side, "I have raised you for 26 or seven years, and I have never asked you to return anything in return. Is it okay to ask for this?"

Zhou Xiyun remained silent, not looking at him, just lowered his eyes to look at the tea cup, and said softly: "I'm sorry."

Zhou Huiwen said: "I taught you that apologies are the most useless." Zhou Xiyun continued: "Yes."

"If you really feel sorry for me, then you should make a change, not the current situation." "It can't be changed."

"There is nothing that can't be changed. No matter how big a mistake is, you can turn around." Zhou Huiwen said, putting her hands flat on her lap, her tone cold.Zhou Xiyun: "That's different." "It's not different." "This is your personal opinion."

Zhou Huiwen asked: "So it's wrong for me to be a mother?"

"That's not what I meant, don't get me wrong." Zhou Xiyun said, "Mom, there is nothing wrong with you." "Since I am not wrong, then you can change." "We just have different ideas."

Zhou Huiwen said: "You were born by me and brought up by me, how much difference can there be?"

After so many years of careful training, and so much energy and time, Zhou Xiyun was brought out by Zhou Huiwen, and the difference between her and Zhou Huiwen is not too great.

Zhou Huiwen taught Zhou Xitian how to do things and how to be a person, including how to deal with various problems of his own, etc. In these aspects, the styles of the mother and daughter are really carved out of the same mold.Even if they are arguing face to face now, their attitudes and styles are exactly the same, and their reactions are generally similar.

The daughter is a copy of being a mother, and Zhou Xiyun is Zhou Huiwen's successor.The difference between them is actually very small, but at the same time it is also the irreconcilable difference between the two, a contradiction that cannot be resolved at the moment.

Zhou Xiyun twitched her red lips, contemplating for a moment, then narrowed her eyes to look at her mother, and said slowly, "I didn't make a mistake."

Zhou Huiwen insisted on his own opinion, seeing that he refused to bow his head, he replied: "Then it was my fault, or my problem."

"You have your difficulties," Zhou Xiyun said, "It's because I didn't deal with it properly, which made it difficult for you."

Zhou Huiwen said: "I can't accept it."

Zhou Xiyun hummed: "I know."

"You were not like this when you were young. You used to be very obedient." Zhou Huiwen said, her eyes became a little red. "Now that you are older, it is different from the previous years, and I can't care about it anymore."

Zhou Xiyun would not provoke her, and said softly: "You have been bothering all these years, and I failed your expectations." There is still time to change it now, and it is okay to start over again in the future. ""That's too late. "" There is no absolute in everything. "

Zhou Xiyun didn't speak, but took out a piece of paper and handed it over.Zhou Huiwen pushed her away, no need.

"It's my fault," Zhou Xiyun said softly, put the paper aside, and said the same words, "I'm sorry." Zhou Huiwen didn't cry, "You're trying to piss me off." Zhou Xiyun didn't respond.

"You go back tomorrow, back to the compound." Zhou Huiwen said, still not giving up, insisting that her daughter correct it, "I will find a psychiatrist for you in a while, and then you can talk to the doctor and listen to what the doctor has to say. Maybe It’s still too much pressure, and there’s something wrong with self-awareness. It’s not impossible to correct it. That’s why I took you there a few years ago. At that time, everything was corrected, but now…”

"Mom." Zhou Xiyun interrupted, shouting abruptly. He didn't want to listen any more, and he didn't want to say too harsh words. There was really no other way.

Zhou Huiwen still said: "You corrected it before, and it was fine earlier, why not this time?" Zhou Xiyun replied: "This can't be corrected." "The doctor said you were..." "I lied to you at the time." Zhou Huiwen was stunned.

Zhou Xiyun said: "I just made up a lie to lie to you in order not to make you sad, in case you would be sad."

This is a past that outsiders don't understand. Qiao Yan and the others don't know about the continuation of the freshman incident.

