quench thirst

That was four years ago, when Xu Yan was 15 years old, his parents died unexpectedly. Xu Yan, who had been struggling in the Xu family, became a wanderer outside the Xu family because he lost the bond of his father.And he didn't seem to think too much about his situation. He went through the funeral process like an adult and sent his parents away without shedding a single tear.

After the parents were buried, the funeral did not end, and countless people came to express their condolences.Xu Yan also just stood in the mourning hall, chatted with the condolence dolls to thank him, doing what a child with a mature mind should do.

Then, the number of mourners gradually decreased. He left the mourning hall, went to the yard, and sat alone.

At that time, he didn't know what Xu Yan was thinking while sitting there, he just remembered that the bench was very cold at that time, which gave him a real sense of whether it was a dream or reality.

When he shuttled between reality and dreams, his mental emotions fluctuated quietly under his cold and thin appearance.At this time, a man came over and sat beside him.

The man was tall and tall, but when he sat down, his black suit brought a burst of warmth from himself, mixed with the faint smell of cigarettes, and the clear sense of smell made Xu Yan's ups and downs grasp some reality again, His heart and body were falling heavily.

So when the man left, he grabbed the corner of his clothes.

He asked him to stay with him again.

He looked at the man standing in front of him, and the man didn't say much after hearing his request.He just looked down at him, Xu Yan didn't know if he was crying at that time, but felt that the corners of his eyes were a little cold.

The man sat down again.

After he sat down, Xu Yan's sinking heart and body seemed to stop falling.Under his feet was the abyss cliff, which was completely dark. His fingers grabbed the corner of the man's clothes to prevent him from falling into the abyss cliff.

It took Xu Yan almost a quarter of an hour to stabilize his emotions.It also took a quarter of an hour to inform him of the fact that his parents had passed away.

People cannot live in the past, they have to live forward with time.

After Xu's family called his name, Xu Yan loosened the corner of the man's clothes. He didn't even say thank you, and separated from him.

We will meet again on the terrace of Suo Yu's villa.

Because of the death of his parents, Xu Yan grafted his emotions onto Lin Xun.After being grafted to Lin Xun, he continued to accumulate and catalyze, and finally he developed a liking for Lin Xun.And Lin Xun hated the liking between men.Xu Yan is obsessed with the love given to him by Lin Xun and Lin Xun's family, and hides this love deeply.

Hidden feelings don't mean they're gone.On the contrary, it was more full-bodied, distorted, and sensitive, and even one or two inadvertent words from Lin Xun would stab his heart like a knife.

He has been self-medicating and self-disguised.But this time on the balcony, Suo Yu in the dark saw through his disguise and even helped him recuperate.

Compared with Suo Yu's kindness, Xu Yan was more afraid that Suo Yu would see through his disguise.He is Lin Xun's uncle, he was worried that Suo Yu would tell Lin Xun about this, so he left silently.He thought that silence meant denial, but he didn't expect Suo Yu to reveal the matter, leaving him nowhere to hide, but at the same time he was willing to help him hide it.

At this time, Xu Yan was grateful to Suo Yu, but more fearful.He knew that he liked Lin Xun, it was like a handle in Suo Yu's hands, he could manipulate him as he wanted.

This kind of panic and rejoicing day lasted not too long.

Xu Yan saw the intimacy between Lin Xun and Ye Zhilin firsthand, and lost his composure after being drunk, he mistook Suo Yu for Lin Xun and kissed him.After learning about this matter from Lin Xun the next day, Xu Yan felt that the suspended barrier under his feet was finally opened, and he finally fell down.

The consequence of this incident was not only the rupture of Lin Xun's relationship with him, but also Suo Yu's dislike for him. Xu Yan even thought about being alone for the rest of his life.

But what he didn't expect was that he bumped into Suo Yu's secret.

In other words, Suo Yu didn't care about being hit by him.

After Suo Yu was kissed by him, he didn't live in the villa, not because of nausea, but went to the hotel to find someone to relieve his desire.He didn't take the matter of him kissing him to heart.

For Suo Yu, it was no longer the age at which he would take it to heart after a night of sleep, let alone just a kiss.

As for Suo Yu's attitude at that time, Xu Yan is not so clear when he thinks back now.He may be mostly relieved, but there is another part of his emotions.

It was precisely because of this other part of their emotions that they directly established a relationship between the two of them in the garden of Lin Xun's house.

Xu Yan kissed Suo Yu at that time because Suo Yu resembled Lin Xun, and he could take Suo Yu as Lin Xun.As an adult man, Suo Yu also has desires that need to be relieved, so he can be a tool to relieve his desires.

