quench thirst

Xu Yan turned around.

Lin Xun stood at the door of the room on the second floor, holding the game controller in his hand. He seemed to have just finished playing the game. The joy on his face became distorted when he saw the scene at the door of the living room.Xu Yan looked at Lin Xun, his quiet eyes didn't move, he just stood there and looked at him.

Lin Xun was neither blind nor stupid, his uncle and his best friend were standing at the door of the living room, what they did just now could be seen clearly from the angle of the second floor.And the reason why he asked this sentence was that he was so shocked mentally that he couldn't say anything, and even said that he wanted to use what he said to see the reactions of the two to confirm whether he was in a dream now .

He is not in a dream.

This evening, he was called away by his mother to attend a dinner party. After dinner, Lin Xun hurriedly told his family members and rushed to the villa to find Xu Yan.When he came in the morning, Xu Yan was not in a good mood. Even after playing games with them all day, he could still feel that Xu Yan was a little depressed when he left.So after he finished his meal, he hurried over to accompany Xu Yan.

When he came to the villa, there was no one in the villa, but the lights were on.He looked for Xu Yan, but Xu Yan was not there, so he called him, but the phone rang on the sofa in the living room.Seeing Xu Yan's cell phone at that time, Lin Xun thought that Xu Yan might have gone out for a while because he didn't bring his cell phone, so he shouldn't be able to go far.After thinking this way, he was bored in the living room, so he went back to his room and played a game first, in order to exercise his hand first, so that he could win against Xu Yan tonight.

While he was playing games in his room, he heard the sound of a car outside.Xu Yan should have come back, but his game was not over, so he didn't get up in a hurry.After finishing the game in hand, he got up and left the room. Just as he was preparing to greet Xu Yan with a smile on his face, he saw Xu Yan and his uncle standing at the door of the living room, hugging each other and kissing.

For a moment, Lin Xun felt that his soul was shattered by the scene in front of him.The blood on his face was drawn away quickly, and he turned pale in an instant. Under the pale complexion, his eyes stared fixedly at Xu Yan and Suo Yu who were standing at the door under his frown.

The two of them were kissing just now, so what is the relationship between the two of them?

Lin Xun knew about same-sex love. There was such a thing in school when he was in high school. Although he knew about it, Lin Xun never understood it, and even hated it very much.When others made jokes about him and Xu Yan, or even Jiang Jun made jokes about him and his uncle, Lin Xun felt disgusted and angry inside.

But now, his best friend and most respected uncle kissed in front of him.

The gamepad in Lin Xun's hand was about to be crushed.

After Lin Xun finished asking that question, the three of them stood in their respective positions, looking across the empty living room, as if they were all in a dream.

In the end, Suo Yu came to his senses from the dream first.

He looked at Lin Xun, and just about to speak, Xu Yan grabbed his wrist.On the wrist, the young man's fingers were slender and slender, holding his wrist as if holding his pulse. He was not strong, but not weak, as if he was supporting his body, but he was firm enough to stand still.

Suo Yu looked down at Xu Yan, and Xu Yan looked at Lin Xun on the second floor, and said.

"Lin Xun, let's talk."

Xu Yan has been thinking about when he and Suo Yu will tell Lin Xun and in what way he will tell Lin Xun.Maybe before he told Lin Xun, he should give Lin Xun some psychological construction.For example, he first let Lin Xun accept homosexuality, then let Lin Xun accept that he was gay, and then let Lin Xun accept that he and Suo Yu were having sex.

These three steps are clear, but each step is very difficult. It is very likely that Lin Xun broke up with him in the second step.After knowing the third step, I hated him.

Or, he and Suo Yu have always been together. As time goes by, they develop a deep relationship. Lin Xun grows up and accepts the world more broadly. Then they will tell him slowly.As for how long it will be, Xu Yan doesn't know.

Or maybe it's about the matter between him and Suo Yu. With the contact with Lin Xun, Lin Xun will see some clues, then make some guesses about them, and finally pile up the guesses, and question them directly.

No matter which method is above, Xu Yan has already presupposed it in his heart, except for the current method.

He and Suo Yu were directly bumped into by Lin Xun.

The moment Lin Xun opened his mouth, Xu Yan seemed to be immersed in the soft cotton, and a fan was turned on somewhere, sucking the cotton and his flesh and blood away. At that moment, it seemed that he was only a broken man soul.