After Zhou Xiyun came home, Zhou Huiwen took her daughter to the doctor for a few times of psychological counseling, but at that time it was not to change Zhou Xiyun’s sexual orientation, but Zhou Huiwen always believed that Zhou Xiyun was definitely not gay, thinking about Zhou Xiyun’s way of leaving the family It was too extreme, thinking that her daughter had encountered a bad situation, or caused by adolescent rebellion, so after calming down, he hesitated and found a psychiatrist for help.

At that time, Zhou Xiyun was still very cooperative with the doctor, and after returning home, he promised Zhou Huiwen "it won't happen again", and they really reconciled.

However, both mother and daughter have misunderstood the promise. Zhou Xiyun meant that he would not be so impulsive and willful in the future, and would not leave his mother behind. However, Zhou Huiwen's understanding had another meaning, thinking that it was He admitted his mistake and thought Zhou Xiyun had corrected it.

After so many years, Zhou Xiyun never mentioned this again. During the period, her behavior has been normal, and her friends are nothing special, and all of them are heterosexual. Many of her suitors are also men, so Zhou Huiwen no longer suspects After all, when Zhou Xiyun returned to "normal", he just ignored Zhou Xiyun, and the last blind date happened as a matter of course.

But who would have thought, it turned out not to be like that.

Zhou Xiyun intentionally made his words ambiguous, and his attitude was not clear, and he never showed the slightest bit in front of Zhou Huiwen. It was not until he was able to be independent and unwilling to continue to pretend that he gradually shed his disguise.

As if she had never really understood her biological daughter, Zhou Huiwen's lips trembled and her fingers clenched tightly.It was obvious that there could be no further talks, and the situation could not be salvaged.

Zhou Xiyun said softly: "If you don't want to see me in the future, I will try my best not to go back, so as not to annoy you." "It's been like this all my life." "I can't change it as much as I can, there's no way." "It doesn't matter if you recognize it or not. Acknowledge me, you will always be my mother."

Zhou Huiwen's eyes were even redder, she didn't cry, but she couldn't speak.

"I wish I had listened to your grandfather..." After a long time, Zhou Huiwen held back her emotions and said, a little decisively, "If I knew it would be wrong to raise you, I shouldn't have you in the first place."

Zhou Xiyun paused for a moment and did not defend himself.

Zhou Huiwen said cruelly, "You should let him take you away instead of robbing you, so as not to be so upset now."

This is too much, and it is merciless.Zhou Xiyun didn't say a word, so as not to add fuel to the fire.

Seeing that she still didn't admit her mistake, Zhou Huiwen was very disappointed and got up lonely, "Forget it from now on, I don't have a daughter like you..."

No one can convince anyone, and the problem remains unsolved.

The estrangement is there, and it will not disappear just because of a discussion. After all, the source of the problem has not been solved, and it is useless to talk about it.At this time, all words are sharp swords, one sentence cuts one knife, and one more sentence is one more knife.

Zhou Xiyun couldn't persuade Zhou Huiwen, no matter how gentle his temper was, the result would not be different.Zhou Huiwen felt that she was hopeless, and the more she communicated, the more she couldn't face it directly, and the more she couldn't accept it.

After all, Zhou Huiwen has been dependent on each other for so long, and Zhou Huiwen has long regarded Zhou Xiyun as half of himself. In the current situation, a mother can't be calm and calm, and would rather cut off the relationship than be tolerant and accepting.

To a certain extent, children are the reflection of their parents on the other side. They are daughters raised according to their own methods, but when they grow up, they become the kind of person they least expect. Zhou Huiwen feels betrayed and hurt. hit.

Under the peace, there are still undercurrents and churning, and the situation is difficult.

Zhou Xiyun sat there without moving, not stopping Zhou Huiwen from leaving.

Qiao Yan, who was hiding in the corridor, hesitated for a while, and realized that Zhou Huiwen was about to leave. After thinking about it, he decided to go down.In the living room, she glanced at Zhou Xiyun who was silent on the sofa, and then went after Zhou Huiwen.

