Assistant Lin Has Something To Say

"So, until now, you still haven't told him that you actually liked him for a long time?"

The end of the year is the busiest, but the young couple Luo Ting and Gu Wenli suddenly have more time. The main reason is that their daughter Doudou was taken back to her hometown by the old man in the family. Eat at home.

It is said to be eating, but it is actually torture.After all, the first time Luo Ting knew that Lin Hui and He Jianshan were really together, the voice of "Fuck" on the phone was so loud that it could pierce Lin Hui's eardrum.If not everyone was at work, he would have poured wine right away and put a pot of peanuts on it to listen to Lin Hui's talk for three days and three nights.So the mother on the front foot and her daughter had just passed the airport security check, and on the back foot, he quickly took out his mobile phone and WeChat Lin replied: [Speed, the meal is arranged, Lili and I are waiting for food, waiting for you]

Lin Hui: [...You two children are so old, can you be more reserved? 】

Luo Ting: [We middle-aged people don't need to be reserved, we need gossip that ignites the passion of life]

Lin Hui: […]

Just like that, Lin Hui came to the door for dinner, and explained to the two of them the process of confirming their relationship with He Jianshan.After a series of "ooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ?”

"Why should I tell?"

"Isn't this a great opportunity? The two of you have just established a relationship, and now you are deeply in love. He Jianshan couldn't help but be moved when you confessed your love?"

Lin Hui peeled the orange in his hand without saying a word.

After a while, he said: "I don't think it's necessary. Whether it's 3 years, 5 years or 8 years, my secret love is my own business, and it's all passed. It always feels strange to mention it now, as if to say 'you Look, I love you so much, don't you feel moved', I don't want to use this to kidnap him, just let it be."

Luo Ting was in a hurry: "How can this be called 'kidnapping'? And why is it so strange? I'm going to say you, hypocritical, you are hypocritical, you are smart in everything, you have to listen to me when it comes to falling in love. "

Luo Ting began to present the facts and reason: "Do you still remember the time when I gave Lili a birthday present? I made a handmade photo album and bound it with thread. It was very thick and labor-intensive. It took until 2 o'clock at night. I gave the gift At the time, he pretended to be very relaxed on the surface, but ah, let the boss secretly hint to Lili, saying how much I spent my time, how I stayed up all night, how I scratched my hands, and Lili was so moved—you are Take out this kind of scheming!"

"Don't talk nonsense." Gu Wenli on the side couldn't help knocking Luo Ting on the head, and pushed the washed red grapes in front of Lin Hui, "Lin Hui, don't listen to his nonsense, eat grapes."

"I'm talking nonsense, he's dating He Jianshan, it's not He Jian, it's not He Shan, it's He Jianshan!"

Gu Wenli shook her head and ignored Luo Ting, turned her head to look at Lin Hui and said, "Lin Hui, Luo Ting's words are not rough. Although you are together now, I always feel that sometimes you still think a little too much. You know What do you feel like?"

Luo Ting and Lin Hui looked at Gu Wenli together.

"When Luo Ting and I first started working, we often met at the central shopping mall. There was a big window next to the south gate of the shopping mall, which was given to LV. Every time I went there, I would stare at a LV handbag in the window. Look, I remember that I really liked it and wanted it very much, but I couldn't afford it. Later, Luo Ting saved up a few months' wages, bought that bag and gave it to me. "

"You know, the day I received that bag, I was really happy and crazy. It is no exaggeration to say that I took at least a hundred photos from all angles. I cherish that bag very much. I usually have to squeeze the bus and subway when I go to work. , I am not willing to carry it at all, unless there is some important event, I will take it out, and I even bought a matching skirt and shoes for it."

"In fact, it is just a bag. But because of its expensive price, in my heart, I can't treat it as an ordinary bag. Even, it rarely plays the basic role of a bag."

"I think He Jianshan is like this bag to you. He is a luxury in the window. You have thought about it for a long time and dreamed of having him, but when he really appeared in your arms, you found out that It’s too expensive, you can’t bear it, you can’t help but maintain it carefully, even if you don’t want to, you can’t control it at all.”

Lin Hui opened his mouth.

"Don't contradict me, Lin Hui." Gu Wenli sighed, "Even if you don't want to tell He Jianshan that you have liked him for a long time, I'm afraid you hope that one day when you separate, you can retain the last bit of dignity."

Luo Ting looked at Lin Hui in surprise: "No, you just talked?!"