There is nothing more suitable for each other than the two of them.

After establishing a relationship, they developed it like this.

The first time was Suo Yu's request, but in fact it was Xu Yan's initiative.Suo Yu gave him a blank time to regret, but he didn't know, it was precisely that blank time that made him feel emotions other than fear, guilt, and worry from Suo Yu for the first time.

He felt a sense of relief.

This peace of mind comes from Suo Yu's inadvertent gentleness towards him.

Xu Yan accepted this tenderness, and he was entangled with this tenderness, obsessed, squeezed, and finally infiltrated until now.

Xu Yan thought that if he wanted to separate from Suo Yu, it would be to cut his soul into pieces.

The animation is still playing.

Up to now, it has played the part of the hot spring villa.The part of the hot spring villa was also the beginning of Xu Yan's dependence on Suo Yu.

Because he was tired and had a fever, he couldn't contact Lin Xun when he went back to his room, so he contacted Suo Yu.Not long after he hung up the phone, Suo Yu carried him to the hospital.

He held his hand and stayed with him all night in the hospital.It's just that when Xu Yan woke up the next day, he had already left early because of work.

When Xu Yan saw that he wasn't there, he felt a little empty in his heart. It wasn't big, just the size of the eye of a needle.When Lin Xun told him that Suo Yu was leaving in the morning, Xu Yan was immediately full.

At Lin Xun's place at that time, Xu Yan didn't like Suo Yu very much, so Lin Xun asked him if he wanted to thank his uncle for him, and Xu Yan said he would thank him.

After he was almost done, Xu Yan went to Suo Yu and thanked him with the things he liked.

Xu Yan felt that at this time, he was still very sensible, knowing what Suo Yu liked, and then giving him what he wanted.

However, his being so sensible didn't last long. At night, Xu Yan lay on his bed tossing and turning. Yu.

Do nothing but sleep with him.

As far as their relationship is concerned, this is an unreasonable request, Suo Yu could reasonably refuse, but he didn't.Not only that, in order to accompany him, he also took the computer and went back to the bedroom to work.His work didn't last long, after Xu Yan's interruptions in turn, finally, two people who got what they needed lay on the same bed without doing anything.

Suo Yu handed him his hand.

When holding Suo Yu's hand, Xu Yan felt that the missing part matched.Holding Suo Yu's hand, he quickly fell asleep as he did when he had a high fever.

On the second day, Suo Yu had left and left him the first breakfast he made for him.

At that time, Xu Yan's body and mind were full of satisfaction, and even a little sweetness grew out.He didn't know why, but he felt that being with Suo Yu seemed to fill his heart and spirit in addition to physical pleasure.

Suo Yu went to Incheon on a business trip.

Not far away, Xu Yan texted him, and he was chatting with him, but it seemed that every sentence was carefully thought out.Suo Yu said that he would come back as soon as possible, so there was a gap in Xu Yan's contact with him for a while.

It's like an intermission, to give sufficient time for what happens and changes later.

The animation continued to play, and it was Grandpa's birthday.

The meaning of Xu Yan to the Xu family is that his grandfather needs him.Grandpa usually lives in a nursing home, and his spirit is good most of the time, so for his resemblance to his father, the old man can't see it or feel it.And the old man is also weak enough to be in a trance, such as his 80th birthday, the old man called him to go home, and he went back.

The Xu family is not a home to Xu Yan, it is a building, an empty shell. In this family, no one is connected with him. He stands alone, like a transparent work of art. Only when the old man is in a trance, He was painted and brought before everyone.

Regarding his existence, it wasn't just an internal discussion within the Xu family. Back then when grandpa brought his father home, the family of three had long since become the laughing stock of the upper class in the North City.When his parents passed away, his son inherited his father's business and inherited these slanderous words.

Xu Yan grew up in this kind of language environment, and he already has a certain tolerance for ordinary speech, but when it comes to his father, his young and vigorous body will always be out of control.

Xu Yan wasn't mature enough to endure or think long-term, but this was the spirit of a young man. He made trouble at the old man's birthday party, beat the guests, and finally got a slap from Xu Changcheng.He returned it back, and when he was leaving, Xu Changcheng wanted to pull him, but was stopped by Suo Yu who suddenly appeared.

Originally, when Suo Yu went to Incheon, when Lin Xun and Ye Zhilin celebrated Christmas, when his grandfather treated him as his father and let him eat three tea eggs, when he heard his father being insulted, when he was slapped by Xu Changcheng, He could digest this series of things, but at the moment when he saw Suo Yu, Xu Yan's firm heart seemed to have finally been uncovered with a mess of scars, and his eyes immediately turned red.

