quench thirst

Suo Yu entered and sat at Lin Xun's desk.

Lin Xun's room was very big. After Suo Yu came in, Lin Xun sat on the bed, and Suo Yu sat on the chair beside his desk. There was a long distance between the two of them.But even if the distance is so great, as long as he is in the same space as Suo Yu, Lin Xun will automatically behave well.

This is the suppression of seniority.

After Suo Yu sat down, he leaned back on the back of the chair. He raised his eyes to look at Lin Xun who was sitting on the bed, and said, "Didn't you have a good rest these days?"

Lin Xun just got out of bed, his hair was cut very short like Xu Yan's, which exposed his face even more.His complexion was indeed not very good-looking, his brows and eyes were full of sleepless fatigue, and there was a hint of unrested hostility between his brows.

Lin Xun is a handsome guy in the traditional sense. The handsome guy's facial features are relatively deep, which makes him feel cold when he doesn't speak, although he has a sunny and cheerful personality.

After being asked by Suo Yu, Lin Xun subconsciously looked up at his uncle.After glancing at it, he looked back.

"It's okay." Lin Xun said.

In fact, when Suo Yu and Xu Yan ran into each other at the seaside villa that day, Lin Xun was able to face Xu Yan immediately, but he couldn't face Suo Yu.So after he went downstairs, he left without saying anything.

Fortunately, Suo Yu gave him some time. After two days of messy psychological construction, Lin Xun saw that Suo Yu was not so restrained and at a loss.But he didn't know why Suo Yu came and what he wanted to say to him.Lin Xun was a little upset for a while, he didn't know what to say to Suo Yu.And there is a common thread between the two, which is Xu Yan.

"It's Xu Yan..." Lin Xun thought for a while before speaking.But before he finished speaking, Suo Yu interrupted him.

"I came here by myself, he doesn't know." Suo Yu said.

After Suo Yu finished speaking, Lin Xun looked up at Suo Yu again.Suo Yu was also looking at him, his eyes were deep and narrow, as if he could see through him completely just by looking at him lightly.Just now he said three words, Suo Yu knew what he wanted to ask.

For a while, Lin Xun didn't care about the initiative anymore, he just sat on the bed, waiting for Suo Yu to talk to him.

Lin Xun seemed to have stabilized after experiencing a brief emotional ups and downs.He didn't look at him anymore, but looked at the garden outside the window.The young man sat in the sun, his tall and straight body bent slightly, his eyes looking outside were a bit empty, he didn't know what he was thinking.

Lin Xun is the same age as Xu Yan, but his appearance is more mature than Xu Yan's.As his nephew, Lin Xun looks a bit like him to a certain extent, more like when he was young.Suo Yu is already 29 years old, and he already has experience in juvenile thoughts and moods.He looked at Lin Xun and said to him.

"I've liked Xu Yan for many years."

As soon as Suo Yu finished speaking, Lin Xun turned to look at him.

When Suo Yu said this, Lin Xun's subtlety and surprise were far more subtle than the nausea brought about by the fact that Suo Yu and Xu Yan were both men.He sat there looking at Suo Yu, he had lived for 19 years, never thought that he would be in the same position as Suo Yu now, talking about Suo Yu's love life.And this love life also includes his best friend for 19 years.

This feeling made Lin Xun suddenly attracted by Suo Yu's love for Xu Yan for many years.

"When?" Lin Xun asked.

Suo Yu looked at Lin Xun and said, "His parents' funeral."

That was four years ago, when Xu Yan was 15 years old.

Lin Xun's eyes trembled following Suo Yu's words. The amount of information brought by these words was too great, and he didn't know where to start asking.

"Have you communicated?" Lin Xun asked.

In fact, Lin Xun still had a very deep memory of the funeral four years ago.During the days of the funeral, he was always by Xu Yan's side. Suo Yu did go to Xu's house to express his condolences, but he left after a short stay, and during the time he stayed with Xu Yan, Suo Yu and Xu Yan Didn't even speak.

"The funeral is over, I came out to take a breath, Xu Yan was sitting on the bench, I went to sit with him for a while." Suo Yu said.

