flower dust

Chapter 18

Li Ren sits at the table boredly and uses tea to make divination. Although the divination looks good, he is always restless.Yesterday the master called Liu Er alone, saying that he wanted to teach him medical skills, but after Liu Er came back, he stared at him for a long time, feeling guilty, and didn't know what the master said to Liu Er.

Fortunately, Liu'er didn't say anything in the end, and treated him the same as before, maybe he was careless.

Today Xuanying knew that Liu'er was back, so she ran to see him early in the morning, so she naturally avoided him and didn't go out all day.

The days when Xuan Ying was kicked out of the Prince's Mansion were not too long, but it seemed like half a lifetime had passed, everything had become lifeless and hopeless, as if he had come to this Qi Mansion to retire.

But the mood is not so leisurely, I thought it would be numb after a long time, but who knows that it is such a price to pay if I move my heart, the daily heartache will only increase.

Knowing that Xuan Ying is coming today, I really want to see him, just a glance is enough.But Li Ren understood that if he indulged himself to take a look at this, his lovesickness would be even worse, so he could only suppress his impulse desperately.

The tea leaves slowly stretch your body in the hot water, and the fragrant smell spreads into the air, diluting the heat of summer a bit.

Li Ren walked to the window and saw that the outside was covered with clouds, and the surrounding quiet air seemed to be brewing a storm.Seeing the weather like this made people feel even worse, Li Ren sighed and sat back at the table.

Suddenly thunder sounded, making Li Ren even more upset.The door was pushed open suddenly, and Xuan Ying stood there excitedly, "Li Ren, why didn't you explain clearly to me, why do you want me to misunderstand you?"

Li Ren was stunned for a moment, then he came to his senses, Liu Er must have said something to him, but it was useless, even if Xuan Ying could tolerate her, how could she allow herself to enjoy being loved? happiness.

Seeing that Liren didn't speak, Xuanying panicked, "I'm sorry, Liren, I shouldn't have yelled at you like this, it's my fault, it's my fault."

"Don't say anything more. These were originally my faults. Liu'er will definitely excuse me, but the fact that I betrayed him couldn't be more clear." Blood is dripping, but the words are still decisive.

"No, Liu'er has already made it clear to me that it's not your fault, you were just being used by Xiao Yun. If it were me, in the circumstances at that time, there was nothing I could do." Xuan Ying walked towards Liren, thinking She reached out to grab him, but was dodged by Li Ren.

"I don't know how Liu'er explained it to you, and no matter what you think of me now, I just don't want to be with you anymore." Li Ren held back his heartbreak, and deliberately faced Xuan with a cold expression. film.He is a sinner and should not have Xuanying's love.

"Li Ren, are you angry with me? That's right, even I can't forgive myself for what I did." Xuan Ying clenched her fists, thinking of all the past, regretting too much.

"What did you do, did you slap me, or sneer, or kick me out of the prince's mansion after I burned my face?" Li Ren simply followed Xuan Ying's words. Otherwise, he will indulge himself and snuggle into Xuan Ying's arms again, "Whether it's your fault or mine, I beg you, I don't want to be with you anymore, please get out of here."

Li Ren opened the door and looked at Xuan Ying with a firm attitude. The sound of torrential rain came from outside the door, and after just a few words, the heavy rain had already come down.

Xuan Ying looked at Li Ren with a sad expression, "Yes, I have done so many things wrong, and I still dreamed of getting your forgiveness. I'm sorry, you should rest well." After finishing speaking, Xuan Ying quickly ran into the rain.

Liren closed the door, slumped and sat on the ground, he drove Xuan Ying away, he drove away the person he loved the most, after leaving, is there a chance to redeem it, even if there is, will he still Just like today, enduring the heartache and cutting off the love between the two with my own hands again.

But I am a sinner who betrayed the person closest to me, how can such a person stay by Xuan Ying's side, how can he enjoy his favor with peace of mind.

The heartache was severe, as if it was about to shatter, Li Ren staggered out of the cabinet and took out the golden hairpin, and was about to turn around to look for a candle when he heard Liu'er's voice from outside the door.

"Brother Xuanying, why are you standing outside in such heavy rain?"

Liren hurriedly hid the golden hairpin back in the cabinet, and as soon as it was put away, Liu'er walked in with an umbrella, but Xuan Ying did not follow her.

Liu Er put away the umbrella, closed the door again, looked at Li Ren, walked to the bed and sat down, "Li Ren, come here." Liu Er beckoned Li Ren to come over.

Li Ren sat down next to Liu Er, not knowing how he would ask about this matter, a little uneasy.

"Li Ren, you promised me that you will never hide anything from me, right?" Liu Er pulled Li Ren's hand and looked seriously into his eyes.

Li Ren lowered his head, his guilt towards Liu Er could not be regarded as a concealment, but when Liu Er asked like this, he felt a little guilty again.

"I chatted with brother Xuanying for a long time today, and I also talked about your affairs. He didn't know the truth about those incidents before, which caused such a big misunderstanding between you two." Liu Er paused, and then said, "You must know that he has a misunderstanding, why didn't you explain it clearly, or, you also have a knot in your heart that hasn't been solved?"

"Liu'er, I..." Li Ren Nuo Nuo didn't know what to say, "I can't forget the fact that I betrayed you."

"Fool, are you finally willing to say it?" Liu'er sighed, "The master came to me that day, and even though he didn't say anything explicitly, he let me see what was on your mind. I thought it was just you and Brother Xuanying The contradiction between them turned out to be caused by me.”

"No, Xuanying and I just had a problem between us, and it's none of your business." Li Ren hurriedly explained, fearing that Liu'er would take the responsibility on himself.