And Suo Yu said that Xu Changcheng didn't feel bad for beating his own child. Does that mean that he is his child, does he feel bad?

Xu Yan thought.

Later, Suo Yu led him out of the banquet hall and into his car.Suo Yu turned on the air conditioner in the car, and Xu Yan's body was warmed up.He didn't know why Suo Yu appeared here, why he took him away, he blew the warm air from the air conditioner, and babbled with him about what happened today.

When Suo Yu was seen in the banquet hall, his messy scars were uncovered.When walking towards the car with Suo Yu, Xu Yan barely blurred those scars again.But who knew, the warm wind heated his body and opened the scar on his heart again.

Xu Yan's emotions fell into a situation where he was so addicted that he couldn't extricate himself in an instant.

He has never been so wronged.

I never doubted it, and never told anyone about it.

In fact, during the time when his parents died, he thought about dying with them, but that was not what his parents wanted. He didn't want him to do things that disappointed them after his parents died, so he lived strong.

But it is very difficult to live strong, especially when no one loves him.

They all say that when a person is alone, he seems to be isolated from the whole world.However, Xu Yan felt that he seemed to have created this world.In this world, he does not belong to the same dimension as anything or anyone.

He couldn't communicate with them, couldn't get in touch with them, he just observed the world blankly and coldly, and lived like this.

After he finished asking that question, Suo Yu hugged him and told him that he loves him, he loves him, okay?

it is good.

Even though he knew that he was there to comfort him, or that love was out of pity for a child, but when Suo Yu said he loved him, he felt that there was a gap in the world he observed, and he could leave. Step into that gap, into the world.

That night, Suo Yu loved him very much.

He got him Christmas presents, he brushed his hair, he carried him back to his room and let him fall asleep holding his hand.But Xu Yan didn't want to simply fall asleep.

He tied a bow on his pajamas, put Suo Yu's hand on the bow, and asked him to unwrap the gift he gave him.

That night, Xu Yan was loved by Suo Yu many times.

The next day, Suo Yu left again.

Just like last time, I left him a post-it note and made him breakfast. Originally, he should also feel sweet like last time.But when he saw the post-it notes and breakfast, Xu Yan looked at the empty room, got up, put on his clothes, and left Suo Yu's house.

He felt like he had swallowed a bomb.

He kept silent, suppressed the smell of gunpowder, went to class as usual, and went to the library. In the end, when he learned from Lin Xun that Suo Yu came back last night and was going back for a morning meeting this morning, Xu Yan's bomb exploded. To Suo Yu.

Suo Yu came back for him, he knew it.No matter whether he expected to be beaten by Xu Changcheng at the birthday party or not, Suo Yu would come back, he knew his situation in Xu's family.

So he came back overnight and left the next morning, even making him breakfast.

How did he do this?

Xu Yan felt that he understood something. Although he didn't understand clearly, he knew that he could call Suo Yu, make trouble for no reason, and question him.

He originally wanted to question Suo Yu, but in the end, Suo Yu asked him a question.

Is he angry because he left without saying goodbye, but angry because he wanted to see him but couldn't?

Xu Yan hung up the phone.

During that time, Suo Yu's question was like a nightmare, and it would ring in his ears when he was distracted.And in this question, Xu Yan did not shrink back, he also wanted to know the answer, so he also came to Incheon.

When Xu Yan arrived in Incheon, he was still reserved, and he used the clumsy excuse of wanting an internship.After Suo Yu saw him, he pulled him into the corridor and kissed him as if to swallow him up.

Xu Yan's silent blood boiled at the moment Suo Yu's breath invaded.

He came to find answers to questions.But when they kissed Suo Yu, the answer to the question seemed to be unimportant.Why does he care why he is angry?He just needs to be happy.

Xu Yan was very happy.

In this way, they lived happily together in Incheon.

Xu Yan painted life in Incheon very simply, but in the simplicity, the white snow and blue sky can make people feel the warmth of life.

In the animation, Xu Yan is wearing a long down jacket to pick up Suo Yu for the first time.Suo Yu took him to the supermarket to buy vegetables, Xu Yan ordered braised fish, but Suo Yu couldn't cook it, so the two of them cooperated with each other with a mobile phone and a shovel.

The setting sun shone on the two of them, and in the silent animation, it seemed that the sizzling sound from the pot could be heard.