After Suo Yu finished speaking, Lin Xun's eyes seemed to be agitated, his brows were frowned again, and he asked Suo Yu, "You fell in love after just sitting for a while?"

"You didn't observe Xu Yan that day carefully." Suo Yu said.

After Suo Yu finished speaking, Lin Xun's eyes froze, but he told him that he didn't know what to say.He has been by Xu Yan's side all the time. He observed Xu Yan for a long time. Xu Yan was very sad, but he didn't say anything. He didn't even shed a tear. He took care of Xu Yan with all his strength during that time. Said that he didn't observe Xu Yan carefully.

In fact, Lin Xun really didn't observe it carefully.He is Xu Yan's good friend, that's all.In the world, a person has many good friends, and they can penetrate each other to the depths of another person's heart, but the distance in that depth is limited.As for the deeper part of the heart, only those with compatible souls can detect it.

In fact, most soul-compatible people are because they have the same experience, the same personality, and can perceive each other's perception, so they can overlap more deeply.

But Suo Yu's and Xu Yan's life experiences are completely different, even diametrically opposed.

Suo Yu had a very smooth life, with harmonious parents, a wealthy family, outstanding appearance, and extraordinary talent. In his 25-year-old life, he hardly knew how to write the word "rough".And he was walking on his smooth life path, so uneventfully, until Xu Yan appeared on the road.

He went out because the atmosphere of the funeral was too depressing. Originally, he just wanted to sit for a while before going back, but he saw Xu Yan sitting on the bench.

He knew Xu Yan and was good friends with Lin Xun. The two grew up together. In Suo Yu's impression at that time, Xu Yan was a well-behaved, sensible, beautiful and cool child.He is the only son of the Xu family's illegitimate son. He is in a different situation from Lin Xun, so his personality is also different.At that time, Xu Yan was just a fleeting image in his mind.

But when he saw Xu Yan sitting on the bench, this fleeting image seemed to stand up suddenly.

Although the funeral was depressing, it was not quiet, and there were noisy voices all around.But out of respect for the funeral, or because I have a gossip that I don't want others to hear, the voices of everyone talking are not very loud.In this chaotic environment, Xu Yan seemed to be quietly in another space.

Today is the funeral of his parents. His parents died suddenly, and because of the special status of his father, after his parents died, his life suddenly became difficult at the moment his parents died.He is like a duckweed thrown in the sea, the waves can be swept away, the bottom of the boat can be pressed down, even fish and even birds can decide where he goes or stays at will.

He should know what his future will be like, but at the same time he doesn't care much.He was wearing a black funeral suit, and his fair complexion was even whiter against the black clothes. He leaned back on the back of the chair, looking at the tombstones in the funeral hall with peach blossom eyes.His eyes are far away but not empty. Even in the face of such a huge sad news, during the funeral, his whole body has a stability that does not match his age. Now this stability still supports him, and even makes his youthful face Looking at it from the side, it showed some determination.

This is a very contradictory and complex sense of perseverance.It’s like a piece of beautiful white porcelain that is so thin that it’s transparent and will break when you pinch it, but when you throw him to the ground, even if he is smashed to pieces, all his pieces are still stubbornly sticky. Connected together, it is so beautifully broken into a small stall.

At this moment, some unexplained strangeness arose in Suo Yu's heart. He looked at Xu Yan, and then went to sit beside him.

The two did not speak.

When Suo Yu sat over, Xu Yan just looked at his parents' tombstone as if no one else was there.Unlike ordinary 15-year-old children, it is generally difficult for children to accept such bad news. It is even said that some parents have passed away for several years and they have not gone out. They will think that their parents are still alive.

But Xu Yan was different.When Suo Yu looked at him, he could clearly tell from Xu Yan's eyes that he was looking at the dead.He clearly showed the fact that he looked at his dead parents and accepted the fact, but he didn't think about the things after the fact. He just supported his spirit at this time, and then felt the death of his parents over and over again. of this news.

This is torture for a child.But Xu Yan didn't show any sadness, he just looked at the tablets of his dead parents.

Suo Yu originally sat there wanting to sit with him for a while, but after sitting for a while, Xu Yan beside him did not get out of this self-torture.Suo Yu thought it might be due to the presence of outsiders, so he got up from the bench.When he got up, Xu Yan raised his hand and grabbed the corner of his clothes.

