Standing up to the west wind and geese not returning

When the night is a little later.Ye An knocked on Yan Ci's door.

The room was lit with agarwood.The stove was burning.The aroma is smudged little by little.

Ye An wore a large peacock fur cloak with Xing Zuo falling into the sea.When he entered the door, Yan Ci felt for the first time that his younger brother had really grown up.And it is the dragon and the phoenix that are handsome and extraordinary.

Ye An held a scripture in his hand.With a red and white booklet, he handed it to Yan Ci respectfully and said, "Brother, An'er knew it was wrong. This is the Baohua Sutra handwritten by An'er. I hope it can be enshrined in front of the Buddha. I also hope that Brother, you can give Ye An another chance to accompany your brother."

Yan Ci became a little different from usual.In the past, it didn't matter what mistakes Ye An made.

As long as you act coquettishly to Yan Ci.Yan Ci will not be angry about such a big thing.

But today seems to be a little different.Ye An himself went to copy the scriptures respectfully.

Yan Ci still had a cold face.Although Ye An's expression fluctuated slightly after speaking.But still not as kind and loving as usual.

In Ye An's heart, it was as if a face was pounded by thousands of people.I just feel very nervous.But he couldn't see any looseness in Yan Ci.

Ye An tentatively asked again, "Brother..."

Yan Ci just smiled and took the volume of scriptures.He looked down silently.

Ye An held his breath and dared not make a sound.The slight sound of paper being flipped.It stopped in Yan Ci's ear.Like the shocking autumn thunder in September.

Time seemed to stand still.After a long time.Ye An even thought that Yan Ci had fallen asleep.

Just now I heard Yan Ci say, "If a person has a clear mind, even if he doesn't copy Buddhist scriptures, he is a pure and blessed person. If a person has distracting thoughts in his mind, even if he copies all the Buddhist scriptures from all over the world, it is just a person. A foolish person who has not been enlightened by the Bodhisattva."

After Yan Ci finished speaking, he gently reconciled the scriptures.Carefully and respectfully place them on the table.

Said, "Brother has heard the emperor mention some things. It's just that I don't know what you mean. Ever since you and Shuo Ning came to the house, I thought I was worthy of my conscience and your parents.

Maintain and take care of everything.Everything you and Ye Ning spend on food and clothing.I have taken the best photos for you.Do you say yes or no? "

Yan Ci had never spoken to Ye An like this before.The voice is calm and indifferent, and the calmness reveals endless alienation faintly.

Ye An clenched his fists tightly and called out cautiously, "Brother..."

Yan resigned without raising his head and continued, "I consider myself to be your elder brother. I have done no less than ordinary parents. I will teach you how to read and write, so that one day you will be able to stand out.

It can be used in both civil and military affairs.You can do your part for the people of this world.

But what about you?Ye Ann.What kind of thoughts do you have for your brother?What's on your mind.Don't you want to tell your brother at all? "

Until this moment.Yan Ci raised his head just now.The two looked at each other.Ye An's words flickered, and he couldn't dodge in time.

It seems like a long time has passed.Facing Yan Ci, Ye An slowly knelt down.

But it was already full of tears.Ye An kept sobbing like a child.

It seemed that the miserable life he had experienced in these years had found an outlet at this moment. Ye An bowed his head and knelt at Yan Ci's feet, crying, "Brother, don't be angry with Ye An. An'er knows it's wrong. An'er .An'er doesn't know why. I just don't want my brother to be with others. I was wrong. I know I was wrong. Brother, don't be angry with me. Don't drive me away."

Ye An cried like a child about to be abandoned.Yan Ci couldn't bear it.Still sighed softly, stretched out his hand and patted Ye An's head lightly, and said, "When did it happen? Why do you have such thoughts about your brother?"

Ye An's face was flushed from crying, and he sobbed, "I'm sorry, brother. I'm sorry, brother. An'er doesn't know either. I am also in pain, and I am also very sad. I just don't want you to be with others.

Especially when he treats you badly.How much you pay for him, sincerely.And why did he say that when he chooses the queen, he chooses the queen.What should you do with your heart?You have been wronged, what should I do? "

Ye An cried while talking, Yan Ci raised his sleeve and gently wiped away his tears.Yan Ci said, "But even so. If you have any thoughts in your heart, you should tell your brother as soon as possible. Instead of trying to hurt his life everywhere.

He is the king of a country.It is a god that everyone in the world worships.It is also the country and the people of the world who belong to the country.

