Me and I fell across the door

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The wind in June is warm, but the starry sky in June is bright.

"What's the matter?" Tang Mu hooked back her wind-blown hair and pinned it behind her ears. She looked sideways at Jin Xi. This should be the first time Jin Xi invited her.

The staggered cans under the starry sky seem to be the friendship of young and frivolous.

Jin Xi took another big sip, "It's nothing, I just want to drink." Jin Xi can be alone, but she doesn't want to be alone.

Jinxi thought, as if the whole world had abandoned her.

"Speaking of which, this is the first time you have invited me." Tang Mu narrowed his eyes slightly and took a sip of beer.On such a night, it seems that people want to say something, "In the past two years, you and the people in the dormitory have been lukewarm." And Tang Mu and Jinxi are far from what the outside rumors say, they are like sisters, only However, there are very few people of the same sex around Jin Xi, so Tang Mu has always been considered as Jin Xi's "friend in the boudoir". If Tang Mu said it himself, the two of them are probably on the level of "plastic sisters".

"..." Jinxi looked meaningfully at the beautiful woman beside her, "Aren't you the same?" Is Tang Mu any better than her?Tang Mu is good to everyone, in other words, Tang Mu actually doesn't like anyone, and whoever is in front of her is the same to her. "Besides, I can't get along with them." Jinxi never thought of making the relationship in the dormitory deadlocked, neither needing to be familiar with nor alienating deliberately, but Jinxi also didn't expect that a roommate had a crush on Gao Yu...

"Haha, yes. It's a bit hard for you, Jin Dayuanhua." Tang Mu understands that there are too many girls in the college who regard Jin Xi as an imaginary enemy. They don't like Jin Xi, so why would Jin Xi like them.

"Don't laugh at me." Jin Xi knew that Tang Mu was a smart person, and Jin Xi was willing to make friends with smart people.

"What's going on today?" Tang Mu wasn't there, he heard it from other people, but Tang Mu couldn't figure out why Jinxi would "high-profile" announce that he was with Gao Yu, "I remember you said that you didn't like Gao Yu Yu, why did you have such an affair with him in public today?" Did Xue Ren go away just out of anger?

"..." Jinxi didn't expect Tang Mu to have a skeptical attitude, obviously in the eyes of others, it was more "natural" for her and Gao Yu to be together.

"Hey, don't be so surprised. If you like Gao Yu, the two have already been together." Although Tang Mu and Jin Xi are not real "girlfriends", they have always known each other for two years, "Besides, Gao Yu Yu looks like..." It's not a slap in the face.

Jinxi sighed, "He and I, we each get what we need."

"Really." Tang Mu clicked to the end and stopped asking.

After one can of beer was finished, Jinxi picked up another can, "gurgling" half of the can went down, but Jinxi's consciousness became more and more lucid.

Tang Mu watched Jinxi's state silently. Jinxi was very strange tonight, as if she was sad?For Xue Ren?Tang Mu felt that it was impossible, could it be... "Jinxi..."

"Ok?"

"Ren Qiaoan." For some reason, Tang Mu searched for this name in his mind.

"..." Jinxi's hands paused.

"You two?" Tang Mu tried to ask,

Jin Xi immediately denied, "We are fine."

"..." Tang Mu didn't expect to succeed with a single trick, "Puff hahaha, I'll just ask."

"..." Jin Xi's black line, she was caught.

After laughing, Tang Mu continued, "If I remember correctly, you seem to have asked me several times recently, all for one person." What about mountain climbing, Penguin, photos, when did you see Jinxi care about these things? , and all these things are for a girl... Haha, if Tang Mu can't see anything, then she's probably stupid.

"How can..." Jin Xi, who was poked at the center, turned her head awkwardly, avoiding Tang Mu's scrutinizing eyes.

Pfft... The "invincible" Jinxi is actually shy. Tang Mu has always felt that these two people are weird.

"Jinxi, you don't like people, do you?"

"…No!"

What's the matter with this shy and unashamed denial... Tang Mu's joke, did she really hit the mark?Nope.No way!