Lin Hui put down the orange: "I haven't thought about the day we parted, but I really don't dare to think about it more. When you first fell in love, you will enjoy the future, thinking about which city to work and live in, and what to buy What kind of house, how to decorate, and even the name of the child. But we are different, not to mention that we are both past the age of dreaming, just because we are both men is enough to attract attention. When I was in a crush, I didn’t need to worry about anything, but when we were really together, I couldn’t ignore these things. He is different from me. There are too many people behind him, too many responsibilities, and too many things to bear. And I think it’s fine now.”

"What's more, you said that I regard him as a luxury, so why isn't he playing the role of a perfect lover?"

Luo Ting and Gu Wenli looked at each other.

"It's not right to say that he is a perfect lover. He can do everything to the best. However, perfection requires a lot of effort to maintain."

Luo Ting frowned: "Wait a minute, I don't understand, isn't a perfect lover bad? Are you too picky?"

Lin Hui smiled: "This is his personality. He can achieve 100 points, and he will never allow himself 99. He is used to it. It can be said that he strives for excellence at work, but love is not work. I don't want him to worry about it." After finishing work, I have to spend a lot of time thinking about love or me, I don’t want him to be so tired.”

"Have you asked him? Have you ever told him what you think?" Gu Wenli frowned, "I think in a sense, He Jianshan is also very insecure? He used to focus on work, will focus on you now?"

"When we fall in love, it is different from other people. If there are some steps missing, he always feels that I have been wronged a lot. Do you know what he said to me-"What others have, you should also have." I asked him Who are the others?" Lin Hui suddenly smiled, "He said they were people from TV dramas."

"However, the people in the TV series are neither Lin Hui nor He Jianshan. We are different from others. If I talk about the things I have a crush on, won't he feel indebted? I just don't want to do that. Not to mention, I don't want to turn love into his responsibility, or even become a burden in the end. If you think I'm hypocritical, then I'm hypocritical. Compared with loving me, I hope he will not be so harsh on himself, love himself, go Love the world."

If Lin Hui had to find out what attracted He Jianshan in the first place, it must be loneliness.

In this world, some people like animals, some love to collect cups, some are addicted to online games, some relieve stress through travel... Different people have different emotional needs, and everyone draws happiness and nutrients from various things.But He Jianshan didn't.He seems to have nothing but work.

Or rather, it seems not.

Countless days and nights, whenever he saw He Jianshan busy with work in any place, such a deep loneliness seemed like an abyss, which cut off from the whole world while strongly attracting Lin Hui, and approached him involuntarily.

Gu Wenli shook her head, disapproving: "Lin Hui, how can love be a burden? Have you ever thought that you are a part of this world, and loving you and loving the world are not contradictory. Love is not a one-man show, you are too independent , or you have really been his work partner for too long, and you have not completely transformed from this identity. You have to let him know that you need him and you don't need him, so that he will be burdened. I feel that you are also very interesting, you are eager to give each other the best love experience, but you ignore the essence."

Speaking of this, Gu Wenli suddenly laughed: "Speaking of which, people who are in love will affect each other. I think that his current behavior is actually very different from that He Jianshan you mentioned before. Because of you, He may be slowly changing."

Lin Hui was stunned when he heard this.

Luo Ting nodded again and again: "My wife is right. Come on, I'll leave the bad words here today. You don't have family pressure. You are not afraid of wearing shoes with bare feet. You are afraid of shit. Don't think about him all day long. How about Shan, think about yourself OK? Are you so sensible that you want to run for a pacesetter? Will the government give you an award? Do it, brother! Last time you told me where to buy delicious bread for Doudou, Tell He Jianshan to buy it for you! Buy the whole shop!"

Lin Hui couldn't laugh or cry: "Yes, yes, I know."

"Don't laugh. If you don't say anything else, come and meet me first. I'm your best friend in Jinghua. If you ask him out, just say that we want to invite you two to our house."

Lin didn't even think about rejecting it: "No."

"Why not? You didn't even ask him. Why, do you look down on us poor friends?" Gu Wenli pretended to be dissatisfied.

"You know I don't mean that."

"Yes, you just subconsciously feel that he is not suitable for such an occasion-this kind of daily and trivial gathering of friends, we are not familiar with him, and the things we usually come into contact with are not the same, it is likely to become very embarrassing , this is also a kind of tiredness."

