What is the meaning of love

Ji Qingwan stared at her for a moment, filled with endless sourness and sadness in his heart, looked at Lu Nian's extremely serious attitude, and asked, "You always think so? Don't you want to be with me forever? Is it?"

"Everything goes well, of course I think, the premise is that you don't lose something important, do you understand?"

Of course Lu Nian wants to be with her. If everything goes well, it would be great. If she is forced to make a choice, then he must quit. She is only 24 years old, and she stays with him every day, getting stuck in it, young, Treating love with sincerity, and only love to look at this face, now she must really love herself.

But Lu Nian felt that even if she broke up with him, she was amazed by her years, and she would never fall in love with others again, as long as she was happy, but the future is so long, her status is so high, and people with knowledge are also excellent She will fall in love with others again, and have a relationship that everyone envies, so she doesn't have to walk on eggshells like she is now.

Lu Nian felt that if he could do it again, he wouldn't take the initiative to get close to Ji Qingwan like that, and just be her friend. Why let her fall in love with him and be with him, it's too selfish.

If she loses her career and what she is chasing so hard, she will definitely regret it in the future. Lu Nian will feel that she is a sinner, and he only wants to bring her happiness.

"You are the most important thing to me. I don't want to lose you even if I lose anything." Ji Qingwan was very sad, her nose was sore, and she wanted to shed tears. It turned out that Lu Nian never thought about facing himself firmly, only thinking about One day when she leaves herself, what does it mean if she says to love herself forever and stay with her forever.

"I don't need you to be responsible, lose your career, you are sorry for your mother and your family, you will regret it, but if you and I really break up, you will fall in love with someone else again, and there will be another period..."

"do not talk."

Ji Qingwan didn't want to hear a word, she didn't know what Lu Nian was talking nonsense, she didn't make any sense at all, resisted the urge to cry, and asked her with red eyes, "Then will you fall in love with someone else again? Like loving me , perhaps more than loving me?"

Lu Nian clenched her hands behind her back tightly, the pain from nails embedded in her flesh made her rational, looked at her, and said word by word, "Yes, a lifetime is so long."

Ji Qingwan turned her head away and wiped away her tears. It turned out that you will always love me and be with me forever, as I said so many times, it was all on your whim, right?

Ji Qingwan tried his best to make his voice sound normal, and said awkwardly, "That's good, I should be too."

The two sat here for more than ten minutes, neither of them said a word, one stubbornly wiped his tears with his body sideways, and the other lowered his head and endured it.

Outside, Xiao Ning started to call them, saying that the car had arrived, and told them not to get bored anymore, and get ready to leave.

Ji Qingwan found a pair of sunglasses and put them on, took the things of the two of them, and walked out from the front. Put a Band-Aid on the nail marks on his hands, hide them in his sleeves or pockets, and then get up and go out.

Just as Xiao Ning wanted to babble, he realized that Ji Qingwan had come out first by himself, and he was wearing sunglasses. Without saying a word, he asked, "Where's your little Lu Lu?"

Ji Qingwan didn't say a word, put his things on, and got into the car first.

Xiao Ning and Ji Qingxuan looked at each other in confusion, then Lu Nian came out by himself without saying a word, his face was cold, surrounded by eight feet of ice, got into the car and sat next to Ji Qingwan.

Ji Qingwan sat on the far left, and Lu Nian sat on the far right, without saying a word.

Ji Qingxuan and Xiao Ning in the back row didn't dare to breathe. Usually these two people are together like glue, they must hug each other. What's wrong today.

Ji Qingxuan whispered in a voice that only two people could hear, "Did you quarrel?"

"It seems so." Xiao Ning replied quietly.

On the way to the airport, the atmosphere in the car was extremely oppressive. Xiao Ning and Ji Qingxuan only dared to send WeChat messages to discuss what happened to them, but nothing was discussed. It was probably because of yesterday's incident that they disagreed.

When they arrived at the airport and boarded the business class, the two of them also went up and lay down without saying a word.

Usually, this is rarely the case, only when Lu Nian was angry, Ji Qingwan chased and yelled to coax and apologize, but this time both of them were very angry, it can be said that they didn't want to back down from their opinions, so no one said anything.

After getting off the plane, Xiao Fu came to pick Ji Qingwan and Lu Nian home, and his brother and sister-in-law had their own people to pick them up. When they parted, Ji Qingxuan was worried, and told him, "Be good, don't quarrel."

He didn't say a word, got in the car and went home. It has been more than three hours since he left Xi'an. Lu Nian knew that Ji Qingwan was very angry because he rarely held back for so long. But this matter really cannot be backed down, she must not admit it .

After returning home and setting things up, Ji Qingwan was the first to show weakness, and pulled Lu Nian onto the sofa, took her hand, and said in a low voice, "What's wrong with your hand?"

