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"Cousin, do you understand depression?"

Jing Xi's simple question left Lin Xing speechless.

Does he understand depression?Maybe understand.They've been together for a while after all.

He feels that Shen Yu doesn't have much interest in anything, that Shen Yu likes to be alone, and that Shen Yu naturally hates excitement.

Beyond that, he didn't seem to know much anymore.

It seems that from the beginning to the end, I kept telling my own story to Shen Yu.

He never asked about his gloomy past.Shen Yu didn't take the initiative to tell him.

In fact, he only knows a little about depression.

At first, he was attracted by the gloomy and cold temperament, and then slowly getting close to him moved his heart a little bit. After being together, he became more self-righteous and thought that he had found the direction of life.

At that time, his love for Depression could leave everything behind, he didn't care about Depression's past, he just wanted to see Depression's future with himself.

The current self can't turn a blind eye to his past, but suddenly finds that he knows very little about the gloomy past.

"Cousin, you can't generalize, you should understand depression."

Jing Xi's words echoed in Lin Xing's ears all the time. Holding the mobile phone in his hand, he struggled to make a call to Shen Yu.

The phone "didi" several times, but no one answered.

Thinking that the depressive illness has not been completely cured, Lin Xing muttered restlessly: "It's not reassuring every time."

Jing Xi saw his irritability, and smiled helplessly, "Cousin, you can't let him go."

Lin Xing was silent for a while, "Xixi, so I did make a mistake."

He returned to Shen's house again, this time the security did not stop him, but greeted him with a smile, "Please come in quickly."

Lin Xing found Shen Yu in the innermost room on the second floor. When he found him, Shen Yu was curled up in a corner and nestled in a corner, like a small animal abandoned by someone.

Lin Xing looked worried for a while, feeling so uncomfortable that he couldn't help himself, he walked lightly to Shen Yu's side, and comforted Shen Yu with a gentle voice that he couldn't think of, "Shen Yu, I'm back."

Shen Yu didn't open his eyes, he frowned calmly, and shrank a little further into the corner.

He only knows that his little toffee doesn't want him anymore, and their love has a shelf life.

Lin Xing squatted down. He put his arms on both sides of Shen Yu's shoulders, and they were tightly wrapped around each other. He said softly, "Shen Yu, open your eyes."

The gloomy eyes are gradually focusing, and there is obvious confusion in his eyes, "Little toffee?"

"Well, I'm here."

Lin Xing's firm and forceful answer calmed his gloomy and floating heart at once.

He stroked Lin Xing's cheek lightly, from eyebrows to eyes to lips, he was so careful that it made people feel distressed.

"Depression, I want to know about your past."

Lin Xing's legs were numb from squatting, but he didn't get up, he still hugged Shen Yu motionlessly, coaxing him like a child.

He asked gloomyly and tentatively, "Can I not leave after I told you?"

Lin Xing didn't hesitate any longer, he met the gloomy gaze for a moment, and said in a low voice, "Okay."

There was a slight arc in Shen Yu, and he smiled softly a few times, his peach blossom eyes are very seductive.

"Toffee, I'm a real freak."

Lin Xing trembled, and the inexplicable word he heard from the nanny came out of his gloomy mouth.

The gloomy and indifferent expression pricked his heart deeply.

He involuntarily tightened the arms around Shen Yu's body, as if he was afraid of something.

"Before I was five years old, my mother didn't notice my abnormality, and she was kind to me. After I was five years old, she gradually realized that I didn't like to talk to anyone, and no one would care."

"My dad always quarreled with her, and she would complain to me, and let me find ways to attract my dad's attention. I was indifferent. She thought I was an unfamiliar white-eyed wolf, so she simply waved her hands and let me fend for myself. off."

Sullen, calm and scary, he was obviously talking about his childhood, but he acted like a normal person.

"Occasionally she'd come home and come up to my room smelling of booze and make a big fuss. She'd often smash the presents my dad gave me and ask me 'why the freak'."

Shen Yu finally regained his emotions. He said softly, "In the three years from the age of nine to 11, she seemed to disappear out of thin air. My world finally stopped being noisy."

"It turned out that she was arrested and imprisoned for causing death in a hit-and-run."

Shen Yu moved her fingers twice, "No wonder the reason for the conflict between the Shen family and the Jing family is a secret, how could the Shen family announce such a big scandal to the public."

He touched Lin Xing's face with trembling fingers, and said guiltily: "Little Toffee, I'm sorry. It was I who made you lose your childhood for several years. It was also I who made you live a bad life for more than ten years."

He seemed to be afraid that Lin Xing would misunderstand, so he quickly hid his fingers behind his back and said in a mournful voice, "Don't worry, I won't be obsessed with it. I have made you suffer so much, I have no right to want to be with you anymore."

Lin Xing had never felt such despair, he wished he could beat himself up.

Shen Yu has been hated by his mother for so many years, and he actually cruelly asked him to bear all the crimes for his rotten mother.

What does he have to do with his mother?

He is him, his mother is his mother.

Depression is always depression, not anyone.

He doesn't need to pay for anyone's crimes to him, and he doesn't need to hide his secret love in fear.

Lin Xing walked out of his dead end, and he walked on a bright road that Depression had pointed out to him early in the morning.

It dawned on him.

He loves depression, and depression loves him too.

Grandma's death had nothing to do with Shen Yu, he just couldn't escape the blood relationship like himself.

He shouldn't impose the grievances of his elders on himself and Shen Yu.He's not a great man, he's a stupid hopelessly paranoid.

He blindly felt that he was capable of solving it, and blindly felt that only he and Shen Yu could settle the grudge between grandma and Shen Yu's mother.

But he was dead wrong.

He is not omnipotent, on the contrary, he is omnipotent.

He and Shen Yu stand in opposing positions, but they have a bridge to each other in their hearts.

Whether he wants to or not, Shen Yu will come to him, hold his hand, kiss his lips, and tell him that he will always love him.

Lin Xing could no longer suppress his feelings. He kissed Shen Yu's cold lips without hesitation. Seeing Shen Yu's shocked expression, he whispered to him: "Shen Yu, I love you."

He thought that leaving depression was the first step into the abyss.

The light of the sky is still the light of the sky, it will neither be bright nor dark forever.

His love will finally break the shackles, and his so-called natural moat is just a thoroughfare.

Lin Xing looked at the gloomy and bewildered eyes, and finally said what he wanted to say.

"Shen Yu, if it were you, I would be willing to make mistakes again and again."