Liu'er shook her head and said, "If you hadn't always felt guilty towards me, how could you have allowed brother Xuanying to misunderstand without explaining, and even added embellishments to make him think that you were the culprit who caused my injury?"

"I, I was the culprit in the first place. If I hadn't informed you, how could I have caused you to suffer so much." Li Ren bit his lip in discomfort.

"I have always treated you like my own brother. If you really betrayed me, do you think I would forgive you so easily?" Liu Er said angrily, "You were only used by Xiao Yun because of your kindness. It's not betrayal."

"Kindness?" Li Ren looked at Liu'er in surprise, how could he still be associated with such a good word.

"Of course it's kindness. Otherwise, how could you be so grateful for the Xiao family's kindness in nurturing you? In order to repay them, you are even willing to commit yourself to a place like Yanyu Building." Liu'er held Liren's hand distressedly, "Let you Sandwiched between the kindness to the Xiao family and the family affection to me, it is really embarrassing for you. If I want to say that I blame you for this matter, it is that you didn't tell me the matter and let me share some of it for you. .”

"Liu'er..." Seeing Liu'er justifying himself like this, Li Ren's eyes turned red.

"I thought you let go a long time ago. It's my fault. I didn't realize it earlier. What a silly boy. If you really wanted to harm me and betray me, would you still be as sad as you are now?" Liu Er said leaving He hugged him in his arms, "Don't just take the blame on yourself, how can you bear such a burden? As for what happened later, even without you, Xiao Yun would still fight for the throne, and Empress Dowager Xiao would not let me go. These are unavoidable things, and they are not within your control.”

"Really, don't blame me, but I still go to inform you behind your back?" Li Ren looked at Liu'er with tears in his eyes, could he really wash away the accusation of betrayal.

Liu'er gently wiped away his tears, "You are just repaying your favor, and you don't know what impact your words will have. The only thing you did wrong was to keep this matter from me, so you are not allowed to hide it from me in the future." Let’s talk it out, so we can solve it together.”

Liu'er turned the talk of betrayal into concealment, which suddenly made Li Ren's burden much lighter.In fact, he was caught between Liu'er and Xiao Yun at that time, and it was really difficult for him. If he knew that Liu'er would suffer like that, he would rather pay for this life to the Xiao family.

It would have been nice if they had really confessed to Liu'er back then, so that they could be prepared, and Liu'er would not be thrown into prison in the end in a daze.

The more I thought about it, the more I regretted it, and the tears couldn't stop, "I'm sorry Liu Er, I shouldn't have kept it from you, if I told you, the result might be different."

"Maybe it will be different for you, but it won't be the same for me. Even if I know, I will still stay by Father's side, I will still have conflicts with Xiao Yun, and I will still be a thorn in the side of Empress Dowager Xiao. How could it be different. "Liu'er knew that Li Ren must regret it, so she comforted him, "This doom is doomed, and thanks to this, Xiao Yun can see his mind clearly, otherwise, I might still be just a male favorite by his side now .”

Being persuaded by Liu'er, and weeping in his arms for a while, Li Ren's heart became much clearer, and he was no longer depressed, "Liu'er, you are so kind, you are the only one in this world who is really kind to me. .”

"What are you talking about, I will chat with brother Xuanying for so long today, because I know he is sincere to you. Think about it, if he is just playing for a while, why would he care so much?" Liu Er looked at Li Ren's much thinner face, "It's your refusal to speak clearly that makes him afraid to fall in love with you."

"If he really loves me, he should tolerate me." Li Ren said aggrievedly.

"What you said is correct, but brother Xuanying is the one who will inherit the throne after all, and he has always been required to pay attention to morality and fashion. He treats you as a villain, so how can he tolerate himself falling in love with you?" Liu Er enlightened Li Ren said, "Although he doesn't pay attention to you, but from his appearance, he must be feeling bad."

Li Ren lowered his head and thought for a while, then asked Liu Er, "Liu Er, tell me, can someone like me be worthy of Xuan Ying? He is a prince, but I am nothing."

Liu Er smiled slightly, "What do you think, do you think I am worthy of Xiao Yun?"

"Of course you deserve it, I'm different from you..." Li Ren twisted his cuffs with both hands.

"Why is it different? Our origins may be different, but now we have the same identity. We have nothing but a heart." Liu'er raised Li Ren's hand and stroked his beating heart, "Ask you Heart, as long as the love between you is equal, the relationship between you is equal, there is no one who is not worthy of anyone."

Li Ren finally showed a smiling face, although there was still some confusion in his heart, but at least he was no longer as self-pitying as before.

"Have you figured it out? If you figured it out, go and ask brother Xuan Ying to come in. If you don't forgive him, he dare not come in. Although the weather is hot, but with such heavy rain, it is easy to get gonorrhea." Liu Er patted away. Hand, and then stood up, "I went back to my room, you guys have a good talk, remember what I said, what's the matter, you can solve it by speaking out frankly, don't keep everything in your heart."

After talking for so long, Li Cai realized that Xuan Ying was still drenched in the rain outside, so he couldn't help but feel worried, and was afraid that Liu Er would see it as a joke, so he pretended not to care and sent Liu Er away, leaning against the door, the rain was too heavy He was so big that he couldn't see the figure in the distance clearly. He estimated that Liu'er had gone far away, so he walked into the yard with an umbrella.

When he got closer, he saw Xuan Ying standing by the courtyard wall drenched, looking preoccupied, but he didn't realize that Li Ren had already come to his side.

Seeing Li in this way, heartaches, a knot in the heart, tormenting two people.