Zhou Xiyun needed calmness at this time, not comfort.

Qiao Yan is usually heartless, but now he knows what to do.

There are some things that Zhou Xiyun can't do at this time, and she has to come forward to help - if it were her own, she would also hope that Zhou Xiyun would persuade the elders first.

Zhou Xiyun looked sideways, watching Qiao Yan's back as he was leaving the house.

The situation is chaotic and unstoppable.

Qiao Yan couldn't persuade Zhou Huiwen, and it was useless to catch up.

Zhou Huiwen brought the driver over, and the car was parked outside the community, so Qiao Yan was not needed.

Qiao Yan was clever and insisted on sending it off.

Zhou Huiwen still refused, and went straight to the car.He wasn't in the mood to talk to outsiders, but he didn't show her face either.

Seeing the seriousness of the situation and not wanting to get involved, Qiao Yan had no choice but to call Xu Ziqing quietly when the car was far away, telling Ms. Xu that something was going wrong and the sky was about to fall.

Qiao Yan didn't dare to tell the real reason why the mother and daughter broke up. He vaguely said that Zhou Xiyun and Zhou Huiwen quarreled violently, and told Xu Ziqing to pay attention and help comfort Zhou Huiwen.

I was still afraid of something going wrong, and worried that Zhou Huiwen would be overwhelmed or something.

This kind of situation is not certain, it’s not that I want to curse people too badly, the main reason is that the old man of the Zhou family has passed away a long time ago, Zhou Xiyun has always been Zhou Huiwen’s only family member, and there is no one around Aunt Zhou who is gone. Close relatives... There are some things that I can't guarantee. I'm not afraid of ten thousand, just in case.

Qiao Yan had a guilty conscience, and didn't dare to speak too clearly, nor did she dare to hide it too tightly.

In short, I mentioned it a little bit, and made it clear what kind of state Zhou Huiwen was in before leaving, it was not very good.

Xu Ziqing had just arrived home from get off work and was about to go into the kitchen to work. She was going to have dinner with her grandma later, when she received the call, she was startled, and her reaction was worse than Qiao Yan's.

"Huiwen left? Where did you go?"

Qiao Yan said, "I didn't ask, the driver picked me up anyway."

"You child...why didn't you stop me, why did you let her go, you, really..." Xu Ziqing was very anxious, feeling something bad, "You don't know your aunt Zhou's temper, you are too, angry at her What to do, everyone is not worried. You don’t know how to ask more, Xiyun is ignorant, and you don’t understand, and you are doing nonsense all day long!”

Qiao Yan didn't answer back, and just listened to the training.

This time is no different than before, the degree is different.

Xu Ziqing was very angry on the other end of the phone, but she knew that no matter how hard she tried to teach her, it was useless, so she quickly called Zhou Huiwen from her grandma's mobile phone, trying to test it out, and called Zhou Huiwen back to the compound.

It will be night soon, and it is still very worrying.

The call got through, but Zhou Huiwen didn't answer it.

If it doesn't work once, it won't work the second time. —I couldn’t get through even a few times, and there was no movement over there.

Xu Ziqing was so angry that she hung up Qiao Yan's call after a while, and changed her mobile phone to dial Zhou Huiwen's number.

Qiao Yan didn't let up on the air here, and Ren's mother didn't care if she was left out in the cold, and stood by the side of the road waiting for the result.

- There must be no result after a while, and nothing can be waited.Zhou Huiwen was still angry and ignored it.

But elders are elders, no matter what Xu Ziqing is better than his daughter, he knows how to deal with such a Confucian situation.Xu Nvshi used her grandmother's mobile phone and tone to send a text message to Zhou Huiwen, pretending to invite Zhou Huiwen back for dinner, saying that the soup was stewed at home, and asked if she was free.

Qiao Yan didn't know about it later, Xu Ziqing didn't tell her, and she didn't have the face to ask.