Suo Yu was needed by many people.His parents need him to grow up seriously and take over the family business, his nephew Lin Xun needs him to play with him, his friends need him to help him with some things, some of his girlfriends need his care and company...

But all these needs are different from Xu Yan's need to grab his clothes.

What kind of feeling is this?It's like, what other people need for him is just a description on white porcelain to make that porcelain more beautiful.But Xu Yan's need for him is like asking him to squat on the ground and wrap the piece of broken porcelain in his palm.

It doesn't need him to restore him, it just needs him to wrap it like that, even if it is broken and sharp, his temperature can be transmitted through the porcelain.

At that moment, Suo Yu's heart was clenched as if Xu Yan was holding the corner of his clothes.

But when he turned his head and saw the change in Xu Yan's eyes, seeing his fragility and loneliness and begging, Suo Yu's heart was loosened, and the unfolded heart just contained the young man.

"Stay with me again." Xu Yan told him.

Suo Yu listened to his voice, and when he heard it, the noise around him disappeared.It seemed that when Xu Yan grabbed the corner of his clothes, he was pulled into the space he was in. No matter what happened outside, there were only him and Xu Yan in this space.After Xu Yan finished his request, Suo Yu sat next to him again.

After he sat down, time seemed to pass very slowly, slow enough that he could recall all the pictures about Xu Yan in his memory.

There are not many pictures, even because he doesn't care, those pictures have no color.But now, at the funeral that alternated between black and white, Xu Yan's memory became more colorful in his memory.

The 15-year-old boy has become more and more beautiful.His hair is black and obedient, probably due to the busy time during this period, he didn't trim it, covering his forehead and eyebrows.Under the eyebrows, a pair of black eyes with peach blossom outlines, thick and long eyelashes connecting the eyelashes all the way up to the end of the eyes.Under the eyes of peach blossoms, his nose bridge is tall and beautiful, and his lips are reddish in color.

Men's and women's lips are different.A woman's lips are soft, bright and colorful, revealing a woman's tenderness like water.And although Xu Yan is a beautiful boy, his lips are still different from those of a woman.

The shape of his lips is slightly sharper than that of a woman, and his lips are also thin. The color may be because the busyness of the past few days is not particularly dark and lustrous.The shape of his lips was the same as his eyes, naturally a little raised, and the redness just disappeared at the corners of his lips.

But looking at it like this, Suo Yu felt that maybe when he grew up, his lips would taste very delicious.

Just when this thought flashed by, Suo Yu's eyes were slightly startled, and he looked away.

His mind was a little confused for a moment.

He is not gay, he has also dated women, and has never had any interest in men or even teenagers since then.But after this idea was born, he knew that something had changed.

While his mind was in a mess, Xu Yan was called away, and he was the only one left on the bench.

Suo Yu sat on the bench for a long time.While sitting, he was thinking about the reasons and consequences of the changes just now, and at the same time, his gaze followed Xu Yan all the time.

After leaving his side, Xu Yan seemed to return from their space to those people's space. He became that indifferent and steady boy again. Relatives deal with guests.

It seemed that everything had returned to the way it was before after Xu Yan left the bench, but something was imprinted on his heart.

Suo Yu sat on the bench until his parents called him, and he left with them.

It took him a week to sort out this matter.And during this week, while sorting out, he also felt the changes in himself more and more deeply.

And after deeply perceiving my own changes, some things went out of control along with these changes.

For a period of time to come, Lin Xun and Xu Yan will always be together, because of the death of Xu Yan's parents, Lin Xun treats himself as Xu Yan's only relative to take care of and accompany him.During this period of time, he saw Xu Yan more and more often.

The more and more times we meet, the more clearly he can perceive his heart.After fully realizing his intentions, Suo Yu left the country and went to Europe.

The Suo family's business in various countries is very large, but Europe is the base camp, and it is also where his father Suo Zhongru lives all year round.Originally Suo Yu finished his studies and was going to practice in China for a period of time, but he went directly there and started to take over the business from his father.