And when this feeling felt the breath and temperature of Suo Yu around him, Xu Yan's flesh and blood that had been sucked away returned to his body, his heart was placed in place, and his heartbeat was beating slowly and heavily.When Suo Yu wanted to explain to Lin Xun, he held Suo Yu's wrist.

Perhaps this way of telling Lin Xun is also good.

After Xu Yan finished speaking with Lin Xun, Xu Yan glanced at Suo Yu and let go of his wrist.After he let go of Suo Yu's wrist, he walked towards the second floor.He said just now that he wanted to talk to Lin Xun, but Lin Xun didn't speak, and he still maintained the stiff posture just now and looked at him.His eyes stared at him. For the first time, Xu Yan couldn't see joy and light in his eyes when he looked at him.

"Go to your room." Xu Yan came to Lin Xun's side and said to him.

In the friendship between the two, because of Xu Yan's personality, the relationship between the two has always been a state of Lin Xun accommodating Xu Yan.And because of Xu Yan's background, Lin Xun was a few months older than him, and he has always been accommodating Xu Yan like this, this is his way of pampering Xu Yan.

But now, Xu Yan is standing beside him. He is not as strong and self-confident as before. While he is calm, his eyes are somewhat fragile and pleading. When Xu Yan said these words, Lin Xun's heart was like Being twisted into pieces, he nodded subconsciously, but didn't move.

Seeing that he didn't move, Xu Yan raised his hand to push him, but when he raised his hand, he seemed to think of something again, so he dropped his hand to his side again.With his hands hanging by his side, he squeezed his fingers a little helplessly, moved his lips, and wanted to say something else.Seeing Xu Yan like this, Lin Xun withdrew his gaze from him, turned around and walked into his room.

After Lin Xun walked into his room, Xu Yan looked back at Suo Yu, then got up and entered his room.

The lights in Lin Xun's room were not turned on.He likes to turn off the lights when playing games. Although it is not good for the eyes, he said that it has the atmosphere of playing games.Xu Yan never had any opinion on what he said and did, and he followed him.In fact, sometimes when I think about it, although Xu Yan is younger, it seems that he is accommodating him in some places that he can't see.

After Lin Xun entered, he turned on the light in the room.As soon as the light came on, the gap between the two became clear. Xu Yan felt that the space he and Lin Xun were in was breaking and crumbling.

After Lin Xun turned on the light, he stood there. Xu Yan didn't go any further. He also stood there and looked up at Lin Xun.

When he saw Lin Xun and looked into his eyes, Xu Yan didn't know where to start.But Lin Xun was waiting, and even said that his eyes were suppressing his restlessness and anger, forcing himself to wait patiently, Xu Yan had to hurry up.

"I'm with my uncle." Xu Yan said.

After Xu Yan finished speaking, Lin Xun's eyes became distant and lifeless for a moment.

If he was still thinking about some messy things in his mind just now, thinking of all kinds of excuses to excuse the kiss between the two, then now, Xu Yan directly sentenced him to death.

Lin Xun was a little calm for a while.

Because the matter was too ridiculous, he actually calmed down.It's like when you are dreaming, some bizarre plots, even in the dream, you know it is fake, so there will be no emotional ups and downs.

But now it was different from the dream, he wrapped himself up, but what Xu Yan said, the information in the words cut through his defense like a blade, and pierced his heart mercilessly.

"Why?" Lin Xun asked.

This is what he wants to ask most.He didn't want to ask when they were together, or if they were happy, and he didn't want to know any details of their relationship, he just wanted to know why.

Because here, he never thought that his good friend and uncle were gay.Xu Yanming has always been with him. Although he is not interested in girls, he has never been interested in boys either.Not to mention uncle, although he hasn't had much love in recent years, all his previous partners were women.

He asked a question ambiguously, and this question can actually be subdivided into many questions.But these questions don't need to be subdivided, Xu Yan answered everything with one answer.

"I've always liked boys." Xu Yan said.

Lin Xun's stiff body trembled.

"Before I met my uncle, I always liked you." Xu Yan said.

Lin Xun didn't move at all.

And Xu Yan looked at Lin Xun's appearance, no matter whether he was sick of him or hated him now, he had to tell him everything.But there are so many things, where do I have to start.Xu Yan thought about it, and started talking about it when his parents passed away.

He seldom mentioned the death of Xu Yan's parents. After his parents passed away, there would be no more of them in this world. Xu Yan tried not to mention it or think about it. Hold a rope and walk along that rope.

Lin Xun was that rope.

