I have nothing to do

81.

Yan Yu has been hesitant to come see Jian Ce.

If it was the past, he might be too excited to sleep, but now, although he can't sleep, it is no longer because he is full of longing for going to have dinner with Jian Ce.

He just suddenly felt out of place.

After he knew that Weng Chi also likes Jian Ce, he has been a little uncomfortable, and his heart is sour. He has always had low self-esteem when facing Jian Ce, and he should be even more inferior when facing Weng Chi.

But that feeling doesn't feel like inferiority complex, but another kind of feeling that he can't explain clearly.

It's sore and a little painful. It's stuck in my chest. I can't go up or down.

What is it?

Yan Yu lay on the bed and recalled that not long ago, he and Jian Ce went for a walk around the mountains. Even though it was snowing that day, he and Jian Ce didn't speak a few words, and he was still very happy.

Why were you happy then?

Because that is the person I like, even if I don't speak, even if there is no intersection, I still like the person.

With the person you like, no matter what, you will be happy, right?

Then why do you like him.

Because he is handsome, very popular, and has a bright smile, and he also helps his little self who is in trouble.

Because, because... In order to like him, I paid a painful price. If I don't continue to like him, then what are those unilateral sacrifices and unilateral sufferings before...

Obviously I can meet Jian Ce soon, why, why is it only a few days later, I am not so happy.

The appointed time is getting closer and closer, Yan Yu is still sitting on the sofa clutching his phone, hesitating whether to send Jian Ce a message saying that he is not going, he is inexplicably flustered, he will think of Weng Chi, think of Weng Chi and ask him Jian Ce with a smile How about it, Weng Chi said that he wanted to pursue Jian Ce.

Weng Chi hugged him and said, "It's okay, it's really okay, I'm here."

The place where Jian Ce made an appointment was far away from where Yan Yu lived, Yan Yu decided to go at the last moment, he thought maybe if he saw Jian Ce, the happiness would come back, and he would still be like the past For so many years, she has been silently paying attention to him, silently liking him.

Secret love is the thing he insisted on the longest, and it is also the best thing he does.

Secret love made him less lonely in the long dark night, and secret love made him less regretful in a foreign city.

Secret love, just a secret love, as long as it is a secret love, the requirements for facial expressions are not high, not high at all.

But the moment he sat opposite Jian Ce, he doubted and wavered.

He was not happy or joyful, as usual, he and Jian Ce had nothing to say, he used to think that as long as he was by his side, he would be happy even watching from a distance, but now, sitting opposite Jian Ce, Jian Ce chatted with him sentence after sentence, but he didn't feel anything.

Until Jian Ce asked him how Weng Chi was.

Just like when Weng Chi asked him how Jian Ce was.

That feeling came again, sour, my whole heart was sour, even the top of my heart.

Why do you have to ask him?

He is so sad.

Yan Yu really wanted to escape, he felt that he was useless, useless at all.

But Weng Chi told him that he said you are very useful, really useful.

Maybe his answer was not the answer Jian Ce wanted, Jian Ce didn't talk much, the two of them ate in silence, but they could say a few words about the dishes.

It was getting late, and they had eaten almost the same, Yan Yu thought about going to buy the bill by himself to ease the embarrassment of the meal.

Thinking of this, Yan Yu made an excuse to go to the toilet. When he left his seat, he was relieved that the dinner was finally coming to an end.

The phone in his pocket buzzed, Yan Yu took it out and looked down while walking.

When he bumped into someone, Yan Yu didn't even look up, he just said sorry, he didn't look the way.

"Yan Yu, why are you here?"

Yan Yu raised his head and saw Weng Chi looking at him.

"I eat."

"...I know, you definitely didn't come here to run."

"I have dinner with my classmates, it's... Jian Ce."

Yan Yu's heart beat suddenly, and anxiety began to spread.

"Hey, is the second child your friend?"

The person who walked in front of Weng Chi came back again. He was very thin, tall, and his skin was very white, so white that there was no color at all.

"Ah, my friend." Weng Chi said vaguely, "You go first, I will come right away."

"Don't worry, since I'm your friend, I should say hello too."

He squinted his eyes and smiled, and slightly nodded at Yan Yu: "My name is Mingze."

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1. This chapter is short, but I want to stop here.

2. The writing is a bit selfish, and I was quite sad when I wrote it. I guess it will look a little messy.

3. Sometimes "like" is actually a belief.

4. But dislike is also a momentary thing.