Dumb painter giants grudge

"Wen Rang, go out to eat after school?" Song Li sent homework to Wen Rang's table.

Wen Rang took over the homework and answered him lightly: "No."

"Ajie and Akai are going too, why don't you go?" Song Li put his homework on the next table.

Wen Rang still shook his head, "No."

"That's fine." Song Li went to other groups to distribute homework, "Today is Akai's birthday."

"..." Wen Rang sighed, "Go."

At six o'clock in the afternoon, the setting sun pierced through the clouds and shone on their backs. The four of them walked side by side on the road, like a moving landscape.

"Hey, the college entrance examination is two months away." Ajie stretched.

Wen Rang looked down at the road without saying a word.

"What do you want to do in the future." Akai put his arm around Ajie and Song Li in the other. Song Li wanted to hug Wen Rang, but Wen Rang pushed him away.

"Who knows, I'm so confused." Ajla made a long voice.

Song Li smiled and said, "How about going back to inherit the family business?"

"It's not good, I don't want to go home and guard the supermarket." Ajie said awkwardly, "Wen Rang, what do you want to do in the future?"

Wen Rang lowered his eyes, blinked his eyes, and said after a long time: "I don't know, it's all possible."

"Let me tell you, it would be great for you to study medicine or become a lawyer." Akai looked left and right.

"It's pretty good." Akai laughed, "But Wen Rang is so unreasonable, it's best to be a lawyer."

Wen Rang rolled his eyes at them, "boring."

"By the way, Akai, where to eat." Ajie asked.

Akai's second grader hooked his lips and smiled: "When you're an adult, you should play something big."

…………

In a KTV room in a bar.

"It's the loneliest thing if you want to stay but can't..." Ajie let go of his voice and sang heartbreakingly.

Akai covered his ears, with a painful expression on his face: "Help, why has no one told him that he sings so badly!"

Song Li seemed to have drank bitter water, and was a little drunk, and he also slumped on the sofa with a distressed expression on his face.

"..." Wen Rang also felt very noisy.

After finally finishing the song, everyone thought they were relieved, but Ajie picked up the microphone again: "Today, the four of us gathered together to celebrate our dear Akai——Happy Birthday! I'll be the next one—Ajie Dedicate a love song "Can't Say Goodbye" to him!"

Originally, the singing was ugly, but it was even worse when it was in Cantonese.

"If I had known earlier, I might as well let him get drunk." Akai was lying on the sofa dying.

Wen Rang simply played the game console.

"I'm a little drunk, I'll go to the toilet." Song Li shook a little, got up and left the box.

It was much quieter outside, Song Li went to the corridor to smoke a cigarette.

Song Li is a solid three-good student. He didn't smoke at first, but he had a lot of troubles during adolescence, and he secretly learned to smoke without knowing when.

After smoking half of the cigarette, Song Li felt a little more awake, threw away the remaining half of the cigarette, and went to the bathroom.

After leaving the bathroom, on the way back, when passing a corner, he was stunned.

At the entrance at the corner, two people were embracing and kissing.

To be precise, it was two men hugging and kissing.

Song Li's heart was beating so fast that he was about to pop out, he immediately turned around and rushed to the bathroom to wash his face with cold water.

He looked at himself in the mirror, his face was flushed, and he knew why he was like this.

As a teenager, he already knew more or less about homosexuality, but he has always been too stubborn, and he just felt that it was abnormal.

So one day, while playing, Wen Rang was hit by the opponent, and Wen Rang hit him again, and the two fell to the ground together. Wen Rang's head rested on his heart, and then Wen Rang got up, He even laughed.

Then, he tensed up.

Over time, his focus changed.

He even felt sick, and asked himself repeatedly if he liked men, then frantically looked up books and materials about the same sex, and watched two same-sex movies——"Brokeback Mountain" and "Happy Together".

Throughout his sophomore year of high school, he was terrified, afraid of being heard and known.

Then the two of them were supposed to eat and go to get out of class as usual, but he insisted on bringing Ajie and Akai together.

Fortunately, Wen Rang never noticed anything.

Later, in the last year of high school, he accepted his heart, and he was sure that he just liked Wen Rang.

But this year, too many changes, Wen Rang is no longer used to two people, because of Ajie Akai's joining, Wen Rang is more willing to four people, Song Li regrets his evasion at the beginning.

The four always get along very well, Ajie is very humorous, Akai has a high emotional intelligence, Song Li is responsible for cleaning up all kinds of messes, and Wen Rang does things in an orderly manner.

So, Song Li just got along with Wen Rang not too close or far away, and never thought about the day when he would confess.

Song Li slowed down and walked back. The two kissers were no longer there. He breathed a sigh of relief and went back to the private room.

Ajie changed to singing again, and Akai fell asleep lying on the sofa. Wen Rang was still playing the game console. He must not be drunk, and he could still play a game of Tetris for as long as he wanted.

"It's been so long." Wen Rang said to him, keeping his head down and playing his own game.

Song Li swallowed, and sat aside, "Well, there are a lot of people."

"Really." Wen Rang's voice was clear.

"Hmm." Song Li couldn't help looking at the other party.

Wen Rang also drank wine today, but not much, but his cheeks were also flushed, and the colorful atmosphere lights were turned on in the private room, which made Song Li's heart flutter.

When Ajie sang the chorus, his voice raised a lot. Akai probably woke up, frowned, and moved towards Song Li.

The sofa was not long, so Song Li had no choice but to move over to Wen Rang.

Wen Rang didn't know when he switched to a racing game, he was sprinting, his elbow raised excitedly, and hit Song Li's chest who was shifting his position.

"It's okay." Wen Rang glanced at the other party and continued to play the game.

"No, it's okay, Akai, he..." Song Li swallowed again, and secretly looked at the other side's face.

The arms of the two were stuck together from time to time. In the late spring weather, they both wore only a long gown, and there was warmth between their skins.

Song Li secretly rejoiced that the skins of the two offset each other.

"Are you drunk?" Wen Rang said suddenly.

"Ah?" Song Li was a little nervous, "No, not drunk."

Then Wen Rang stopped talking and continued to play his game.

I don't know if it's because of being obsessed with ghosts, or if it's been planned for a long time, Song Li quietly raised his hand and stretched it behind the other person, wanting to embrace him...

"Hey! Why don't you listen!"

At this time, Ajie suddenly stopped singing and shouted at them.

Song Li was so frightened that he withdrew his hand.

"What?" Akai opened his eyes vaguely, sat up, "Are you going back?"

"It's fine, I'm a little tired." Wen Rang put down the game console.

Song Li, who had just reacted from the panic, also quickly echoed: "Well, ah, yes, I'm tired, let's go back."

Ajie put down the microphone in a lack of interest, and the four of them left the bar and went home.

The bus stops of Song Li and Wen Rang's house were in the same direction, and they stood together under the bus sign and waited for their respective buses.

"That, Wen Rang." Song Li looked down at the shoes.

Wen Rang turned to look at him, "What."

"Um, it's nothing." Song Li kicked a small stone away.

"Oh." Wen Rang focused on looking at the car.

Song Li gritted his teeth, "Do you think we are okay now?"

"Why do you ask this?" Wen Rang was a little puzzled, "It's good, I like the four of us."

Song Li felt empty in his heart, "Really, I think so too."

"Yeah." Wen Rang put his hands in his pockets, "My car is here, I'm leaving first."

"OK, bye."

"Goodbye."

After so many years, Song Li still blames himself for not being brave.

Those thousands of times of hesitation and miss, in the private room, at the bus station, and on the phone after the college entrance examination.