I regret my wife's death

Just like in this bitterly cold winter, the plum branches full of flowers and buds, and the winter plums full of branches are competing to bloom in an instant.

The pink petals are not like the enthusiasm of bright red, but also not like the dullness of white.

For a moment, Tang Xu suddenly realized that a corner of his heart had loosened a little. This feeling was extremely strange, but it brought him infinite panic.

Zhu Xian's lips were warm, and the warm touch contained infinite enthusiasm.

As if in this silent night, he looked up to the sky and screamed. At that moment, in the dark night sky, a place suddenly shone with light, from one to two to three, and gradually countless stars dotted the sky. Under the stars, there are two people who are talking about their affection quietly but with a little hesitation.

The faint smell of tobacco permeated between the lips and teeth, Tang Xu didn't know whether it was Zhu Xian's or his own.

But what he knew was that this was the first time after returning to China, he found that he did not reject Zhu Xian's closeness as he imagined.

But when he realized this, a sense of disgust naturally arose in his heart.

That feeling made him sick.

When Zhu Xian's kiss was intense, suddenly, Tang Xu stretched out his hand, and pushed Zhu Xian away with a push.

He didn't have time to go to war with Zhu Xian, because at that moment, he immediately turned around and held onto the lamppost of the street lamp, then he lowered his head and vomited for no reason.

This feeling is like a reaction evoked from his cerebral cortex. Every time Zhu Xian comes into contact with him like this, he will naturally have a strong sense of resistance, but just at that moment, he clearly realizes that he is not When he didn't resist Zhu Xian as much as he imagined, his brain seemed to go numb, and he seemed to be stimulated by some kind of stimulation, and he felt a strong sense of disgust at Zhu Xian's intimate touch.

What the hell does this happen?

Zhu Xian never expected that Tang Xu would vomit.

He looked at Tang Xu's back, and the bitter ambiguity gradually crept into his heart.

Tang Xu...does he disgust him so much?

Obviously, for a moment just now, Zhu Xian clearly felt Tang Xu's compromise, but that feeling was only for a moment, but it all disappeared, and even made the result so tragic.

It was as if a hammer had hit his heart hard, intending to break his heart into pieces.

Tang Xu vomited for a while before stopping.

He turned around with an awkward look on his face.

Seeing his vomited face, pale face, and red eye circles, Zhu Xian, who was in a bad mood, suddenly laughed again.

"You're so cute."

He couldn't help but express his true thoughts.

Tang Xu's expression was slightly startled, his brows twitched, and he immediately said with displeasure: "Your tendon is wrong..."

But after this incident, the awkward atmosphere between the two of them eased a lot.

Suddenly, Zhu Xian suggested: "Why don't we go for a walk together?"

Tang Xu originally caught the evening flight, and when he came back, he was already feeling very tired, but after the episode just happened, he unexpectedly did not refuse.

"Well, let's go, after all, there will not be many days like this in the future."

Tang Xu admitted that if he and Zhu Xian hadn't had the past, maybe he would be quite happy to be friends with him.

However, he promised Zhu Xian to walk together, but it didn't mean that he and Zhu Xian had made progress in their relationship.

Tang Xu knew in his heart that in this life, anyone could be with him, but that person would definitely not be Zhu Xian, nor could it be Zhu Xian.

Although Tang Xu agreed to walk with him, Zhu Xian's heart sank.

Because Tang Xu said that such days will not be many in the future.

How much Zhu Xian hoped that Tang Xu could be kept, and how much he wished that Tang Xu would not leave.

But is he qualified to keep him?

Thinking back on everything he had done to him, Zhu Xian felt even more guilty.

This guilt has always been like a mountain pressing down on his heart, and I am afraid that this mountain will not be able to be removed in this life.

Tang Xu has a slender figure and looks taller, but Zhu Xian is taller. The two of them walked side by side in this dark night, and their shadows were reflected on the ground. Convergence often occurs.

But it was just a shadow after all.

The scene of the shadow does not represent the state of the two of them at this moment.

"I lost the lawsuit against Director Cen who made me sad, and he was fined a huge sum of money, and even went to jail. Didn't you meddle in his affairs?"

Zhu Xian gave a soft "um" and said: "Then do you know that he was beaten before going to court, and he was directly sent to the hospital."

Zhu Xian casually told the truth.

Tang Xu's expression was stunned.

"Director Cen was beaten? How did you know?"

Although Tang Xu asked this question, he remembered something, and immediately said: "That's right, I heard that Director Cen is your uncle, so you naturally know more about him."

But there was a look of disdain on Zhu Xian's face.

"I hit it."

He answered concisely, but Tang Xu's steps faltered.