In the animation, Xu Yan went to Suo Yu with a comic book. Suo Yu let him go after work. His legs were stuck in the middle of his seat, and he lowered his head and kissed him in the office.

The afternoon sun shines through the floor-to-ceiling windows, and even birds in the blue sky can be seen.

In the animation, Xu Yan was sitting on a seat in the grocery store. When he was about to pick up his hat, Suo Yu scratched his eyebrows and said something.Later, when someone came in, Suo Yu's arms stretched out, wrapping the boy's body safely and completely.

At night, the stars are twinkling and the moon is shining brightly.

In the animation, the two people who had eaten left the Japanese grocery store and came to the square.Xu Yan held candied haws and was accosted by scouts.He smiled and asked Suo Yu if he wanted to be a star.Suo Yu said that he can do whatever he wants, as a star, many people will love him.And he told Suo Yu that as long as he loves him, that's enough.After he finished speaking, Suo Yu kissed him.

He reminded that it was outside, but Suo Yu told him not to be afraid.He said don't be afraid, he is really not afraid, hugged and kissed him passionately.

In the animation, Xu Yan found out about Suo Yu's birthday in a private WeChat chat with Lin Xun.He asked Assistant Li for his opinion, went to the square alone to find a birthday gift, and finally decided to make a gift by himself based on two points.That night, he told Suo Yu that he would not go to his office, Suo Yu said yes.

In the animation, Xu Yan stopped playing games during the day, but took the computer and held the tablet, and began to draw the character design in this animation, and began to think about the details between him and Suo Yu.It was also on this day that Lin Xun called and asked him if he wanted to go back to China for the Spring Festival.

Xu Yan was never afraid of loneliness, nor was he afraid of loneliness amidst the noise.But he didn't know why, but after Lin Xun reminded him, he thought of the loneliness during the Chinese New Year.He called Suo Yu and said he was going to pick him up, and Suo Yu agreed.

In the animation, Xu Yan went to pick up Suo Yu, and the two met in the lobby. Xu Yan looked up at him with a smile, as if all the lonely impetuosity had been calmed down.The two went to eat, Xu Yan saw the advertisement for the skating rink, Suo Yu asked him if he wanted to go, after getting a definite answer, Suo Yu took him to the skating rink.

In the animation, Xu Yan and Suo Yu went to the skating rink. Xu Yan took the skates and changed them, and asked Suo Yu why he didn't change them. Suo Yu said he couldn't, and he just watched him play.Xu Yan looked at him and was silent for a long time before putting on his skates.

In the animation, Xu Yan slides on the ice.The simple black and white boy is like a bird flying on the ice. He slides on the ice, but there are many pictures in his mind.He slid to the farthest position from Suo Yu, and then slid towards Suo Yu.

He slid to Suo Yu's side, stretched out his arms towards him, and said with a smile that he wanted to kiss him.Suo Yu carried him out of the skating rink, and the two kissed each other in the empty skating rink.

Xu Yan hugged Suo Yu and kissed him very passionately.He felt that there was some emotion, which seemed to be bred during this period of getting along, and it was ready to come out in this kiss he took the initiative to kiss Suo Yu.He was still confused, but he seemed to have grasped a point, and only said that.

He told Suo Yu that he likes skating.Suo Yu told him that they could come every day if they liked.

After skating, it was two days of daily life, very plain and warm.As for this ordinary daily life, it would have been nice for Xu Yan to simply draw it, but yesterday afternoon, Suo Yu came back suddenly.

After Suo Yu came back, he hugged and kissed him, and took him to the supermarket to buy vegetables. The two collaborated on fish head tofu soup.After dinner, it was snowing outside, and the two went for a walk in the snow.

He ran in front, and Suo Yu walked behind, with at most three streetlights between them.

After walking for an unknown amount of time, Suo Yu stopped him who was about to run away again, and told him that he was getting cold, so he should go home and take a shower.

The two returned home, Xu Yan who felt the cold went to the bathroom, and after he walked into the bathroom, Suo Yu also opened the door and walked in.

There seemed to be something wrong with the two of them that night, Xu Yan felt that his heart was getting hotter and hotter, especially when he was with Suo Yu.And Suo Yu didn't know why, he seemed to have been dormant in the dark for a long time, and finally caught a ray of light, and then used that ray of light to bind him and engrave him into his body.

Xu Yan felt an unprecedented feeling.

It's like two lines that were originally on the same horizontal line. After running forward, they finally connect together and become one.

But Xu Yan still didn't understand why he felt this way, even now he still didn't understand.