This can't be blamed, Xu Yan, his life experience is too special.His father was originally an illegitimate child, and his life in the Xu family was basically dominated by his parents, and he had almost no emotional contact with his other relatives.After his father died, he and the Xu family were out of touch. He had blood relatives, but no blood relationship.The only outlet for his feelings is Lin Xun.

Xu Yan and Lin Xun have been friends for more than ten years, and they have formed a fixed pattern of getting along with each other. If his parents hadn't passed away, the pattern of getting along between the two of them might not have changed for the rest of their lives.But Xu Yan's parents passed away, and his emotions in this world were out of balance, so he needs to release and absorb more emotions to balance, and he can only get it from Lin Xun.In this way, feelings have deteriorated in repeated quantitative changes.

Xu Yan had spurned himself before, he shouldn't turn his feelings into something that disgusts Lin Xun just because of Lin Xun's help and liking for him.But he couldn't control it, his feelings were like water flowing, only forward but not backward.It was in this kind of spurning and pain that he had been friends with Lin Xun for so many years.

And during the years of making so many friends with Lin Xun, Xu Yan never thought of telling Lin Xun what he wanted.Because he didn't want Lin Xun to fall into panic and entanglement, and he didn't want to break their emotional connection.He seemed to be walking on a tightrope, trembling and tenaciously moving forward.

But he was with Suo Yu.Since he was with Suo Yu, Lin Xun must have told him, because it was impossible for him to let Suo Yu hide from him for the rest of his life, this was his responsibility to Suo Yu.At the same time, he didn't know how to tell Lin Xun, because it was a kind of betrayal for Lin Xun.Maybe he is gay, and he can accept that he likes other men, but he can't extend his feelings to his uncle.

Although now, Lin Xun doesn't have to panic because he still likes him, but he must hate him because he is with Suo Yu.

This is a fact.No matter what reason he used, what nice words he used to package it, when Lin Xun crushed the outer shell, he could still see this fact.

Xu Yan looked at Lin Xun, he should lose him completely.

The lights in the room were turned on, and the bright lights illuminated the two teenagers standing in the room. The room was fully heated, and the game screen was still on on the display screen. The room was quiet, and only Xu Yan could hear the whole story. the sound of things.

He spoke very concisely, starting with the death of his parents, talking about his company with him, and talking about his emotional changes towards him.Later, he didn't say much about how he forbears his love, but just stepped forward to the time when he and his uncle made an agreement.

In the beginning, the agreement between Xu Yan and his uncle was very simple, that is, to quench each other's thirst physically and mentally.He has loved him for so many years, he needs to find a vent, and an agreement with his uncle is the best way.But after making an agreement with his uncle, he really eased his uncontrollable emotions and became stable.

Later, the relationship between him and his uncle changed in the day-to-day relationship, and later he talked about the things with his uncle in Incheon.As he talked about those things, Lin Xun explained all the things that Lin Xun thought strange about Xu Yan before, and the things were presented in front of him so logically.

All of this was so logical, Lin Xun felt like he had read a novel or watched a TV series.When his consciousness followed Xu Yan's narration, he was immersed in the plot, and as the plot unfolded, the scene after scene seemed to extend along his mind, and it was rubbed into his mind like that.

The consequence of this is that it all becomes real.

He truly felt everything that happened to Xu Yan during this time, he truly felt Xu Yan's liking for him that he didn't know, he truly felt that Xu Yan and his uncle were together, and he truly felt that Xu Yan is now Talk to him about him and his uncle.

Lin Xun's stiff body was like a machine for a moment, and a slight movement seemed to make a mechanical sound of "click". His lifeless and empty eyes, when Xu Yan was talking, there were overlapping and chaotic sounds. Emotions kept changing along with Xu Yan's words.

He changed his emotional eyes, looking at Xu Yan who was standing in front of him.The boy was still beautiful and clean. He stood there with care and prudence in his eyes, with some relief from the past and some hopes that even he himself felt were somewhat impossible.When he was looking at him, Xu Yan was also looking at him. With the end of what he said, the calmness in his eyes gradually collapsed.

Xu Yan was not as strong as he imagined.Perhaps when he was at the entrance of the living room, he had thought about how to make it clear to Lin Xun, and after making it clear to Lin Xun, where would their future relationship be.He thought that Lin Xun would sever ties with him because he was with Suo Yu, he thought that Lin Xun would never forgive and ignore him for the rest of his life... When he thought about these things, he felt that he could accept and persevere, But as he was about to finish speaking, this clear feeling that the relationship with Lin Xun was about to break swept through his whole body, like a knife cutting his soul, Xu Yan even felt like standing in the cold wind by the lake a feeling of.