He looked at Zhu Xian in surprise, "You hit? You hit your own uncle?"

Zhu Xian turned his face slightly, with a faint smile in his eyes.

"Why, don't you believe that I will beat my own uncle?"

Tang Xu naturally didn't believe it, it was too outrageous.

Something happened to my uncle. Not only did he not help, but he even added fuel to the fire?

Although Tang Xu knew that Zhu Xian was not close to his mother, after all, they were his relatives who were related by blood. No matter how weak the relationship was, how could Zhu Xian turn a blind eye when encountering major events?

However, Tang Xu was wrong. It should be said that he forgot how cold-hearted Zhu Xian was once.

Zhu Xian is only gentle to those he recognizes, but he is absolutely ruthless and indifferent to those he denies.

Once, when he was Yu Xiao, he had already experienced it. He should know Zhu Xian best, but it was about Zhu Xian's mother, but Tang Xu misunderstood it.

"I really don't believe it."

Tang Xu replied lightly.

However, he saw Zhu Xian looked at him very seriously and said, "Yu Xiao, he made things difficult for you. Even if he is my own uncle, I don't have to show him any affection."

He had already seen through the dirty and disgusting faces of Cen Manni and Cen Liguo.

Originally, when they found him, Zhu Xian was disgusted, so he could just take the money and settle the matter, but Yu Xiao was his bottom line, the most important weakness in his heart, whoever dared to move, even if it was Cen Manni herself. Yes, he will never be soft.

Tang Xu had never heard of what Zhu Xian did after Cen Liguo's accident before, but he thought independently that Zhu Xian might have already helped Cen Liguo, but Cen Liguo's behavior was indeed too outrageous to end up like this .

But now, Tang Xu heard for the first time that Zhu Xian had actually done these things.

Suddenly, Zhu Xian laughed and said: "Not every uncle can value family affection like Tang Jiazhen. You have been back for so long, so you have no plan to recognize your uncle?"

Hearing Zhu Xian mention Tang Jiazhen suddenly, Tang Xu's eyes darkened slightly, his heart seemed to be blocked by something, and he spoke sourly.

harm.

He was silent for a long time, then Fang said again: "So what if we recognize each other? Uncle has long believed that I am no longer in this world, and besides, I will leave here soon. Five years have passed, and I don't want to bother you anymore." He, I don't want him to worry about me so much anymore."

Although Tang Xu said so, a sense of guilt and powerlessness crossed his heart.

If my uncle knew that he was still alive, he would be ecstatic, but what about after the ecstasy?

Since I can't accompany my uncle to fulfill my filial piety, it's better not to let him know.

After all, Tang Xu couldn't even see what his future self would be like.

After going round and round, the two finally walked back to Tang Xu's house.

Tang Xu stood at the door of his house, and at this moment his mood returned to calm.

He stared ahead, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth.

"I haven't talked so much with anyone for a long time, thank you tonight!"

His tone was very calm, and his face looked extremely gentle.

But Zhu Xian was a little surprised and said: "You have become more polite to me, this is not quite like you!"

However, Tang Xu suddenly reached out to Zhu Xian's shoulder and patted it lightly.

"In fact, if we are just strangers, maybe we can be good friends, of course, the premise is that you don't touch me anymore

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Hearing these words suddenly, Zhu Xian's expression froze.

He didn't want to be friends with him, he just wanted to touch him, but he didn't want him to vomit again.

The previous scene of Tang Xu vomiting suddenly flashed in his mind, and Zhu Xian's heart sank slightly.

In the end, there was still no going back between them.

Zhu Xian had already avoided thinking about it, but he couldn't help thinking about it again, and his heart ached.

Tang Xu was by his side at the moment, and he stared at him quietly, clamoring in his heart that no matter what method or method he used, he should be kept by his side and never let him leave him.

However, Zhu Xian couldn't.

He clearly knew that if he used force against Tang Xu, he would only get one result, which was Tang Xu's greatest dislike and hatred for him.

He tried his best to restrain his restless heart.

Tang Xu's calm voice came from next to his ear, "I'm going home first."

After finishing speaking, Tang Xu was going to open the door, but for a moment, Zhu Xian stretched out his hand and grabbed Tang Xu's wrist forcefully, and then he pulled him into his arms.

He hugged him tightly in his arms, his hot heart was beating violently, and his lips were now close to Tang Xu's ears, Tang Xu could clearly feel the breath coming from his mouth out of the heat.

"Zhu Xian, don't go too far."

Tang Xu just wanted to bid farewell to Zhu Xian quietly, he didn't want Zhu Xian to appear in his world again.

"I don't mean anything else, I just want to hug you again."

His tone was long and gentle, as if expressing his greatest regret and sadness at the moment.