If you really want to kill him.What do you want the people of this world to do?What should I do above the court?A country cannot live without a king for a day.Do you want to disregard the safety of the common people in the world because of your own selfishness? "

Ye An crawled on Yan Ci's feet. In his short decades, in his short first half of his life, he was poor and helpless.

All the suffering he had suffered collapsed at this moment, and he was even somewhat happy in his heart.

He finally didn't have to hide anymore.Finally stop pretending.There is also a little excitement after those secret thoughts are spied on.

Of course, there is still a little shy expectation that is difficult to express.No one will be willing in their love, and there will be no relationship from then on.

Ye An shook his head gently, and said, "I haven't. I haven't thought about it that much. I do everything and think about everything, and the starting point is my brother's joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys.

'Your deep affection for him, though it makes me extremely angry.But I still hope that your feelings are well protected.

Hope the one you love loves you as much.I hope your sincerity can be properly collected.And not like me.Tormented by this worldly thought. "

There was water in Yan Ci's eyes. He never thought that the younger brother he always thought was a child already had a mature heart, and this heart was suffering because of him.

Yan Ci patted the top of Ye An's head lightly, as if comforting, but also as if responding.

Yan Ci said, "I have loved reading since I was a child. For so many years, I have studied hard in the cold window, and the taste is that one day I can be in the court and do my best for the people of the world.

But it's up to now.I can only resign from the office and accompany you back to my hometown in Fuzhou.

Let you have such undeserved thoughts about me.It was originally my brother's fault.It's because your elder brother didn't pay attention to you and didn't take good care of your emotions.

That's why you got into this dead end.Delay your life.Worth mentioning.From where to where to go.It's just that for the rest of my life, I'm afraid I will have to rely on you and my brother to sell calligraphy for a living. "

Ye An clenched his fists tightly, although he also wanted to make Yan Ci happy, but when he heard such a plan.

What filled his heart was actually endless joy.He could finally have him.Not his body.

But for the rest of his life.for a long time to come.He can know what time he wakes up every day.

Eat a few bowls of rice a day.Did you sleep well at night?This kind of happiness is like a ray of light, which instantly brightens up a young man's dark and gloomy heart.

Yan Ci glanced at Ye An and asked, "What do you think? If you have no other ideas, then I will go to the palace. Write a letter to the emperor and ask him to let me go."

Ye An lowered his head and pretended to be obedient, and said, "Everything is up to brother."

Yan Ci nodded and said, "That's it, I'm going to write the papers now. You get up first and go back to your room to rest. Also, if you have time later, you can go to Ye Ning and tell her about our plans. Be clear, let her make plans early."

After Yan Ci entered the palace, he knelt in front of the imperial study room in the middle of the night. The booklet he presented was gently placed on Du Zijin's desk by the little eunuch yesterday.

It seemed like a long time had passed, Yan Ci saw the starlight shining down on his shoulders bit by bit, his thin and thin body, in the cold wind, was waiting for a permanent parting.

There was no one around, not even the chirping of insects.The weather started to get colder little by little.

During these years in Beijing, everything he experienced, every bit of their relationship.

It's like a picture scroll.In this silent and lonely night.It kept churning in Yan Ci's mind.

Days of hard work.Yan Ci's health became very bad.Kneeling in front of the imperial study room for a long time, Yan Ci only felt cold sweat running down his back.

at the same time.In the imperial study room, that delicate-faced little eunuch.Standing aside respectfully, waiting for his side, a king of a country, Ninety-Five Supreme, exploded all his emotions.

Since this memorial was sent in by him, the emperor has been silent.But according to him for so many days, he kept observing his words and expressions.He has been able to make a very clear judgment.At this moment, the emperor is in a very bad mood.

After a long time, the little eunuch wanted to go forward and cut off half of the burned and cracked lantern.

Du Zijin suddenly seemed to come back to God.The bright yellow memorial was thrown out by him.

Hit the little eunuch.It hurt him so much.But dare not speak out.Hastily dropped the scissors in his hand.Knelt down facing Du Zijin.

"Where is he?" Du Zijin asked out loud.

"Return...to the emperor's words. The prime minister is waiting outside the door. It has been kneeling for half the night. You have not said anything. Little...you didn't even dare to let him in."

Du Zijin got up suddenly, walked towards the door, said, "Stupid thing!" and disappeared.Only the little eunuch was left alone, gently wiping the sweat from his forehead.

When Du Zijin opened the door and came out.Yan Ci was still kneeling.Seeing that the door was opened, Du Zijin walked over in a bright yellow dragon robe.Yan Ci smiled very reluctantly.

This smile is full of powerlessness.He already felt physically and mentally exhausted.This smile fell into Du Zijin's eyes.It's like cutting out the heart.