Even if she is angry, Ji Qingwan always pays attention to Lu Nian, this is her instinct.

"Accidentally got it." Lu Nian wanted to pull it back, but Ji Qingwan was so strong that she couldn't help it.

Ji Qingwan tore off the band-aid, saw the scar she had dug out by herself, went back to the room to get the medicine kit, disinfected and bandaged her, "Shouldn't you be stubborn, can you stop saying those things next time?"

Lu Nian didn't want to make her feel sad, but this kind of thinking can't be changed at all. Don't let Ji Qingwan feel that he is angry, and said seriously, "You have to do that, I didn't joke with you."

Ji Qingwan finished bandaging her, stared at her, and said, "Why don't I do that?"

Even if you let yourself die [-] times, Ji Qingwan swears that if you can't do the thing that you start messing around and end up abandoning, you will definitely take responsibility from the very beginning, and it has never changed. Will admit that he just likes Lu Nian.

"Then let's break up now, don't wait until that day."

Lu Nian thought it over, if Ji Qingwan insisted on admitting it, he wouldn't admit it himself, and just said that he had never been together. At most, Mr. Ji thought she was a little obsessed and forced, and could regard himself as a person who deceived him. The scum of the granddaughter's feelings is fine.

Ji Qingwan's emotions were completely uncontrollable because of Lu Nian's words that they should break up now. Tears flowed down immediately, and he grabbed her hand and refused to let go. Ji Qingwan didn't know how Lu Nian could say these words. The solution is to break up, or you will never see the light for a lifetime, and you never thought about working hard for a normal relationship.

Lu Nian shook her off, got up and was about to leave, Ji Qingwan held her tightly, with great strength, pulled her back and hugged her, Lu Nian couldn't move, Ji Qingwan cried and choked up, "You Break up if you want to break up? I don't agree, don't even think about leaving."

I can hold her now, but I can’t hold her forever. Lu Nian wants to talk, but Ji Qingwan won’t let her talk, "Listen to me first, okay?"

Ji Qingwan used an almost begging tone. He had never talked to anyone like this before in his life. While talking, he shed tears and his body was trembling constantly, but he still hugged her tightly and begged her, "The matter is still in danger. It's not that far, you trust me, I can still handle it, when the day comes, I promise you, I don't admit it, I will be separated from you temporarily, and we won't communicate, okay?"

"You stay by my side now, give me a chance, don't treat me like this, I love you very much, don't treat me like this, you want to break up now, I can't accept it, you can't break up with me."

Ji Qingwan hugged her, pushed her on the sofa, and cried on her shoulder, not knowing how to express his retention, he bit her neck while hugging her.

Lu Nian couldn't help crying, and she didn't want to force her like this, but Lu Nian didn't want her to give up her bright future for herself, "Okay, you promise me that you won't admit it, okay?"

"Yes, I don't admit it, I promise you, just like you said." Ji Qingwan first comforted Lu Nian with words, not to let her leave, and then think of other ways by himself, there will always be a solution, the car arrives at the mountain There must be a way ahead.

Lu Nian lay in her arms, wiped her tears, and kissed her gently, "Okay, I won't go."

Ji Qingwan carried Lu Nian to the bed in the bedroom, kissed her passionately, unbuttoned her clothes, passed over her snow-white neck, chest, and forearms, kissing and biting every corner of her body. All leave a mark.

"You can only be with me, you can't break up with me, and you can't like others, no." Every mark is like a strong man occupying his own fiefdom, marking something that belongs only to him.

Lu Nian's lower lip was bleeding from her bite, and there were dark red marks and obvious tooth marks all over his body. The pain of being bitten on his chest hit, Lu Nian couldn't hold back, and grabbed her arm , grunted.

Ji Qingwan didn't know where he lost his sanity, looked at her with dark brown eyes, touched her distressedly and said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I love you so much."

Her movements became gentle, the rough biting turned into a delicate kiss, and the kiss was very precious. Lu Nian didn't say anything, but just endured everything she did, and did it again and again without end , I could only hear her whispering intermittently, "Don't leave, don't leave."

Later, Lu Nian didn't know if he fainted, his memory was fragmented and he had no impression.

When she woke up again, it was dark outside and the lights in the room were warm yellow. Ji Qingwan was not at home. Lu Nian wanted to get up, but the pain in her waist and legs and her whole body made her unable to move. Lu Nian looked down. I looked under the quilt and cleaned everything up. The bloody tooth marks on my body were disinfected, and some medicine was applied to my lower lip. Some places, including the lower part, were also smeared with special ointment.

Lu Nian stretched out his hand and took the note on the bedside table, a line belonging to Ji Qingwan's majestic and powerful font,

"I'll go back to the old house and come back later, I think I can send a WeChat message, just wait for me at home."

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Ever since you and I fell in love, I always hope that lovers in the world will eventually get married