Standing on the side of the street for a few minutes, Qiao Yan waited until the sun disappeared below the horizon before walking back to the small villa.Zhou Xiyun was no longer in the living room at that time, so he went somewhere to calm down.

Qiao Yan knew that it wasn't annoying, so when he went in, he cleaned up the table and sofa, picked up the tea and water in the kitchen, and tried not to make a sense of presence.

In fact, Qiao Yan didn't hear all the conversation between Zhou Xiyun and Aunt Zhou.

It is conceivable who the "he" refers to, so there is no need to ask.There is no one but Zhou Xiyun's own father, it cannot be anyone else.

Father Zhou is the one that the Zhou family can't mention. It has always been like this in these years. Zhou Xiyun never mentioned who his father was when he was young, let alone miss him. Zhou Huiwen also never talked about Zhou's father, as if this person never existed.

Qiao Yan was an idiot who didn't take things seriously when he was young. He once wondered where Zhou's father had gone, and almost asked Zhou Xiyun face to face.

Fortunately, I was reprimanded by Xu Ziqing at that time not to speak indiscriminately, so I didn't ask again.

Xu Ziqing knew some details, but she refused to tell them all. She only said that Zhou's father was not a good guy, but a pervert who did disgusting things to harm the Zhou family.Grandma also said that Dad Zhou was a bad breed, so bad that God couldn't stand it, so he suffered retribution one night many years ago when he was hit by a car on the road and died.

Qiao Yan didn't understand when he was a child, he couldn't tell the truth from the words of the elders, he didn't know if Zhou's father was really dead, let alone what he did, and he still doesn't know.

Regardless of the final consequences of Zhou's father, the evil he did has been left to this day, and it has affected Zhou Xiyun.

Qiao Yan felt powerless, and there were some things that she couldn't empathize with. Although she was the child of a divorced family, she hadn't experienced that situation, and she didn't know how to solve the problem.

The house was clean and empty.

The cheerful atmosphere of the past few days is gone, and there is a feeling of desertedness in the summer. No matter how high the temperature is, it will not be hot anymore, and it will be cool.

Zhou Xiyun appeared ten minutes later and came in from the back garden.After calming down outside for a long time, the state is still stable.

Qiao Yan stepped forward to touch the man's arm.

Zhou Xiyun said softly, "I'm fine."

Consciously not mentioning those things, Qiao Yan acted like nothing happened, and asked instead: "Do you want to go shopping in the mall again tonight?"

Zhou Xiyun said, "Another day."

She nodded uncomfortably, "Alright, you can go tomorrow or the day after tomorrow."

After finishing speaking, the little finger hooked Zhou Xiyun, and scratched the back of the opponent's hand twice consciously or unconsciously.

Zhou Xiyun didn't respond as usual, but he didn't avoid it either.

Qiao Yan grabbed Zhou Xiyun's hand, squeezed it in the palm and rubbed it gently, to comfort her.

The night was doomed to be difficult.

Zhou Xiyun didn't show any emotion on his face, he seemed calm, and didn't seem to be in any great difficulty. At some point, he went into the kitchen under the boiling water to get food for Qiao Yan, but Qiao Yan could clearly feel the strangeness of this man.Zhou Xiyun is often absent-minded, not here.

It's normal, after all, after going through such a big thing, how can it not be affected.

Qiao Yan was in peace, dumped the noodles that Zhou Xiyun hadn't touched a few times into his bowl, took the initiative to clean up the mess, and took care of the rest of the chores without making a sound.When the night was quiet, she stayed up for a long time, groping in the dark a few times, hugged Zhou Xiyun, and gently hugged him into her arms.

Zhou Xiyun was awake, not sleepy.

She patted Zhou Xiyun's back shoulder, leaned close to kiss this man's forehead, hugged and comforted him patiently like when she was a child.

"You have me," Qiao Yan said in a low voice, touching the other side's hair with his face, "Zhou Xiyun, I'm still here..."