He worked overtime today, and he also drew the relationship with Suo Yu last night and today.In the morning, Suo Yu cooked him breakfast, taught him how to tie a tie, and hugged him and kissed him on the cabinet. He watched Suo Yu leave...

Originally this was the end of this animation, but it was only drawn to the last moment he and Suo Yu got together this morning.But Xu Yan didn't end there, he added another paragraph after the animation.

In the picture, Suo Yu returned home after get off work, and Xu Yan went to the supermarket with him to buy vegetables and cook together.After this scene ended, the next day, Suo Yu got up and saw Xu Yan who was still asleep, he kissed his forehead, and then got up to make breakfast for Xu Yan.After Xu Yan got up and had breakfast, he played games, read comics, and waited for Assistant Li.When Assistant Li arrived, he and Assistant Li went to Suo Yu's company.When they arrived at Suo Yu's office, when there was no one in the office, they kissed in the sunset.When the sun goes down, they get off work together, and after dinner, they either go to the square to play or go skating.Then they showered and went to bed, and then the third day...

These pictures are drawn in a circle, and as each day goes by, the pictures in the circle get smaller and smaller.When they arrived at the last circle, it seemed like a long time had passed. The two of them in the circle didn't do anything, they just walked forward together.The backs of the two, one tall and straight, the other thin and slender, they disappeared into the screen as they walked.

The blackness of the screen swallowed the backs of the two people in the white shadow like a halo, and at the last second of being completely swallowed, Xu Yan held Suo Yu's hand in the back.

It's like a story with a perfect ending.

After the animation finished, the screen went black, and the light behind the screen came on, Xu Yan turned to look at Suo Yu beside him.

The dark lights in the theater are not too bright, and they are far away, and the lights are a bit out of reach.In the light that touched the high platform, some light shadows came out, and the light shadows caressed the deep facial contours of the man.

When he looked at Suo Yu, Suo Yu didn't look at him, he leaned back on the sofa, his eyes still stopped at the place where the last picture disappeared just now.

Looking at Suo Yu, Xu Yan said, "It's over."

This is Xu Yan's birthday present for Suo Yu.

He made an animation of how the two of them got to know each other, like a story with only the two of them in it.

When Xu Yan thought of this idea, he shaved his head and started to make animations enthusiastically. He didn't even think about whether Suo Yu would like it.

Does Suo Yu like it?

Xu Yan glanced at Suo Yu again.

"What about the back?"

When Xu Yan looked at Suo Yu, Suo Yu suddenly asked.

After Suo Yu finished asking, Xu Yan said, "..."

The back of Suo Yuwen should refer to the pictures in the circle behind.To be honest, those pictures were drawn by his own imagination based on the bits and pieces of their relationship.Because the current relationship between him and Suo Yu is still in progress, if he only draws the scene where he watches Suo Yu leave for work, it will be a bit anticlimactic.

"That's what I wanted to paint. It's just some extension and imagination of the usual relationship..." Xu Yan said.

"You held my hand." Suo Yu said.

Xu Yan's heart skipped a beat after Suo Yu finished saying this.

He held Suo Yu's hand at the end of the scene.But that screen is only 0.001 seconds away from the end, if it is not the person who made this screen himself, others will not see it at all.

But Suo Yu captured this scene.

It's not that they haven't held hands before, they've even done something more intimate than holding hands.

It's just a picture of holding hands, it's not worth Xu Yan's doing it, nor Suo Yu's seeing it.However, Xu Yan didn't know why he put this picture up at the last moment, as if drawing the most perfect ending to this story.

He is the author of the animation, and the ending of the story is drawn according to his wishes.Xu Yan felt that holding Suo Yu's hand didn't mean anything, but after Suo Yu asked, he felt a little flustered for no reason.

But he didn't deny it either, but after Suo Yu finished speaking, his Adam's apple rolled dryly.

"Ah."

"Does this mean we are together?" Suo Yu asked.

After Suo Yu finished asking, Xu Yan said, "..."

"No." Xu Yan almost didn't think about it, and subconsciously denied Suo Yu's conclusion.

After denying it, Xu Yan withdrew his gaze, frowned slightly, and said, "It's just the picture in the animation together, it's just life..."

"Do you want to be together?"

Xu Yan's words stopped in his dry throat.

After saying the above sentence, Suo Yu turned to look at him.His eyes were dark and deep, and their distance was very close. At such a distance, Xu Yan could even clearly see the veins in Suo Yu's pupils.

"Yanyan, do you want to stay with me?" Suo Yu asked.