inertial death

April 1

I killed my adoptive father today, and now all the things in his hands belong to me. I was so excited, I found a star to play for a while, it seemed a bit overdone, and I threw it in the hospital after it was done.

April 5

I found my parents today, they are living well abroad, I sent someone to kill them, and then buried the body in the place where my adoptive father was buried. It is very strange, when the woman left the country with her father and left me, I was so Sad, now that I have killed them, I don't feel anything, neither sad nor happy, really boring, I always feel that the efforts to find them all these days are a bit wasted!Speaking of which, the vacant land where they bought them is quite large, so we might as well build a playground on it!

April 5

Boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring So boring so boring so boring so boring so boring.

April 6

I saw a man today, he seemed to be called Wu Yuan, those idiots said he was an iceberg, but I knew it at a glance, he was just a walking dead who didn't care about anything!I'm so excited to make him mine immediately!

April 8

He agreed, and he actually agreed!How could he agree!Am I wrong?

Until May Thirty one

I read that right, he brought a small knife and wanted to kill me, I just went hard, his disgusted and speechless look was so fun!

April 3

Wu Yuan picked me up and released me from prison, and said in public that I was his man, very happy!

April 3

The marriage proposal was rejected again, but at any rate, Wu Yuan was abducted into bed. He has very good skills. It must be wrong to guess him from the outside. His experience is definitely not worse than mine. He is very gentle when he does it, but he is not gentle with me. , It's just a habit, I hate his habit, I would rather he only rely on instinct to occupy|possess me.I don't like Wu Yuan's past, so I don't want to ask about it at all, because no matter whether his past is good or bad, there is no me there, and he was not mine at that time.

April 4

Finally got married, Wu Yuan looks so good in a suit, Shu Haoyan's lonely look makes me really happy, but I'm still very unhappy, Shu Haoyan has been with Wu Yuan for four years, thinking about it makes me feel uncomfortable, but although I'm sure I won't let him live happily, but I can't kill him all at once, he has to live well and watch me and Wu Yuan live happily ever after!

April 7

I went on a business trip for the past few days, and when I came back, I checked Wu Yuan's diet, and he treated dessert as a main meal again, and tried to lie to me!I was so angry, I forced him to eat three bowls of rice and drink two bowls of soup. It seemed that he had eaten too much, which made him feel a little uncomfortable. It turned out to be punishing myself.

April 7

Wu Yuan was cut off from sweets by me, and Mung Dou also stood by my side. He has been acting coquettishly to me all day long, as if pushing him immediately, but Wu Yuan is unwilling to suffer, so let's change it to seem like being pushed by him!For Wu Yuan, anything is fine!

April 12

Today is the day when I was abandoned in China by my mother. I didn’t pay much attention to it at first, but I suddenly remembered and mentioned it casually. Wu Yuan actually got up on time, ate dinner obediently, didn’t eat sweets, and took the initiative to go for a walk with me. Tiandu is by my side, it's really strange, I never felt that today was special, and I didn't care about it before, but being accompanied by Wu Yuan so carefully, I suddenly felt so wronged.

April 2

Wu Yuan's physical condition is getting worse and worse, and he often falls asleep suddenly when talking to me. I feel panicked, but I don't dare to show it.

April 3

Wu Yuan's health is getting worse and worse. He has been comforting me for the past few days, as if I was the one whose physical condition deteriorated...but I really would rather it be me...

April 5

Last night, Wu Yuan went, I hugged him and talked for a long time, I tried my best to deceive myself until his body became cold and stiff, in fact, I really wanted to leave the body like this forever, but Wu Yuan would definitely not Glad I saw his body rotting, so I went to prepare for the funeral;

April 5

no!I can't go into the funeral at all, I don't want to go, as long as I don't go, can it still be regarded as Wu Yuan is still alive.

Until May Thirty one

I was wondering if I should just go and accompany Wu Yuan. I am 42, my age is not too old, although I am not old, but I am not young anymore. I didn’t feel it before, but after Wu Yuan left, I suddenly felt old.Can't get enough of anything, I'm thinking about handing over the company to someone else, or maybe I'm just going to kill the company.

April 5

When I went to see Wu Yuan, I saw Shu Haoyan crying in front of the tombstone, and I beat him up uncontrollably.

April 5

I think I'd better not die. Others have always said that Wu Yuan is cold and arrogant, but in fact he is very afraid of being alone and very childish. If I leave too, no one will remember him and no one will come to see him. Then Wu Yuan will I won't be very disappointed, I don't want to.

April 7

After all, it was only about five months since Wu Yuan passed away, why do I feel that a long time has passed?Can I really insist on living forever?But why do I want to live, Wu Yuan is gone, if I am really afraid that he will be lonely, wouldn't it be better for me to go directly to accompany him?

April 8

I want to repeat what I did with Wu Yuan in the past, so today I went to the amusement park where I bought my parents and adoptive father, and went to the haunted house that I went to at that time, but after I snatched the props again, the corpse buckled my eyes At that time, no one would calmly reach out and take it. After leaving the haunted house, I bought ice cream. Now of course no one will take it from my hand and eat it. I lowered my head and licked it. It was so bitter.

Then I went to ride the Ferris wheel, obviously there is not much space, why when I sat alone in it, I felt like I was the only one left in the whole world?

When I got to the top, I was at a loss, I couldn't find the person I wanted to kiss.

I think, repeating what I did with Wu Yuan in the past is such an idiotic thing, I'd better not do it in the future.Because there is no need at all, I remember everything with him very clearly, and now I repeat these alone, but remind myself fiercely that he is no longer by my side.

April 8

When I passed by the cake shop, I went to buy a birthday cake. Today is Wu Yuan's birthday. Wu Yuan likes this day the most, because he can eat the whole cake justifiably, and I won't stop it.I took the cake home, lit the candles, turned off the lights, sat alone in the room and sang the birthday song, and then ate the cake. It tasted very salty. I thought it was strange at first, but then I realized that it was me who was crying.

April 8

Wu Yuan doesn’t shoot MVs very much, and the only TV series he has acted in is Violence 2. I bought all the discs and songs he sang, watched and listened to them over and over again, and my brain is basically in one piece Blank, I don't know what I'm thinking or how I'm feeling.

April 8

I think I understand why Wu Yuan likes to sleep so much, and now I try my best to fall asleep most of the time, and only in my dreams can I see him again, talk to him, and kiss him.

April 8

I took a gun and pointed it at my temple, but I didn’t pull the trigger in the end, because although I tried my best to believe in the existence of the afterlife, I actually didn’t believe it. When a person dies, everything is gone. I don’t feel like I’m dead at all. I can see him in the future, but this idea is too desperate, so I try very hard to believe in the existence of souls, but it is not so easy to deceive myself and others.

April 8

After sitting for a whole night, I finally threw away the gun. I will always die. If there is an afterlife, I should be able to see Wu Yuan by then. If not, I will be much more If you live for a while, you will lose everything when you die, but if you live, even if I can't see him, at least I still remember him. All I have left is memory, and I can't even lose this.

April 9

I am still alive, Wu Yuan, I will remember you, always remember you, and try not to try to kill myself.