In the past four years, he rarely returned to China, and he rarely saw Xu Yan when he returned to China.Only occasionally when eating at home, I heard Lin Xun mention a few words.When he was talking about Xu Yan, Suo Yu just listened quietly, as if he had no interest in Xu Yan.But Lin Xun stopped talking after a while, and he looked away.

Suo Yu didn't show his love for Xu Yan in front of anyone, but this kind of love doesn't fade with time, but gets deeper and deeper.He has always been like a sea, and Xu Yan is the deepest shell in the bottom of the sea.

In this way, four years passed, Xu Yan came of age, Suo Yu was in charge of the Suo family, and he came back from Europe.

Suo Yu is a mature man, a mature man's love is much more prudent and responsible than ordinary people.Xu Yan is a boy, and there will be many obstacles on the way with him. He reached a certain position and cleared those obstacles before he decided to show his liking for Xu Yan.

Moreover, Xu Yan was too young, and he just let him grow up through these few years.

Regarding Xu Yan's falling in love with Lin Xun, Suo Yu didn't experience much taste, but shamelessly thanked Lin Xun for Xu Yan's ability to like the same sex.Because if Xu Yan liked the opposite sex, his four years of preparation might have been completely useless.So when he saw Xu Yan was sad on the balcony because of Lin Xun's words, he stood in the dark and relieved his throbbing for a long time.

It was the first time he returned to China that day, and the first time he took the initiative to meet Xu Yan.Long before, Lin Xun had told him that a party would be held in the villa, and Xu Yan was also there.So after returning to China, he didn't go anywhere, but went directly to the seaside villa.

Because of the jet lag, he slept in the room for half a day, and then the villa became lively, and no one saw him when he came out of the room.He stood in the dark and witnessed what happened in the living room, and when Xu Yan went upstairs, he withdrew to the balcony.

Everything unfolded so logically.

Although Suo Yu didn't taste much from Lin Xun, Lin Xun still had some influence on the relationship between Xu Yan and him.Xu Yan still liked Lin Xun better in his heart, so he wanted to find an opportunity to spend more time with Xu Yan, so as to squeeze Lin Xun out of him.

During this period, Suo Yu used some methods, such as finding a young boy to act in a play, and told Xu Yan his sexual orientation.Then, stepping back step by step, she led Xu Yan into the relationship he had arranged for him in advance.

The relationship between the two was just to quench each other's thirst, but Suo Yu never thought about it that way, Xu Yan's pearl fell into his shell, and he never thought about letting go again.

He didn't know how long it would take to squeeze Lin Xun out of Xu Yan's heart, but no matter how long it took, he could see Xu Yan every day, and he didn't even dare to look at him in those four years, for fear that he couldn't control his heart. Much better.

And later, Xu Yan was with him.

Suo Yu still remembers the throbbing feeling when he saw Xu Yan take his hand in the animation in Xu Yan's birthday gift to him.It was like a piece of inkstone that had been silent for a long time, being ground by water droplets, and the large pieces of ink seemed to be alive again with the blood in his heart.

After all, he held Xu Yan in his hands.

And after wrapping it in his hand, he will spend his whole life repairing his fragments into a piece of flawless white porcelain like before.

Lin Xun sat on the bed, and after Suo Yu finished saying that he didn't observe Xu Yan that day, Suo Yu talked to him a lot.He has grown up so much, and he has never heard Suo Yu talk so much to him.

And his so-called "a lot of words" is only in relative terms, Suo Yu's words are still concise, but span from four years ago to now.He told him about all the things he did after he fell in love with Xu Yan, most of which involved him, but Lin Xun never noticed it.

Suo Yu is too deep, even if it is a passionate and sincere love, he can handle it so forbearingly and vigorously.Listening to what Suo Yu said, Lin Xun's dull eyes seemed to be infected by Suo Yu's words, and his eyes regained some brilliance.

After saying these words, Suo Yu fell silent again.His eyes were still deep and dark, making it impossible to see what he was thinking.He quietly watched Lin Xun's changes, and when their eyes met, Suo Yu said.

"Lin Xun, I can give Xu Yan happiness, and Xu Yan can give me happiness. It doesn't matter which of the two of us is happy, it's what you want. You will experience many things in this world, and you don't need to worry too much about it. Many, the conditions and process of the matter are actually not that important, as long as the result is correct."