But Jin Xi's reaction, turning her head, her ears blushing, and she didn't even look at her to deny it, didn't they all acquiesce to Tang Mu's words!

Tang Mu never expected that Jinxi cared about this kind of thing.

"Then... are you still with Gao Yu?" According to common sense, shouldn't you be with Ren Qiaoan? In this way, Tang Mu doesn't seem to find it strange that Jinxi and Ren Qiaoan announce that they are together one day.

Jin Xi regained her composure and asked Tang Mu, "Isn't that the kind of person I am?"

That's right, Jinxi, you are such a woman, wouldn't it be good to let her see everything clearly, then she will be completely disappointed in you...

Are you disappointed, Jinxi herself is disappointed in herself...

"..." What Tang Mu appreciates most about Jin Xi is that he never cares about other people's opinions.Otherwise, with Jinxi's ability, it would not be difficult for some girls to like her.For a long time, Tang Mu thought that Jin Xi was not in the eyes of the unexpected world at all, so he always went his own way. "What kind of person you are, only you can judge. Jinxi, when did you care about other people's eyes?"

Tang Mu's words made Jinxi unable to refute, but...Tang Mu didn't understand, she..."Anyway, I can't like her." After finishing speaking, Jinxi lowered her head and kicked the soda can next to her.

Jinxi couldn't like Ren Qiaoyan.

Can't like it.

"...You will push people away like this." Tang Mu couldn't understand.

"Push it far away, push it far away." The rolling soda can hit the wall and rolled back, Jinxi stomped it flat, "It's better to stay far away."

Tang Mu discovered for the first time that there is still an awkward side in Jin Xi's character, and... is she cute? "How come you are like an awkward brat." Those who hate him insist on pretending that they don't care, but those who like him have to push away.According to this logic, Tang Mu suddenly understood who Jinxi's actions were for today.

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Jinxi couldn't like Ren Qiaoyan.

Can't like it.

Since childhood, Jinxi has understood a truth.Love is heartache.

Four-year-old Jinxi didn't understand the meaning of divorce. She only knew that they had moved, from the city to the countryside.Since then, the family has more grandfathers and less father.His father was always on business trips, so he was ignorant of the young Jinxi, so he could only look forward to the day by the window every night, looking forward to the day when his father would come back.

Father's smile is very warm, like sunshine in winter.

Every time, the father who comes back will bring the most beautiful gift, so in the kindergarten [in the whole village], Jin Xi is always the most beautiful child.At that time, Jinxi always thought that her father loved her very much, because her father always said, "Look, my little princess, how beautiful she is!"

Before the age of seven, Jinxi still enjoyed the meticulous care of her mother.Until one day, the mother said she wanted to go back, she could no longer accept the life in the country.

Jinxi doesn't understand, where does mother want to go back?Hasn't their home been here all along?

The young Jinxi wept bitterly in her mother's arms, begging her to take her away with her, but her mother still left without looking back, and went to her so-called big city alone.

Nine-year-old Jinxi already understood something ignorantly.But she still looks forward to seeing her parents come home, even if they no longer appear at the same time.

Later, one day, the father came to see Jin Xi with a little one in his arms, and told Jin Xi that this was her younger brother.

Jinxi is no longer the young Jinxi.

It was only then that Jinxi realized that the smile on his father's face when he looked at his younger brother was love, and what he did to her was nothing more than charity.

From then on, the more things her father gave, the more clearly Jinxi felt that her father didn't love her.

Later, Jin Xi had a younger sister.

Jinxi understands that her mother's love is gone.

Gradually, it seemed that everyone's life was getting better and better. They sent more and more living expenses to their grandfather, and Jinxi's material conditions have always been the best among her peers.However, Jinxi understands that the more material they give, the further the distance between them will be.They just wanted to push their former daughter away.

Gradually, Jinxi stopped begging and fantasized.Jin Xi has cried and tried to persuade her to stay, but the world is like this, the more Jin Xi thinks about it, the less she can get it, the more Jin Xi likes it, the more disappointed she is.That being the case, it may be best not to love, not to look forward to.

When Jinxi grew up, she learned to pretend and not to like her.

After all, if she couldn't even trust her parents' love, what else could she trust.