The knife always fell on the neck, and there was always a time when the words were finished, Xu Yan controlled his voice steadily, and finally explained his relationship with Suo Yu to Lin Xun.After saying this, Xu Yan didn't say anything more.He will not ask Lin Xun for anything, nor will he say what he hopes for Lin Xun. He has no qualifications, and he only hopes to minimize the damage to Lin Xun.

"That's it." After Xu Yan finished speaking, he seemed to exhale the last breath of oxygen in his chest, and he felt a little suffocation for a while.The lack of oxygen made his chest sore as if he had just run 800 meters. Xu Yan looked at Lin Xun and took a light breath to suppress the soreness.

Lin Xun didn't speak.

After he finished his last sentence, Lin Xun was still looking at him.The emotions in his eyes are still like the colors in a kaleidoscope, constantly changing.Because it was too complicated, Xu Yan couldn't understand it.

But no matter what the mood is, the final result will not change.Thinking of this, Xu Yan's heart seemed to be grabbed by someone and pulled into the sea under the ice.

He lowered his head, not wanting to look at the emotion in Lin Xun's eyes.

Lin Xun was silent for a long time.

Even in the 5 minutes after Xu Yan finished his last sentence, Lin Xun remained silent.When Lin Xun was silent, Xu Yan stood there with his head bowed. Time was like a rope on a guillotine. As every minute passed, the rope was tightened little by little. Xu Yan felt like waiting for the verdict. Suffocation.

He felt the suffocation of the guillotine hanging high, felt its tightening, and when he felt that Lin Xun's mood had almost stabilized, Xu Yan raised his head.

Lin Xun's mood had indeed stabilized. He stood in front of him, looking at him like that.A few minutes after he finished speaking, Lin Xun spoke.

"Yanyan." Lin Xun called Xu Yan's name.

"Why do you like me?" Lin Xun asked.

After Lin Xun finished speaking, the emotions in Xu Yan's eyes became complicated.He looked at the mixed emotions in Xu Yan's beautiful peach eyes, and Lin Xun asked, "Is it because I stayed with you after your parents passed away?"

Lin Xun recalled that time.When Xu Yan's parents passed away, he and Xu Yan were only 15 years old. What did they know when they were 15 years old, but Xu Yan's two closest relatives left just like that.This is not traveling abroad, not being sick and hospitalized, but completely disappearing from this world, and these two people no longer exist in the world.Lin Xun was not a sensitive person, but when he heard the news, he thought that if his parents died at this time, then he would definitely feel that the sky was falling.

Xu Yan was more serious than him.If his parents passed away, he would still have grandparents, grandparents and uncles, but Xu Yan would have nothing.He is the only one who cares about and loves him.

During that time, Lin Xun cared for Xu Yan like a bird that had just hatched.

He knew that Xu Yan was far more fragile than a bird. He was not only fragile on the outside, but his heart was broken. He carefully accompanied him, made him happy, played with him, and made him feel that even if the sky fell, he would still be there for him. Hold on.And Xu Yan seemed to cheer up a little bit in his patience with him, his eyes became brighter, and he was more attached to him than before, and they even slept together every day during that time, otherwise Xu Yan couldn't fall asleep.

During that time, Lin Xun felt Xu Yan's changes, and he felt happy and happy from the bottom of his heart.He was needed by Xu Yan, and his friendship with Xu Yan had been responded to by him, and he felt that he would always support Xu Yan in this way.

But he never thought that what he did at that time had such consequences.

Lin Xun looked at Xu Yan, and after asking Xu Yan's second question, his eyes seemed to be immersed in the piercing ice water, and the corners of his eyes were almost cracked.

He really didn't know what emotion to face Xu Yan with. He looked at Xu Yan in front of him, such a handsome, clean, smart, loyal, and high-spirited young man, he actually liked him.

Lin Xun felt that this caused him more pain than seeing Xu Yan and Suo Yu together.

At that moment, when looking at the painful light in Xu Yan's eyes, Lin Xun's heart seemed to be shattered into powder.He looked at Xu Yan, his lips trembling because of what he said next.

"Yanyan. If I wasn't that kind to you when your parents died, wouldn't you like me? And if you don't like me, wouldn't you like your uncle?"

When Lin Xun said this, his voice was choked up because of crying, but he was more eager to put

"Then will you be the same as before, still discussing cute girls with me, like me, still like girls, and then live a normal and flat life?"

Xu Yan's eye sockets suddenly turned red.