Lin Hui was speechless by Gu Wenli's words, and he looked at Luo Ting helplessly: "Your wife shouldn't be teaching mathematics, she should be teaching psychology."

Luo Ting laughed loudly: "You are a fan of the authorities. I just like to see smart people like you acting stupid, hahahaha."

Lin Hui didn't know if he was a fan of the authorities.He also thought about telling He Jianshan the deep affection hidden in his heart during the interval between the two of them being intimate.But some things miss the best time, and it seems that it really becomes difficult to talk about.He Jianshan is very good, very good, he can do everything to the best, the more he is like this, the more Lin Hui worries, will the overly delicate and passionate love consume his enthusiasm all the time?The transition from subordinate to lover has led to subtle changes in each other's work and life. Will these changes make him feel hard?If one day, he feels tired and doesn't want to continue, how can he escape from such a love?

How can there be such a complicated thing as love in this world: desire, shame, longing; contradictions, worries, fears...there are too many accompanying products of love, just like sweet traps. At the same time, I can't help hanging my heart.

Back home at night, He Jianshan was working in the study.For the past two days, he has been living in Linjiajia's house, and now the study room has been completely requisitioned by him, and it is full of various documents.Originally, Lin Hui thought that it was not good to stick together every day, so he decided to let him go home.But He Jianshan remembered that he said that he was not used to being in love, and he insisted that they couldn't separate, and they had to spend more time together, and gradually got used to it.Does this make sense?Lin Hui didn't know, anyway, every time He Jianshan kissed him, he forgot everything.

In the past so many years, Lin Hui has always been a loner, and he never felt that there was anything wrong.But now, a lot of things that belonged to another person began to slowly accumulate in his home: clothes, watches, keys, he even picked up He Jianshan's tie on the carpet under the sofa; they used the same shower gel And shaving water, He Jianshan obviously doesn't like scented things, but now he is keen to choose various flavors; He Jianshan hugs him to sleep every day, then kisses him in the morning, and wakes him up...

It is easy to go from thrifty to extravagant, but difficult to go from extravagant to frugal. When he gets used to the temperature of another person, he will never go back to the past.He really loves He Jianshan so much, even though he still has many unspeakable worries in his heart, he can't stop him from yearning for and longing for the feeling of being loved by He Jianshan: such a passionate and straightforward love makes people Can't help but feel happy and happy.

Gu Wenli and Luo Ting were quite right. He couldn't always hold his love high. Love was not the moonlight above his head. It was enough to look at it from a distance.He already had him, and he wanted to have him forever.

Thinking of this, Lin Hui knocked on the door and walked in.As soon as He Jianshan saw him, he smiled and stretched out his hand, Lin Hui used to hold it and walked to his side.He glanced at the pile of contracts on the table, hesitated for a long time, and said:

"Do you...do you have time recently? It's my good friend from college, who lives in the same dormitory with me, and he is also in Jinghua, oh, he is married, and his wife is also very familiar with me, and he has a cute daughter Yes, it’s called Doudou; and recently his daughter is not here, so he’s free..." Lin Hui went around for a long time, and finally got to the point, "...want to invite us to visit his house..."

He Jianshan raised his eyebrows.

Before He Jianshan could speak, Lin Hui hurriedly added: "Oh, it's okay if you don't want to go, in fact, it's really busy at the end of the year, next time we—"

"I want to go."

Lin Hui paused.

He Jianshan showed a soft smile on his face: "I want to meet your friends with you."

"Cough...then when are you free, let me tell them?"

"Isn't all my time with you? You can arrange it."

"Okay." Lin Hui said and took out his mobile phone, "It's your first time to go, let me see if I should bring some gifts—"

He Jianshan took his mobile phone away: "No."

"what?"

He Jianshan was serious: "This is an invitation from my boyfriend's good friend. I have to prepare the gift myself, and I can't let my assistant do it for me."

Lin Hui held back his smile: "Mr. He, in case your boyfriend is not satisfied with the gift you picked..."

He Jianshan sighed: "That can only be compensated in other places."

"for example?"

"for example--"

He Jianshan pushed the document aside, then picked up Lin Hui and put it on the desk.Lin Hui lowered his head slightly, held He Jianshan's face in both hands, and exchanged a long kiss with him.When the two of them were out of breath, and their eyes were full of passion/desire, Lin Hui bit He Jianshan's ear and said softly:

"Mr. He, why don't you make it up first."

The author has something to say:

Love breeds fear.